“I don’t want it, hnnngh, no, no, ahhh…!”
Whether it was because of confusion in his memories, today’s Ruben was definitely different. Like a drowning person flailing for a lifeboat, Ruben’s eyes were full of desperation. He was probably searching. For proof that everything he remembered now was all a lie. For salvation that it was all just delusion.
“Come on, you like it here, right? Here, Ruben likes it here, right?”
“Ahh, hic, ahhh…!”
But there was no such salvation. Ruben must know it too. The physical pleasure would awaken a sense of reality for him, and the more I held Ruben, the more it would only remind him that his body was excessively accustomed to sex with me.
“Come on, hah, cum! As much as you want, as much as you want, cum while getting creampied!”
“Ahhic, no, ahh, uhhgh, ahh, ahngh…!”
When I gripped Ruben’s waist firmly and pressed down on his deepest place, he thrashed while letting out pained moans. But I now knew that came from pure pleasure. I didn’t hold back my laughter as I violated Ruben.
“You know, hah, you know, Ruben…!”
“Ahgh, ahh, hiik…!”
“Do you remember?! We, we kn-knotted, hah, knotted from our ve-very first time having sex?!”
At those words, Ruben’s tightly closed eyes opened. Looking at those eyes that stared at me wide open, I knew it wasn’t simply shock at my words. Ruben remembers. He must remember every moment we shared.
“Ugh, Ruben, hic, Ruben…!”
Suddenly overcome with ecstasy welling up from within my chest, I let out a single scream and pulled Ruben into my arms. Though I must have hugged him too hard as Ruben struggled and made sounds as if choking, it didn’t matter. I was truly moved. Tears flowed at the feeling of obtaining something I hadn’t dared wish for.
“I, I, I’m happy, hic, I, I hated that only I remembered, I hated it…”
“Ughgh… Hic, kgh…”
“Ruben, Ruben, let’s cum together, okay? Together…!”
I held Ruben’s face with both hands. I wanted to see clearly what expression he was making.
It was strange. Even though I’d heard such harsh words from Ruben, my love for him didn’t cool at all. Rather, it seemed to burn even more fiercely!
I must be wrong somewhere. But his hateful face was so cute. It was ecstatic that he couldn’t escape from beneath me and despaired. How cute would Ruben’s face be, knowing that what he thought was his first time was actually something repeated over and over, done until his body completely remembered my shape. How lovable would it be.
“Hic, ughh, hih,”
The face of Ruben I looked at with anticipation was completely contorted. An expression all crumpled up, like a young child’s face right before crying. His beautiful amber eyes were stained with tears and squinted, and his straight nose and well-shaped lips were all dirtied with tears, snot, and drool. That pretty mouth that always looked at me with a smooth smile was gritting its teeth with trembling corners.
“Ah… Ahh…”
What I felt the moment I saw that face was a thrilling exhilaration. A shock that seemed both hot and cold swept up and down my spine. Ruben was someone who paid attention to every little thing when dealing with people, found fault, and searched for things to curse about. As such, Ruben was strict with himself too. Ruben always neatly combed back his hair, wore precisely pressed suits that fit his body perfectly, showered morning and night, and sprayed different perfumes according to the season.
If there was something else I learned after gaining the privilege of putting Ruben to sleep, it was that Ruben really worked hard at self-care.
When I went after receiving Ruben’s summons, there were times I saw used sheet masks in the trash. I’d been pointlessly petty with Ruben thinking they were a woman’s, but when I later learned they were what Ruben used, how happy I was. Ruben’s angelic appearance, his aristocratic attitude—these weren’t things that could be obtained without cost. Ruben was the kind of person who worked hard to be the way he wanted!
“Hahhh… Cute, Ruben, you’re cute…”
Just the fact that such a Ruben was disheveled like this and showing me such an unseemly appearance made my waist weak. Probably a face only I could see, and a face I made. At that thought, I couldn’t hold back and kissed Ruben while holding his face firmly.
I pushed my tongue into Ruben’s mouth and licked his soft tongue. Perhaps because of the sweet scent, even the inside of his mouth felt sweet. I stared at Ruben with wide eyes the entire time we kissed. Eyes that absolutely didn’t want to accept this situation. Looking at his shocked face, having had an experience too shocking to be reality, I reached climax.
