Anyway, it seemed he still got excited while trembling at his face, and recalling how he looked up at him with unfocused eyes, his soul gone from just one kiss, it didn’t seem like he disliked it. Then wasn’t it rather a situation where he should be grateful? Not only generously overlooking the mistake from that time, but giving him one more chance.
If he did it just once, it seemed like he could shake it off without any lingering attachment. It didn’t seem like the other participants were only making trouble to the extent that could be broadcast either.
While Yuwon gritted his teeth and reaffirmed his goal, the night deepened further. The filming wasn’t even halfway done yet.
***
The next morning. The third day’s schedule began. Of course, Sungjin couldn’t start his morning at a similar time as the other participants. That dawn, a completely unexpected situation had occurred, causing him to lose sleep.
‘Why… of all places, doing something here I don’t even do at home…!’
Last night, Sungjin suffered from a strangely erotic dream close to a nightmare. The content was something Sungjin had experienced long ago. Drinking with a man he was seeing for the first time at a party full of noise, rambling on with useless talk, then going up to a hotel room together. In reality, he’d sent the man into the bathroom then escaped the hotel as if fleeing, but in the dream, different content unfolded.
The Sungjin in the dream, instead of running away, sat awkwardly with his butt on the bed waiting for the man. Soon the man came out of the bathroom, and Sungjin stole glances at his sculptural naked body, then entered the bathroom as if taking turns, embarrassed.
Now when I wash up and go out, it’ll really happen. His heart was beating fast, half nervous and half excited, when before the bathroom door closed, the man followed him inside.
‘I’m going to wash up and come out….’
When Sungjin flinched and spoke, the man answered in a voice mixed with laughter.
‘I’m sorry. I can’t wait outside.’
Then he turned the faucet to make water pour down overhead and pushed Sungjin against the shower booth wall.
‘It’ll all wash off in the water anyway, so don’t worry.’
What? While Sungjin fumbled, not understanding the meaning at once, the man’s hand gripped Sungjin’s member. At his soft yet persistent touch, Sungjin helplessly became erect right away.
‘Ah, mmm….’
Moans kept leaking out through his teeth. It should feel bad. There’s nothing good about hearing a fellow man groaning. However, the man nonchalantly kissed Sungjin’s nape and asked.
‘Does it feel good here? Have you used this side before?’
While saying that, he touched the perineum below the scrotum and the area extending below it. At the touch that seemed to press the inside dully from the outside, Sungjin flinched his waist.
‘Hm? I asked if you’ve used here before.’
Now the man’s hand was past the plumply swollen perineum, touching the tightly closed entrance. Sungjin couldn’t answer aloud and shook his head with his lips bitten tight. It wasn’t that he hadn’t attempted to try using it even by himself, but he’d lacked willpower.
He’d been blocked from inserting a finger to widen the hole. No matter how I think about it, this doesn’t seem like a place that can take something in. He’d only touched the entrance a few times with gel purchased online, but had no experience succeeding in the attempt.
The man watched Sungjin’s head shake with satisfaction, then let out a chuckle and slowly spread the folds and pushed his finger in.
‘I’ll make you feel good. So good you’ll go crazy.’
At that moment, a dizzying pleasure spread from his spine along his nerves. At the ecstatic climax he’d never experienced once in his life, Sungjin trembled his waist and ejaculated.
Right, he’d had that kind of dream. The problem was that Sungjin’s body was in an excited state in reality too.
“Uhhh….”
When Sungjin groaned and opened his eyes, a stinging sensation remained in his lower body. Ah, fuck. Wait, please. Please… this is a dream too, right?
Sungjin bolted upright and threw off the blanket. However, tragically, the accident that had occurred to his lower body wasn’t something from a dream.
‘Ahhhhh, fuck….’
He wasn’t a kid, and what kind of disaster was this in a shared room used with others? Not only having an erotic dream about the person using the bed right next to him, but even having a wet dream. He wanted to die in case anyone had seen.
The cameras? Since they switched to thermal imaging cameras at night, the quality would be lower than when there was light, but he was afraid of how much had been visible. If the camera had captured him excited with the blanket moving while everyone else was sleeping, dying might be better.
