Well, I wouldn’t trust someone either who talked about patience and self-control one moment, then shamelessly changed their tune claiming not to know that person. But the intent Kkotmoa spoke of wasn’t that. He was conscious of our bodies touching. I already had my impossibly heavy lower half pressed against his body. The moment I became conscious of it, the suggestiveness I’d been trying to ignore spread throughout my entire body. At the same time, I could feel that there was no physical change from Kkotmoa whatsoever.
“By any chance… do you not like it?”
“No, it’s not that…”
“Then.”
“I’m just, a bit unfamiliar and awkward with it.”
“It’s okay to be unfamiliar and awkward, but it feels good. We’ve kissed before, haven’t we.”
What might truly be unfamiliar and awkward was something else entirely, but saying such things over just a kiss was both innocent and cute. But then again, if it’s Kkotmoa, it strangely makes sense. How difficult it had been for my childhood self, believing that Kkotmoa wouldn’t even masturbate, struggling and agonizing while imagining what he might look like if he did.
“Back then… honestly it was so sudden that I was scared and surprised too…”
Come to think of it, back then I had pounced on him one-sidedly, so it made sense. And on top of that, didn’t I even ghost him? Even recalling it now, it was a heart-wrenching memory. Just for what I did back then, I was a sinner who should serve Kkotmoa for the rest of my life.
“I’m sorry. I won’t ever do something like that again without asking your opinion. Even now, I’m waiting like this, asking for your permission.”
Kkotmoa, who had been staring at me for a moment with his flushed red face, slowly closed his eyes. His long eyelashes settling down neatly meant permission. Even though I’d begged to kiss him, now that it was actually okay to do it, my heart pounded hard enough to burst. If just a kiss made me like this, the road ahead was full of steep mountains.
“I like you…”
Hoping that no matter how many kisses we share, later times would be just as fluttering and heart-pounding as now, I brought my face a bit closer. His eyelashes showed a faint trembling. Feeling my breathing quicken on an entirely different level from when I’d secretly stolen kisses while he slept, I firmly pressed my lips against his.
A dizzy sensation spread at the soft, squishy texture. Naturally extending my tongue, I licked his closed lips. Licking slowly, I sucked on his lower lip with a bit of pressure. Startled, his shoulder that I was holding flinched. His lips that I was sucking also stiffened, not knowing what to do.
“Moa.”
At the affectionate call after slightly parting our lips, he gently opened his eyes and gazed at me. A faint excitement could be seen in his eyes as well. Seeing him with his large eyes blinking, mouth tightly shut, and flushed cheeks, he looked like a small child enduring an injection. He was so cute I almost let out a laugh.
“Relax and let the tension out of your lips.”
“But I’m so nervous…”
“It’s okay. You don’t need to be nervous. We like each other. I like you, Moa.”
Even though I was nervous myself, I continued speaking while giving his lips light pecks—chu, chu—to help him relax. I showed affection by gently kissing various parts of his face until his expression loosened. On his straight forehead, on his gentle eyelids, on his delicately extended bridge of his nose, on his soft cheeks, on his peach-colored lips—I kept softly stamping kisses.
And when his expression finally relaxed and he grabbed my shoulders, I subtly sucked on his lips. Relieved by his no longer shrinking response, I licked and sucked a bit more lewdly. I could feel strength entering the hands gripping my shoulders, but now I had no composure left either.
While gently caressing his earlobe with my hand, I pushed my tongue in as it was. His small lips parted and wrapped around my tongue. I moved my tongue gently with the feeling of caressing inside his mouth. His soft tongue wandering around not knowing what to do was so cute that I caught it with my tongue and entwined with it. As more strength entered the hand gripping my shoulder, I led his arm to embrace my neck. Then I could reach a bit deeper.
I tried my best to kiss as gently and affectionately as possible. Our thin breaths permeated deep into each other’s throats. While tracing his neat row of teeth, licking his mucous membranes, and tickling the roof of his mouth, his small tongue still wandered awkwardly, unable to find direction. I wrapped around his tongue and brought it into my mouth to suck. While sucking thoroughly, I played with the hand rubbing his left ear seductively. Kkotmoa’s left shoulder shrank. His ear seemed to be an erogenous zone. Just thinking about what kind of reaction he would show if I put his ear in my mouth and caressed it made my lower half, pressed firmly between our bodies, throb even more.
“Haa, haa… You…”
Kkotmoa, who had turned his head away from my lips to breathe out roughly, made a resentful expression as if to say something, then closed his mouth. Moist moisture had formed in his large eyes, and both his cheeks were flushed red as if in a hot bath. Something hard was touching my achingly throbbing lower half. It was proof that I wasn’t the only one excited. The thought that Kkotmoa was also human, also a man, somehow made my heart swell.
“Why am I… Moa, if you have something you want to say, you can say it.”
Like giving pecks—chu, chu—I repeatedly pressed and released my lips loaded with sexual desire against his lips while whispering affectionately. However, Kkotmoa, who had been about to say something, just kept his mouth tightly shut and looked at me. His eyes filled with excitement also contained a hint of displeasure.
