23.
Cheon Jaerim was simply packing his things. Thinking I’d been seeing a lot of packing lately, I got up from my seat. At the rustling sound, Cheon Jaerim turned around. In Cheon Jaerim’s hands was the bundle of medicine I’d been taking faithfully. The medicine, of which about half had been given, still had a considerable amount. Cheon Jaerim, who had been fingering the thick bundle, opened his mouth toward me, but I was faster.
“Are you going to throw it away?”
“I asked the doctor. He said those symptoms can appear temporarily.”
“Then why wasn’t it like yesterday before? I’ve been taking medicine for a long time.”
“You said you lived alone there. Did you ever talk to other people or anything? The hospital and society are different. They’re not nice people who listen to everything a patient says.”
“Will I get better again?”
“Of course.”
I became intimidated as if being scolded. If I’d listened to Cheon Jaerim’s words earlier, would I have gotten to this point? I hugged my knees and buried my face to the side. I hear the sound of Cheon Jaerim approaching. The hand that had stayed by my side all night swept back the bangs covering my forehead.
“You sweated a lot.”
Cheon Jaerim’s gaze comes down. He was slowly scanning my naked body. I don’t even feel like covering up. I wanted to lean on the hand that casually stroked my head. I moved my head from my knees to Cheon Jaerim’s hand. I feel like a puppy acting cute to its owner. I can act cute like that as many times as needed. I hoped Cheon Jaerim wouldn’t abandon me even if I looked like this.
“Should we stay here a few more days before leaving?”
This is no longer a place for me to stay. I shook my head quickly.
“Let’s go home.”
There are only bad memories here. I hear another voice in my heart. Then what about other places? Are other places places that planted good memories in me? The voice in my heart confused me, but anywhere was better than here. The grasslands of the village seemed like they would kick me out if I set foot in them, and I wouldn’t be able to set foot in the market where I’d been humiliated. It feels like I’ve been branded with a scarlet letter. I buried my head in Cheon Jaerim’s hand and repeated the words ‘Let’s go home.’
“Okay.”
Thank you. I said with my mouth buried in his skin. I don’t know if it reached his ears since it was a voice drained of strength.
***
In conclusion, I came back. To the place I thought was eating away at me. The unchanging fact is that Cheon Jaerim is my only fence to lean on. Rather than ‘how should I live now,’ the feeling of ‘what if even Cheon Jaerim leaves me’ grows like an ocean. I’ve encountered a new difficulty.
I woke up in the middle of the night. I checked if there was someone next to me. I feel a raised mound. I was relieved by the fact that Cheon Jaerim was keeping his place. I turned my body and looked at Cheon Jaerim sleeping.
Just one thing a day…… Just one thing a day…….
Since they said too much worry is poison, I’m only worrying about one thing now. But unless someone stops me, I won’t be able to escape as if tied in a snare. I sat up. I pushed Cheon Jaerim, who was lying on his side, with my finger. Cheon Jaerim’s body was pushed weakly and laid in a supine position. I squirmed next to him. I went into the blanket and climbed on top of Cheon Jaerim’s body. The thick blanket covered my body as if nothing had happened.
As if I’m not even heavy, he sleeps soundly. Annoyed, I put my hand into his pants. The gray sweatpants stretched like rubber. I can see the black underwear line. I took out his cock. After kneading it a few times, I just put it in my mouth. The human heart is so wicked. It was an act I used to suffer from, but now it wasn’t painful at all.
Slurp, chup…… The dry cock quickly became wet with saliva. I hear Cheon Jaerim’s heavy breathing. His legs moved and his body tilted to the side. I held onto the pants that had come off. I lifted my head up. I couldn’t see Cheon Jaerim’s face outside the blanket. The only thing illuminating the dark inside of the blanket was the cock glistening with saliva.
“What are you doing?”
In an instant, cold air came over my head. The weight of the blanket covering my back disappeared completely. Cheon Jaerim had removed the blanket. I looked up with Cheon Jaerim’s glans half in my mouth. With good timing, saliva dripped down below my lips. I made a slurping sound as I sucked in the dripping saliva. Because of that, the cock in my mouth was sucked in. I feel Cheon Jaerim’s thigh muscles tense up. I took his cock out of my tingling mouth and muttered softly. You told me to tell you when I have bad thoughts.