‘……’
Surely they wouldn’t show something like that on broadcast. Sungjin fell into a panic, his head going blank. What brought Sungjin to his senses was Jiyoon’s sleep talk.
“Mmm… hyeong… not there….”
He didn’t know what kind of dream he was having, but Jiyoon, buried in the mountain of stuffed animals he’d brought, was rolling around on the bed muttering. Had I been doing that about 10 minutes ago too? Just imagining it made him want to jump out the window.
Let’s deal with this quickly first. If someone woke up and saw his current state, it would be even worse. Sungjin hurriedly left the bedroom as if rushing out and headed to the bathroom. In the process, he forgot to grab new underwear and had to come back to the room, rummage through his suitcase, and by the time he barely succeeded in cleaning up, it was gradually getting light outside.
Only then could Sungjin close his eyes. However, he couldn’t fall asleep again easily.
‘Am I really an animal bastard?’
Just 10 hours ago, he’d been trembling in front of Yuwon, afraid of what he might do, yet just because he’d given him a kiss of unknown meaning, he immediately had such a dream. He didn’t know if his sexual desire was possessed by something, or if he’d been so frightened that his trauma manifested as a fetish.
Meanwhile, thinking that if he hadn’t chickened out and run away that day, it might have developed like in the dream made him feel even stranger.
Whatever it was, he’d gotten excited from the kiss with Yuwon. It was a natural result. As far as appearance went, Yuwon was a perfect ideal type he wouldn’t meet even if he lived several more decades.
Perhaps… if the first button hadn’t been fastened wrong like in the dream. He might have continued to yearn for that one night with Yuwon and have a one-sided love for him. Lee Yuwon, a famous slut who had countless people he’d met for one-night stands then parted with, who’d long forgotten someone like himself.
But what meaning did such a hypothesis have anyway? The water was already spilled, and he still didn’t understand why Lee Yuwon was so obsessed with him. He also didn’t know why he’d kissed him. For now, he was in a position where if Lee Yuwon said to crawl, he had to crawl, and if told to lie flat, he had to lie flat.
He could only desperately hope that even if he vented his anger, he wouldn’t expose what happened between them, and that his interest would quickly leave him.
By the time he succeeded in falling asleep again with such a troubled mind, it was when the other participants were starting to wake up one by one. Since most were people who lived their lives more diligently than ordinary people, they woke up early in the morning and busily commenced their day.
Some who had already become close seemed to have even gone jogging together. Whether bird sounds were coming from outside or not, Sungjin slept until the morning gathering time without knowing how time passed. Eventually, Jiyoon, who had eaten breakfast with the other participants and returned, woke Sungjin up.
“Hyung, hyung. Wake up. We have to gather in 10 minutes.”
Sungjin opened his eyes, blankly looked up at Jiyoon’s face, then screamed and bolted upright.
“Ahhhhh-!”
“Waaah-!”
Startled, Jiyoon almost fell backward but fortunately maintained his balance.
“Wow, you scared me. Hyung, hurry up and wash and get ready. I said we have to gather in 10 minutes?”
At those words, Sungjin’s heart sank as he hurriedly changed clothes and washed his face. He didn’t even have time to apply skincare or fix his hair.
After frantically preparing with the goal of not looking too shabby, without even time to breathe, about 5 seconds remained until gathering time. Sungjin rushed out to the outdoor meeting room without even a moment to recall what happened with Yuwon last night.
“Huff, huff… I’m sorry!”
When Sungjin arrived at the outdoor meeting room, all the other participants were already seated. And once again without fail, the only empty seat was next to Yuwon.
‘Ha….’
I haven’t decided yet how to look at Yuwon’s face. Whether Sungjin cursed inwardly or not, Yuwon confidently tapped the seat next to him with his palm. It was a gesture as if asking what he was doing instead of hurrying to come sit here.
‘It’s uncomfortable to sit there, that’s why…!’
Sungjin swallowed curses inside and had no choice but to sit down next to Yuwon.
