Not missing the moment Soohyun relaxed, Seojun began moving his hips. He thrust regularly, then repeatedly thrust with an appropriate rhythm added. Each time Seojun pressed his prostate accurately, sparks flew before Soohyun’s eyes and stars twinkled. Watching Soohyun pant without even knowing saliva was flowing from the corners of his mouth, Seojun stopped moving his hips for a moment and licked the corners of Soohyun’s mouth.
“Hng, hnng, mmm. Mmng.”
“Soohyun-ssi, Soohyun-ssi….”
Seojun even licked the tears flowing from Soohyun’s eyes, soothing him as he cried. Though he didn’t know why he was crying, Seojun somehow felt he should comfort him. Unlike his gentle lips, Seojun’s movements were rough.
The sound of wet flesh colliding overlapped with the sound of thrusting. Seojun gripped Soohyun’s pelvis firmly and didn’t stop the act of pulling out shallowly and pushing in deeply. Soohyun’s inner wall mucous membranes rejoiced, violently churning each time stimulated by his cock. Before long, the bed sheets were getting wet with love fluid that had leaked from their joined gap. Seojun pulled Soohyun into an embrace and stood him up so he wouldn’t touch the dampened sheets.
“This is, too deep…!”
“Because the sheets got very wet.”
He wasn’t unaware that it was because of his own bodily fluid. Soohyun’s cheeks ripened bright red. As if it were sex between affectionate lovers, the two pressed their bellies together while still connected.
“Look at me. Soohyun-ssi.”
Seojun’s eyes toward Soohyun were so desperate. Soohyun didn’t know the reason for his desperation. Unlike simple lust, it was unfamiliar and bewildering. His gaze reminded him of someone from the past. The only one person at the end of memories that were both happy and painful for Soohyun.
“Khng….”
Finding Soohyun cruel for not meeting his gaze until the end, Seojun continued rough thrusting using the elasticity of the mattress. At the burden of being deeply penetrated from below to above, Soohyun gripped Seojun’s shoulders. Seojun took Soohyun’s nipple, which was going back and forth in his field of vision, into his mouth again and played with his tongue. At the suddenly initiated stimulation, Soohyun moaned with even tears welling up.
“Tha… ahh.”
“Now you’re finally looking at me.”
Seojun’s gaze with the nipple in his mouth turned upward. There was Soohyun looking down at him with resentful eyes. From the wrinkled brow to the beads of sweat forming where the hair just began—everything was pretty.
Seojun removed the blanket and laid Soohyun down on a fluffy spot of the sheets, then lowered his body. Sex without a condom was even more stimulating, and the sense of ejaculation rushed in like a tide. Even though he was continuing to thrust while lowering the speed, it felt like he needed to release once.
Seojun placed both of Soohyun’s legs on his shoulders and supported his body with both arms on either side of Soohyun’s head. Soohyun, whose buttocks were now lifted high, realized this was a position that strongly stimulated the prostate and struggled.
“Seojun…! Ah!!! Too deep!!”
“I’m doing it to the place you like.”
Even when they first mixed bodies, Seojun had annoyingly stabbed that place accurately. But today was worse than that day. After lengthily biting and licking upward to the point where he thought his lower parts might all melt away, now he was picking out only weak points to stab. At the intense pleasure close to pain, Soohyun twisted his body wildly and struggled, but with his lower body half floating in the air, he couldn’t push him away.
“Ah-!!”
“Khng—.”
Soohyun wasn’t the only one reaching climax. Each time Soohyun felt it, his inner walls contracted strongly and mercilessly squeezed Seojun’s member. When pressure was added to the place overflowing with hot love fluid, it was unbearable. Watching Soohyun spurt clear water from the tip of his member, Seojun left his mark in the deep place.
“Hng-hng, hng-hng-hng.”
“I’m sorry…. Don’t cry….”
Knowing Soohyun was crying from feeling too much, Seojun hugged his body tightly. Soohyun sobbed with his shoulders heaving, but even his face covered in tears looked beautiful, so Seojun thought he must be crazy.
“Choi Seojun… ssi….”
“Yes, Soohyun-ssi.”
“…I… don’t really understand.”
“What… do you mean?”
Of course it was natural not to understand. The fact that this person named Choi Seojun disliked omegas was a story everyone living in South Korea knew. Moreover, at first Seojun had looked down on Soohyun for being an omega from the center, and had even demanded pheromone care from Soohyun whom he was meeting for the first time. Even when his attitude softened slightly afterward and he said thank you, he could still understand him. He could think of it as praise for working hard. But Seojun’s attitude right now was too strange.
“So… Choi Seojun-ssi. It’s as if….”
