Every time I heard stories about Deus from the servants, I felt something. That was that Deus was actually quite intimidating.
Even when he was with me, his personality was just as bad, but still, he always seemed to be smiling. But Deus when he was with servants other than me didn’t speak more than a few words, and didn’t even make the sexual jokes he used to annoyingly overuse.
Especially when he was in a bad mood, his tyranny became worse. I’d even directly intervened in a scene where he tried to cut off all of a servant’s fingers for the reason that they’d put down tableware noisily.
‘I haven’t shown my face for several days using studying as an excuse, so he’s probably displeased about that.’
Honestly, I was uncomfortable being with Deus. Although I’d brought him out of the Void for Ash’s survival, it would be a lie if I said I wasn’t creeped out by the inhuman and cruel disposition Deus occasionally revealed. Of course, including how he transformed into a violent form when something displeased him like now.
In the first place, Deus was favorable to me when I obediently presented what he wanted. When I rebelled even slightly like now, or said words that seemed to deny Deus’s existence, I too was instantly degraded to an expendable commodity that could be easily handled, no different from other servants.
‘Like now.’
The alcohol that went down my throat made my whole body muggy. In my swaying vision, I saw Deus looking down at me as I sat collapsed. Deus, who had put one precious knee on the floor, grasped my ankle. The touch of his thumb rubbing near my ankle bone was sensual.
“You know, the more you cherish a plate, the more careful you become about breaking it. But at the same time, I had this thought. Isn’t that not true love?”
“You’re……”
“If you really cherish that plate, shouldn’t you love it even when it’s broken and a mess?”
“You’re not in your right mind.”
Although I didn’t look in a mirror, I could tell what expression I was making. It was disgust as if looking at a corpse crawling with maggots. Even at my appearance openly showing hostility, Deus who just smiled quietly tilted his head crookedly and continued speaking.
“In that sense, do you know what the real advantage of my ability is?”
“……”
“That I can smash even a cherished plate anytime.”
My eyes widened at the action of gripping the neck of the wine bottle sprawled on the floor. Without time to stop him, the wine bottle that struck my ankle shattered and rolled about.
“Because I just need to return it to its original state.”
For a moment my breath stopped at the pain rising like electricity up my ankle. At my appearance suffering without being able to breathe properly, Deus grabbed my collar as if pitying me. I flinched and trembled, turning my gaze at Deus’s action of rubbing against my cheek. My body shook with chills from the pain.
“That’s the expression I want Kiss to see.”
“Huk, ngh……”
“I won’t hold you back, go ahead.”
Deus, who finished speaking in an indifferent voice, released the collar he’d been holding as if throwing it. I stared blankly at my ankle that was clearly broken, then put one knee on the floor.
After forcing myself to stand up with a body I could barely control, I walked a few steps then eventually collapsed once more. Deus just quietly watched that from behind.
‘My ankle hurts too much.’
Droplets that might be sweat or tears fell plop plop on the floor. Just as I was limping toward the door dragging one leg, I gritted my teeth and struggled at the arms embracing my neck from behind. Deus, who let out a laugh, gripped my struggling arms hard.
“What am I supposed to do if you really leave when I say to go…… Are you an idiot? Can’t you read the atmosphere?”
“Why……”
“……”
“Why are you doing this to me……”
Because I couldn’t put one foot on the ground due to my broken ankle, my body kept swaying. My insides churned from the strong alcohol, my ankle hurt. My face stung, covered in tears and sweat. Deus, who embraced me as I just exhaled roughly with no strength left to struggle, moved his steps to the bed.
“I won’t tell you to love me. Even I know that’s not something you can force, no matter who you are. I have that much common sense at least.”
I weakly looked at the psycho who was careless when throwing me on the floor but careful when laying me on the bed. Now even the word common sense coming from that bastard’s mouth was infuriating.
Deus, who held me tightly in his arms, buried his face in my shoulder. In the touch of the hand kneading my buttocks after putting it inside my pants, I felt a matter-of-factness like handling his own possession.
“But don’t distance yourself from me. Without you, I have no meaning in living here.”
Suddenly I had that thought. The servants waiting outside couldn’t have failed to hear the loud noise. The fact that they didn’t come running even after hearing my screams meant Kiss had definitely given separate orders. An order not to interfere no matter how Deus handled me.
