But what if I dated and then broke up with Seo Heejin? I absolutely had no confidence to endure seeing his face every day at the same company. It was better for my future mental health if he wasn’t completely mine from the start.
Not knowing my heart, Seo Heejin who could just say he liked me, let’s date, and express himself, was both annoying and enviable. When I turned over thinking I should just sleep more, my body was pulled into a tight embrace. I’d touched him a bit, but it didn’t seem like I’d bothered him enough to wake him up.
“Hyung…… why did you wake up so early?”
The mumbling voice was full of sleepiness.
“I’m going back to sleep. Wake me so I’m not late.”
“Mm,” soft hair tickled my nape in rhythm with the shaking head.
“I was debating whether to tell you since yesterday, but I let it go…”
A low laugh followed.
“Hyung, today’s the company founding anniversary.”
The eyes that had been drowsily closing snapped wide open. Founding anniversary!? I suddenly felt so wronged for waking up early. And even though I’d woken up, Seo Heejin had clearly known he wasn’t going to work today but threatened me that I wouldn’t be able to go to work if I didn’t answer properly?
“Hey, you trash.”
He should’ve told me earlier. No wonder my eyes opened earlier than usual—it was the law of days off. On weekdays, no matter how much I sleep I’m tired and have trouble waking up, but on days when I don’t have to go to work, my eyes snap open early.
“As if I’d push hyung too hard on a day when I have to go to work.”
Even his mumbling voice was cocky.
“Want to sleep a little more, then wake up and go on a date for the first time in a while?”
“What date?”
I’d planned to roll around the house all day, even if just because I felt wronged for waking up early. Of course, Seo Heejin clearly had no such intention.
“Where could we go that we can only go on a day like today because there are too many people otherwise…”
At least I could tell the place Seo Heejin was thinking of wasn’t somewhere ordinary. When I squeezed my eyes shut at the terrible thought and tried to go back to sleep, Seo Heejin’s healthy cock rubbed against my ass from early morning.
* * *
“Hey, don’t you know there’s a law that office workers must stay home on their days off?”
At my words, Seo Heejin, who’d been drying my hair, laughed.
“Where’s such a law? Let’s go out and watch a movie, hyung.”
If he really wanted to go out, he should at least have some conscience when saying it. As punishment for waking Seo Heejin, my hole was overworked from dawn. No matter how much I pretended to sleep, he kept spouting all kinds of nonsense about how it was still soft because he’d fucked me so much yesterday, then after asking a few times if I was really sleeping, he just shoved his cock in.
When I woke up again in the middle after briefly dozing off from exhaustion, unable to resist Seo Heejin’s nibbling, it was already late afternoon. I had no thoughts or sensations other than just wanting to collapse and sleep more.
Even if my type was beast-like macho men, it didn’t mean I wanted to fuck with an actual beast.
“No. Once my hair’s dry, I’m lying back down.”
Perhaps because he’d done everything he wanted with his cock, Seo Heejin looked very pleased. Even the touch of his hand brushing over my wet hair was dripping with joy.
“Then should we go eat something delicious?”
A bad memory suddenly came to mind. The embarrassing brunch cafe for two men that he’d forcibly dragged me to… Seeing Seo Heejin’s eyes sparkling, it didn’t seem much different from that day. What I needed at times like this was aegyo.
“I don’t want to—”
Even though I clung to him without warning, Seo Heejin stably caught and held me. As if he knew I’d do this. At the ticklish warmth pressing firmly on my forehead, now completely accustomed, I rubbed my cheek against him without even being able to say whether I liked it or not.
“Let’s just order delivery at home.”
When I looked up at Seo Heejin saying “huh?”, I got a feeling something was wrong. He was clearly smiling but it strangely gave me goosebumps. Ah, no way. After pounding me from last night until this afternoon, he couldn’t possibly still have cum left to squeeze out, right?
“Yunwoo hyung.”
I answered immediately at Seo Heejin’s call.
“No.”
“How do you know what I was going to say?”
The grinning face came close and bumped against my lips. Unlike how I’d tensed up thinking Seo Heejin would pounce on me for sex again, the tongue that pried open my pursed lips wrapped around me affectionately.