“Why that expression, hm? You don’t like kissing me?”
“…I like it.”
“Then why, hm? I want to kiss more…”
Kkotmoa, who had narrowed his eyes for a moment as if glaring at me, bit his own lower lip. His lips, which had turned red and swollen from the long kiss, took on an even more vivid red color. I couldn’t understand why Kkotmoa was making this expression. I only freed his pretty lips crushed by his teeth with my finger.
“Moa.”
At the low call, Kkotmoa, who had been hesitating, first gave my lips a chu, a peck.
“Ah…”
At the unexpectedly dizzying temptation, I pounced on Kkotmoa like a beast. It was on an entirely different level from the gentle kiss from just before. It was a wild kiss filled with sexual desire that couldn’t be released, like foreplay before sex. The touch of the hand rubbing his ear had also become very lewd. Kkotmoa didn’t unwrap his arms around my neck even while panting for breath.
“Hng, mmng…”
I stimulated the thin, soft part of the roof of his mouth and rubbed the hollow beneath his tongue. Each time, he swallowed sounds resembling moans down his throat, not knowing what to do. Just those sounds made me want to ejaculate. I was incredibly happy that Kkotmoa was feeling pleasant sensations because of me. My attention was entirely focused on Kkotmoa’s satisfaction rather than my own pleasure.
For a long time, we repeated gentle and rough kisses several times, exploring each other. We mixed tongues as if we were people who would die after only kissing before the world ended. I felt like I could do it until morning came, but he turned his head away and pushed my shoulder.
“…Sleepy? Tired?”
“It’s not that, you…”
With his face as red as it could possibly be, Kkotmoa mumbled his words. Not knowing the reason, I examined him.
“Wa-wait, haht…!”
At the moan that reflexively burst out, Kkotmoa panicked and covered his mouth with both hands, his eyes wide open. Before I could even think he was cute, I realized why Kkotmoa had turned bright red and panicked. While kissing, I had been subtly moving my hips without realizing it. Since we were touching, the stimulation was excessive. It was such an instinctive movement that there was no room for excuses. As soon as I became conscious of it, I had no choice but to freeze and stop. Out of consideration for my startled flower.
“Later, I’m going to do everything else with you, not just kissing.”
Removing the hand covering his mouth and pressing down firmly with my lips, I mumbled. I hoped it would convey how much I was holding back. Kkotmoa nodded slightly in response.
“Yeah. Later.”
“…That later might be sooner than you think.”
Pressing my forehead against his, I muttered quietly. I’d try my best to be considerate and patient, but honestly I had no confidence.
“I want to do it too, but not yet, I mean, since I still don’t really know…”
“I can wait. I like you, Moa.”
I couldn’t leave Kkotmoa to go to the bathroom and take care of it alone, so I had to kill it somehow. But the problem was that it wasn’t just my phenomenon alone. Even if I somehow endured and suppressed it, I wanted to see Kkotmoa feeling good.
“Moa.”
“Yeah.”
“Would you hate it if I just touched?”
“You said just kissing…”
“It’s painful if I just leave it. I’ll just help.”
“Wh-what, what will you help, hnngh…!”
I subtly moved my hips once more. Kkotmoa couldn’t even finish his words before letting out a moan. He too, like me, was a man weak to physical pleasure. Even though I thought I was being cowardly for attacking that part, I didn’t want to stop. Kkotmoa, who seemed to have no immunity to pleasure, reacted sensitively and keenly to even the slightest touch I gave. My flower, disheveled with his flushed, heated face, flushed expression, and panting hot breaths in excitement, was more captivating than ever.
“I’ll just help. Give me permission, hm?”
Even knowing that Kkotmoa had a troubled expression, I kept begging while giving his lips repeated pecks—chu, chu. I had a vague belief that he would give me permission. Right, the scoundrel wasn’t Kang Junwoo—it was me.
“Would you hate it if I just touched?”
“I-I think I’d be really, really embarrassed and shy…”
Kkotmoa, speaking while avoiding eye contact, didn’t say no or block me as I’d expected. My head knew it was too hasty, but I was a guy with no self-control. Of course, if Kkotmoa said no and didn’t give permission, I would use all my strength to endure and back off. But if he gave permission, even reluctantly, I would absolutely not miss this opportunity. I wanted to know everything about Kkotmoa and see everything. I wanted to engrave my love for every corner of his body.
“Then I’ll help while we keep kissing. If I just touch without looking, it’s less embarrassing, right?”
“…Daddy told me not to allow my body to anyone unless they’re someone I’ll live with forever, Do Hyeondo sunbae-nim.”
Ah. A triple combo attack of Daddy, formal speech, and sunbae-nim. At this point, it was hard to keep begging. Even though I was the one who used my mom as an excuse whenever I was at a disadvantage or desperate, when it came out of Kkotmoa’s mouth, even shameless me had no way to handle it. It was when I kissed Kkotmoa’s forehead and was about to pull away. Noticing him shaking his shoulders trying to hold back laughter with giggles, I realized he was teasing me. But I was serious.
