“Here, has it become more sensitive?”
“Hnng, ah!”
My toes kept curling at the touch of fingers pressing and rubbing.
Before I knew it, Yoo Seonjae, who had moved down and positioned himself between my legs, licked my lower belly while rubbing my nipple. Watching him lick the lower belly that had become dirty with what I’d released, I felt another bottomless surge of excitement.
“Haa, more, it’s dirty.”
At my voice, Yoo Seonjae raised his head from sucking my lower belly and smiled broadly.
“Nothing that came from Yeoul is dirty.”
…How can he be like that? How can he keep sending looks of trust and love so completely toward me?
In Yoo Seonjae’s eyes, there was only me. His actions, words, everything was for me. To the point where it felt sinful to have doubted whether we were really in a loving relationship, Yoo Seonjae was wholeheartedly expressing with his whole body that he loved me.
I feel like crying.
Why was I alone in such a place, leaving someone like this behind? What exactly is it that I don’t remember?
“Haa, Seon, Seonjae.”
“Hm?”
Yoo Seonjae mumbled while still licking my belly. The things that had dirtied my soaking wet belly were now all eaten up by Yoo Seonjae. As he licked the clean belly and embedded his teeth, every time Yoo Seonjae left his mark there, shivers ran from the top of my head to my toes.
“C-come in, now.”
So it wouldn’t be unreasonable to hope he’d hurry and pound into me.
“Yeoul…”
Yoo Seonjae looked at me with a flustered yet happy face. I nodded and spread my legs wide.
I know. What’s inside my belly.
But the baby wanted it too. For daddy to hold them.
Every time Yoo Seonjae’s pheromones wrapped around me, the baby in my belly jumped around happily. I didn’t know the baby would react this actively to alpha pheromones they hadn’t properly felt until now.
When pregnant, even though my attending physician told me until my ears were sore how important alpha pheromones were, I avoided artificial pheromone showers. I didn’t want to do that. Probably, I did that knowing it would turn out like this. Anyway, I’d meet the baby’s father soon. There would be no pheromones better than that.
“Haht!”
Yoo Seonjae’s cock slowly pushed into my hole. For the first time in a long while—no, the first time in my memory receiving an alpha’s cock in my hole—my body kept tensing. Not knowing what to do, just stiffly tensing my body while trembling, Yoo Seonjae gently stroked my spine and whispered in my ear.
“Relax, Yeoul.”
I wanted to relax too. But I didn’t know how.
“Ah, Yeoul, relax—”
The cock entering my hole kept getting pushed out. At this rate, it seemed like Yoo Seonjae could just force his way in, but he was slowly waiting for me to relax.
“Haa, I, I don’t know how to do it.”
“Hm?”
Yoo Seonjae stroked me as I broke out in cold sweat and asked. If not for the pheromones he was releasing, I might have already given up and collapsed.
“I, I don’t know how to relax— mmng!”
When Yoo Seonjae shook his hips once, a high-pitched moan leaked from my mouth without my realizing. Taking advantage of the gap when I relaxed a bit due to his pheromones, Yoo Seonjae pushed in a bit more.
“Haah, Yeoul. Like this, it’s just like when you first did it.”
“Nng, fi-first?”
“Ahh, yeah. We both didn’t know how to do it properly so we fumbled. Haah— But now—”
Yoo Seonjae briefly kissed my panting forehead with a smack.
“Before we knew it, we’ve become three?”
Three…
“Ahk!”
Simultaneously with explosive pheromones covering me, Yoo Seonjae began shaking his hips rapidly. As his cock, which penetrated inside me at once and struck my peak, rapidly went in and out of my hole, I didn’t know what to do and kept moaning.
“Ah! Ahp! Ah! Ah, Seon, Seonjae! Ahk! Seonjae! Haa! Ju-just a bit, gen-gently! Ngh!”
Is this what sex is originally like? Is it because I don’t remember anything?
Every time Yoo Seonjae pounded, stars kept bursting before my eyes. My whole body tingled insanely and even though my hole hurt because his cock was too big, I kept spreading my legs saying I’d take more of it. The legs swinging in the air didn’t feel like my legs.
