Suddenly curious, I picked up my phone again, and inadvertently let out an empty laugh.
“Why do I keep searching for side effects?”
This had become an ingrained habit. Whenever I felt anxious, I’d search, and after seeing the search results, I’d become even more anxious. Since recently visiting the hospital, I’d been refraining from searching about my condition.
Because until Mom and Dad adapted to my absence, it would only encourage my misfortune.
For now, until that time comes, I will be faithful to the present. I wanted to cover up the misfortune to come for a while and focus on the cohabitation with Jeongwoo hyung-nim that I’d dreamed of.
“I should look into suppressants a bit more.”
2:30 AM.
I resisted searching further, but my mood became unnecessarily troubled, so I turned off my phone and buried my face in the pillow.
My room was said to be the room where hyung-nim’s bed originally was. Perhaps because of that, it felt like hyung-nim’s pheromones were subtly permeated in the room.
Actually, it seemed like hyung-nim’s traces remained throughout this entire house.
“……Mmm.”
I wiggled my toes. I don’t think it’s because of the subtle pheromones. It’s just that when I have these thoughts, my body gets hot for no reason.
Eventually, I pulled the teddy bear next to me into my arms. And gently rubbed between my legs.
The teddy bear with a typical appearance had been placed on my bed by hyung-nim since I first entered this house. The texture was soft and fluffy, giving a subtle stimulation.
“Haah……”
My breathing gradually became heavier.
Of course it would be different from the meaning Jeongwoo hyung-nim spoke of, but at times like this, I really did seem to be a beast.
There was a more definite reason why I wasn’t very faithful to my student duties in the house I came to live in with hyung-nim. After 20 years, I was finally living in the same space as hyung-nim, so things like major classes couldn’t possibly feel important.
For studying, I was only submitting the minimum assignments, and at night I aimed for the timing when hyung-nim fell asleep. It seems like he’ll come home late today, so wouldn’t that be okay?
It was when I kept rubbing between my legs. My body gradually heated up from the sensation that was only gentle, not intensely stimulating. A humid air was felt, as if moisture began to form at the tip of my member.
“Hnngh.”
At this rate, it felt like my underwear and pants would get wet. Not only that, but I was gradually becoming desperate.
It was the moment I was about to put my hand inside my pajama pants.
Beep beep beep beep-.
The door lock sound rang briefly. It was hyung-nim.
“Huk!”
I reflexively pulled up the blanket and curled up my body. I turned off the light and held my breath.
Orderly footsteps, the sound of taking off dress shoes, the sound of putting down a bag, a sigh, and even the sound of fabric rustling as if loosening a necktie.
The sounds heard with just one door between us were vivid.
After holding my breath for a moment, I gradually began moving again.
I hadn’t put my hand in my pants yet. The jerking movements gradually became bolder and faster. My body heated up more and more, and I wanted to put my hand inside my pants and shake my member, but the subtle stimulation like now also felt good.
“Haah, ngh.”
The person I confidently made eye contact with during the day becomes an existence that gives tension just by being there at night like this. And I couldn’t control my excitement even in that tension.
The footsteps that had been moving little by little came close to the front of my room.
What if he suddenly opens the door?
Even while thinking that, I kept rubbing my body against the doll. The air inside the blanket was much hotter and more humid than before.
“Hngh, ngh, haah……”
It was hot, but I couldn’t remove the blanket. Because the panting sounds mustn’t leak out.
That’s when it happened.
“Hajin-ah, are you asleep?”
Huk! Hyung-nim’s voice flowed lowly from beyond the door.
I covered my mouth with my eyes wide open.
My heart beat hard. I briefly considered answering, but right now I couldn’t answer with a normal voice.
“Guess he’s asleep.”
Hyung-nim’s footsteps stopped in front of my door for a moment, then moved away again.
The act that had been continuing finally stopped. The excitement had subsided a bit because I was so startled.
The living room light turned off, and the sound of showering water could be heard faintly.
“……I’m thirsty.”
I’d already pretended to be asleep, so I hesitated for a moment, but after holding back and holding back, I eventually kicked off the blanket and got up.