I let out a big sigh while covering my reddened eyes with the back of my hand. The statement that I didn’t expect anything seemed to have been bravado after all. I knew in my head that to Kiss, someone like me was nothing more than a simple tool, yet I couldn’t understand why I felt so miserable. The feeling of having grown even slightly closer in the Void was indeed just my imagination.
“Is that enough?”
“……”
“Can you become emperor with just that?”
“Yes.”
When I asked the question in a locked voice, Deus answered without a moment’s hesitation and continued.
“It’s a world where perfectly good food is buried in the ground because its value has dropped…… wars break out over getting shiny stones. It’s like every existence was born with malice.”
At the action of pulling down the hand covering my eyes, I slowly opened them. Deus, who bent his upper body, lightly kissed my cheek. I felt the pain subsiding from my ankle where stinging pain had been felt.
“In this world, the only beautiful thing is you alone. So I’ll do anything to have you.”
It was ironic. That Ash, who had never once been affirmed as a valuable existence in the original work, was hearing such words from Deus who likewise had never had his existence affirmed.
I caught my breath waiting for the pain to subside, then reached my hand toward Deus’s face. Then I caressed the area around his burst lips.
“Then I’ll do that for you. I’ll stay by your side forever. Without any emotion, like a corpse.”
When I pressed hard on the lips that had already burst and were wounded, blood seeped out. I quietly glared at Deus’s face that showed not even a bit of pain. Suppressing my anger, I continued speaking.
“Go ahead and embrace my corpse to your heart’s content. Because I’ll never love you.”
The hand that had been gently sweeping back my hair hesitated and froze. Deus, who returned to cold eyes as if he’d never been affectionate, gripped my hair hard. With a swish, my head bent painfully at the hand that pulled my head back. Deus, who had been sucking on my Adam’s apple, whispered while pressing our lower bodies together.
“With you, even a corpse seems possible.”
* * *
Was it because alcohol had entered? Stimulation felt more sensitive than usual. My body was already hot from the alcohol, yet somehow my whole body became drenched in sweat in an instant because of Deus sucking my cock while covering me with the blanket up to my head.
Deus, who had been repeatedly gripping and shaking my cock while lightly biting my balls with his lips, spread my buttocks to the side. At the soft tongue moistening above my hole past the perineum, I trembled violently and pushed away his head. It was even more embarrassing because I couldn’t close my legs since he’d made me hook them over his shoulders.
“Wh-where are you……!”
“You’re a corpse, close your eyes.”
“……”
“It’s weird for a corpse to drip water, isn’t it?”
I bit my lips at the tone that felt strangely irritated. Feeling the strength leave my hands gripping his hair, Deus once again pressed down on the wrinkles around my hole with his wet tongue. I felt my lower belly tighten at the unfamiliar sensation, but I forcibly held back my moans. I didn’t want to be caught feeling it as Deus said. Deus, who laughed quietly at my appearance trembling intermittently with my eyes closed, muttered.
“It’s like fucking someone who’s asleep……”
The tongue that had been licking and sucking around the hole soon poked at the hole. At the squishy tongue that seemed about to rummage inside at any moment, my brain seemed to melt. I wished I’d at least faint like last time, but unlike before when he’d just shove his cock in, I couldn’t even faint because of Deus sucking my whole body as if melting candy.
Deus, who had been sucking the hole making lewd sounds, pressed his thumb firmly into the hole dripping with saliva and pre-cum. I felt the inside that had been tightly closed slowly expanding.
“I wish this would quickly change to a vertical shape.”
“……”
“Worn down, worn down. I’ll make the inside change to the shape of my cock.”
Sweat dripped down my nape. Perhaps because I was short of breath from being covered with the blanket up to my head, even my mind felt hazy.
Because Deus just pushed his fingers in but didn’t do anything, I felt the fingers that had pushed inside even more vividly. Every time I breathed in deeply, it tightened below embarrassingly. Nevertheless, I didn’t let out moans. I didn’t want to make this bastard feel good even if it killed me. Setting up my last pride, I stubbornly didn’t open my closed eyes.
“Ash holds back moans better than I thought.”
Deus, who muttered as if amused, overlapped our bodies without gaps as he had done before. Outside the blanket it was cold rather than cool. Yet the body embracing me tightly, putting arms under my armpits, was covered in sweat as expected. At the hard member poking at my hole, I unknowingly flinched and my body stiffened. Deus, who was chewing on my ear that had flushed red from the alcohol, whispered.
“I’m getting curious how far you can endure.”
