And while I was waiting for the gimbap, I heard slurping sounds from the next table eating noodles, turned my head, and unconsciously swallowed my saliva. Then I followed that person’s lead and ordered janchiguksu as an additional order.
Until the food came out, I was so busy watching them wrap my gimbap and pour the noodles that I didn’t even know what I was doing.
Only after the food was placed in front of me and entered my mouth did I think, what is this all about?
‘What is this really…’
Continuously stuffing gimbap I don’t even like into my mouth and slurping noodles, I kept thinking. Why do these foods I don’t even like taste so good? Were these things originally so delicious that they made people lose their minds?
Then why didn’t the same food Yoo Seonjae made taste like this?
Is this Yoo Seonjae’s fault, or my mouth’s fault?
Whatever the fault, whoever’s fault, it didn’t matter. What mattered was that I liked tuna gimbap more than I thought and my stomach was big enough to eat noodles together with it.
“Puhaha.”
I was eating heartily when I suddenly laughed. What would Yoo Seonjae say if he saw me now? Even I found it absurd seeing myself eating alone at a snack bar for the first time in my life.
To borrow Yoo Seonjae’s expression, Han Yeoul with a small appetite and picky taste.
“Ah… that was delicious.”
I ate everything without leaving anything behind. It was the first time in my life I’d cleaned my plate completely. This is an amazing restaurant.
“Thank you for the meal.”
“Yes, that’s 12,000 won.”
“By the way, how long have you been in business here?”
“Huh?”
“Ah, it’s a shop I haven’t seen before.”
At my words, the clerk who was ringing me up smiled with a puzzled face and said:
“We’ve been here for over 20 years.”
“Ah, really? I see. I enjoyed it very much.”
I smiled awkwardly in embarrassment, greeted them, and quickly left the shop. It’s been here for 20 years, but why have I never seen it?
Come to think of it, among the restaurants in the neighborhood, there were only a few I knew. Even though it was an apartment complex with an office town next to it, one of the neighborhoods with many restaurants, the restaurants I knew were at most the meat restaurant I occasionally went to with Yoo Seonjae or the bakery where I bought salt bread recently.
I’ve heard people say I’m the type who doesn’t even glance at things I’m not interested in, but I only now realized I was at a pretty serious level.
Well, that’s why even though Yoo Seonjae caused all that commotion by my side, I didn’t know anything.
Thinking about it, I always seemed to live seeing only what I wanted to see. It was after I started working at the company that I realized things that weren’t in my world one by one and thought I should broaden my perspective while expanding my world.
Even so, a person’s personality or living environment doesn’t change overnight, so I was still living like a frog in a well.
Actually, I know very well that people think Yoo Seonjae is binding me, but that’s not true. Of course, Yoo Seonjae is overprotective of me, but I’m also staying within that protection because it’s comfortable.
Perhaps we’re maintaining the most comfortable state for each other out of mutual need.
Knowing this and still acquiescing to it, living while needing each other appropriately, is perhaps because the happiness I want is exactly that much.
Yoo Seonjae says like a habit that he doesn’t need anything as long as he has Han Yeoul.
Actually, it’s the same for me. I don’t need anything as long as I have Yoo Seonjae. Getting a job and living a social life wasn’t to escape from him, but because I wanted to become a person worthy of him, so I’m no different from a snare binding Yoo Seonjae.
“But this is a bit strange…”
While stroking my full stomach and walking down the street, I stopped at a sudden thought.
Both the pile of bread last time and today’s gimbap and noodles.
I’m too drawn to foods I wouldn’t normally even glance at. Although I desperately wanted to eat the bread I bought last time when I was buying it, when I tried to eat it at home, it somehow seemed to smell nauseating, so I put it all in the freezer.
Even when Yoo Seonjae made me a sandwich with the croissants he’d bought, I only ate half. Thinking about it now, even though I don’t like bread, my reaction shouldn’t have been to that extent.
