The sound of the front door opening, the sound of shoes being taken off, the sound of the refrigerator door opening. All of it was strangely reassuring.
My room was cozier than I thought.
White-toned wallpaper with bright wood furniture, and in the afternoon, sunlight seeping through the curtains gently dyed the floor.
On my desk were a laptop and major textbooks, but those were merely interior decoration to pretend I was studying. In reality, I spent more time lying in bed fiddling with my phone.
“Whether it’s staying out overnight or coming home late, just report it in advance.”
This was the condition hyung-nim set. Honestly, I was a little surprised.
“I-I can stay out overnight?”
“Just tell me properly where you are and who you’re with. Oh, and give me your friends’ phone numbers too.”
“Is it okay if there are alphas among my friends?”
“Hajin-ah, think carefully before asking. Do you think I’ll allow it?”
“What if I get a lover?”
Honestly, I asked that out of spite. And at my question, hyung-nim noticeably hesitated.
“Tell me when that time comes.”
Does hyung-nim think there’s no way I’ll get a lover? He was so firm that my pride was a little hurt.
But listening to it, it seemed even worse than our mom. I wasn’t confident whether I’d be able to experience freedom in this cohabitation with hyung-nim.
“No objections?”
“It’s different from what I thought, so I don’t like it. It doesn’t seem very free.”
“I’ve also compromised a lot considering you’re twenty years old. If you just keep this, there’s nothing for your parents to worry about, and I’ll tell them that Hajin is still faithfully devoted to his duties as a student.”
“…”
“Your answer?”
Of course, I had no choice but to answer obediently. In fact, the most important thing for me was living with hyung-nim.
“Yes.”
“I’ll say it again… you can’t live like a beast following its desires after being born as a human, Hajin-ah.”
At that time, hyung-nim held my shoulders with both hands and spoke.
I could feel it. That hyung-nim saw me as a beast that could jump anywhere.
“What you’ve been doing lately is exactly that. An unbridled…”
Rather, thanks to those words, I finally felt like I’d taken a step away from being seen as a child. I answered while trying not to show my proud feelings as much as possible.
“I’ll try my best. Hyung-nim.”
“Even when you answer, I’m strangely anxious.”
Although I nodded at the words that a certain degree of freedom was guaranteed, honestly I wasn’t being very faithful to my duties as a student in this house.
It wasn’t major delinquency. It’s just that I enjoyed playing games with friends during free periods or going out to eat delicious food more than attending school classes. And when I came home, I waited for hyung-nim to return.
Like that, after going to and from school and hanging out with friends, if I came home before hyung-nim and reported “I’m home,” hyung-nim would always send a reply in the same tone.
Yoo Jeongwoo hyung-nim
Good job, colt.
The first time I was called a colt, I was flustered. The worst part wasn’t that he was comparing me to a beast, but that it was specifically a baby horse.
“Still, is it better than a human baby?”
Anyway, even though I didn’t know what it was, those words were strangely warm, so next time I ended up contacting him once more for no reason.
Hyung-nim, please come home quickly too. You’re not a beast.
Yoo Jeongwoo hyung-nim
Hyung-nim is working overtime.
“Oops. I shouldn’t disturb hyung-nim.”
I had an assignment for a liberal arts course, so my evening wasn’t completely free either.
We couldn’t always eat dinner together, but when we prepared and ate meals together, my heart tickled, and on days like today when he came home late, hyung-nim working hard seemed pitiful.
I selected an emoticon for about a minute, sent it, then put down my phone. It was an emoticon with a bouncing rabbit picture that said “Fighting!”
The rabbit on the screen looked cute, so I stared at it for a moment, then my eyes widened at the 1 that immediately disappeared.
Yoo Jeongwoo hyung-nim
Thank you.^^
I hadn’t sent the emoticon hoping for a reply.
“…Hyung-nim is like an ajusshi.”
That’s why it’s good. The unexpected reply made me feel like I was on cloud nine.
“Ah, I should mention the MT later.”
These days, the upcoming MT was what I looked forward to most. I couldn’t go to the freshman orientation camp a month ago because I was frustrated by the fact that I might have a terminal illness, but this time I was determined to attend.
