“That I was famous for being a nutcase.”
“……”
“Did you hear what I babbled while beating up whoever I could get my hands on?”
Did you engrave it clearly in your heart? He stroked Kwon Yunsu’s head intimidatingly.
“And at, at the mart… I met my second-year homeroom teacher.”
He was a bit surprised at those words. Could such a commendable thing happen in this goddamn backwater? Lee Euishin smiled generously and said,
“I pulled some strings to get in the same class. I came down to catch and kill your ass, so naturally.”
“You never said that…”
You never once told me that.
Kwon Yunsu grumbled while avoiding his gaze. At those pouty lips, Lee Euishin lightly pressed his mouth. When he stuck out his tongue, licked the lips, made a smacking sound and pulled his face away, Kwon Yunsu’s face became blank. Even if he’s not a kindergartener, he should know what this is. And he’d never once seen the guy’s face so subtly flushed. Pretty. His heart surged. As he gazed and gazed quietly with eyes that hid nothing, Kwon Yunsu sighed and closed his eyes.
…Does this kid really like me?
He could feel him agonizing over it with his whole body.
“……”
Lee Euishin became dizzy. He felt like he’d die, was aroused to the point of madness, and suddenly a realization came. Why he’d endured for such a long time.
“I waited until my territory became big enough.”
Until you’d have nowhere to run.
Until whatever I do and whatever landscape we leap into, you won’t let go of my hand.
Until you who are simple and healthy and loved by everyone would be sufficiently stained by my petty and greedy poison….
He kissed him again and said,
“…I fucking hate dragging around someone who says they hate me.”
Once more.
“You fucked up my life like this, you have to take responsibility, Kwon Yunsu.”
And something tickling touched his chin.
It was Kwon Yunsu’s hand.
The guy touched his cheek, his nose, his eyes and forehead, his earlobes with trembling hands. His lower body suddenly became heavy. Suppressing the urge to pounce on him right away, Lee Euishin breathed roughly. Does he really like me…? Right now Kwon Yunsu was reading his heart that had been pooling for so long. Tantalizingly slow and sweet, with honest and good fingertips.
Exhaling a sigh-like breath, Lee Euishin whispered in agony,
“Being in pain because of you… I’m going to stop that now.”
You made me go completely crazy. I’ve been living like that all along.
He finally grabbed the hand that had stopped moving and kissed it hungrily.
“Just this once, you lose.”
Urging while begging,
“I’ll hand myself over dirt cheap, so accept me.”
Cruelly pushing the guy full of confusion,
“Then I’ll lose for life. …I’ll do everything you want to do.”
He showed his face full of anxiety, longing, and deprivation as is.
“Don’t push me away. Kwon Yunsu, go out with me.”
“……”
“…If you reject me, I’ll kill you.”
Unable to endure the silence, he finally revealed his nasty temperament.
Barely catching the threateningly thrown ball, Kwon Yunsu was slowly continuing his thoughts. Lee Euishin with unprecedentedly intense eyes was truly threatening. He was so scary he couldn’t even look at him properly. Unable to say a single word properly, he felt like he’d be trapped just like this in the guy’s high-density world. A world I didn’t know… no, perhaps a world I’d been staying in all along. The world you’ve been living in.
You want me to lose?
It was such a Lee Euishin-like thing to say he felt like letting out an empty laugh. At the same time, his heart sank.
Me losing, and having your whole life.
…Is that the way to not fight with you?
Is that the way for us to get along well for life?
When he raised his gaze, their eyes met immediately. When he thought about it, it had been a consistent gaze. A face that glared as if to devour while simultaneously throwing a tantrum. Arrogant, pouty, and sulky Lee Euishin.
When Lee Euishin made that face, he couldn’t refuse.
Finally Kwon Yunsu stopped thinking.
And said exactly what came to mind.
“…Spare me.”
Though it seems like I won’t be able to handle it, though it’s definitely not the right choice…. Still, I need to live first and see. With Lee Euishin.
“Spare me, Euishin-ah.”
And Kwon Yunsu covered his mouth. Spare me, the realization that he’d said something tremendous came belatedly.
“…You!”
The next moment, his shoulder was grabbed with strong force and lips immediately collided. Lee Euishin’s body odor approaching in an instant, the solid volume of his upper body, the arms constricting his body, the deep black eyes with stars pouring down abundantly. Their lips tangled hastily and saliva was sucked. Letting his tongue be bitten and sucked achingly, Kwon Yunsu carefully wrapped his arms around Lee Euishin’s back. Lee Euishin flinched and trembled. The hand cupping his cheek also trembled faintly, so Kwon Yunsu put strength into the arm embracing his back.
Then Lee Euishin’s eyes smiled.
At the rare and precious face curving softly and revealing joy, Kwon Yunsu closed his eyes.
It was becoming difficult to deny the pounding heartbeat now.
It must have been the resonance that began the moment he realized the guy’s world he hadn’t known about, while simultaneously having stayed in all along.
“Let’s go home first.”
At the end of the long, long kiss, blocking the guy’s hand reaching for the seatbelt, Kwon Yunsu barely said,
“Let’s go together.”
Lee Euishin replied in a deeply sunken voice,
“…I should at least greet Dad.”
“Ahjussi said to hurry up and take you.”
“……”
He glared at the guy with resentment. He resented him for bribing his father, and resented him for shamelessly pressing against him with a fully hardened lower body. If we go now, you…
“I can’t hold back.”
…You’ll pounce on me to do it right away. Lee Euishin’s eyes no longer hide anything.
“I’ll just greet him and come…”
“I’m a virgin.”
“……!”
He almost bit his tongue at the unexpected words. Crazy bastard, how can you say that at a time like this?
“I held back when we almost went all the way to penetration in first year. I’ve been celibate because of you.”
Because I want to come inside you.
Barely swallowing the words he was about to add, Lee Euishin shamelessly faced Kwon Yunsu.
Though dumbfounded, Kwon Yunsu’s eyes were honestly wavering. He must be feeling responsible. He’d feel unnecessarily sorry and embarrassed, a pang in his chest. In that moment, Lee Euishin had an intuition. The five years he’d spent guarding his heart would now become a heavy weight pressing down on the guy. It was most desirable. He would lay out all his cards and drag the hick down into his dark world. The words about taking responsibility for his shitty life weren’t a joke.
And Kwon Yunsu did something cute. He mimicked what he’d been doing, stroking his shoulder and then kissing his cheek with a peck.
“L-let’s go first.”
…Let me prepare a bit too.
How could he not know the plea hidden in those blunt words?
After roughly ravaging Kwon Yunsu’s lips once more and leaving a deep mark on his nape, Lee Euishin started the car alone.
And exactly three minutes later, Kwon Yunsu received a call from Lee Euishin.
[So when are you coming?]
“……”
[I’m already hard.]
“Euishin-ah…”
[Hurry up and come. …I miss you.]
Kwon Yunsu’s face, which he’d barely calmed down, flushed bright red.
Were those the words you’ve always been hiding? Were you always saying such things while glaring at my back as I left for home? Why does your world, which I’ve only just stepped into, feel so familiar?
Suddenly, that summer when he was fifteen, the moment he first faced Lee Euishin came to mind. Looking at that guy’s face that was cool, neat, and terribly pretty,
‘What kind of guy is that?’
Kwon Yunsu had felt dizzy.
Five years from then. How long have you endured while tending to my world, and now how quickly and colorfully will you……
“I, I’ll come soon.”
