“Ah… yeah.”
“Give it to me. I’ll carry it.”
“No, I’ll…”
“It’s heavy.”
Although there were several books so there was some weight, it wasn’t at all too heavy to carry, so Cha Jeonghan taking the book bag from my hand instead felt a bit bewildering. It felt in the same direction as his actions of opening all the doors and being considerate so I could enter and leave first wherever we went.
No matter how much I thought about it, this wasn’t simply in the realm of consideration or manners. Even if it was, there was absolutely no reason for me to receive this kind of consideration from Cha Jeonghan.
But to say this to him, it still wasn’t certain enough. Originally Cha Jeonghan had been overprotective of me, and I had been overprotective of Cha Jeonghan too, so it could be something happening within that realm. I once again avoided the subtle sinking feeling. I didn’t want to ruin his mood, and I didn’t want to ruin my time with Cha Jeonghan that we were meeting during daylight either.
“Ah, the car key must have been left in the van. We’ll have to take a different one. Let’s go up together to get the key and come back. It’s awkward for you to be here alone.”
Cha Jeonghan, who had been checking his coat pockets, looked at me. I nodded and moved with him. Getting on the elevator going up to Cha Jeonghan’s home after a long time brought back many memories. From the countless memories of going up and down with him, to going up alone and coming down with a devastated heart—everything flashed by quickly.
Cha Jeonghan opened the door, let me in first, then took off his shoes and went inside. Since he just needed to get the key, I didn’t think I needed to go in, so I stood in the entrance and waited for him. He came out to the entrance again with the key from his room. Naturally I grabbed the door handle to leave, but Cha Jeonghan covered my hand holding the handle. When I turned around wondering what was going on, he made me let go of my hand and gently grabbed my body to turn me around. The book bag he was holding fell to the floor, making quite a loud noise.
“Just a moment, Yuhyeon-ah.”
“…….”
“Wait.”
Trapped between the front door and him, my face and entire body were covered by Cha Jeonghan’s shadow. It was just like… that day when Cha Jeonghan came in drunk and kissed me at the entrance, so my shoulders tensed up completely.
“I wanted to do it in the car but hyung was there so I held back.”
“…….”
“I’m really going crazy. When I see you, I want to do it, I want to touch you.”
Cha Jeonghan always said he liked that I was warm. Perhaps because my body and hands tended to be warm, Cha Jeonghan liked touching me.
Even when we were friends, our physical contact was different from ordinary friends. Even guys who liked skinship only did things like putting arms around shoulders or leaning against each other with a clingy feeling. No one behaved like Cha Jeonghan, lying with their head on my thigh or caressing my cheek. If they did such things to other friends, they’d likely be called disgusting or jokingly cursed at for being crazy. No, they wouldn’t even think of doing such things in the first place.
“Yuhyeon-ah, don’t you feel the same? Hm? Is it only me?”
Cha Jeonghan, who brought his face a bit closer, gently bit my lips. Cha Jeonghan spoke with our lips lightly locked together. In between his words, he pressed kisses, making small smacking sounds between the words.
His heated voice was dizzying. Cha Jeonghan had been kissing me every day since he came to find me. He started kissing me like he used to stroke my hair and touch my cheeks. Every time I faced Cha Jeonghan digging into me like someone who couldn’t do without warmth, my fluttering grew. And as much as that fluttering grew, my worry about our relationship also grew.
I really hoped it was just my needless worry, but I didn’t think Cha Jeonghan could love me this quickly after seeing me as a friend for 13 years, so I was anxious about Cha Jeonghan who was too rapidly swept up in pleasant and warm sensations and thinking it was love.
“Don’t think about other things.”
“…Huh? Ah….”
Cha Jeonghan, who had been speaking with his lips touching mine, slightly parted his lips and looked at me. It wasn’t other thoughts, I was thinking about Cha Jeonghan, but it wasn’t thoughts in a good direction so it seemed better not to say anything.
“When you’re with me, only think about me.”
“…….”
“No…. Even when I’m not around, only think about me.”
“…….”
“Ha…. Ah, I’m really going crazy. Yuhyeon-ah, don’t think about other things. Don’t think about running away from me again.”
Instead of answering no, I raised my hands and held his face with both hands. Cha Jeonghan, who had been holding me with wavering eyes, urgently pressed his lips together just like that. As our hot tongues tangled, our bodies pressed even closer together. Without moving at all, I faced his rough kiss under his heat and weight pouring down to soak me completely.
“Haah….”
It was hard to breathe. I couldn’t breathe because it was too hard to push away Cha Jeonghan who was digging in as if to swallow everything without parting his lips even a bit. Cha Jeonghan didn’t let me go until my head became fuzzy and my legs lost strength. His lips only fell away when I thought I might really die like this. I felt like my body dropped down sharply, but I was standing on both feet. No, I was being held by Cha Jeonghan. The moment Cha Jeonghan released this arm, I would collapse to the floor.
“Haah… haa, hng….”
