Nam Ihyeon seemed really angry as there was no contact from him. I also felt a bit awkward about saying anything, but I still left a message.
Hey, are you really angry? It was a position that could be misunderstood, I admit, but it really was just to increase the contact range. Given the situation… And besides, guiding is originally all like that anyway… I’m sorry for not being able to welcome you when you came on purpose and turning you away at the door. Let’s definitely eat together after coming back from Pamundong!! I’ll buy!
After writing it, it seemed a bit too detailed, but the less you say, the more misunderstandings arise. Even if it was a bit uncool, this was better. The number 1 disappeared quickly, but there was no particular response from Nam Ihyeon. He seemed very angry, so I thought it couldn’t be helped. When I came back and ate with him while enthusiastically listening to him ‘curse Kim Haewon,’ he’d feel better soon.
“When whale espers fight, the shrimp guide’s back bursts.”
In terms of ability stats, I was really close to a shrimp, so there was no better comparison. I sighed and exited the chat room with Nam Ihyeon. As soon as I did, like magic, an alarm rang from the novel application. Just moments ago I felt so tired my eyes were about to close, but at that sound my eyes snapped open.
[Notification] <I’ve Been Possessed by a Real-Time Serial Novel> Chapter 21 has been uploaded.
With having to go to Pamundong tomorrow, there was no better windfall than this. I clicked immediately. The novel was depicting what had happened to us today. It was from Kim Haewon’s perspective.
The moment Garam pulled him into an embrace, Haewon felt his heart drop. His sunken heart beat like a fish out of water. Flop, flop. Garam said it was for guiding. He explained this and that, but in that moment, it didn’t register well in his ears.
To make the position a bit more comfortable, he readjusted Garam in his arms. Haewon felt that the hands embracing his neck were affectionate, and that his physique was smaller than he thought.
‘Like a big baby.’
The hospital gown seemed to give off a cozy smell. The moment Garam’s brown hair brushed his nape, he really couldn’t say anything at all. Haewon had to struggle to disperse the force that was trying to gather toward a certain part of his lower body.
“A-Are you crazy! Isn’t this an all-ages novel? Wh-what are you writing!”
My face flushed red like a burnt sweet potato. I was really flabbergasted. The situation earlier wasn’t romantic at all. No, it was a bit ambiguous to say there was no chemistry whatsoever. But it wasn’t to this extent. I recalled Kim Haewon’s firm thigh that I had been sitting on. There was definitely something there, but it was about that heavy presence I had deliberately ignored.
“No, he must have put something in his pocket. That couldn’t have been it.”
I unnecessarily cooled the heat rising to my face as I scrolled down. I just wanted to scroll all the way down, but human curiosity doesn’t work that way. I was curious about what the content was.
The moment Ihyeon appeared, Haewon’s head became cold as ice. He was blatantly making passes at Garam. There was clear intent to be with him not as an esper and guide relationship, but as lovers.
Haewon didn’t want to leave it like that. He wouldn’t let Garam become someone else’s rather than his. He didn’t want to give this warm, small, affectionate embrace to anyone.
Garam seemed flustered and clung tightly to Haewon’s neck. The fact that he was the only one Garam could rely on made Haewon feel proud. But soon his mood sank low as Garam said he had to explain to Ihyeon and flustered about.
He wanted to interrogate him persistently about why he gave that guy such attention, why he contacted him separately, what they talked about so often, whether they were even on phone call terms.
Like a foolish boy blinded by jealousy. As soon as Haewon had that thought, he shut his mouth tight. The question Garam had asked still rang vividly in his ears.
[Do you like me, Esper Kim Haewon?]
He had said no. He had thought it wasn’t that kind of feeling, at least. But was that really true? Haewon looked into his emotions that were churning due to Ihyeon’s appearance. They weren’t as small as he had thought. Rather, there seemed to be parts he didn’t know about yet.
Whatever the case, this was the greatest feeling he had ever had toward another person. That much was certain.
The heat on my face wouldn’t subside. This was the first time for such blatant description. I had no immunity to sentences dripping with this much romance. I was helplessly affected. I put down my phone and caught my breath for a moment. My head spun at what this could mean.
“Is BL… this powerful?”