I carefully opened the door and came out. I stuck my head out as far as possible and looked at hyung-nim’s room, but no light was leaking out differently.
“Is he already asleep?”
I know office workers are busy, but hyung-nim had been far too busy even after leaving his job. That was the only complaint that arose after living with hyung-nim.
I walked down the hallway, killing my footsteps. I’d been covered in blankets so much that I was hot enough to sweat. It was when I poured cold water into a glass cup I’d washed earlier and gulped it down in one go.
“!”
Looking again from the kitchen, hyung-nim’s door was slightly open. After being dazed for a moment, I approached while taking a sip of the water I’d refilled. It was purely because I wanted to see hyung-nim’s sleeping face.
The door was carelessly open enough to see inside without carefully peeking.
As I approached the door, I could see hyung-nim standing under a mood lamp through the gap. He seemed to have just finished showering and was drying the water from his hair with a towel, and hyung-nim’s gaze in the mirror was directed right at me.
“……Oh.”
Still dazed until then, I hurriedly stepped back.
“Hy-hyung-nim.”
“You’re not asleep?”
As if pleased to see me, hyung-nim quickly approached the door. Wet strands of hair were scattered on his forehead, and perhaps because of the late hour, languid eyes looked down at me.
Hyung-nim wasn’t wearing a top. Broad shoulders, firm chest, and even abs.
The body usually hidden under a suit was blatantly revealed without any covering. I wondered when such a busy person even worked out, and it seemed like his body had gotten even bigger than before.
Water droplets fell from his wet hair, running down his long neckline, passing his distinct collarbone and flowing toward his chest. Not knowing where to place my eyes, I desperately tried to look only at hyung-nim’s face.
But even that wasn’t easy to maintain composure. Hyung-nim’s face holding moisture was excessively sexy.
Hyung-nim was leaning against the doorway looking at me. Hyung-nim’s silhouette receiving the hallway lighting looked even longer.
The meeting gaze came down very slowly. Neck, shoulders, and after lingering briefly on the chest area, it came back up. And then.
“Did I disturb you?”
Hyung-nim asked with a lingering expression.
“……What?”
“It seemed like you were doing something. Diligently.”
Wh-what is he talking about me doing?
“Everything about this house is good, but the soundproofing isn’t great.”
At those words, I froze blankly, and hyung-nim stared at me like that and slightly raised the corners of his mouth.
This isn’t a misunderstanding.
Clearly it was a gaze looking at a child, but something different was mixed in it.
“……”
My breath stopped. Could hyung-nim have really noticed?
I definitely covered myself tightly with the blanket and held my breath…….
Hyung-nim took one more step closer. Whenever the distance narrowed like this, I felt overwhelmed by his large body. I eventually lowered my eyes.
But I still felt hyung-nim’s gaze. It seemed like he was staring intently at somewhere on my face.
“Assignment?”
After a long while, hyung-nim asked lowly.
“……What? Assignment?”
“Yeah, I thought you were studying.”
Ah!
Come to think of it, hyung-nim seemed to have just noticed from my face that I was awake.
What was that gaze from before? It was definitely different somehow.
Hyung-nim hadn’t noticed anything, but having shot myself in the foot, my face felt like it would burn up.
“Y-yes, yes, that’s right. I, I had some assignments, so I was looking at them. What hyung-nim thought is correct.”
Embarrassment came back doubly belatedly. What misunderstanding did I have again?
“Looking at you like this, your cheeks are red. You must have concentrated really hard on your assignment.”
Hyung-nim lowered his head close, as if to examine my face.
Huk, I reflexively raised my arm to cover below my eyes. Since I’d only planned to drink water originally, I hadn’t been mindful of my pheromones.
When I belatedly stepped back and covered my face, hyung-nim lowered his head even more to try to observe my face.
“You’re very red. Your ears too. You’re not really sick, are you?”
My eyes widened. Unlike before, there was concern mixed in hyung-nim’s voice.
Hyung-nim took a step closer.
No, it’s really not like that……! I still shook my head while covering my face.
We shouldn’t be this close. It felt like my pheromones would be discovered any moment.
