“Yeah.”
He only fiddled with the water cup but didn’t drink the water inside.
I thought that’s fortunate and asked again.
“Are you sleeping well? You said that before. That you started swimming because you couldn’t sleep well.”
“Recently I’ve been fine. As you can see.”
“That’s good.”
I’m glad he’s sleeping well. Only then did my heart feel much lighter.
I began eating the rest of my meal. I hoped Kwon Yujin would finish the food still remaining too, but he just sat there blankly as if he had no intention of eating more.
“Hyung.”
After silence flowed for a while, Kwon Yujin spoke.
“What about me?”
“When did you start your current work?”
Hmm. When did I start this? Thinking back, I think I first went to a construction site right after graduating middle school.
“When I was seventeen.”
“Why construction of all things?”
Why of all things? This was the first time I’d been asked such a question. So I hesitated, unable to answer readily.
Because it was too obvious to me. In a state where I had no qualifications, no social experience, and no family support, the only thing I could start with was physical labor. Moreover, people who knew me were reluctant because I was a criminal’s son, so it wasn’t easy to receive anyone’s help either.
At that time, I had to solve everything myself—wearing, using, eating, and sleeping. To do that, the hourly wage I’d receive from a regular cafe or restaurant was difficult to cover. Manual labor was the best option among the work I could do.
“After graduating middle school, I needed money so I was looking for work, but other places wouldn’t really accept me because I was young. So while looking for the job that paid the most among what I could do… ah.”
While organizing my thoughts and speaking, I unknowingly raised my head and looked at Kwon Yujin. He definitely told me not to look at him….
He’ll get angry again, right? That worry came first. I needed to quickly turn my eyes away before he got irritated.
But for some reason, I couldn’t tear my gaze away, fixed on Kwon Yujin.
“While looking, what.”
“……”
Before I knew it, my gaze was fixed beyond Kwon Yujin’s shoulder on the damp wallpaper, the torn-up flooring here and there, and the dim lighting.
‘I don’t like it here. It’s dirty, smelly, and scary. I want to go home….’
Before I knew it, the voice of a child from long ago, sniffling with trembling shoulders, was flowing into my ears.
Time had passed and his body had grown, but Kwon Yujin still seemed like a spotlessly clean and precious person, just like the day I first saw him. In this shabby environment, he floated like a protruding foreign object, unable to mix with the space at all.
He was a person too precious to be in such a shabby place. Then and now. That fact hit me far too vividly at this particular moment.
“Hyun Taeyoung.”
“……”
As I heard the voice calling my name, the chains from the past overlapped over his large hands. The blue bruises on his face and the skin reddened with injuries from being scraped by chains too. Goosebumps rose along my spine for a moment.
My mind snapped to attention as if cold water had been poured over me. What am I doing right now? To drag Kwon Yujin into such a pathetic place again.
Old emotions I thought I’d forgotten came flooding in all at once. The child crouched in the corner of my memory, and my helplessness from back then when I couldn’t do anything, gradually became clearer.
Was what I felt while watching the child who was sad because he couldn’t go home really just helplessness? I had been happier than ever. Truly. Because the child would never be able to escape.
“Hyung.”
I swallowed dry saliva at the illusion of my throat constricting. After belatedly clearing my throat, I opened my mouth.
“If you’re done eating, leave now.”
When I hurriedly put on my mask, Kwon Yujin frowned.
“Suddenly?”
“Quickly. I need to rest now. It’s late at night too.”
I got up from the table while pressing down the hat I’d taken off.
“You need to go back now too if you’re going to dawn training tomorrow. You have the competition next week too.”
I could feel his gaze blatantly clinging to me, but I pretended not to notice. Because I didn’t want to face the afterimage of the past again.
I added while clearing the rice bowls on the table.
“And don’t come looking for me here anymore. If you contact me in advance, I’ll come find you wherever you call me.”
“Why do you get to decide that?”
