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When I woke up in the morning and tried to sit up, my whole body ached as if it would shatter. It was natural since we’d had sex rough enough to deserve that description, but it was so severe that I gave up halfway through sitting up and lay back down. My waist and between my legs hurt especially.
Perhaps sensing my movement, Cha Jeonghan woke up and approached me with sleepy eyes, kissing my cheek. I was surprised by Jeonghan’s unexpected action and my body stiffened even more. Jeonghan pulled me into something like an embrace and sat me up. I was a bit flustered by his utterly uninhibited skinship.
“Does it hurt?”
“…Yeah, a little. It’ll be fine once I move around.”
“Can you work at the cafe?”
“Of course. I can do it. Let me wash up first.”
I got down from the bed, put strength in both feet to stand, but my body just sank down. Before I could sit down on the floor, Jeonghan’s arms caught and held me up first. There was no strength in my legs at all. With Jeonghan’s help, I sat on the edge of the bed and patted my legs.
“I’ll wash you.”
“…What?”
“How are you going to wash yourself when you can’t even stand properly?”
“It’s because I slept right after losing strength yesterday. I’m fine.”
“What do you mean fine. Let’s wash together. I’ll do everything for you.”
“No, no. You don’t have to.”
“What’s the big deal.”
Looking at his nonchalant face asking what the big deal was while saying something absurd, I was at a loss for words. I tapped the floor a few times with my feet that had regained some strength and stood up. Standing up was fine, but when I fully straightened my body, I felt something wet flowing down the inside of my thighs. I reflexively looked down.
“What’s wrong?”
“…Nothing. I’ll go wash up.”
“Wait. This…”
Jeonghan must have seen what I saw, as his hand approached and rubbed the inside of my thigh. Seeing the white fluid on his hand made my head spin. The shame I hadn’t felt all this time came rushing in like an aftershock all at once.
“Ah… I came inside.”
“…Can’t I just realize it in thought?”
“Ah… Then last time too…”
“……”
I remembered struggling quite a bit cleaning up alone last time. More than anything else, the act of putting my own fingers inside myself was difficult, which took up quite a bit of time.
“Why didn’t you say anything?”
“I didn’t know either until I washed up.”
“Ah… I really didn’t think that far. I’m sorry. I should be the one doing it. Let’s go.”
“No, no. I’ll, I’ll do it. Jeonghan-ah. I can do it.”
I kept repeating only the word “no.” Honestly, right now I had nothing to say except “no,” “it’s okay,” and “Jeonghan-ah.” Because those were the words I wanted to say and had to say.
“Are you embarrassed?”
“You’re not embarrassed? I’m seriously going crazy just talking to you about this right now.”
“What is there to be embarrassed about between us?”
What is “between us”? I almost snapped irritably. I suppressed my slightly sharpened thoughts and headed to the bathroom. I could feel Jeonghan following me.
“…I said it’s fine, why are you doing this? I really don’t want to show you that.”
“I’m the one who did it. I might not know if I hadn’t found out, but how can I just stay still when I know?”
“…You really don’t listen.”
“I won’t listen just this once and I’ll listen well from next time.”
Jeonghan, who grinned, grabbed me from behind and pushed me into the bathroom. I was half-resigned at this point. I knew all too well through long years that I couldn’t break this kind of stubbornness from Jeonghan, unlike other stubbornness. Saying no more here would just be a waste of time.
“……”
When I entered the shower booth and stood there, Jeonghan followed me in, stood behind me, and closed the door. Remembering how we’d had sex from behind yesterday where I couldn’t see his face, my fingertips tingled.
“Bend forward. Good.”
Jeonghan, who praised me as if I were a well-behaved child, picked up the showerhead and turned on the warm water. It had been awkwardly quiet enough to hear my breathing too loudly, but with the sound of water mixing in, it felt a bit more bearable.
“Huh…? Yuhyeon-ah.”
“…What?”
“You have bruises on your waist.”
“My waist?”
