The thought that a severed connection couldn’t be restored was now also forced. He was already aware of him.
Setting aside ideologies that had gradually faded and finally evaporated, Seo-an simply faced Hae-won’s feelings of wanting to reconnect as they were.
“You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, but.”
“…Yeah.”
“From hyung’s perspective, I guess it’s like I unilaterally cut off contact… I’m sorry for misunderstanding. I also think it wouldn’t have been this bad if I’d received contact earlier and asked about the situation.”
Unlike himself, to Hae-won who even added self-reflection to his apology, Seo-an had nothing else to say.
Seo-an looked at Hae-won with a somewhat lighter expression.
“Yeah, I should have tried contacting you one more time too.”
“Can I take that as you saying you regretted it?”
“……”
“When it’s like this, you clam right up again.”
“Just go…”
“I don’t want to.”
“……”
“I told you, didn’t I? I don’t know any reason to hold back.”
With those words, Hae-won gently grasped Seo-an’s chin. Should he attach elaborate reasons to being held still when he could have easily pushed him away?
Seo-an stepped into Hae-won’s boldness as he steadily closed the distance despite the flood of past memories they’d reunited with.
He didn’t avoid Hae-won’s face slowly approaching.
It was the moment their lips overlapped.
Seo-an didn’t know how to push away Hae-won who approached without hesitation. To be precise, even if he knew, he wouldn’t have done so.
Even though their lips collided suddenly, he simply became absorbed in the tongue that dug into his mouth familiarly and just mixed his tongue along with it.
“Hup….”
Hot breath burst out. At the same time, Hae-won, who pushed his hand into Seo-an’s clothes, naturally groped his body. Did they even do this much when they were young? Thinking about it, he couldn’t remember clearly. Nevertheless, the fact that this kind of act felt not bad must be because this too was familiar.
Hae-won’s thick tongue affectionately ravaged Seo-an’s narrow mouth. Seo-an narrowed his brows feeling the forgotten sensations come alive. The underside of his teeth tickled, making his legs want to twist tightly together. He put strength in his toes, deliberately regulated his breathing, and mixed his tongue following what Hae-won was doing.
“Hng, ah… ung.”
At some point, Seo-an’s expression contorted.
It was because Hae-won, who had been caressing his body, brushed against his hardened nipple while fondling Seo-an’s firm chest. Seo-an, who flinched in surprise, caught his breath for a moment while looking at Hae-won’s face.
He said he moved his tongue skillfully, but his face had also reddened from lack of breath. The red lips glistening with mixed saliva, and the blush that shyly rose on his already pretty face entered his eyes in turn.
Seo-an unknowingly stroked Hae-won’s face. His mind covered in pleasure was just blank, and even in the midst of that, his heart pounded rapidly.
He didn’t know what the cause of that pounding was. It could be from lack of breath, it could be tension rushing in from a kiss after a long time, or it might be the feelings he’d been talking about repeatedly… but that he’d been holding onto alone, still unresolved, coming back to life.
Is this okay?
Reason returned for a moment, but even that disappeared, buried in the lips that met again. Seo-an was busy being helplessly toyed with by Hae-won’s touch that came over him without giving him time to come to his senses. Since breathing was difficult, naturally he had no time to think about anything else.
Before he knew it, his T-shirt had rolled up, and the lips that had been touching began to descend down his cheek and nape. Seo-an, who let out a pleasant exclamation while vibrating his vocal cords lowly, had no choice but to feel the heat rising throughout his body.
When Hae-won’s hand, which had been slowly ravaging his body, touched his buckle.
“Haa….”
Seo-an looked at Hae-won while making a hazy breathing sound.
His body had already fallen toward the sofa, and Hae-won was positioned between Seo-an’s legs.
Hae-won looked down at him with eyes no less hazy than his own, seeming to have lost his reason, seeming to be wholly focused on the current act.
Between sharply colliding gazes, saliva gulped down. The burning sensation as if his mouth was parching was telling him not to think about anything else and just focus on the present. Was the imminent situation referring to now?
Hae-won was blatantly revealing his desire while putting his hand into his pants with a careful touch and caressing over the already heated, stiff member. A faint reason resided in his head. However, his body craved greater stimulation and was desperate.
