[In front of a bastard who calls himself Cha Hohyeon. Why. Are you coming?]
“Kang Juno!!”
The call ended.
Go Yoon felt like he was losing his mind after hearing those words. He never expected Kang Juno, who he thought believed in him, to react this way, and he couldn’t dare to calculate how much hurt Kang Juno, who didn’t believe him, would inflict on Cha Hohyeon.
Go Yoon immediately strode toward the front door to go find Kang Juno. As objects got kicked by Go Yoon’s feet, he irritably kicked them aside and tried to quickly head toward the entrance, but failed.
“Where are you going?”
Moon Hamoon blocked Go Yoon’s path.
“Hyung, move. I need to find Juno right now.”
“Go Yoon.”
When Moon Hamoon grabbed Go Yoon, Go Yoon irritably shook him off. From that recoil, Moon Hamoon staggered back and bumped into the desk, causing the objects on the desk to fall to the floor, creating a cacophony. Lee Robi turned pale seeing the two who looked like they were about to fight.
“I’m scared.”
Moon Hamoon, angered by Go Yoon’s behavior, instantly rushed at Go Yoon. As if unable to watch the two of them any longer, Lee Robi covered his face with both hands.
“What’s wrong with both of you? How long has it been since we made up, and now you’ve gone crazy and made the house look like this?”
“Hyung. Where did Kang Juno go? I need to find Juno. Find him and—”
Moon Hamoon recalled Kang Juno’s appearance from earlier. After coming home and talking on the phone with Go Yoon, he couldn’t contain his anger and yelled while throwing objects to the floor and pounded his chest as if suffocating.
Kang Juno had yelled about what the hell he was supposed to do in this situation, suffered in agony, then ran out of the house. Lee Robi, who had just been watching in a daze without knowing what was going on, was terrified, and Moon Hamoon was flustered, wondering what on earth was happening. And not long after, when Go Yoon came in and did the same thing as Kang Juno, Moon Hamoon was furious to the top of his head.
“Find him and!!”
Moon Hamoon, grabbing the collar of Go Yoon who looked like he was about to bolt out the front door any second, shouted. Moon Hamoon yelled loudly and tried to physically restrain Go Yoon, who was trying to push him away. Lee Robi covered his ears again, and Go Yoon, momentarily startled by the loud voice, frowned and said to Moon Hamoon.
“Hyung, move.”
“Find him and then what, what are you going to do!! Hit him? Go Yoon!! Get a grip. Your eyes have completely snapped right now!!”
“Move!!”
Go Yoon was in a hurry. He needed to find him as soon as possible and pull Kang Juno away from Cha Hohyeon, but Moon Hamoon, who couldn’t possibly know his feelings, was just blocking him, angry at Kang Juno and Go Yoon for not only making a mess of the house but also terrifying Lee Robi.
“Stop it, please! We agreed to try to do well together. Everyone promised that, so why are you suddenly acting like this? Don’t you see Robi shaking in fear?”
At those words, Go Yoon slowly turned his head to look at Lee Robi, who was covering his ears and flinching. Lee Robi, who had become thin from recent emotional stress, was covering his ears. Seeing that, Go Yoon squeezed his eyes shut, cooled his anger, then spoke to Moon Hamoon almost pleadingly.
“Hyung, this is really important. Please just tell me.”
“……”
“Right now Juno is making the wrong choice and it’s because of me. If I can’t catch Juno here, Juno and I will go so far away we can’t come back. I have to stop it now.”
At Go Yoon’s plea, Moon Hamoon ran his hands through his hair with a complicated expression. Since it was almost the first time seeing Go Yoon trembling with such anxiety, Moon Hamoon tried not to show it outwardly but was extremely confused, and although he couldn’t understand this situation at all, he could tell that Go Yoon’s words were sincere.
“Then you should at least tell me what’s going on. What are you both doing keeping your mouths shut? And even if I knew where Kang Juno went, I can’t tell you. There’s no guarantee you two won’t fight.”
“Hyung, please……”
“Lee Robi. It’s all over now, so stop doing that and come here.”
Hamoon, who let out a long sigh, gestured to Lee Robi, who was still trembling, to come over. Lee Robi slowly walked over with a face asking if it was really over now and stuck close to Moon Hamoon’s side.
“Even if I knew, I can’t tell you.”
Moon Hamoon had a firm face showing he absolutely would not reveal Kang Juno’s location. Next to Moon Hamoon, Lee Robi was watching Go Yoon’s mood while thoroughly scared.
“Yoon-ah, don’t be angry.”
“……”
“We agreed to try to do well together.”
Go Yoon looked at Lee Robi, who was speaking carefully. Then Go Yoon alternately looked at Moon Hamoon’s tired face. Only then did Go Yoon bow his head deeply and belatedly realize what he had just done, lowering his head.
He hated himself so much for ultimately repeating the same mistake when they had agreed not to do this. He was an idiot who hurt them like this when he had told the members to treat each other well from now on. He had committed another foolish mistake of hurting the members. With a devastated heart, Go Yoon swept his face with his hand and quietly opened his mouth.
“Robi-ya, I’m sorry.”
