“……”
Just as Yuwon was looking over Sungjin, who was leaning against the wall on the verge of collapsing, with blatant eyes that could be resentment or desire.
Knock knock-.
Someone knocked on the door. At that knocking sound, Sungjin, who had been out of it, urgently returned to reality.
“Ah.”
Yuwon, suddenly interrupted from outside, glared at the door and answered.
“Someone’s inside.”
Then a male voice was heard from outside.
“I want to wash up too, when are you coming out? All the bathrooms are locked.”
Yuwon let out a sigh full of dissatisfaction, then said bluntly.
“I’ll be out soon.”
“Okay.”
He glanced at Sungjin, who was sitting blankly with a flushed face, then turned sharply, opened the door, and left.
Since the bathroom had a structure with multiple shower booths where the inside couldn’t be seen, Sungjin was able to quickly hide his body inside a booth.
Another male contestant who came in right away hummed while entering an unlocked booth. As soon as the sound of water began, Sungjin was finally able to escape from the shower room.
By now, the embarrassing noise that had been echoing through the wall had stopped. Sungjin’s heart kept pounding and he couldn’t calm down. Why on earth? He was confused about what reason Yuwon had for kissing him.
Could it be…
Was it an intention to make him realize that he was someone who only liked men, because the sight of him pretending to be hetero was pathetic?
Sungjin tried to reason by thinking in his own way, but no answer that seemed right came to mind. If he wanted to know the reason, in the end, there was no way other than asking him directly.
……
When he writhed alone in agony and returned to the bedroom, what he saw was Yuwon sleeping with the blanket pulled over him. Sungjin stood in front of Yuwon’s bed, stealthily killing the sound of his footsteps. It didn’t look very unnatural anyway since it was right next to his spot. Standing blankly between his and Yuwon’s beds, looking down at him, he called Yuwon in a very small voice.
“Um, L-Lee Yuwon…”
However, Yuwon didn’t move at all. Is he really asleep? But he would have just come in? It was also a bit early to sleep yet, and it didn’t make sense time-wise to have fallen into deep sleep either. But Yuwon showed no reaction.
……
Having lost a bit of his fear, Sungjin called Yuwon again.
“Lee Yuwon…!”
Naturally, Yuwon showed no reaction this time either. Sungjin was about to shake Yuwon awake, then realized what he was doing and stepped back hesitantly. Even if Yuwon really opened his eyes and got up, it would be just as scary.
……
Sungjin eventually chose to obediently lie down on the bed. What kind of situation is this? How did it come to this?
He kept tossing and turning in confusion, and only after other participants ate a late-night snack in the kitchen and came rushing into the room did he realize he hadn’t prepared for bed. When he got up abruptly, took a quick shower again, and laid his head on the pillow, belated fatigue heavily pressed down on his entire body. It felt like he had been beaten all over his body because too many things had happened today.
Not only had he been extremely tense from morning with the single-minded thought of not being a burden to others, but he had also gone into and out of the sea, and drank alcohol. Even for someone with good stamina, it was about time to run out of battery.
I don’t think this is the time for me to peacefully fall asleep…
Too many things had happened in the bathroom, so his brain refused to accept it. Who on earth were the people who made such embarrassing noises beyond the wall, what did Yuwon want from him, and why did he kiss him—everything was full of questions.
I don’t know, fuck it. It’s not like thinking about it now will give me an answer.
The dice had already been thrown and the wheel had started rolling. Yuwon had spoken as if to say don’t even dream of running away by leaving the show. Then didn’t that mean he was stuck here for at least a week no matter what?
He was tired to death, but he didn’t want to stand in front of the camera with a face on the verge of death starting tomorrow morning. He didn’t know what would happen to his social standing, but at the very least, he didn’t want to be buried in a shabby and pathetic state.
Let’s just sleep.
When a person faces too great a crisis, they break down, and the things that happened today had long exceeded the threshold that Sungjin could digest. When the situation reaches this level, worrying doesn’t mean much. Why? Because it’s already rolled into a realm I can’t handle anyway.