“Hnngh…”
As I pulled Ruben close with my whole body and ejaculated in his deepest place, I felt my body temperature rise hotly. When he felt my semen entering inside, Ruben began thrashing wildly. Completely pinned beneath me, he twisted his body, flailed his limbs, and tried to push away my chest with his weak hands, but it was useless. The suggestion was firm. And the reason he was resisting like this was probably also because of my suggestion.
“Hnkknngh…”
Ruben stiffened his body while letting out a boiling moan from deep in his throat. It was because of the suggestion I made when we first had sex. The suggestion that he’d feel it when semen touched him. He must have resisted knowing that he’d cum too when I ejaculated. Thinking about that made my nose tingle and I felt like I’d cry.
“My semen, hih, feels, feels good… right?”
“Uhhgh, hn, hiit,”
“I’ll do it deeper, hah, you’re soft, Ruben, Ruben…”
I slowly moved my hips while kissing Ruben’s temples, forehead, eyebrows, and eyes. I didn’t know well since I’d never done it with anyone else, but compared to Ruben, my ejaculation time was quite long. Moreover, Ruben’s pussy seemed to squeeze my cock tightly as if kneading it no matter how many times we did it, so it was truly a famous instrument that seemed to suck out all the semen inside me.
As I moved my hips heavily with the thought of smearing my semen thickly on Ruben’s inner walls and slowly moved back and forth, Ruben stiffened his body several more times, then gritted his teeth and threw his head back. As if resisting the pleasure, his legs that had been sprawled on the bed sheets struggled, and his hands gripped the bedspread with the momentum to tear the sheets.
Who else could see Ruben like this? Even all those women who had sex with Ruben probably never saw such a magnificent view. I was immersed in ecstasy, looking at Ruben and savoring the afterglow.
“Ah, ah, ah…”
A familiar sensation covered me. It was something I felt every time I had sex with Ruben. The feeling that all the pores in my body tightened and a sticky, persistent pleasure crashed over my brain.
It was knotting.
Normally, since it was an opportunity to connect more deeply with Ruben, I would have welcomed that sensation and held Ruben deeply, but today I didn’t intend to do that.
“Ah, n-no, not today…”
I muttered and hastily pulled my cock out of Ruben’s hole.
“Hic…!”
Perhaps it was an unexpected movement, as Ruben’s body convulsed once more. Maybe because today’s sex was especially rough, I thought that Ruben’s hole, which had been a cute pink color, had been dyed a delicious red. The hole glistening with semen and love fluids was extremely lewd, but I’d decided not to knot today.
“Ru-Ruben…”
“Hic, uh… Ughh…”
“I-I’m sorry, today I… can’t knot you…”
Saying that, I pulled Ruben close and held him. Ruben seemed unable to escape from the afterglow of climax. His gaze staring into space was hazy, and his body embraced by me trembled lightly from time to time like a startled person, perhaps from the afterglow.
“B-but I’m happy… because you remembered having sex with me…”
When I actually said it out loud like that, I felt my face heat up. Emotions I hadn’t been aware of until now suddenly flooded in like a tide. It seemed that no matter how much I liked having sex with Ruben, I had been sad about remembering sex with Ruben alone. I seemed to have wanted proof that Ruben and I had sex.
“S-so… I want to make today a special day…”
“…”
I placed my hand on Ruben’s stomach. Perhaps because he always exercised diligently and only ate good things, Ruben’s abs were prettier than anyone else’s stomach I’d seen. Though they were well-shaped abs, perhaps because his skin was good, I placed my hand on Ruben’s stomach that looked exceptionally soft and gently rubbed it as if soothing a child with a stomachache. Placing my hand a little lower, on his lower abdomen, I suddenly felt overwhelmed and sighed.
“Today… I hope you get pregnant…”
“…”
“It, it’s not Ruben’s fault until now… Kn-knotting, if it’s above a certain size, it can be harmful to omegas, so, that’s why…”
“…Don’t…”
Ruben’s voice reached me as I was immersed in sentiment. His voice was too hoarse to hear properly.
“What?”
“…Don’t… stop”
“What were you trying to say…?”
Saying that, when I brought my ear close to Ruben, I heard clearly what he was trying to say.
“Don’t… talk shit… you bastard…”
