At behavior that not even a baby would do, I suddenly felt chills down my back. Could it be that Lee Jiwoo was doing this to stir up my sympathy again? But looking at his red, swollen eyes, he hadn’t been fake crying.
Besides, though he was a bit better now, until just moments ago he really didn’t seem to be in his right mind. Something about his pupils seemed a bit dilated too…
“Are you calmer now?”
“Not yet…”
Whether exhausted from crying so hard, Lee Jiwoo buried his face in the nape of my neck with a haggard expression. He looked so pitifully and pathetically miserable overall that my heart ached. If Lee Jiwoo had staged this to stir up my sympathy, it could be called a success.
“Why were you crying there?”
“Suddenly Park Saebyeol was there…”
“…What?”
Park Saebyeol? That celebrity from earlier? Why is that person’s name suddenly coming up here? I was so surprised that words tumbled out of my mouth without going through my brain.
“Don’t tell me she was like an ex-girlfriend or something?”
Otherwise, why would he wail like this? At my question, Lee Jiwoo slightly raised his head. After looking at me for a long while with eyes still wet and glistening, he lowered his head again.
“……”
This time not to the nape of my neck, but to my face.
His reddened lips, looking like they’d burst if touched, were as hot as they looked. Before I could even be surprised by the sudden kiss, the thought that came to mind was that I had to endure it.
I didn’t know why he was kissing me so suddenly, but this was a situation advantageous to me in the long run. To make matters worse, I was rubbing lips with someone who had everything going for them, and it didn’t feel that bad. Though it wasn’t good either, but anyway, it was tolerable enough.
With a mix of slight tension, anxiety, and bewilderment, I froze like a statue for about ten seconds. Suddenly, I felt puzzled.
“…?”
Did this bastard just pass out like this? Why isn’t he moving? I was about to open my eyes that I’d naturally closed when I hesitated. Even if it was fine now, seeing Lee Jiwoo’s face might psychologically shock me with the reality that I was kissing a man.
After thinking for a bit, I kept my eyes closed and tilted my head slightly to the side. Then I slowly parted my lips. Then I felt the touching lips flinch and tremble.
Continuing to hesitate would only increase the time we had to keep our lips pressed together. Since we’d already started, let’s just finish it quickly.
I placed my hand on the back of Lee Jiwoo’s neck to fix his face in place. Then I stuck out my tongue and kissed deeply into his mouth.
“Mmph…!”
I heard a small surprised moan by my ear. Lee Jiwoo’s hands, which had been hugging me tightly, lost their way and flailed in the air. As if sword fighting, my tongue and Lee Jiwoo’s tongue clashed several times in his mouth.
I had no choice but to open my eyes in bewilderment.
His face, visible right in front of my nose, clearly showed confusion. Could it be he didn’t plan to kiss this far? But the moment our eyes met at close range, Lee Jiwoo became docile as if by magic.
His flailing arms, his tongue that had been at a loss like a bug trapped in a jar, everything quieted down. He trembled and gripped my clothes tightly, as if a monk who had lived chastely his whole life was kissing for the first time.
Seeing that made me feel like I was committing a great sin. When I jerked my head back in shock, our lips separated and saliva stretched long before snapping. I hurriedly raised my hand to wipe his mouth. His already red lips had become even redder, almost to the point of bleeding.
“Again.”
While I was stuttering, unable to say anything, Lee Jiwoo muttered quietly in a hoarse voice.
“Wh-what?”
“Kissing makes me feel better.”
What the hell is getting better? I wanted to ask, but I couldn’t. Lee Jiwoo rushed at me aggressively and pressed his lips to mine.
My surprise was brief, as his tongue came haphazardly into my mouth and began to search every nook and cranny as if looking for something. Though it was more intense and hotter than before, somehow my heart was growing cold.
“……”
Because Lee Jiwoo really… fucking sucked at kissing. He moved his tongue diligently, but literally just fooled around. The act of kissing was meant to have deeper intimacy with someone close, but this was like combat. Or should I say it was like an act to find something lost.
Anyway, it was seriously bad. He must have never kissed even once while playing around so promiscuously.
I inwardly sighed and slightly pushed his shoulder. Lee Jiwoo moved back slightly with a flushed face. Panting as if he’d been running alone, Lee Jiwoo looked at me with anxious eyes.
His lips stung and throbbed from how intensely we’d rubbed. My mouth wasn’t very comfortable either. I rubbed the inside of my cheek with my tingling tongue.
“Don’t you want to?”
Eyes that were always indifferent and unreadable now sparkled desperately. It was a face that looked like it would faint if I said I didn’t want to.
I reached out and gently held both of Lee Jiwoo’s cheeks. I grabbed them in case he’d charge at me aggressively like a wild boar again, but his cheeks were excessively soft and warm, making me feel strange.
After hesitating for a moment, I carefully kissed him again. Sure enough, as expected, Lee Jiwoo charged again before our lips even fully touched. I held firm, putting strength into my hands holding his cheeks like stepping on brakes.
And I slowly licked his lips as I kissed him. Lee Jiwoo, who had been frantic, seemed to feel something, as the strength gradually left his body. Finally, we were able to kiss calmly.
Even so, Lee Jiwoo still fucking sucked at kissing, but at least the probability of his lips bleeding disappeared, so I was satisfied with that. As my tension eased, my eyes naturally closed.
By my ear, I could only hear the repeated wet sounds of lips rubbing and tongues tangling. And small breaths…
“Hah…”
“……”
“Mmph, mm… mmh.”
“……”
That’s not a small breath? Why is this bastard panting like this? I snapped my eyes open again. Lee Jiwoo had his eyes tightly shut and was desperately taking breaths like a drowning person.
I had no choice but to separate our lips again. Then from his slightly parted lips, his pink tongue stuck out slightly as if following.
“Through your…”
As I muttered in disbelief, Lee Jiwoo opened his eyes. Looking at his bewildered face, I continued.
“Breathe through your nose.”
At my words, Lee Jiwoo seemed flustered but nodded once. Why is he really acting like that? Is this his first time kissing? For a man who enjoyed sex parties with not just one but multiple people, he looked excessively innocent.
Then suddenly a lightning bolt struck in my head. Could this also be acting to deceive me?
“Stick out your tongue.”
“What?”
“Your tongue.”
My hand that had been holding his cheek naturally dropped. When I inadvertently stuck out my tongue at his commanding words, this time Lee Jiwoo grabbed my cheek.
And he sucked hard enough to make the root of my tongue ache. When I flinched, the intensity weakened. His awkward tongue licked inside my mouth, traced my palate, and kept poking continuously. Just like when I had kissed him earlier, it was the exact same movement as if it had been copy-pasted.
***
The strangest and longest kiss of my life ended. Lee Jiwoo was no longer crying and didn’t look anxious either. Though his face was still full of traces of crying, he definitely didn’t seem tormented anymore.
Lee Jiwoo had been standing about a step away, just staring blankly without saying a word. His fingertips were fiddling with his swollen lips.
He seemed confused and perhaps even shy, but his expression was as blank as usual in a strange way that made me feel odd. Am I also swollen like Lee Jiwoo right now? Just how long did we kiss?
“I…”
Then I heard Lee Jiwoo’s voice, who had been keeping his mouth shut. It was a hoarse voice, locked up as if he hadn’t said a word for days. Earlier he had clung to me like that, sucking on my tongue like a bottle and licking everywhere, but now he wasn’t even looking at me.
“I want to go home.”
“……”
And that’s what he says.
