Grumble…
Woonghee grabbed and turned the faucet. Hot water poured out in a gush into the white bathtub.
Is this enough…?
He stuck his arm into the water up to his forearm and swirled it around. As he crouched down, the gap in his robe slipped open slightly, revealing his white thighs completely. Woonghee quickly adjusted the front of his robe with a reddened face.
“Gi Junhyuk-ssi….”
After turning off the faucet tightly, he returned to the bedroom. He could see the massive back of a large figure pressing down on the giant king-size bed as if occupying it.
“Gi Junhyuk-ssi, try to come to your senses.”
Woonghee gently coaxed him. The man whined and rubbed his nose against Woonghee’s neck like a cat.
“Why, want me to thrust more?”
“That’s not it, you sweated too much…. You can just wash up for a bit and go back to sleep.”
It was the tone of saying, “Good boy, kitty, let’s eat.” While he was gently coaxing him up like that, the heavy body collapsed and pressed down on Woonghee.
“Ugh….”
He dragged the sluggishly limp body and submerged it in the bathtub. Splash! The man’s body plunged in like a giant orca.
He received Woonghee’s care with his body practically crumpled in the bathtub. Woonghee groaned as he wiped down the man’s huge body, and the sound of water droplets falling from the faucet echoed through the bathroom. It was distant and warm, as if inside a deep cave.
A languid air flowed, and it was peaceful.
The man’s fully swollen muscles hadn’t subsided yet, with bright blue veins still throbbing.
“……”
Then tap, tap tap, the sound of something knocking on the window was heard. Soon it changed to a fierce sound. It was a disaster.
“The rainy season must have come, this is bad. We should have escaped quickly….”
As he’d been feeling uneasy, the rainy season of Southeast Asia had arrived, savage and persistent like wild dogs.
Unfamiliar sounds soon became frightening sounds as if a storm would hit. Woonghee’s hands, which had been moving briskly, slowly stopped.
“Did I close the windows…?”
Woonghee carefully closed the windows. While checking the lever several times, he peered in to see if there was any danger that might come. He looked around, scared and anxious for no reason at the suddenly changed sky.
“You should be looking at me.”
At that moment, a thick forearm that popped out from behind pulled Woonghee’s body in. He always acted like this. Desperately thirsty. Even though Woonghee was right next to him, he acted anxious as if Woonghee would run away somewhere.
No, would it be more fitting to say he clung?
“…Are you awake?”
“Yeah, I had a good dream. A dream where I shoved it deep into Woonghee-ssi’s hole.”
Isn’t that not a dream? That thought crossed his mind, but Woonghee nodded and gently patted the arms wrapped tightly around him.
Feeling the strength gradually release from the arms, feeling his breathing slow down steadily.
…Is it okay to ask about that now?
“Uh, what is it, honey.”
Woonghee desperately spat out the words. Biting his reddish lips several times, and biting again.
“That blond guy.”
“Mm?” he asked back. Strength returned to his arms again. But this was something that definitely needed to be confirmed.
“Was it really okay to crack his head open like that?”
No matter how much I think about it, I don’t think that bastard will end it like that. Even though there was no one around to listen, Woonghee muttered carefully. The man smiled with lazy eyes like a well-fed cat.
“What, ethically?”
His thick eyebrows furrowed.
“Of course not.”
As if asking why he would ask such a thing, he playfully bit Woonghee’s shoulder lightly and let go. Then, as if treating it, he licked the teeth marks with his hot tongue.
“You’re talking about another man in front of me again.”
“It’s a topic I brought up because of you.”
Taking that opportunity, he turned around in the man’s embrace. Woonghee grabbed the man’s cheeks. Drowsy eyes approached him.
“What exactly did that person… do?”
“Arms dealer.”
He made a gun shape with his hand and pressed it against his temple repeatedly. At that moment, everything went white before his eyes as if the man had really shot a headshot.
Arms dealer. An arms dealer. Right, I thought he wouldn’t just be an ordinary office worker or regular trader…. But isn’t this too serious?
“Are you really that anxious about it? I’m someone who originally did this kind of work.”
His expression said he couldn’t understand at all. Then what could possibly make you anxious…. Woonghee fell deep in thought. In his embrace, obediently.
Suddenly, a large hand covered Woonghee’s lower abdomen. Stroking it with a careful touch as if handling something precious though it didn’t suit him, the man babbled.
“Could Woonghee-ssi be pregnant?”
…Was he hoping for something like that?
“No, I’m infertile.”
Woonghee slowly shook his head. And soon he would become a Beta, so the act of carrying a seed in this belly would completely disappear.
