Before I even had a chance to catch my breath, Kwon Yujin began to move. The member that had filled me completely slid out, and then—thwack!—thrust back in hard enough to make my entire body shake.
“Haak!”
It felt like he was hammering into me. The desire that had been tormenting me just moments ago melted away completely, leaving only pain and fear to dominate my consciousness.
Kwon Yujin, who had been roughly pounding into me from behind, grabbed my hair and pulled me up.
“How is it? Huu, how do you feel right now?”
“…Uut, heuuk!”
“Hm? I asked how it is.”
Kwon Yujin pulled his member out to the tip of the glans and then—thwack!—thrust back in persistently as he asked. Knowing it wouldn’t end until I answered, I forced open my parched lips and squeezed out a voice.
“It’s… strange.”
Kwon Yujin gripped my hair even harder. Then, holding me so my body wouldn’t collapse forward, he pushed deep inside me.
The more he did, the more my vision kept flashing white. My body went limp like a rag.
“What about now? Hm?”
“Ah, hup. It hurts….”
Kwon Yujin nibbled on my earlobe as he moved his hips heavily.
“Uuuut, haa.”
There was nothing I could predict about how he would move or what he would do to me. My whole body tingled with pain I’d never felt before and an eerie thrill. It was as if fine static electricity was flowing along my spine.
At the same time, it was overwhelming and suffocating. Because I couldn’t know at all what would happen next.
“How is it now?”
“It hurts… uuk. Stop, I’m scar… scared.”
“Huu….”
As soon as I answered, Kwon Yujin’s pheromones grew stronger. The member inside me seemed to get even bigger—or maybe it was just my imagination.
“I’m scared, hup.”
“You’re scared of me?”
“Aah….”
Kwon Yujin let go of the hair he’d been gripping. As my body collapsed onto the bed, he covered my entire back with his upper body. Soon after, Kwon Yujin’s soft hand overlapped my calloused one.
“I’m curious. Whether hyung is more scared now than what I felt in that house….”
“Haeut…. Yujin-ah.”
“I wonder, hyung. Hm?”
The quietly whispering voice was tangled with strange excitement and elation. Kwon Yujin’s emotions from the past that he hadn’t fully resolved were transmitted to me completely.
He wanted my fear. As soon as I realized that, belated regret came flooding in.
Why did I tell the child not to forget me at the end? Because of those words, because of me, Kwon Yujin might still be holding onto so much in the past. Unable to forget.
I should have just told him to forget everything and live on. I was selfish toward Kwon Yujin until the very end.
“I… back then…. You, I liked you, huk, so much…!”
I wanted us to become family. That’s why I hoped you wouldn’t forget.
Looking at it this way, I was unmistakably a selfish person who resembled my father. I shouldn’t have said that at the playground, shouldn’t have gone to watch your match.
“Do you still like me that much now?”
Kwon Yujin asked, but this time I couldn’t answer. As I moaned and lowered my head, Kwon Yujin roughly grabbed my hair again. Then he checked my face.
I wanted to shake off his touch, but it was impossible. So I had no choice but to show Kwon Yujin my crying face.
“Ha, shit….”
Because my vision was blurry, I couldn’t tell what kind of eyes Kwon Yujin was looking at me with—at my face that was a mess, tangled with pleasure, pain, and regret. I thought it was fortunate, rather.
Unable to control my body that jolted with each movement Kwon Yujin made, I leaned my back against his upper body. My head was burning up. The ecstasy rising along my lower back kept growing as if it would swallow me whole.
Slap, slap. As the sticky friction sound of wet flesh colliding against each other echoed, the moans flowing from my mouth grew louder too. It was a sound I’d never made in my life, so the unfamiliarity made me feel repulsed.
“Uut, haak, ah!”
But soon such trivial thoughts were quickly erased before the endlessly surging heat. My stomach, pelvis, and my member that had become erect at some point and was swaying—everything was rapidly being colored by pleasure I’d never felt before. There wasn’t a place that wasn’t hot and tingling.
Every time Kwon Yujin’s hand touched my skin, every time I felt his alpha pheromones, every time his member split me open and persistently invaded deep inside my belly—overwhelming sensations wrapped around me.
“Ah, ng! Wait, ah, heut… uuut.”
