After their drinking session alone together ended half-heartedly due to Myunghun’s call, Siwoo had no time to properly talk with Evan.
Even though they lived in the same dorm, their coming and going times were different, and the only time to see each other’s faces was during group practice time. That matter passed over as if buried like a midsummer night’s dream.
Days of being busy with album preparation continued.
“Wow, the weight of this…”
Music video filming day.
The first words that came out the moment he saw the wings that would be used for the ‘Lucifer’ filming on set were just that.
“It’ll be fine since they’ll support it with wires.”
Someone next to him said that, but it wasn’t comforting at all.
The wings that started in perfect white became darker the further down they went, and the bottom part was completely black.
The moment he saw the wings gradually turning black from pure white, he felt a strange sensation.
Lucifer. The most beautiful and excellent being who received God’s grace fell into the emotion of arrogance and became corrupted. The enormous wings before his eyes seemed to have directly transferred the image of him, who was close to pure white, slowly changing.
When they said it would be used for music video filming, there was a lot of talk about doing CG work, but Evan insisted that they must create the real thing. Of course, CG would be included too, but he emphasized that filming using the real thing was also necessary.
And after confirming the wings, Siwoo seemed to understand Evan’s meaning.
Overwhelming charisma. Could I really pull that off?
Siwoo looked at the large mirror next to the wings.
The hair that had been dark brown until just a few days ago had changed to beautiful blonde after several days of bleaching. In his ordinary dark brown eyes sat bright blue colored lenses.
Since it was filming under strong lighting, his makeup was also heavier than usual.
His particularly red lips and eye makeup that also prominently featured red tones, along with the white shirt covered in lace, was very thin, so his silhouette and skin tone showed through. There was a person there wearing fitted black slacks and loafers.
Siwoo, who had been looking at his reflection in the mirror for a while, shifted his gaze to the wings next to him. And he raised one hand and reached for the feathers densely positioned there. The feathers, as soft as they looked, tickled his palm. If I wear this outfit and attach those wings…
Siwoo, who had been touching the wings in the part where black and white mixed, quickly turned his head at the presence approaching his side. The camera director who had been on standby for behind-the-scenes filming seemed to have approached as soon as they saw him.
“Hello, I’m Kim Siwoo. I was a bit later than the other members, right? Did everyone film well?”
When the camera moved slightly up and down at his words, Siwoo took a step forward toward the camera and brought his face close to the lens.
“This is my first time with blonde hair, does it suit me well? I’m also wearing blue colored lenses so honestly even to me, I don’t look like myself. Actually, I’m ‘Lucifer.’ I’m going to completely seduce all our members.”
While repeating the words that came up during the concept meeting, Siwoo looked around the set.
“The reason I’m late isn’t anything else but because of dyeing. I bleached until yesterday, but my scalp hurt so much I couldn’t continue dyeing. So when I whined about it, they said let’s rest for a day and do it early this morning. But still, my scalp hurts so much. It feels like someone’s pinching it.”
In Siwoo’s rambling gaze, Chan appeared.
“Oh! Your hair color really came out well. It’s lemon, lemon.”
Siwoo, who extended his arm to the approaching Chan, subtly sent him in front of the camera when he came close and stood a little behind himself. All the members except himself had no major changes. Everyone dyed their hair black and didn’t wear things like colored lenses.
The one suffering this season was Siwoo. Every time his hair grew, he had to consistently bleach and dye it depending on the situation.
Chan, wearing a black suit with a white-toned shirt, smiled at the camera and then soon played a prank on Siwoo.
“Hyung, your filming?”
“I finished earlier. I went first. Evan’s almost done. After he’s done, they said you can go right in. Did you film the wings? Today Siwoo will wear those wings.”
“Wow! Our hyung! Siwoo hyung! Amazingly pretty. An angel!”
Siwoo, who had been having a light conversation with Chan, shook his head when he saw Yechan appearing with his usual flashy reaction.
“What angel.”
Siwoo, who was bringing his hand to his face in awkwardness, remembered his makeup and subtly grabbed Chan’s hand that was draped around his shoulder.
“A fallen angel is still an angel. Our Nemos are going to go crazy. Our cute Coco has become this sexy. Is this what happens when you become an adult?”
“Sexy? There was no sexy in the concept.”
Siwoo, who firmly denied the word sexy, received his jacket from the staff who approached from the side.
When filming started, Siwoo would also wear the jacket, but because the path from makeup to the filming location was hot, he had only been wearing the shirt. He thought the shirt material was a bit thin, but he never dreamed that the strong lighting would reveal his silhouette and skin so blatantly.
“This is sexy. What else is sexy? Must be cool. Hey! Dragonfly wings.”
At Chan’s words, grabbing and touching Siwoo’s shirt while chattering, Yechan burst into loud laughter.
“This is what happens when you become a twenty-year-old adult. They give you sexy concepts and everything. Anyway, cute Siwoo hyung has become sexy! Then I’ll be sexy next year too.”
“You won’t be able to?”
