How much time had passed?
When the splashing sounds of water grew faint… Seianes, who had been frantically entangling his body with Abrisius, had let go of his mind at some point. Rather than saying he’d lost the thread of reason, it was more accurate to say he’d simply let go of everything.
“Hngh… ngh… haah!”
After that, his body trembled with excitement as he felt pleasure according to Abrisius’s movements. Reacting as his body moved, Seianes’s hips swayed on their own.
“Mmh-!”
Abrisius’s hips moved again at the heavy pleasure that pierced the deepest place from below.
Watching Abrisius, who was drenched in pleasure and absorbed in devouring him, Seianes thought with a dazed expression.
Just what had made Abrisius like this? Thinking that the reason was love, and that the object of Abrisius’s love was himself, made him feel even more miserable, as if it were all his fault.
“I… I love you, hngh, but not like this… ah, wasn’t…”
He loved him, but it wasn’t supposed to be like this—he loved him, but the version of him he loved was different.
Seianes muttered in a desperate voice.
But there was no way those words could properly reach Abrisius, who had long since let go of the thread of reason.
He simply mounted Seianes, controlling him and moving back and forth as he pleased.
‘Since when…’
The appearance that seemed to have become ugly. Tears flowed from Seianes’s eyes. The smiling face of the child he had loved flashed through his mind.
[Seianes!]
Was it right to say that the child who had smiled so brightly while calling his name like that no longer existed?
His heart ached at the thought that the blind affection that had once been directed at him had twisted so hideously.
Unable to maintain consciousness any longer, Seianes slowly closed his eyes. Just before his vision darkened, what he dimly saw was Abrisius, who didn’t stop moving even as he lost consciousness.
* * *
“Haah, ngh, aah!”
Even after Seianes lost consciousness, Abrisius continued moving above him for quite a while, immersed in pleasure.
Even while asleep, Seianes’s body was honest, and Abrisius kept shaking his hips on the growing member.
He didn’t know how much time had passed.
“Haah… haah, ah, ahhh!”
Abrisius, who had been shaking his hips above Seianes until his strength was exhausted, reached his final climax and collapsed.
Collapsed on top of Seianes’s abdomen, Abrisius caught his breath. Even as his body trembled finely with the afterglow of ejaculation, he burrowed deeper into Seianes’s body.
He found it endearing how Seianes, whose mind was asleep but whose body remained awake, panted in response to his touch. The gasping breaths stimulated his hearing, and he thought it would be a waste to fall asleep like this.
“Ngh!”
Eventually, Abrisius rose again and observed Seianes. When he lifted his body slightly, physiological pain surged from below.
As his body moved, Seianes’s member slipped out from inside the hole that had been greedily swallowing his penis. Semen flowed from the twitching hole, still trembling with the lingering sensation.
As the semen flowed in clumps down his thighs, a strange sensation made his body tremble. He observed Seianes’s sleeping face, taking in every detail.
Eyes firmly shut with long, soft eyelashes. Lips that had become slightly swollen. Exploring Seianes’s sleeping face was also enjoyable.
“Haah… How can even your sleeping face be so lovely?”
At the appearance like a subject embroidered carefully, stitch by stitch, saliva naturally pooled in his mouth. Could there be another face this beautiful?
Even while experiencing faint labor pains in his waist, Abrisius was absorbed in admiring Seianes. His awake appearance, his sleeping appearance, and the appearance of devouring him—all made Abrisius’s heart flutter.
“Sleep well, Seianes.”
Now Abrisius too could no longer endure. The afterglow of pleasure and the fatigue that had built up from moving alone made his body unbearably heavy.
“I love you.”
After giving Seianes’s forehead one last brief kiss, Abrisius collapsed beside him.
Unable to overcome his gradually growing heavy eyes, Abrisius also fell asleep.
* * *
Even in the underground world without day or night, there was a time when a ray of light flowed.
That small light that Ircadeon had shot up from the underground earth was embedded in Zeyaom’s roots, and it glowed at certain times.
How much time had passed?
When the light embedded in Zeyaom’s roots gradually began to glow and reached the door of the room where Seianes and Abrisius were sleeping…
“Mmh…”
Seianes gently opened his eyes.
With eyes more dazed than when drunk, he looked up at the ceiling. It was familiar. It wasn’t unfamiliar.
‘The ceiling I saw earlier. Different from where I was.’
The underground ceiling.
As he grasped that thought, it felt like his thinking, which had been paused for a moment, found its place.
[Haah, ngh… Seianes.]
As the gasping moans were recalled from memory, Seianes, who had been calmly looking only at the ceiling, suddenly turned his head to look beside him.
He turned his head hoping it wasn’t so, but reality was surprisingly cruel to Seianes.
“…Mmh.”
When he turned his head, what he faced was none other than the sleeping Abrisius. His appearance, letting out moans while moving his mouth in his sleep, looked utterly peaceful, but Seianes couldn’t maintain his composure.
“Ngh… ah.”
The events of last night suddenly came to mind.
Abrisius moving relentlessly above him. And himself, who at first rejected him but later shook his own hips.
All the memories flew at him like daggers, disturbing Seianes’s mind.
‘I, I… shouldn’t have done that, but why. Why…’
He couldn’t breathe from the memories that kept surfacing.
Even though he wanted to deny it, his body, which remembered the pleasure, made Seianes tremble again. When he slightly raised his arm, his wrist was colored red and purple.
The traces of intercourse remained on Seianes’s body like scars, colored red and purple.
Only then did the cold reality hit him.
He had slept with Abrisius.
Abrisius had violated Seianes. To be precise, he should say that Abrisius had forcibly struck his purity and he had given up his chastity.
“This can’t be… This can’t be…”
He was astounded by the reality that Abrisius, whom he had raised so preciously, had violated him.
But what was even more unbearable than anything was his body that had automatically reacted by instinct even while Abrisius was violating him.
“Ngh, hngh…”
Indescribable pain flowed through his entire body.
“This shouldn’t happen. It shouldn’t.”
He had loved Abrisius more than anything, but he had never even thought of this kind of love.
He had only thought of him as his child. That’s why he wanted to stay together forever, but he had never wanted a situation like this.
Saying he hated losing Seianes, he dragged him here and ultimately made him fall.
Was this the love Abrisius wanted? His head was dizzy, making it hard to think properly. He’d rather believe that everything was a lie.
He could no longer look at Abrisius. To be precise, it was difficult to look at him as before.
Rather than the feeling of being violated by the one he had raised like a son, he found himself unbearably resentful of having felt pleasure throughout being violated by him.
‘This is practically the same as me violating him.’
He should have stopped Abrisius somehow. Perhaps Seianes had the power to do so. But he willingly gave his body to Abrisius, and moved exactly as he wanted, even ejaculating inside him.
“How should I look at you now?”
A pitch-black reality blocked his view. Seianes, for whom even looking at Abrisius had become difficult, turned his back on him and curled up his body.
“Hic, hngh…”
A complexity and desperate sorrow that only Seianes could understand echoed through the room. But the quiet darkness swallowed even that sorrow without a trace.