The more roughly Kwon Yujin dug into me, the more clearly only instinct bloomed. I was no different from a beast.
My fading reason returned the moment a damp, warm sensation touched my face.
Startled by the unfamiliar feeling, I soon had no choice but to be horrified. When I turned my gaze, Kwon Yujin was licking the tears rolling down my cheek with his tongue.
I recoiled in shock and shook my head.
“Uu… uut! Don’t, do that. Aheuk….”
“Haa, haa.”
“Please, th-that kind of thing… don’t do it. Kwon… Yujin.”
Kwon Yujin suddenly turned me, who had been lying face down, onto my back and pulled out his member. Then, with the feeling of my inner walls being scraped along with it, my full belly became hollow. It felt like a balloon that had been inflated tight and then deflated completely.
Kwon Yujin climbed on top of me as I begged him not to, and removed the condom on his member. Then, gripping the shaft, he began to shake it over my face.
“What are you doing right now….”
I stared up blankly at Kwon Yujin masturbating and couldn’t finish my words, my lips gaping.
Soon Kwon Yujin aimed the glans at my face.
“Keuut…!”
A few seconds later, semen shot up. From my forehead to my cheeks, the tip of my nose to my chin—I was covered in blotchy stains of semen.
Looking down at me—my face flushed red with heat, now covered in tears and semen—Kwon Yujin let out a satisfied exclamation.
He soon pulled up the corners of his mouth and smiled.
“Now you finally look like the Hyun Taeyoung I know.”
“……”
“It suits you well, hyung.”
Then he slowly pressed his lips against my sticky cheek.
“When you’re with me, stay like this the whole time.”
Stroking his member that was still standing erect, Kwon Yujin took out a new condom. While I was frozen in a daze, he tore open the wrapper with relaxed and leisurely movements. As if there was still plenty of time left.
***
The next day.
I woke up with a discomfort that was difficult to express in words.
“Uu….”
A groaning sound came from my mouth involuntarily. It was different from the muscle pain I felt when I first learned to work at the construction site, carrying bags of Remital and stone materials.
As soon as I came to my senses, I realized that where I was lying wasn’t my room. I hurriedly got up from the bed and looked at the clothes scattered on the floor. I pulled out the mask I’d packed for emergencies, put it on, and even picked up a cap to wear.
“Kwon Yujin.”
I belatedly called Kwon Yujin’s name, but the bedroom was quiet. Trying hard to ignore the discomfort I felt below, I checked the bathroom and various parts of the hotel room, but there seemed to be no one there.
Did he go home….
I rubbed my eyes and checked the time. 5 AM. It seemed I’d slept longer than I thought.
But where did Kwon Yujin go at this dawn hour? Maybe he was uncomfortable sharing the same bed with me, so after just finishing what he needed to, he left. Since my memory was cut off from the middle, I couldn’t recall how yesterday’s act had ended.
In any case, the fact that no one was in the room was rather fortunate. Because I didn’t have to show Kwon Yujin my defenseless face right after waking up. Just thinking about opening my eyes and him being right in front of me made me feel ashamed and nauseous.
In the midst of this, the used condoms scattered here and there on the bed and carpet caught my eye. I picked them up and put them in the trash.
After that, I quickly finished showering and gathered my remaining clothes and belongings. I didn’t know whether Kwon Yujin had left completely or was planning to come back, but I had the sense that I needed to vacate the place as quickly as possible.
So without even properly drying my hair, I left the hotel room.
“Huh? Taeyoung-ssi. You’re up already?”
But as soon as I went outside, I ran into an unexpected person. Kwon Yujin’s agent Lee Gyumin was standing in front of the door with a surprised face.
“Hello.”
“Did you sleep well? I was just wondering whether I should knock because the player asked me to bring some of his belongings.”
“Where is Kwon Yujin?”
“There’s an advertisement shoot here today.”
Ah, right. He did say there was a shoot. I finally remembered the fact I’d forgotten.
“He’s at the swimming pool on the 37th floor right now. The shoot is about to start soon.”
“At this hour?”
“Well, since we rented the hotel swimming pool, we have no choice but to shoot during the time when people aren’t using it as much as possible.”
“I see.”
“If you’re bored, would you like to go watch?”