At Jeonghan’s words, I straightened my body and looked down at my waist to see it was indeed bluish with bruises on both sides. It was exactly where Jeonghan had been gripping tightly all along. I had felt his grip was strong enough that his fingers might penetrate through my skin, but seeing the bruises exactly where his fingers had been, I was speechless.
“I’m sorry. I must have grabbed you too hard. I’ll be careful from now on.”
From now on? My mood sank strangely at him mentioning next time as if it were natural. I should definitely be happy, but I couldn’t simply be happy.
“Now, bend over again.”
“……”
I bent my waist again and leaned forward. Feeling Jeonghan’s fingers entering right away, I quickly pressed both hands against the wall, afraid I’d fall. Ah, I really should have stopped him until the end and come into the bathroom alone and locked the door. I wanted to die having to show him my private parts with my body pulled back toward Jeonghan.
“…Ah…”
I tried not to make any sound, but the moment his finger pushed in deep all at once, a sound mixed with my breath flowed out. I bit my lip painfully again. Every time Jeonghan’s finger went in and scraped inside as it came out, my toes curled with tension.
“It’s done. How did you do this alone last time?”
“…I just did it. Now that you’re done… get out.”
“Wait a sec.”
Every time Jeonghan said “wait a sec,” my heart sank. I faced him as he turned my body around. He looked at me quietly, then turned my body a bit more and pushed me against the glass wall. My shoulders shrank at the sensation colder and harder than body temperature.
“…Now I get nervous every time you say ‘wait a sec.'”
“This time it’s really just a sec.”
Jeonghan pressed his body close, lowered his head, and buried his face in my nape. I couldn’t move a single fingertip at his erect penis I felt against my stomach. Jeonghan rubbed his lips against my nape and shoulder and pressed his body even closer.
“…Ah……”
There was no way to stay calm when touching someone I liked so openly like this. My breath grew hot at his instinctive action of rubbing his fully erect penis against my body. With some unknown courage, I moved my hand and grasped Jeonghan’s penis. As my hand touched him, Jeonghan let out a long breath over my nape. Before I could properly see his face as he raised his head, he urgently pressed his lips against mine.
“Mm… mmng……”
The situation felt so bizarrely unreal that I couldn’t think straight at all. I met his tongue that filled and ravaged my mouth while moving my hand a bit faster.
“Ha…”
The large hand that had been cupping and touching my cheek moved down and grasped my erect penis. The moment I was caught in his hand, heat rushed through my entire body. Not knowing shame, I moved my hand as he moved his. When he gripped the tip and rubbed the glans, I also rubbed his glans with my thumb, and when he stroked up the shaft, I also stroked up his shaft. Thinking that Jeonghan was feeling the same pleasure I was feeling, my wet lips kept drying from the heat.
“Ah… Yuhyeon-ah…”
Jeonghan’s heat-soaked voice flowed in. I moved my hand following his rapid shaking. Our bodies touching, his voice flowing into my ears, and the fact that the voice was creating my name—the moment my heart felt like it would burst, the pleasure that rushed up through my lower abdomen touched my heart and rose all the way to the top of my head. My hand was wet. Jeonghan, who had ejaculated similarly to me, tilted his head again and kissed me deeply.
“Haa… heu, ha……”
Jeonghan’s “wait a sec” was so hot and long that I felt my mind had completely left me since morning. Feeling like I’d fall into irresponsible temptation and forget about the cafe and everything if we continued like this, I pushed him away.
“…No more. I have to go to the cafe.”
“Okay. I should listen.”
“…That was quick.”
“Should I not listen?”
“Cha Jeonghan.”
“Okay. I’m leaving. I’m going, right now.”
Jeonghan, who opened the shower booth door saying he was leaving now, smiled at me with raised lips. How could he be so uninhibited? I was curious about Jeonghan who looked at me, touched my body, and smiled with a face that wasn’t nervous at all in this situation. If I could, I wanted to look inside him once. I wanted to ask how you could be so unfazed.
“……”
