Because it was something I could quickly notice if I separated my ego and looked at myself a bit objectively.
I was clearly jealous. Of the person Seo Heejin had a crush on, who I’d mistaken for me. And of the future blind date partner who might date Seo Heejin from now on.
But how could I say this to Seo Heejin straightforwardly? I was just a sex partner, and I didn’t have even the dirt under my toenails’ worth of desire to date Seo Heejin. In our relationship, using the word jealousy was more meaningless than finding the words “leaving on time” on a quarterly deadline day.
And after spitting it out of my mouth, I felt like the fact that I was jealous would really be nailed down and preserved, so I absolutely didn’t want to tell him.
Tell Seo Heejin about emotions I couldn’t even acknowledge myself? If it’s going to be like that, I’d rather…
“Ahng…!”
I’ll move myself.
“Huk, hyung—!”
When I forcefully pushed my hips back and made myself take Seo Heejin’s dick, Seo Heejin startled and removed his hands from my ass to brace on my bed. Thanks to my body tilting forward making it easier to be penetrated deeper, when I moved my hips largely instead of the shallow movements from before, groaning sounds poured down from right above me.
“Ahht, hnn—! This, haah… I like this…!”
It was the same as cowgirl position in that Seo Heejin stayed still and I worked hard bucking, but keeping my legs together and moving my ass called up a different sensation.
When I forcefully lifted my hips high, my hole spread open and swallowed Seo Heejin’s dick fully, and when I came back down, the muscles clenched tight and strangled the pillar settled in my hole. On top of that, the best thing about when I moved was that I could stab wherever I wanted as much as I wanted.
My prostate was crushed and pressed and in chaos, so clear fluid kept dripping down from the tip of my dick without rest.
My thighs trembled from the pleasure that stabbed in every time I shook my hips, and I couldn’t possibly keep my head up straight, so I hugged the pillow and buried my face in it. I thought it felt like only Seo Heejin’s dick and my hole remained in this world. Naturally the speed of moving my hips increased, and accordingly the next pleasure burst out from inside me quickly.
“Haak—! Seo Heejin, mmng…! Seo Heejin—!”
Even when I enthusiastically called his name wondering if he’d still not move and endure, Seo Heejin was immovable.
“Ha—, fuck. Yunwoo hyung… hyung, really.”
The voice that burst out with the curse was clearly dying. Seo Heejin was definitely exerting superhuman strength to endure moving.
Ah, honestly, I didn’t care what happened anymore.
Seo Heejin’s dick was swollen like it would burst, pushing out every corner inside my body, and thanks to that my belly was filled to the brim with a sense of fullness.
But it was tiring. When even push-ups have a limit on how many you can do, and I was bouncing my ass that enthusiastically. When I rotated my hips while wriggling with Seo Heejin’s cock pushed as deep inside as possible, the feeling of all the flesh inside being pushed and rubbed came up clearly.
“Heuk……”
When my prostate was rubbed while being pressed, my hips trembled.
How did I manage to get this cock? The thought of giving it up to a stranger whose face I didn’t even know made me feel so wronged I could cry. Unlike me, who could barely eat it after struggling for a long time, that person would definitely take it right away. Unlike me who pitifully begged to be fucked, that person would receive treatment and have sex.
I was cheerfully shaking my hips when suddenly this thought came to me and my motivation dropped completely. What the hell am I doing right now?
I released the strength from my body and collapsed onto the bed with a thud, but Seo Heejin’s cock, whose length I even liked, was still inside me. Seo Heejin pressed his lips down smack-smack on my back that must have been damp with sweat. And then he giggled softly.
“Wow. I was about to cum so I couldn’t even move while holding back.”
Seo Heejin’s weight pressed down on my body suffocatingly. The hand that dug between the bed and my chest squeezed tightly, hugging my body firmly. As if he couldn’t leave his lips still even for a moment, Seo Heejin kissed my ear several times.
The sound of flesh colliding sounded so loud as if it was ringing right next to my eardrum.
“Look at your heart beating.”
Just as whispered in that small voice, my heart that had done intense exercise pounded thump-thump flowing through my whole body.
Seo Heejin hugged me as if he was so happy he didn’t know what to do and rubbed his head against my shoulder and cheek like a cat. About to cum my ass. Seo Heejin’s cock filling my insides was slightly poking up inside my body with no sign of wilting even without moving.