“Wait a minute…”
I took out my phone and opened the diary app that records my heat cycle dates. When was my last heat cycle…?
“It’s been over 3 months.”
It wasn’t particularly surprising. My heat cycle was originally unstable. However, since Yoo Seonjae’s rut cycle was always regular, we’d been having sex according to his cycle. Especially recently, because he’d been knotting intensely, when his rut cycle came, I’d be worked so hard I couldn’t go to work for a while.
Even so, I wasn’t particularly nervous because I was recessive after all.
We didn’t use any special contraception. The possibility was close to zero anyway, and besides, once knotting started, contraception didn’t work anyway.
Because Yoo Seonjae is dominant.
When ordinary alphas or omegas have sex, they can just use appropriate contraception, but if a dominant person has the will, no contraceptive method works during knotting.
A recessive with no possibility of pregnancy and a dominant who can control contraception at will.
So we didn’t particularly worry about contraception when having sex. Besides, I always thought: Anyway, Yoo Seonjae doesn’t like children, so he’ll control it himself.
The word “DINK” clearly written in our marriage contract stirred through my mind again.
“Right… well, what could happen?”
I thought nothing of it and closed the app, but somehow an uneasy feeling crept up from one corner of my heart.
“Still, just in case.”
I stopped by a pharmacy on the way home and bought a pregnancy tester. I thought it was something I’d never use in my life, but my feelings buying it were quite complicated.
“I’m buying it just in case, just in case.”
I muttered to myself even though no one was listening. Right, there’s no way. If by any chance, if I were really pregnant against all odds, there would have been some sign when I had my regular checkup yesterday. What Professor Yeonwoo told me, that there were “no abnormalities,” means there were no changes.
Still, for some reason my heart kept pounding and I felt like I needed to get home quickly.
My steps grew faster and faster.
As I walked, I thought: What is it, what kind of day is today really that I keep being so distracted?
Was this my personality? I’m someone who does everything calmly, making plans and doing things step by step, but today nothing was going according to my plan.
In the morning, I impulsively took time off from work. Even though I’d used vacation time yesterday saying I had a regular checkup, using vacation time without any particular reason was nothing more or less than wanting to spend all day with Yoo Seonjae. Literally, I just felt like playing around all day.
I don’t even know why I felt that way, but when Yoo Seonjae went out for a schedule I didn’t know about, I even followed him out saying I’d tail him. I’d never done anything like tailing in my life, and since Yoo Seonjae always drove, even though I couldn’t drive well, I chased after him like playing detective and lost him. Because Yoo Seonjae didn’t take his car. If he had, I wouldn’t have lost him because I was entranced by the smell of gimbap.
Then I filled my stomach with gimbap and noodles I don’t even like that much and didn’t even leave anything behind.
Nothing was like me.
“I’m sure it’s not, but well… you never know.”
When I opened the front door muttering to myself even though no one was listening, Yoo Seonjae hadn’t returned yet. I took a deep breath and headed to the bathroom. I took out the tester, read the instructions on how to use it, did as the instructions said, and waited for the result to appear on the tester.
Even though it was obviously not the case, my heart kept beating fast.
“It’s taking longer than I thought.”
One minute felt like an hour. When the red line slowly began to rise on the tester, I held my breath. And when the tester clearly displayed the result, I doubted my eyes.
Red… two lines…
…No way.
I ended up collapsing right there.
“Ah… what do I do?”
No. Calm down. Let’s be calm, Han Yeoul.
Right… the tester could be wrong. Besides, I had my regular checkup just yesterday. If it were really a pregnancy, Professor Yeonwoo would have told me. How could he just let it pass?
After crouching in the bathroom for a while staring at the tester, I didn’t even notice Yoo Seonjae coming in.
“Honey, what are you doing?”
I was so startled I almost dropped what I was holding.
Let’s not tell him for now. Because it’s not certain, because it’s not certain yet.