“…As time passes, you’ll leave me. Without even carrying my child.”
The man who pulled Woonghee’s palm buried his nose in it. For a moment, he thought of a large dog rubbing its snout while begging for a walk.
If so, shouldn’t this be the time to firmly cut off such expectations?
“Why must you think about the distant future?”
You’ve rested in warm water, so now sleep comfortably, Woonghee whispered like that.
Originally, after a heat breaks out, an Alpha’s entire body becomes limp as if exhausted. Like sticky melted jelly. After using up all their strength to make the Omega’s body carry a seed, they become soggy like boiled noodles.
Like this, they can’t stand on their own two feet and firmly confine him.
“I can’t fall asleep.”
“…Why.”
You look like you’re about to collapse any moment, so why?
“I’m terrified that when I wake up, Woonghee-ssi won’t be by my side.”
Woonghee pulled his body and wiped away the moisture one by one with a towel, then laid him on the bed. And then he lay down next to him too.
“I’ll stay by your side.”
So don’t worry about such things and sleep peacefully, Woonghee whispered softly.
Only then could the man finally breathe as if he had received permission. He whispered while feeling the weight next to him, the temperature of his embrace.
“It feels like I have a terminal illness.”
‘Stay by my side from now on.’ The man pleaded as if he would crumble at any moment. Lee Woonghee, I’m acting like the small and weak creature you want, aren’t I?
If I also become a pitiful beast that can’t even obtain food because it’s battered by wind and rain, will you let me bury my head in your embrace?
Like you did with that bird, will you pity me too and give me food?
“…Of course.”
He thought he was only thinking it to himself, but it turned out the man had unknowingly opened his lips and spat out all the words.
Lee Woonghee was accepting the terribly crude, fragmented heart that had been scraped all the way to the bottom.
“Really?”
The man smiled slowly.
“Yes, so don’t be so pitiful….”
Only then did he close his eyelids as if reassured.
***
The man opened his eyes in the darkness. It was utter darkness. As if he hadn’t long fallen into this hell, his eyes weren’t accustomed to this darkness.
He hurriedly sat up. It was gone, yes, you weren’t by my side.
‘I’ll stay by your side.’
Again.
Is it ultimately an escape again? Just how many times do I have to catch you?
The man rushed out of the room. Whoooosh, the rain savagely beat against the windows, and the familiar corridor walls spun round and round. He walked the bright red carpet barefoot, frantically.
“…Haa.”
Even in the midst of this, the second hand in the man’s watch moved tick-tock. He hadn’t let go of the watch from his hand from some point on. It was so as not to waste even a minute, a second.
…Time is passing, the time when I have to let Lee Woonghee go is approaching.
“Woonghee-ssi, Lee Woonghee….”
It was truly a frantic swamp of confusion. He knew that continuing like this would choke his own breath, but he couldn’t escape.
“You said you wouldn’t abandon me.”
He had to die in this hell even if it killed him. The man’s feet, which had been wandering aimlessly through the dark cave, stopped abruptly.
“…Lee Woonghee.”
Because somewhere, light as sharp as a blade was leaking out, illuminating the man’s bare feet.
It was the dining room. The kitchen light was on.
The man slowly opened the kitchen door, and what lay beyond was….
A white body. And something white and round that those two hands were clutching. The letters engraved on it scratched at the man’s vision.
happy birthday!
The man could only stare blankly down at that white cream cake. Soon after, a click sound was heard from his wristwatch. It was announcing midnight.
“Gi, Gi Junhyuk-ssi…, how did you know to come?”
He, who had been coloring his white complexion with bewilderment, soon slowly walked toward him.
“Happy birthday, Gi Junhyuk-ssi.”
The man couldn’t continue speaking. Completely dumbfounded, he could only stare at what was piercing his eyes.
“It’s fucking messy, I found out I have no talent for this kind of thing.”
The man hurriedly hugged that body, and Lee Woonghee made an “Uh uh” sound while quickly setting the cake down to one side.
“…It almost got ruined.”
He could hear grumbling from within his embrace. The cake is messy too, and the lighter was too cheap….
“Instead of this kind of thing, should I buy you a white bird? They were selling them at the market….”
On Lee Woonghee’s white hand that said those words, white cream was stuck all over. As if he had wrapped white feathers all over his body.
“No, I’m fine….”
Isn’t there already one bird in his embrace?
Climbing up the bizarre obsession like a rope, what was waiting for the man was an unknown emotion.
At the end of endless contemplation, what the man found was first love.
He couldn’t let go.
Even though time was passing, he absolutely couldn’t find a way to let this go.