“Ah! Why! Why. I want to be sexy too.”
“Siwoo, come here.”
At Sangjun’s call heard between Yechan and Chan bickering again, Siwoo waved his hand toward the camera and went inside the set.
“Oh! A bit different today?”
“Hyung, don’t tease me too. Chan hyung and Yechan already teased me a lot. I didn’t know the clothes would show through like this either. No one told me on the way here.”
“What do you mean tease, man. You’re pretty. Our Lucifer is the best.”
“That sounds completely like teasing though.”
Siwoo, who playfully glared at Sangjun who was patting his shoulder and speaking with a laugh, had his gaze land on the set being filmed.
This ‘Lucifer’ was completely different from what he knew. Basically, the song’s rhythm and atmosphere were similar, but the lyrics and concept had changed. If the protagonist changed, the rest had no choice but to change too.
Evan, languidly sitting in a chair like a splendid throne, was the perfect image of Lucifer that Siwoo remembered. His blonde hair had changed to black. The other members’ shirts were white, but Evan’s suit, shirt, and even shoes were all black.
In his perfectly black appearance, his green eyes sparkling like jewels caught one’s gaze.
Lucifer who had lived for a very long time and became indifferent to everything. Evan, not making any expression, was seriously engaged in filming. Even though he himself was supposed to be Lucifer.
And the agenda that came up in the last concept meeting came to mind. The reason why Evan had intended to give him Lucifer from the beginning came out. Perhaps from the beginning, he had drawn this picture. Even if the situation changed, even if the surrounding members changed, Evan always seemed to choose the best.
Because during the repeated regressions, there had been times when Ocean’s members changed too. Even in those situations, it was clear that his ability was what always allowed them to reach the top position.
“Siwoo’s here? As soon as Evan’s individual filming ends, we’ll film the cut of you two first, then go into the group.”
“We’re filming that cut first?”
“Since we’re using that chair as a prop for that cut, that’s better.”
It was a scene that would go at the end of the music video. Evan’s gaze, which had been focused on filming until now, landed on Siwoo. At that moment, Siwoo unconsciously stepped back a little.
What he had thought was arrhythmia when he hadn’t realized anything. What had pressed heavily on his chest after some time passed.
And a few days ago.
He now clearly knew what emotion was stirred up by all the sensations that had made him heat up more hotly than a summer night full of heat.
Kim Siwoo. He loved Evan. Even if it repeated again or in the not-too-distant future his interest in him cooled, his own feelings were the same. An emotion that might fade someday if repeated countless times.
Boredom, languor—a smile slowly bloomed on Evan’s face that had been full of such emotions. Light shone in his eyes that had been darkly sunken.
This feeling, this emotion. After the ‘Journey’ filming, the day he went to Evan’s photo shoot came to mind.
Siwoo put his hand to the tip of his nose.
‘Pretty.’
Evan’s lips, with his gaze fixed on Siwoo, moved slightly. Though he didn’t voice it, he said exactly that.
“Cut.”
And at the same time as the director’s cut sign, Evan, who had been sitting as if lying on the chair, lightly raised his body. Then the staff next to him quickly held out bottled water to Evan, and Evan, receiving it, unhesitatingly approached Siwoo.
“Pretty.”
“What are you saying.”
That night. It ended vaguely like that and they didn’t discuss anything related to him anymore. Rather than not discussing it, they didn’t have time to talk seriously again. But Evan quite often suddenly said things like this.
Evan. How do you remember that night? Did the mood and situation just become like that? A momentary mistake? But for that to be the case, the emotion Siwoo felt from Evan was heavy.
“Our Coco is really pretty. Like an angel.”
Siwoo’s eyes widened seeing Evan suddenly draping his arm around his shoulder and saying embarrassing words as if it were nothing. Only after seeing he wasn’t looking at him while speaking did he realize the camera had approached.
“Coco is ‘Lucifer.’ Then what am I?”
“A monster.”
It was easy to play around and joke in front of the camera with the other members, but when he and Evan were caught alone on one screen, it was uncomfortable. In case a strange scene was captured.
“What? I look like a monster to you?”
Evan’s voice got a bit louder.
“Right now Evanie is all black and super cool and all that. But if you look later, horns will grow here like this.”
Siwoo raised both hands and brought them above Evan’s head.
Since the music video behind-the-scenes would be released after the music video was revealed anyway, Siwoo spoiled it with a grin. Since he was someone who occasionally didn’t hesitate to make dangerous words or statements, it seemed better for him to talk a lot.
“How can you say that?”
“You said I’m ‘Lucifer.’ I stupidly wake up this sleeping ‘demon’ at the end. In the end, ‘Lucifer’ wasn’t the protagonist! In the end, the protagonist was the ‘demon’! I’m spoiling the music video concept. Wait, no. Since it’s going out after the music video is revealed anyway, it’s not a spoiler.”
“Evan, Siwoo. Let’s prepare for filming.”
Fortunately, before Evan could say something strange, the filming of the problematic scene began.