“Hyung—, Yunwoo hyung.”
Not wanting to respond to the affectionate call, I pressed my face harder into the pillow and heard a low laugh.
“You’ll suffocate to death like that.”
When fingers touched my chin gently and I was forced to make eye contact with Seo Heejin, the sadness that had been filling my chest poured out all at once.
“You have to tell me why you’re angry so I can fix it.”
Could Seo Heejin fix my jealous feelings? I hated that my emotions weren’t under my control, so how could someone else solve that?
Without realizing it, I stuck out my lips, and Seo Heejin, mistaking it for asking for a kiss, briefly bumped his lips and pulled away.
“I…… I don’t want to have sex with you anymore.”
Even to my ears, it was just a whining voice with no sincerity at all. This isn’t right. I was trying to say let’s cut it off cleanly because the closer I get to you, the more fucked up my emotions seem to get.
Even at those weightless words, Seo Heejin’s heart must have sunk because his eyes that had been smiling gradually rose and soon became expressionless.
“What do you mean by that?”
“You’re going to date that blind date person now anyway.”
I could even watch Seo Heejin frown right in front of my nose.
“What……?”
“Or don’t give up on that person you have unrequited love for and try again.”
I did pull out the words in my heart while drunk on the atmosphere, but after actually saying it, I felt dirty and embarrassed.
It must have been obvious to Seo Heejin that I was jealous. Not knowing what expression to look at Seo Heejin with, I buried my face in the pillow again and a big sigh reached me from right beside me.
“Hah— What are you even saying.”
Seo Heejin seemed to think I was pathetic too. And pervert that I am, I got a little curious about what kind of contemptuous face Seo Heejin was looking at me with, so I turned my head just a little bit and peeked. Surprisingly, the face that had been angry just moments ago was relaxed again with a grin.
“Are you stupid, hyung?”
Was I mistaken in thinking he’d relaxed?
“Why am I stupid? You’re the trash!”
I guess I’d been defining Seo Heejin as trash in my heart without realizing it. Words I hadn’t thought of just popped out.
Seo Heejin who has sex with me while having someone else he likes, who thinks about blind dates with other people while sticking with me. Looking at it closely, he really was trash. This trash bastard!
When I lifted my head sharply, Seo Heejin who quickly approached bit my nose painfully hard.
“Ah—!”
Through my jolted consciousness, Seo Heejin’s voice returned clearly.
“That’s you, hyung. The person I have unrequited love for is you, hyung.”
For a moment, my mind went blank. Me? Seo Heejin has liked me since he joined the company?
“……Me?”
At my stammering question, Seo Heejin went “agh” and leaned his forehead on my shoulder.
“Ha, how did I end up liking such an idiot.”
His grumbling was clearly meant for me to hear. In Seo Heejin’s face that turned to me again, not a drop of laughter could be found.
“Are you pretending not to notice, hyung? Or do you really have no sense?”
Seo Heejin’s expressionless face was reproaching me.
I’ve never thought I lacked awareness in my life. Rather, I thought I lived with pretty quick perception. That really seemed to have been my delusion. People are naturally lenient when evaluating themselves.
“You…… you didn’t just sleep with me once and get confused, did you?”
Even after just hearing him say he’d liked me since joining the company, I ended up making a trash statement. Even I thought it was a bit harsh after saying it, but Seo Heejin had a surprisingly calm expression.
As if he was used to me reacting this way. Seo Heejin, still with a blank expression, kissed my cheek.
“I didn’t know I’d end up confessing like this either.”
Right. I didn’t know the day would come when I’d receive a confession while impaled on a cock in a state of being all deflated like someone who gave up everything after getting desperate alone, shaking my hips, getting jealous and angry.
“Yunwoo hyung, I like you. I’ve liked you from the beginning.”
I still only wanted to escape from this strange reality.
“So…… the first day we jerked off together?”
So I spouted nonsense that even I found really absurd. I didn’t want to admit it.
Seo Heejin liked me from the beginning? Then why did I struggle alone and make a fuss after seeing Seo Heejin’s cock?
“Don’t say ridiculous things. From the first day we met.”
Seo Heejin calmly and diligently dragged me, who was running away, back to reality.
“The beginning……? The first day we met? During new employee training?”