Cheon Jaerim looked at his bare cock twitching near my lips, then looked at me again. Am I heavy? Are his legs numb? I hurriedly tried to get down from under his legs. But Cheon Jaerim’s movement was faster. He put me back on top of his legs so I couldn’t come down.
“Then……”
Cheon Jaerim continued speaking while pausing.
“Can I masturbate on hyung’s face?”
Not knowing what he meant, I just nodded.
It didn’t seem like it would cause harm.
The cock, engorged with blood to the point of contrasting with his white fingers, was in a dark red state. I climbed on top of his legs and rested my face between his crotch. Cheon Jaerim looked at my face lying quietly and slowly moved his cock. I can see strength entering between the fingers going up and down. The fingers with thick joints roughly rubbed the epidermis. When his hand went up, I silently observed the lower part that was visible, and when it came down, the upper part that was visible.
“Haa……”
It’s a strange thing. As Cheon Jaerim’s breathing ripened, my body seemed to ripen too. Ticklish. My lower abdomen is ticklish. The cock, which had grown twice as large as before, approached my face. Then it deeply wandered across my face like a painting brush.
“Mmm……”
It’s an unusual sensation. When I tried to speak, I couldn’t open my mouth because of the cock sweeping around my mouth and nose. The glossy cock wandered around my eyes, nose, and mouth. When the swollen cock crossed the nose that stuck out in the middle, it bounced into my cheek. The cock touching my face became harder and harder. It felt like the skin on my face would peel off.
“When, mmm……”
The glans entered a little into my slightly open mouth. I unconsciously licked the moistened hole with my tongue.
“Aah……”
Cheon Jaerim threw his head back and pulled the back of my neck. I hugged his solid thighs. However, as much as I approached, Cheon Jaerim didn’t come forward. He didn’t put his cock into my mouth. He only repeatedly put it in and pulled it out up to the glans boundary. He only carefully watched through my open mouth as my tongue tickled the glans. I moved it diligently, imagining the tongue shape Cheon Jaerim used when licking my hole. Cheon Jaerim impatiently grabbed and pulled out his cock. The glans pops out. With thud, thud sounds, the cock about to burst struck above my lips, not painfully.
“St, stop! Mmh! Ah, ah, ah……”
The situation reversed and I regretted it.
A large hand came into my lower abdomen and pulled gently. The body pushed forward stuck to Cheon Jaerim again. Cheon Jaerim, lying on his side looking at the same place, lifted my leg with force. The cock thrust deeper between my spread crotch. Every time my buttocks hit Cheon Jaerim’s ilium and fell, there was a smacking sound. Jjeop, jjok, jjok. A wide tongue torments my earlobe.
“……Ngh, aah… hng……”
A hand crawls up along my upper body. The soft nipples were already standing up taut. When he pressed the protruding point firmly, my shoulder automatically went back. Cheon Jaerim bit into my shoulder.
“Mmh……!”
Only high-pitched moaning sounds keep leaking out. When the hard nipple was scratched by the shortly trimmed nails, I rubbed the blanket and thighs roughly.
Thud! Thud! Thud!
The cock that thrust in long comes to the end and rotates in circles. I trembled my waist without realizing it. It wasn’t my waist trembling, but the muscles hidden inside my waist. The shoulder full of bite marks keeps leaning forward, and the back attached to him moved away. Cheon Jaerim pressed down on the spot I was feeling to the point of agony. He pushed in as if pressuring, and withdrew while rubbing dully. My whole body hunches over to the point where my upper body meets my lower body. I had no choice but to flap my fins like fish caught in a net.
I dug my nails into Cheon Jaerim’s forearm and scratched roughly. Cheon Jaerim didn’t care even if his arm got scratched and continued to stir with his thick cock.
“Are you feeling it?”
I raised my shoulder and scratched my ear at the whispering sound. Then Cheon Jaerim, as if eating delicious food, put my ear in his mouth in one bite. The round tongue meticulously scratched the itchy area. My ear inside his mouth, as hot as body temperature, seemed to melt like ice cream.
“Uh……!”
“Where feels good? You have to tell me, so I know.”
Instead of answering, I moved my hand. The slowly descending hand headed toward the hole Cheon Jaerim was ravaging. I only vaguely felt that his gaze was following my hand down. I feel the wrinkles and the open joint.
