I felt blood rush to my face as I brought my hand between Ruben’s legs. When my hand touched him, Ruben flinched and trembled, glaring at me as if he’d stab me to death, but he said nothing else. I gained strength from his silence and smiled.
“Look at this, it’s completely soaked…”
“…”
When I pushed my finger inside Ruben’s hole, there was a squelching noise from the softened inner walls. As I spread open with my finger the mucous membrane that had become completely soft from the mixture of Ruben’s fluids and my semen, the semen that hadn’t fully entered leaked out.
“Hehe… We did it a lot…”
“…”
“If we do it this much, you might get pregnant…”
“Don’t fucking talk shit!!!”
But contrary to my hopes, Ruben let out the loudest shout I’d ever heard from him and thrashed his body. As if his earlier obedient sobbing while lying down had been an act to conserve his strength, he rose from his spot furiously angry.
“Whoa… That scared me, Ruben… Y-you startled me…”
“You fucking bastard, who’s getting pregnant! Who’s getting pregnant, you fucking asshole!!”
As expected, Ruben’s body overflowed with vitality. It must be related to him being strong, right? I actually liked it better. The fact that Ruben could accept my monstrosity, which Ruben had described as “perfect for hurting women,” must be because he was this healthy.
And a healthy omega… maybe could make a healthy child, right? I didn’t hide my grinning mouth as I looked at Ruben shyly.
“B-but, I came this much… and it was a creampie… A-also, also… Ru-Ruben is an omega…”
“Ahhh!!! Ahhhhh!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!”
At those words, Ruben screamed and covered his ears. As if expressing that he didn’t want to hear my words at all, he covered his own ears with both hands and screamed like a very young child throwing a tantrum. Ruben, as I always felt, had a very loud voice. After screaming for so long and so loudly that even I had to cover my ears, Ruben finally stopped and glared at me.
“You fucking bastard, you retarded bastard, you moron!!!”
“Ah, ugh… Ru-Ruben, your voice is too loud…”
“Do you think I’d get pregnant with your inferior sperm? Do you think so?!”
“Uhhh… I-inferior…”
At those words, Ruben’s mouth twisted into a crooked smile. I knew that expression. It was a Ruben-like expression. An expression filled with all kinds of malice. I thought I’d overcome my fear of Ruben, but was it because of the years I’d been oppressed by him? When Ruben looked at me that way, my head instantly went blank. Not missing that moment, Ruben condemned me as he always did.
“Say it again? In. Fer. I. Or, you bastard! Who do you think would get pregnant with the sperm of a reject genetic inferior male like you? Fucking bastard. Your kid would commit suicide when they’re old enough to look in a mirror, right? While cursing why you didn’t abort them sooner!”
The excessively harsh insult cleared my mind a little. But I couldn’t stop my voice from trembling. I stammered and threw a pathetic protest at him.
“Th-that’s too harsh, Ruben…”
“What are you gonna do about it, you son of a bitch! Oh, come to think of it, wasn’t your grandfather Russian? You retarded bitch. How inferior must he have been to have a kid with a yellow monkey who eats kimchi even among the ching-chang-chong?”
“…”
Even after that, Ruben cursed at me for a long time. The four years hadn’t been spent in vain. Ruben knew me as well as he hated me. He must know as much as I told him. There was a time when I, like Kaylee had been, didn’t really know what kind of person Ruben was, and told Ruben about myself without any suspicion. Trivial and detailed stories like family matters, dreams, likes and dislikes—the kind you’d tell a friend…
All those words that came from my mouth became daggers that wounded me when they came from Ruben’s mouth. Words that were hard not to be hurt by no matter how accustomed I’d become.
‘As expected, you won’t change with anything ordinary, will you…’
I smiled bitterly while thinking that. Finally, Ruben must have exhausted his strength, as he gasped for breath and concluded all those insults with one last remark.
“With the wilted sperm of an inferior species like you, I won’t get pregnant even if we do it a hundred times, you fucking bastard!”
“…We might have actually done it about a hundred times.”
Or maybe more. I muttered indifferently. Actually, I’d heard that if you knot too often, it can burden the omega’s body and make pregnancy difficult. Knotting was actually among the top causes of threatened miscarriage in omegas.
