“Nngh, hah……”
His belly filled up. The firm glans scraped the inner walls with its very presence. Jang Juwon began to move up and down leisurely. Along with creaking sounds, the shaft revealed between his stretched hole repeated lengthening and shortening. It was satisfying to watch Baek Iseon’s expression grow increasingly impatient. Jang Juwon gradually increased his speed, shaking his hips to find the spots he could feel himself.
“Haah……”
As pleasure began to rise faintly, his upper body started collapsing forward. Jang Juwon leaned heavily against Baek Iseon’s shoulder.
“Sunbae……”
“……Yeah.”
“Help me……”
“……Fuck.”
As if he’d been waiting, Baek Iseon thrust his hips up. With a bang, Jang Juwon’s body bounced upward.
“Hngh! Aah, ngh! Good……!”
Sensations incomparably more intense and stimulating than when he was moving alone pierced through his body. His complicated head emptied in an instant. It didn’t take long for the empty space to be filled only with the person before his eyes.
Jang Juwon trembled finely at the waist and buried himself deeply in Baek Iseon’s embrace. Then he buried his forehead in his shoulder.
“……Jang Juwon, don’t you have class now?”
“Shut up……”
As if you were planning to let me go. Jang Juwon burrowed even deeper into his embrace.
* * *
No matter how much he avoided Ahn Jaeon, there were moments when they had to inevitably meet.
“Why the fuck is that bastard here?!”
Shin Jisu, who’d come to campus after a long time, whispered in Jang Juwon’s ear in shock.
“Haah, that’s what I’m saying……”
Jang Juwon let out a deep sigh. Mechanical Engineering Lab 2. This was the one class he couldn’t avoid him. Still, since it was strictly class time, there was no chance of him approaching recklessly.
As the experiment proceeded, Ahn Jaeon went around to each lab group helping the undergraduates with their experiments. And finally, there remained one last group he hadn’t visited.
He approached the table where Jang Juwon was. Choi Yeonho greeted him with a cheerful eye greeting, and Shin Jisu openly glared at him. Jang Juwon avoided his gaze.
“Here the strain is……”
“Ah, then since the material is brass, the coefficient is……”
“Juwon-ah, what’s the coefficient? Look it up.”
“……”
“Juwon-ah!”
That’s when Ahn Jaeon lightly tapped his shoulder. Jang Juwon, who hadn’t been concentrating, flinched in surprise and looked up at him.
“Juwon-ah, Yeonho is asking you to look up the coefficient.”
“Ah.”
“80,000!”
Suddenly Shin Jisu shouted and wedged her body between them.
“Jisu-ya, if you do this I can’t help……”
Ahn Jaeon smiled as if troubled.
“TA-nim, you really came to help, right?”
“What do you mean by that?”
“No, it seems like you came to satisfy personal motives.”
Shin Jisu smiled brightly and threw a fastball without hesitation. Ahn Jaeon was no pushover either. His expression didn’t change at all as he smiled back.
“……There seems to be a misunderstanding.”
“Then that’s fortunate.”
The war of nerves between the two continued ambiguously. Soon the experiment that felt like walking on thin ice finally ended and the professor announced class was over. Shin Jisu, who never carried a bag in the first place, tapped Jang Juwon and Choi Yeonho’s shoulders and hurriedly disappeared with the words “I’m leaving first.”
“Ha, she’s going on a date again. I’m so fucking jealous……”
Choi Yeonho muttered while staring blankly in the direction she’d disappeared.
“Hey, Jang Juwon.”
“Yeah?”
“Should we ask Jaeon hyung to buy us dinner today too?”
“Don’t talk nonsense…… Ah, should we?”
He suddenly had that thought. If he had to meet him every week anyway, just avoiding him like this wouldn’t solve anything. He still didn’t know his true intentions exactly, and Jang Juwon also had things he wanted to say to him.
This time Jang Juwon spoke to Ahn Jaeon first.
“TA-nim, please buy us drinks.”
“……Me?”
“Yes.”
“Okay. I will.”
Ahn Jaeon’s eyes widened as if a bit surprised, then he soon smiled warmly.
“Let’s go to the place we went last week.”
Jang Juwon smiled. A private room would be good. Since there would be loud noises.
* * *
There was a time when he was upset that he was too strong with alcohol. There were times he’d wanted to get completely drunk and lose consciousness, but no matter how much alcohol he poured in, his mind stayed clear. Back then he’d resented that, but not now. On the table lay an empty baijiu bottle and Choi Yeonho’s head.
Even though it was the same situation as last week, the person who produced the result was different. This time it was Jang Juwon. Jang Juwon finally said the words he’d tried to ask him a few days ago but couldn’t.
“Hyung, don’t tell me you still have lingering feelings for me? Is that why you’re doing this?”
“……Yeah.”
“You bastard.”
“Juwon-ah.”
“Back then, I shouldn’t have slept with a bastard like you.”
That’s how it started. He’d fallen completely for that appearance that seemed to embody his ideal type and gave his body first.
“Did you enjoy seducing a twenty-year-old kid, fucking him to your heart’s content and then dumping him?”
“What…… You know how much I liked you.”
“And yet, you did that as soon as you graduated?”
“Back then, back then I thought that was right……”
Haha. Jang Juwon laughed loudly. His words were ridiculous.
“You said you’d marry me. That you couldn’t see any more guys after that!”
“I didn’t want to do that either…… Juwon-ah, please……”
“So did you get married? Did you trap some poor woman and ruin her life?”
“No…… I didn’t see anyone. I, I never forgot you for a single day after that. Please……”
“Then why did you do it? If you were going to be stuck like an idiot unable to do this or that, why the hell did you do it!”
If you were going to abandon me like that, at least live well. Don’t appear looking this unhappy. Jang Juwon steadied his heart that kept trying to weaken. He was a ghost from the past. Someone who had nothing to do with him anymore. And he should be that kind of existence to him too.
“……They found out. My parents, about me seeing you……”
“……What?”
“So, that’s why I did it……”
“……”
“I didn’t have the courage to protect you.”
“……”
“I’m sorry……”
At that devastating and all too realistic confession, the hearts of both people present simultaneously crumbled. Thick teardrops fell drop by drop from Ahn Jaeon’s eyes.
“Juwon-ah…… I’m sorry……”
“It’s fine.”
It was supposed to be a meeting to unleash everything and get angry. The heart that had been trying to pour out his accumulated anger hesitated for a moment and subsided. Perhaps everyone has their circumstances. His feelings were complicated at the thought that he might not be the only one who’d been hurt.
“I…… cut ties with my parents.”
“What?”
At the shocking statement, their eyes met. Jang Juwon’s pupils began to shake uneasily.
“That, that…… It’s not because of me, right?”
His voice trembled as he asked back. Please, he hoped he would deny it wasn’t because of him. He hoped he’d answer asking what he was talking about, how could it be because of him.
“I love you, Juwon-ah.”
“No, don’t do this.”
“Now you’re all I have left.”
“No!!”