My brain, which had received indoctrination education from each of Seo Heejin’s actions, chattered away. Saying “You do like Seo Heejin, I’m telling you.” The situation where even my thoughts weren’t under my control felt strange, so when I pulled my head back, Seo Heejin cupped my cheeks so I couldn’t escape.
The deeply digging tongue persistently swept through my mouth and carefully traced my molars. The fingers touching my cheeks couldn’t stay still either, gently caressing my hair and earlobes.
It had been a long time since I’d felt the sensation of someone cherishing me. Receiving this kiss overflowing with Seo Heejin’s feelings made my nose sting for no reason. Even though I’d forgotten the lesson learned from that damned past relationship.
“Haah…”
Every time our lips parted, the breath I’d been lacking came panting out. As if to devour even that breath, we bumped again, and bumped again. By the time the lips that held no lust completely separated, the hair that had been wet was already dry.
Bonk—Seo Heejin bumped his forehead against mine and smiled with his eyes.
“Then, should we go grocery shopping together?”
“…Okay.”
I obediently answered, dazed as if my brain had melted from the kiss.
Satisfied with my answer, Seo Heejin got up, opened the closet, and gathered clothes for me to wear. When I stretched out my arms like a child waiting for a mother’s touch, the stretched-neck t-shirt I was wearing as pajamas was stripped off by Seo Heejin’s hands. Letting someone else dress me was embarrassing, so I took the blue t-shirt Seo Heejin was holding.
The hand stroking my head somehow felt like praising a young child, making my feelings complex. It seemed not only Seo Heejin had regressed to infancy while living together.
“What do you want to eat?”
Only then did I remember I hadn’t eaten anything all day today, and the sensation of hunger returned.
“I’m hungry.”
“You’re hungry after eating that much cum?”
When I stretched out my arms again, Seo Heejin stood me up from the bed. At this rate, I might not be able to go outside without Seo Heejin.
“You scraped it all out.”
At my words, Seo Heejin giggled and nodded. It would have been an irrefutable statement. It was Seo Heejin who’d taken me to the bathroom and extracted the cum inside when I was limply sprawled out. How much trouble it was, the two of us bustling around in that narrow bathroom.
“Think about what you want to eat by the time we get to the mart.”
Before opening the front door, Seo Heejin hugged me from behind and whispered that phrase I’d heard to death.
“Hyung likes me,” he said.
* * *
In the car on the way to the mart, Seo Heejin kept throwing me options. It was Seo Heejin’s consideration for me on days when deciding a menu was difficult.
“Korean food, Chinese food, Japanese food?”
“You can’t make Japanese food.”
“Then… Korean food, Chinese food, snack food?”
“Korean food.”
“You really like Korean food,” Seo Heejin said with a laugh. Seo Heejin skillfully turning the steering wheel looked subtly cool. Men who drive well are sexy.
“Doenjang-jjigae?”
“No.”
“Sundubu-jjigae?”
“That’s on hold.”
Sundubu-jjigae bubbling with clams was a food I liked.
“Sundubu-jjigae and tteokgalbi?”
Without realizing it, my mouth watered with a “yum.” Seo Heejin’s hand, which had been driving, slowly crept over and layered on top of my hand that had been resting obediently on my thigh.
Each action made me feel queasy inside, thinking about how affectionately Seo Heejin must have treated his girlfriends all this time.
“No.”
Even though I clearly knew how delicious tteokgalbi was with sundubu-jjigae, I shook my head, but Seo Heejin just laughed, pleased even with my fickleness. Playing twenty questions to find what I wanted to eat, we’d arrived at the mart parking lot before I knew it.
“I still haven’t decided what to eat.”
Seo Heejin gave a quick peck on my lips that stuck out pointedly.
“It’s okay. You’ll think of something as we walk around the mart.”
Honestly, it felt good how he matched my pace without rushing me over small things. The frantic feeling of having to decide quickly wasn’t my style.
If nothing grabbed me, I preferred to leisurely look at this and that until something did, but being worn down by work life where I was always pressed for time and had to make quick decisions about everything, I unknowingly got anxious even about things unrelated to work, which was stressful.