Lately I’d been knotting every time I had sex with Ruben, so there might be negative effects. Since I hadn’t knotted yet today, should I just end it like this today? I was thinking that as I shifted my gaze back toward Ruben.
“…?”
“…What’s wrong?”
Ruben was staring into space with wide eyes. The venom from earlier had completely drained from his face. No, Ruben looked at me with a confused expression, his face pale as if all color had been sucked out of it.
“N-no, no…”
“…What’s ‘no.'”
“No, th-this, this isn’t right? It’s not right. You, you…”
Ruben, who had been muttering as if out of his mind, suddenly sat up and grabbed my shoulders. Ruben’s hands gripping my shoulders strongly were trembling. Ruben looked at me with wavering eyes and said in an unstable voice.
“Tell me, tell me tell me tell me! Elbek!”
“What.”
“It’s the first time, right? I, I, I, today’s my first time, you, you took my virginity today, you, you raped me, today’s my first time, u-until yesterday I, I had no experience, right? Ri-right?”
Ha! A hollow laugh came out. Of course it wasn’t. I could tell him it was right, but anyway today’s memory would be erased too. So there was no reason not to tell the truth.
“No. I told you. We’ve done it at least a hundred times.”
“…”
“How many times exactly. Ah… I should record today’s session too.”
Saying that, I turned on my phone. At the very top of my phone’s contacts, which had almost no one except ‘Manon’s Pleasure’ employees. I pressed where Ruben’s phone number was.
“After all, you hate not having memories, Ruben. But I can’t film a video every time either.”
“…”
“So I keep records like this… Ah, though I’m starting to think there’s a limit to the name record field…”
Ruben had now taken his hands off my shoulders. I hadn’t done anything, but he was leaning against the headboard far away from me, as if he’d seen something truly horrific. Though I was pleased by how he seemed to want to escape from me, as if wanting to pass through the wall behind him and go to another room, it didn’t feel entirely good.
“Look. Can you count them?”
“…U-uh, uh, uhh,”
“…One heart per time…”
“Uah, hic, uahhhhhhhhhhh!!”
As soon as Ruben saw my phone screen, he began screaming. It wasn’t a scream deliberately meant to avoid hearing my words like before. When a scream filled with terror, as if ringing from his very soul, filled the room, it was quite strange. It was definitely Ruben’s voice and would be equally loud, but this voice was oddly satisfying. It even sounded cute. Maybe that was natural. Because Ruben is always cute!
Boss❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
“Eh, hehe… I should add one more heart… Since we only did it once today…”
“U-uh, hic, hic, uah, ahhh…”
“With this it’s about 106 times… H-how is it, Boss…”
After adding one heart and taking my eyes off the screen, Ruben was curled up with his body completely pressed against the headboard. His posture with his head in his hands and curled up was cute like a baby. The trembling boss is cute. The boss too shocked to even cry is cute. The scared boss is cute. Cute, so cute. The boss who’s afraid of me is so, so cute!
“Ru-u-ben…”
The heart that seemed to have cooled down from being hurt just moments ago was beating again. I tried to suppress my laughter as I approached Ruben. When I picked up the tablet I’d left on the bedside table and sat down close to him, Ruben’s body began trembling even more than before.
“You remember… You’re remembering… Hah, haha… I’m happy…”
“Hic, hiik…”
I intuitively knew that the reason Ruben was acting this way, and moreover asking me if today was really his first time, was because the memories he’d been suppressing had returned. Ahh, how shocked he must be. Surely the things he couldn’t remember were overflowing all at once, and he must be confused. He must be suffering. He must be afraid. He would be afraid. Of me!
“…G-get, get away…”
Ruben’s voice had grown faint. It seemed hoarse from screaming too much earlier. Now that things had come to this, there was something I really wanted to do. I barely suppressed the giggles that were about to burst out as I turned on the tablet.
“L-let’s, let’s watch something fun together…”
“Get away, get…”
“Let’s watch together.”
When I spoke strongly with force in my words, Ruben immediately straightened his curled body and sat up properly. His face was filled with indescribable fear.
“It’s my favorite video…”
I whispered that as I gently pulled Ruben closer. I felt the time had come. The time to change our relationship a little.