Kwon Yujin, who had been sitting quietly in his chair until now, stood up. Then he strode toward me. As the distance narrowed, his pheromones clearly touched somewhere inside my body once again.
“Who are you to order me to come and go?”
“I didn’t mean it that way….”
It seemed Kwon Yujin took it as me driving him out without knowing my place.
But it was a misunderstanding. It was like that before, and it’s the same now—you don’t belong in a place like this. Kwon Yujin was too precious to mix with my space and my very existence itself.
I wanted to say such things, but I didn’t know how to convey them. The sentences that came out of my mouth were always excessively crude and insignificant to organize complex thoughts and persuade the other person.
“You shouldn’t be mistaken.”
“Ngh.”
While I was wandering, unable to organize what to say, Kwon Yujin, standing facing me, grabbed my shoulders.
“When to come and when to go isn’t for you to decide—I decide that.”
It seemed I’d made Kwon Yujin angry. The force pressing down on my shoulders gradually strengthened. To the point where I couldn’t endure it anymore.
“Ah, wait….”
Eventually, having lost my balance, I bent one leg. Soon the other knee also touched the floor, putting me in a position where I was looking up at Kwon Yujin.
Looking down at me kneeling on the floor, Kwon Yujin gave instructions in a low voice.
“Open your mouth.”
The sound of unbuckling dug into my ears. I blinked blankly for a moment, then soon opened my mouth as he commanded.
Kwon Yujin, who had taken out his member, grasped my chin and lifted it while pulling my mask down. Once he confirmed I was opening my mouth as he’d told me, only then did satisfaction seep into his dark eyes.
Kwon Yujin shoved his half-erect member into my mouth.
“Gk…!”
I choked because of the blunt glans immediately touching my throat. But I wasn’t given time to cough.
Kwon Yujin, who firmly grasped my hair so I couldn’t move, shoved his member all the way to the end of my throat again without any leeway.
“Mmph, hng.”
“Hah.”
Along with his deep exclamation, the pillar in my mouth gradually grew. I had no choice but to fully receive it with tears welling up.
“Don’t think about escaping and do it properly.”
“Mmmngh.”
I didn’t even know what to do, but in this situation, I had no leeway to think about anything. All I could do was move as Kwon Yujin instructed. I diligently tightened and licked his member as he demanded.
“Hyun Taeyoung.”
“Slrp.”
“Relax your throat.”
I blinked my bloodshot eyes. Then the tears pooled in my eyes flowed down my cheeks.
But I couldn’t relax my throat as Kwon Yujin wanted. I absolutely couldn’t figure out how. When the hard glans hit my uvula and entered all the way, I automatically tensed up and tightly squeezed his member.
“Gk, hahp…. Gnh.”
In the meantime, the member that had fully expanded in size was going in and out, crushing all the mucous membranes as if tearing the inside of my throat. It was fast and brutal, as if he was fucking my lower hole.
Kwon Yujin let me go only after pouring his semen deep inside my throat. The thick liquid went down the back of my throat at the same time the long member was pulled out.
“From next time, come out right away when I call. Don’t be a nuisance.”
“Cough, cough!”
As soon as I was released from Kwon Yujin’s grip, I clutched my burning throat and coughed. The semen that had pooled in my mouth flowed out with saliva.
Because I hadn’t been able to breathe properly for a while, my breathing was also rough. My consciousness, which had been becoming hazy, gradually became clearer as oxygen was supplied.
“Haah…. Haah.”
When I barely came to my senses, Kwon Yujin had already left the lodging.
I wanted to greet him to be careful and finish the competition well. I couldn’t control the fit-like coughing coming from my mouth, so I ended up not being able to say anything.
I’d been expecting that perhaps Kwon Yujin’s anger might have softened considerably, seeing him treat me more naturally than I’d thought until now. But with what just happened, I was confirmed that it had been a futile hope. Kwon Yujin still loathed me.
I cleared my throat, wiped my tears, and looked at the closed door.