After barely submitting my assignment, I lay on the bed with a tired mind and turned on my phone. I stared at the ceiling, lost in thought. Come to think of it, I’m now living alone with an alpha, so maybe I should take suppressants in case something unfortunate happens.
I knew that usually, trait-manifested people often took suppressants regularly after becoming adults. Since minors with unstable hormones had symptoms similar to a heat cold, rather than taking suppressants, they would spend the period resting at home for a few days.
I didn’t have frequent cycles either, and I’d never experienced such strong symptoms, so I’d never taken suppressants until now.
Honestly, I don’t think anything special will happen just because I’m with Jeongwoo hyung-nim…
“No, wait a minute.”
Come to think of it, even if that’s the case for me. What about our Mom and Dad?
Mom and Dad even had herbal medicine made for hyung-nim and me to take together and sent it yesterday, yet no one even mentioned heat cycle suppressants or anything.
Even hyung-nim, who was thorough enough to be like a scholar in this area, was like that.
“That’s too much, everyone, too much.”
Probably because they trust hyung-nim so much they couldn’t even think of heat or anything. I trust hyung-nim too, but…
“No matter how I look at it, the reason they’re opposed is natural. To your parents, the world is dangerous, and in my eyes, you’re the most dangerous.”
As hyung-nim said, the most dangerous one was me. I couldn’t trust myself.
Heat cycle suppressant recommendations
Since I thought of it, I picked up my phone and opened the search bar.
“…Oh.”
Heat cycle suppressants that suit your body! What side effects should you be careful of?
I clicked on whatever came up, but looking at the title, it happened to be a blog post that organized side effects. Since I’d become particularly sensitive to side effects lately, I hesitated for a moment, but my eyes were already reading the text.
Hello neighbors! 😀
Isn’t it really chilly in the mornings and evenings these days?
Hot during the day and cold at night… Today too, I went out dressed lightly for no reason and regretted it in the evening ㅠㅠ
Anyway, lately my acquaintances have been exchanging questions like “What suppressants do you use?” “Does that medicine have side effects?” really often.
I also took pheromone suppressants for a while before!
When I was taking them, I took them steadily without much thought, but later I found out that there are side effects with long-term use. 🙁
In the post, there was a white emoticon with a round head giving a thumbs up or crying tears in each paragraph. After scrolling through the introduction for quite a while, information about side effects finally appeared.
- Pheromone secretion imbalance
This is the most common side effect.
If you take suppressants for a long time, your own pheromone secretion rhythm can be disrupted.
Simply put, your body starts to get confused about “when to secrete.”
So when you stop taking the medicine, it can suddenly secrete excessively, or conversely, it can become an unstable state where it’s hardly secreted at all.
Because it takes time for the body to find its rhythm again, it’s important for long-term users to definitely have a ‘drug-free period’!
- Possibility of reproductive function decline
With long-term use, some cases have been reported where the hormone balance collapses and reproductive function declines.
Especially if you’re still in your growth period or if you forcefully took medicine in the early stages of manifestation, problems such as irregular cycle periods and reproductive function decline can occur.
Of course, it doesn’t happen to all trait-manifested people, but I definitely recommend expert consultation before taking it steadily!
- Emotional dulling
This is a part that surprisingly many people will relate to.
Since pheromone suppressants suppress physiological reactions linked to emotions as well, the intensity of emotions often becomes weaker than before.
“Even though I like my lover so much these days, it’s not like before.”
People who say things like this, most of them are actually taking suppressants.
Pheromone suppressants are definitely medicine that greatly helps in daily life.
But since it’s medicine that changes the body’s rhythm, through this posting I learned that adjustment is really important.
Steadily check your own condition, and if you feel even slightly off, definitely consult an expert.
Actually, the best thing would be to spend the cycle with a partner, right?
In the next posting
→ “5 things to be careful of when spending a cycle with a partner”
I’ll organize it!
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I put down my phone for a moment.
“…Emotional dulling?”
Actually, more than the other side effects, that part stuck in my heart.
My feelings for hyung-nim explosively grew from the time I manifested as an omega.
They changed like a new world had opened. Probably because it was the first time I was sexually awakened.
If I take pheromone suppressants, will my feelings about this one-sided love also fade?