Just when he was thinking about just closing his eyes tightly and pretending not to know, going along with it.
Bzzzz-.
The phone placed on the table rang. The other noise that suddenly intervened felt distant at first, but it rang several more times in succession, soon awakening both people’s consciousness. Seo-an hurriedly pushed Hae-won’s shoulder away.
“Wait, just a sec….”
The futility as if the connection was abruptly cut was brief. At the saved name [Daycare] showing on the screen, Seo-an snapped to attention and pressed the answer button.
“Hello?”
While answering the phone, he glanced back at Hae-won and saw him adjusting his posture fussily with a sullen expression. He sat blankly, downed his beer, and finally even let out a deep sigh.
—Daddy!
But hearing Ji-yu’s voice coming from the other end, wouldn’t anyone who’s not a beast come to their senses with a jolt?
“Yeah, Ji-yu-ya.”
Seo-an could only smile awkwardly. As if there was nothing to be done if the other party was Ji-yu, Hae-won also reluctantly nodded.
—Daddy, I, um, rode the sled ten times two times today!
“You rode the sled twelve times?”
—No, ten times two times!
“Ten times two times…?”
What does this mean?
No matter how much he stayed close to the child, he couldn’t understand all of the child’s language, so when he tilted his head, Hae-won interpreted it for him in a sulky voice.
“She’s saying twenty times.”
—And….
His expression was better than before, but anyway, rather than being concerned about Hae-won’s mood which didn’t look good, he wondered just how old his mental age was. How does he understand so well what the kid is saying?
“Ah, ah. Twenty times?”
—I don’t know, I rode ten times two times.
“Weren’t you cold? How’s your runny nose?”
Seo-an asked while still keeping his gaze on Hae-won.
From beyond the receiver, the excited child’s chattering voice didn’t stop. Seeing her babbling pleasantly, today must have been very enjoyable for the child.
Seo-an made a happy expression, forgetting what he’d just been doing with Hae-won. Yeah, this is happiness, why would I need to look for anything else? He couldn’t ignore the thought that fleetingly crossed his mind.
Recently, the company had been particularly busy, so he couldn’t even take the child around. Others were busy going out to play together on weekends and holidays. Due to the nature of his work, emergency shifts were frequent, and when pressed by deadlines, holidays and weekends were as if they didn’t exist for him.
So he often felt sorry, and even though the child said it was okay nonchalantly, going out to play far away seemed to be a great joy after all.
Seo-an, who had been on the phone for a while, suddenly became aware of Hae-won’s presence again at the sound of throat clearing. The aroused member had subsided, and the tingling sensation had disappeared as if washed away. As if what happened earlier hadn’t happened at all, the euphoria that disappeared without a trace wasn’t even embarrassing.
Even in the midst of that, feeling his lips were swollen, Seo-an unknowingly touched his lips. And as if knowing that, he heard a voice calling him from beyond the receiver.
—Daddy!
“Hm?”
—What did you do with Hae-won samchon? Did you play fun?
“Ah, with samchon….”
—Mm-hm, is samchon next to you? Ji-yu wants to talk with samchon.
Hearing Ji-yu’s nasally congested voice, Seo-an, who had been observing Hae-won for a moment, finally replied “yeah” and handed the phone to Hae-won.
Did he naturally know his turn would come too? Hae-won took the call without any other response and shamelessly said “Ji-yu-ya, did you miss samchon?” as if nothing had happened.
During that time, Seo-an straightened his clothes. He pulled up the zipper that had been pulled down by Hae-won’s hand and fastened the buckle. After that, he also properly pulled down his T-shirt again. While brushing off the hem, he even unknowingly let out a deep breath.
Really just a moment.
When did he think distance was meaningless, to be swept up so quickly just because they talked a bit about things from just a few years ago?
That said, the tingling sensation didn’t disappear either, and he didn’t want to ignore it, so his head became a bit complicated.
When Hae-won caressed his body, Seo-an liked that touch without room for excuse. The kiss after a long time made his head tingle, and he even moaned unknowingly while making sounds in his throat.
If the call hadn’t come, perhaps they would have properly crossed the line.
“……”
Will it be okay going forward?
When such a thought crossed his mind, Hae-won, who had finished the call, put down the phone on the table.