“Haaang, ahh—”
My unfocused eyes endlessly contained Yoo Seonjae. Yoo Seonjae looked at my blank face as if even that was lovable and moved his hips without rest.
“Ah. Yeoul, the baby likes it.”
With his hand on my belly, Yoo Seonjae smiled broadly while feeling the baby moving vigorously.
Pretty. It’s a pretty sight. There’s no way the sight of my child’s father smiling while feeling his child beneath my skin wouldn’t be pretty. But I kept having scary thoughts.
The baby is happy, the baby’s father is happy, so what’s the problem? I feel good too, I felt good, so why… what exactly…
[I should get rid of it.]
Yoo Seonjae’s voice flashed through my mind in an instant. Goosebumps rose. It was just one phrase that popped out from a locked memory out of nowhere, but I immediately knew what it meant.
“Haa! Yeoul, ah. Why? Why are you suddenly tightening like that—”
My head throbbed. Receiving Yoo Seonjae’s cock that wouldn’t stop, I kept repeating the words floating in my head.
My vision flashed white.
“Honey, are you okay?”
When I opened my eyes, I was wearing fluffy pajamas. It seemed like he had washed me and dressed me while I was unconscious. The room that had been full of humid air was now, as if it had never been that way, full of a cozy and refreshing scent. I knew well that it was Yoo Seonjae’s pheromones patting me.
“I’m… okay.”
Am I okay? Am I really okay?
The fragment of memory tormented me. I definitely heard it. Yoo Seonjae’s words about getting rid of the baby.
Though it was a fragmented memory, it was a certain memory. Perhaps an important memory I must never forget.
“Um, I have a favor to ask.”
“A favor?”
Yoo Seonjae looked at me with a face that said to tell him anything.
“My phone.”
I needed my cell phone that had disappeared somewhere when I was confined to this room.
“Can you bring it?”
“Yeoul.”
“You know, Seonjae. I won’t run away.”
“……”
Yoo Seonjae said nothing and just stroked my head. Whether it was the aftermath of sex, my body trembled delicately every time Yoo Seonjae’s hand touched me. Whether that reassured Yoo Seonjae, he looked at me with a face that had become much more relaxed.
“I hope you won’t suffer from guilt about confining me.”
“Honey.”
“You know, if you searched for me, you’d know, but this place is several times bigger than where I was staying.”
Yoo Seonjae’s face darkened rapidly. The small room on the island where I stayed. He’s probably recalling that room.
“No matter how much you lock the door, when everything I need is here, what would I be uncomfortable about? I’m even eating much better now than when I was outside…”
“Yeoul.”
Yoo Seonjae looked at me with glistening eyes, then suddenly hugged me tightly.
“How were you living? Why did you leave home?”
I patted Yoo Seonjae’s back as he held me. Right. I don’t know why I left home, but what’s certain is that Yoo Seonjae tried to get rid of the baby.
I could be sure without asking. The briefly surfaced memory conveyed the despair, fear, and even resignation of when he said those words, all intact.
“I need to go to the hospital, and I have personal work I was doing.”
“Personal work? Are you talking about Kim Yeonghyo’s business?”
Yoo Seonjae’s face distorted for a moment. But soon he let out a light sigh and nodded.
“Yeoul likes work. Haa, alright. It’s work you can’t let go of even after losing your memory, so I should respect that much. Wait.”
I was relieved that Yoo Seonjae was more obediently bringing my phone than expected. Did last night perhaps instill confidence that I wouldn’t run away?
My heart beat rapidly. Anyway, Yoo Seonjae completely trusts me now. So, I mustn’t miss this opportunity.
Right. I wouldn’t have just left. There was definitely a reason. Even while loving Yoo Seonjae this much, I had no choice but to leave him.
So let’s believe. Believe in my past self and not reverse my actions.
“Here.”
Yoo Seonjae held out the phone.
“Thank you, Seonjae.”
The hand receiving it trembled slightly, but Yoo Seonjae didn’t seem to notice.
“And I’ll leave the door open. I understand well that you have no intention of leaving. Well, this is our home, so there’s no place more comfortable than here.”
“Ah, yeah.”
I smiled broadly at Yoo Seonjae leaving the room. I hadn’t even thought he’d unlock the lock mechanism too.