Seojun put strength into the arms holding Soohyun. How should he start talking about what? It absolutely wasn’t something done impulsively just because of sexual desire. He didn’t know how to define his own feelings. How should he explain it to Soohyun? It was a more difficult situation than any audition assignment he’d seen before.
“So… you know. 3 seconds. It takes 3 seconds.”
“…Pardon?”
“The time it takes to decide… attraction to someone… takes 3 seconds….”
Seojun scratched his head at words he thought were too stupid even to himself. 3 seconds—actually, it wasn’t wrong. It had been statistically proven, after all. Although Seojun was displeased by the fact that Soohyun was an omega, and by the fact that he was from the center, he couldn’t shake thoughts about him. Though it wasn’t in the form of ‘love,’ at least the first emotion was more than just ‘attraction.’ At Seojun’s words, Soohyun’s face instantly turned deathly pale.
“What on earth are you saying right now….”
The moment he heard the word ‘3 seconds,’ Soohyun felt like he’d been hit in the head. Of all things…. Though it might be a word with no great meaning to others, for Soohyun ‘3 seconds’ was tragedy itself. But Seojun didn’t notice that Soohyun’s complexion had worsened.
“Well… so. I… seem to be… interested in Soohyun-ssi.”
I am interested, so what’s with this idiotic-sounding ‘seem’! But for Seojun whose head was a complete mess, this was the best he could do. He was dissatisfied that the person who made him feel attraction in 3 seconds was from the center, and dissatisfied that he was an omega. When he saw him moaning, thinking he probably did the same for others made anger naturally boil up.
But when he saw his face sleeping soundly with his tired body laid down, it felt like the world became quiet. During the week he couldn’t meet him, the faint smile he’d seen for one moment didn’t leave his mind. Every time he thought of this person named Lee Soohyun, heat rose to his face and his heartbeat quickened as if he’d caught a fever.
“But Choi Seojun-ssi dislikes omegas….”
Seojun immediately caught on to what Soohyun was going to say and slowly parted his lips.
“That’s right. It’s true that I… dislike omegas.”
“Yes.”
“The first reason is, as known, because I’m sensitive to pheromones. No, it should… be that. But it’s not just because of that.”
Seojun pulled Soohyun’s body into an embrace.
“…I have bad memories related to that. So, well… should I say the bloody smell.”
Soohyun waited silently for him who couldn’t easily bring up the story.
“At 6 years old… you really know everything at that age. But… olfactory memories really… really last a long time.”
His story was incoherent. The only words remaining in Soohyun’s languid mind were fragmentary things like memory, olfaction, and bloody smell.
“I thought I’d forgotten everything, but sometimes it appears in dreams…. What am I even talking about.”
Seojun hastily wrapped up the story. Just as Seojun hadn’t asked about his circumstances, Soohyun also didn’t ask him further and fell silent. Anyway, whoever he met, the one with many secrets and disadvantages would be Soohyun.
“So… what I want to say is.”
“Yes?”
“I’m interested in you, Lee Soohyun-ssi.”
Soohyun couldn’t say anything in response to Seojun’s confession. For someone as sparkling and shining as Seojun to be interested in him. If he were the 22-year-old Soohyun, he might have held his hand and smiled happily. But the current Soohyun was 29. A sad age where both his body and heart had been broken after experiencing things he couldn’t even bring himself to confess to him. So he couldn’t just be happy. Through the painful experience from 5 years ago, Soohyun already knew well enough that people who said they had good feelings for him didn’t only show him kindness.
“Choi Seojun-ssi.”
As if already knowing what Soohyun was going to say, Seojun pulled his body into an embrace. But Soohyun didn’t stop. He was a person sparkling in the sky unlike himself who was on the ground, and therefore someone he should not trust easily all the more.
“Soohyun-ssi, I’m not really sure what I’m saying either.”
“…I’m grateful that Choi Seojun-ssi views me favorably.”
“Soohyun-ssi.”
Soohyun gently pushed Seojun’s body away and sat up.
“Then… why now….”
“……”
Soohyun couldn’t say anything. He himself also had no idea why he hadn’t pushed him away but accepted him. Was it because he’d had physical contact for the first time in years? Was it because his voice and gaze calling his name were affectionate?
In one corner of his heart, Soohyun had the weakness of wondering if he couldn’t lean a little on someone who knew nothing about his past. Soohyun, who was starved for love, always longed for people. There was a time when he loved with all his body and heart. But now he was too exhausted to burn that kind of passion again.
“Choi Seojun-ssi.”
Soohyun turned his head toward Seojun. Could he possibly embrace the pain of his past? He thought there was no way. Things that would only happen in fairy tales couldn’t happen to Soohyun. He’d been foolishly deceived by people and hurt to the point of desperately wanting death. He didn’t want to experience the kind of thing where he’d break down by talking about his past himself. Giving his body was fine whatever. But he must not give his heart.