This BL novel was amazing. It could make even someone with no thoughts feel their heart flutter. I could feel my heart racing. As if I had become the protagonist in the novel. Especially since I even had the same name and experienced similar situations, I couldn’t help but immerse myself more.
“No. No. This is a novel. Get a grip. This is a novel.”
I thought while slapping my cheeks. I needed to get a grip. I couldn’t let myself get all excited alone and then make advances toward Kim Haewon only to be humiliated. No, wait. Make advances? Me? Why would that happen? I don’t like Kim Haewon though?
“Am I crazy. I must be crazy. I’ve really gone crazy.”
This was all because of excessive physical contact. Because the range of physical contact was wide, it couldn’t be helped. It was the first thing I’d tried in 20 years of being a guide. So my emotions were churning strangely too. I could mistake my feelings. Having done such a thing and reading a novel like this, of course, anyone would, of course! Could feel that way for a moment. I actively persuaded myself and picked up my phone again. But I had to take several deep breaths before reading the novel.
‘This is just a novel. A novel. I can’t get confused.’
I made the resolution to myself several times before starting to scroll down.
The embrace guiding was fantastic. Even when he did it with both hands, he didn’t think it could be better than this. The headache that always subtly lingered around him disappeared, and everything became clear. His body, which always felt like it was wearing several sandbags, became much lighter. Haewon thought that alone was enough.
But all of that was an illusion. The guiding with increased contact range was truly like a dream. It was a new world he had never experienced before. His power spreading widely inside himself felt mysterious and beautiful. The dark energies that had settled in his body flew away, and it felt like being reborn. It felt so good that he wished the guiding would never end. Like this forever, forever.
‘It feels this good just holding him, what about other things?’
In Haewon’s mind, an imagination of himself and Garam entangled briefly spread. Haewon swallowed his saliva. In front of him was Garam. Garam lying on the bed with all his strength drained after guiding ended, his bangs wet with sweat. Haewon’s gaze subtly touched his lips. Red lips like sweet fruit. What would they taste like if he held them in his mouth just for a moment?
Having such thoughts, he got up. He didn’t want to fluster Garam. He didn’t want to have such thoughts while looking at Garam who had used all his strength for his sake. Haewon barely controlled himself and turned around.
“The author writes well. Golden hands, golden hands.”
I muttered as if possessed. They really wrote well. So well that anyone reading it would misunderstand that Kim Haewon had completely fallen for me. The problem was that I seemed to be included in that ‘anyone.’ The persuasiveness was excessively high. Each moment seemed to pass before my eyes.
“Fuck this.”
No. No. Please, Garam. Get a grip. I hit my forehead hard and scrolled down. Fortunately, the next scene didn’t continue from the previous part. Time in the novel passed quickly, and Kim Haewon and I were on a plane heading to Pamundong.
Park Garam in the novel was in a state of sleeplessness all night. Even when he boarded the plane, he was half-asleep. Kim Haewon bought him coffee, but after quickly drinking it saying it was delicious, he started dozing off without even a caffeine reaction.
Haewon looked at Garam’s profile as he sipped with his eyes half-open, saying this place’s iced latte was really delicious. Before he knew it, he had finished it all and was asleep. When he removed the cup from his hand and covered him with a blanket, Garam said “Thank you” as if sleep-talking.
Haewon thought the more he got to know him, the cuter he was. He was closer to a cat than a person. A small animal that sometimes scratches without knowing why, but when it knows it did wrong, comes and rubs its head first or acts cute.
When Haewon gently stroked Garam’s hair, Garam smiled slightly. He seemed to be in a good mood. The way his lips curved up prettily was cute. Haewon watched Garam sleeping peacefully like that for a long time. Like yesterday, his lips caught his eye.
‘No. Look away from there. Don’t look. Turn your gaze.’
Without realizing it, I bit my nails while slowly scrolling down. I couldn’t bring myself to scroll down hard.
Haewon lowered his body for a moment. And briefly kissed Garam’s lips. It wasn’t guiding, nor anything else. Just a simple impulse. Haewon stared for a long time at the lips that touched and separated for a moment. Then he sat down. Garam was still asleep. The plane had taken off, and the management bureau people were in another section. Haewon couldn’t take his eyes off the sleeping Garam. It felt like a huge whirlwind was raging inside his heart.
I was so shocked I threw my phone. A kiss? Kim Haewon kisses me? And tomorrow at that?