“Ah, fuck, so any cock that just fucks your hole is good?”
“Aheu! Ah! Uuh! Ah!”
As soon as my finger stroked near the hole and touched his flesh embedded there, the movement became violent. It was ruthless enough to make a ‘bbak’ sound instead of ‘thud.’ The leg that went up was held so tightly that it would leave Cheon Jaerim’s handprints. My body floated up backward and before it could settle down, it thrust up again. I couldn’t breathe. I reached out and grabbed Cheon Jaerim’s thigh. The moment I turned my head and opened my mouth, a tongue came in. Mmh, mmh, mmh! The moaning sound was cut in half. The hand holding his thigh shook weakly.
Cheon Jaerim hooked the back of my knee on his forearm. I struggled with my floating calf. However, every time Cheon Jaerim thrust up deeply, saliva dripped onto the pillowcase. It was a disaster that I brought my hand down because I was embarrassed to say it out loud. Cheon Jaerim’s fingers came in between my crotch and sneakily rubbed the wrinkles I’d been touching.
“Here, like this, you like it going in?”
“Mmh! Ah! Hngh, ngh!”
Cheon Jaerim was contrary. The more I struggled, unable to bear the pleasure, the more he drove me to extremes. As soon as my legs gave out, he pressed his thighs together tightly. So they could never separate again.
Cheon Jaerim grabbed my shoulder and slowly pulled his waist back. I feel it coming out between my closed buttock flesh. The open hole sucked in the cock going out while fondling it. When I was catching my breath feeling empty, the cock that had withdrawn leaving only the glans entered again with a thud.
“Ah!”
As it opened and entered as if tearing my inner flesh, I trembled for 5 seconds and couldn’t make any sound. I felt my inner walls convulsing madly.
“If it’s squeezing tight, I’m going crazy, fuck, huh?”
“Aheu, heu, don’t, move……”
Cheon Jaerim wanted me to shake my body incessantly. The cock thrusting in firmly pushed me to my limit. The space between my tightly pressed thighs gradually opened. I cried and covered the space between my legs. Because something strange had started leaking out from earlier. Every time the cock opened my back and thrust in, I feel wet water on the palm blocking the center. The things escaping through the gaps between my fingers darkened the color of the blanket.
Cheon Jaerim must not witness this. I desperately pressed my legs that were trying to spread and covered my crotch. However, it didn’t take long for Cheon Jaerim to notice that the sounds had decreased and I was shrinking.
“Does it hurt?”
“Uuuh, huuh, what do, what do I dooo……”
“Why are you……”
“Heu, no, don’t, don’t look!”
Cheon Jaerim laid my body back. Cheon Jaerim’s legs came between my legs. I had to helplessly expose my lower body that had become strange. It looked like I’d peed. Moreover, until he turned his body, the strange liquid kept flowing smoothly. Cheon Jaerim, who was looking at that appearance, closed his mouth and slowly inserted his cock that had been hanging on the hole all the way to the root. From the cock, clear water burst out again with a gush.
He repeated that act about three times. Aheu, uuh…… I feel my eyes rolling back. The body that had been trying to escape bent like a paper doll as soon as it touched his wriggling cock. Cheon Jaerim gently tickled the urethral opening flowing with clear water and whispered in my ear.
“Ah… Pretty. The fountain burst?”
I once saw an interesting theory in a book.
A scholar named Lorenz bought baby geese to observe their habits, and when they grew to a certain extent, he tried to return them to nature. However, to Lorenz trying to release them to nature, the geese screamed and rushed at him. They wouldn’t leave his side. Simply put, they think the first thing they see when they break out of the egg is their mother and follow them around. I think this was called the ‘imprinting effect.’
Like those baby geese, I clung to Cheon Jaerim blindly. Cheon Jaerim didn’t create reasons for anxiety, but I became cautious about whatever I did and thought again and again about whether I would do something he wouldn’t like. Then occasionally, when my temper was twisted unlike me, I would make unreasonable demands. Then I’d turn around, get scared, and regret it.
‘There are clothes and shoes that don’t fit a person’s body. That medicine just didn’t fit hyung. If it doesn’t fit, throw it away, and if you force it on and break it in, that’s fine. What’s there to worry about?’
Each time, Cheon Jaerim comforted me. I couldn’t deny it even if I tried.
Adaptation—that would be another method.