Lee Robi’s eyes widened, unable to believe what he had just heard. Moon Hamoon next to him was also surprised and opened his eyes wide, then looked at Go Yoon in disbelief as he apologized to him as well.
“Hamoon hyung, I’m really sorry too.”
“Hey, you……”
“I’m sorry for raising my voice and making the house noisy. I’m really sorry for pushing you both without thinking and pressuring you out of nowhere. I’m sorry for hurting you.”
Go Yoon earnestly grabbed Moon Hamoon and Lee Robi’s arms.
“But I really have to stop Kang Juno. So please turn a blind eye just this once.”
“……”
“I’ll bring him back safely. Okay?”
However, Moon Hamoon, who knew well that it wouldn’t end easily if the hot-tempered Kang Juno and Go Yoon clashed, seemed reluctant to move aside.
‘Right. What if something happens again if I tell him? Let’s not tell him.’
Just as Moon Hamoon was thinking that and about to shake his head to give a gentle refusal, his eyes widened at the hand gesture pulling at him.
“Robi-ya.”
Lee Robi had grabbed Moon Hamoon’s clothes. Moon Hamoon’s eyes widened at the gesture meaning to move aside and let Go Yoon pass, and Lee Robi pulled Moon Hamoon away to clear the path for Go Yoon, then said to him.
“Building H, Restaurant K.”
“Lee Robi.”
Despite Moon Hamoon’s reproachful gaze asking why he was telling him that, Lee Robi spoke clearly without backing down. Lee Robi’s blue eyes contained only Go Yoon.
“I saw Juno call that restaurant earlier.”
“Thank you.”
Moon Hamoon couldn’t understand Lee Robi’s action of letting them meet together when they should be kept apart, but Lee Robi, having seen some kind of possibility in Go Yoon, told him the location and then spoke to Go Yoon’s back as he was about to leave.
“Don’t fight.”
“……”
“And don’t get hurt either.”
Go Yoon didn’t answer those words and opened the door and went out. Thinking he wouldn’t get an answer, Lee Robi looked only at the back of Go Yoon’s head with a slightly disappointed face, when Go Yoon said calmly.
“Yeah.”
Creeeak—
“I’ll bring him back safely.”
Bang—
Then the door closed. Lee Robi, who had heard the answer, stared blankly at the entrance when Moon Hamoon shook Lee Robi from the side, saying something.
“Lee Robi. Why did you tell him Kang Juno’s location? If they end up fighting at the restaurant—”
“They might fight and get hurt, right?”
“Huh? Are you serious right now? They both had expressions like they were about to kill someone!”
Moon Hamoon belatedly burst out in frustration at Lee Robi’s calm appearance as if saying ‘1+1=2, right?’, but Lee Robi’s eyes were only looking at the entrance where Go Yoon had left. He stared quietly at the entrance, then shifted his gaze to Moon Hamoon.
“It seemed like Yoon really wanted to fix what he did wrong.”
Lee Robi also knew well Go Yoon’s temperament of never apologizing. From Go Yoon’s sincere and desperate appearance, who had such strong pride and never bent easily, Lee Robi felt that if he blocked Go Yoon’s path this time, somehow Go Yoon would regret it for the rest of his life, so he wanted to move aside.
“I wanted to believe in Yoon.”
“Robi-ya.”
“There are only four of us now.”
Lee Robi smiled cheerfully.
“What if we don’t believe in ourselves?”
“……”
Since it was almost the first time Lee Robi spoke like this, Moon Hamoon also seemed at a loss for words and only let out a deep sigh. Lee Robi, who was watching Moon Hamoon like that, said with an “Ah!” as if realizing something.
“Of course, there’s also Hohyeon watching us from heaven!”
“……”
“Normally, Hohyeon would have taken Yoon’s side, but Hohyeon’s not here. I have to do it.”
“That’s right.”
Cha Hohyeon had always been on everyone’s side. So even when other members didn’t take one member’s side, he was the kid who would definitely take that one member’s side and help them with what they wanted to do from the side. Moon Hamoon, watching Lee Robi speak brightly, ruffled his hair as if to say he was kind.
“Let’s clean up the house.”
“Okay.”
Moon Hamoon nodded and looked at Lee Robi’s back as he walked ahead of him, his face contorting as if about to cry. In a foreign country where the language, culture, and everything was different and difficult, it must have been the youngest, Cha Hohyeon, not himself as the older brother, who gave Lee Robi the most strength by his side.
That’s why Lee Robi always seemed relatively younger and more immature than Cha Hohyeon.
Even after Cha Hohyeon died, Lee Robi just kept feeling too much physical pain, headaches, and continuing to do strange behaviors he couldn’t understand himself, so without knowing the exact cause or reason why he was sick, he went to the hospital to get medicine and received counseling.
And yet, from Lee Robi’s appearance of trying to maintain a bright demeanor throughout, Moon Hamoon finally realized.
“I’m sorry.”
The role of being the pillar of this team should be done by himself, Kang Juno, and Go Yoon.
“Robi-ya, I’m sorry.”
For our incomplete selves. Robi. You’ve grown up.
Moon Hamoon felt so sorry about that fact.