Eventually, when Sungjin, who had temporarily suspended all worries, closed his eyes, the fatigue that had been accumulating layer by layer instantly overwhelmed him. Soon his chest rose and fell regularly as he fell into a deep sleep.
Naturally, Yuwon was in a state of not being able to sleep at all.
“……”
What have I done? When he belatedly came to his senses, he was already chewing on Sungjin’s lips. The feeling of chewing the soft, slightly thicker lower lip than the upper lip was ecstatic. Since he couldn’t chew and swallow him as is, he wanted to at least suck his lips.
The sight of him foolishly unable to even breathe properly, unable to hold his arm and not knowing what to do, stimulated his sadism. If he pressed him further like this, would he cry? He couldn’t stop imagining Sungjin looking up at him with wet eyes and reddened eye rims, then getting hard below and reacting.
That was even a sight he had already seen once. He had come all the way here because he couldn’t forget that fleeting moment, and the moment he reached just before that, his heart beat as if it would burst.
What is this, why does just sucking a tongue and biting lips feel this good? As soon as that shameless face stupidly crumbled, self-control disappeared. If someone hadn’t knocked on the bathroom door and interrupted, he might have failed to restrain himself like the idiots beyond the wall.
Lee Yuwon…
He had fled into the bedroom to try to restrain himself and pulled the blanket over himself first, then Sungjin, who followed soon after, called his name in front of the bed. Seeing as he was excited just by that faint voice now, he didn’t seem to be in his right mind. Thinking of him moaning and calling his name with that flinching voice, his lower abdomen kept tensing up.
Yuwon desperately maintained a curled-up position on his side, hiding his excitement while pretending to sleep. Sungjin didn’t give up and lingered several more times before finally stopping and leaving the bedroom. Then he returned to the room a short while later. It was too short a time to have gone out and done something significant before coming back.
What did he do?
Yuwon was on the verge of his head exploding with thoughts about Sungjin. Did he go jerk off in the bathroom like he had? Did he masturbate while recalling kissing him earlier as a side dish? His heart was boiling and he couldn’t calm down.
Eventually, when everyone had laid down on their beds and it became quiet, Yuwon got up from his spot. As soon as he threw off the blanket and sat up, the Sungjin he checked was sleeping with his mouth open as if someone could carry him away without him knowing. As soon as he saw that carefree face, he felt deflated.
……
What kind of person is this? Could he really sleep so defenseless even after such a thing happened between them?
Yuwon frowned in displeasure but couldn’t take his eyes off such a Sungjin. Even a 5-month-old puppy would have stronger wariness than this person. Yet despite that, he didn’t like how he flinched and got scared as if someone would eat him up, especially only in front of him.
The fact that he himself had provided reasons for that until now, and that Sungjin was showing a humble attitude not just toward him but toward most participants, were not important facts to Yuwon. He was just annoyed that Sungjin trembled in front of him.
I was nice to you saying I’d try to seduce you. I taught you snorkeling and even stopped some inadequate bastard from treating you like an idiot. What more do you want me to do here?
While Yuwon felt frustrated without even glancing at the essence of the problem, Sungjin made a groaning sound and tossed and turned. Sungjin’s legs naturally kicked off the blanket, revealing his bare legs completely.
It was a solid body that was quite well-maintained by ordinary person standards. Imagining those legs flailing in the air and wrapping around his waist made his lower half ache again.
This was all because he couldn’t finish it in the past. Yuwon ground his teeth. Back then, he shouldn’t have listened to the bullshit about who washes first or whatever and should have pushed him straight to the bed and thrust inside him. Because he failed to do that, he himself had broken down to this abnormal level. So all of this was Yoon Sungjin’s fault.
Isn’t there a saying that the one who tied the knot should untie it? Since everything happened because of Yoon Sungjin, it was also his responsibility to take responsibility.