My breath burst out haphazardly. From between my lips that felt wet, equally damp breath burst out, and tears flowed without me knowing because my mind was so fuzzy. My cheeks and lips, my throat breathing, and inside my mouth… and even my nape where Cha Jeonghan had placed his lips, everywhere on me was damp. Not wanting to fall, I barely managed to put strength in my arms to hug Cha Jeonghan’s waist. His hot lips that I’d been feeling on my nape rose to my ear and took my earlobe. The moment his breath as hot as mine covered my ear, one of the hands that had been holding my waist came inside my coat.
“Ah….”
Just his hand touching me over my shirt, yet all the sensations rushed to that spot. As he stroked down my back, he pressed his lips randomly on my cheeks, jaw, nape, and ears. Heat rose in all the places his lips touched and his hands touched, like my body would burst. I released the arms that had been holding him and leaned my back completely against the door. The moment our eyes met as we both exhaled heated breaths, without saying who was first, we took each other’s lips. My coat sharply fell over my shoulder and dropped to the floor.
Once the sensations caught fire, I couldn’t stop Cha Jeonghan either. No, I didn’t want to stop him. Knowing how much sex with Cha Jeonghan had hurt, and how good it had been enough to forget the pain and want to do it again, I just chased that pleasure without thinking I should come to my senses and stop him.
Following my coat, Cha Jeonghan’s coat also fell to the floor. Cha Jeonghan undid my shirt buttons with urgent hands. Each time the small buttons came undone at his fingertips and parted, coldness seeped into my skin. As if he hated parting our lips, Cha Jeonghan would unbind buttons then grab my jaw and lock our lips deeply again whenever our lips shifted even slightly as his body moved. Each time our tongues tangled and were sucked following the heat, I thought of even bigger stimulation.
Cha Jeonghan, who had undone all my shirt buttons, put his hand inside and caressed my waist. As his hot hand touched my skin, my shoulders hunched and a long breath flowed. I had no presence of mind at all from his hands, body, and breath that were much hotter than mine. Warmth would be completely covered by heat, so I wondered how Cha Jeonghan, who was this hot, could always tell me I was warm.
“Let’s, let’s go inside… ah, Jeonghan-ah… wait… hng…!”
The moment his hot hand gripped my waist, my breath was sucked in. Cha Jeonghan wrapped around my waist sharply, pressed our bodies together, and turned us around. As my back left the door I’d been leaning on, I felt like I’d fall so I quickly grabbed his arm. I wanted to look behind because I felt like I’d fall while stepping backwards, but Cha Jeonghan wouldn’t let go of my lips so I had no choice but to step backwards wherever he pushed.
“Ah…!”
My body caught on the bed and fell backwards. I was a bit surprised, but fortunately it didn’t hurt. Cha Jeonghan, who had put his hand under my arm to hold my body just like that, properly lifted me onto the bed and laid me down while climbing on top. Looking up at him while lying down with my strength completely drained, he looked even bigger than usual.
“…….”
“…….”
Through the slightly parted blinds, afternoon light spread in and showed his face even more brightly. At the face and deep gaze that anyone would fall in love with, heat kept rising from deep inside my body. Cha Jeonghan took off his clothes without taking his eyes off me.
The shirt he’d been wearing came unbuttoned and fell over his shoulders, and at his revealed body I moved my gaze elsewhere. It was the same last time and it was the same this time too. Honestly, fully looking at Cha Jeonghan’s body was embarrassing.
“…….”
At the sound of his buckle being undone, I closed my eyes. Even though this wasn’t my first time with Cha Jeonghan, I trembled as much as the first time, no, even more. Because I knew what sensations would come, anticipation and fear tangled and kept inflating my emotions.
“Haat….”
When I opened my eyes at the sudden heat I felt on my chest, Cha Jeonghan had buried his face in my chest. Through the parted shirt, he sucked my nipple that had risen from arousal into his mouth, pressed it with his tongue, and slowly circled and licked around it. A strangely ticklish sensation spread and pooled in my waist. Cha Jeonghan bit my nipple while undoing my buckle. My waist twisted at the hand that suddenly came inside my underwear and gripped my member.
“…Ah!”
“You like it here?”
Honestly, I couldn’t think about what I liked and what I didn’t like. Everywhere that Cha Jeonghan’s weight was on and everywhere Cha Jeonghan touched all felt good. Where his tongue rubbed and where his hand gripped and rubbed all had such strong pleasure that it was hard to come to my senses.
“Haa… mm, ah….”
My underwear was removed, and Cha Jeonghan positioned himself between my parted legs. Something hot and hard touched my member that had become erect from his touch. Each time that hard thing rubbed and created friction, strength tightly entered my waist then released, and sharply entered again then released repeatedly.
Cha Jeonghan took my hand down and made me grip that hard thing. No, two hard things touched my hand. Wanting to feel even better, I stroked the two members with my hand. I didn’t know about mine, but there was absolutely no way I could grip Cha Jeonghan’s with one hand, so I just rubbed with my palm.
