# Chapter 40
What is he trying to say?
Is he going to ask if I thought he’d never had any experience until now?
I was thinking, what would I expect from this guy, when an unexpected answer came.
“It’s my first time, you know? I was an aspiring celebrity. I was extremely careful because I was afraid one scandal might ruin everything at once. I got scared after seeing how several top stars were ruined by scandals from their school days.”
“…Really?”
“Yes. Wow, come to think of it, it’s been a really difficult journey. Girls followed me around saying they liked me. So many wanted to date me. But I didn’t even look at them and have kept my purity until now. Unlike someone.”
“W-well, I just… only kissed a little…”
The more I spoke, the more shameless I felt.
“I’ll do better from now on!!”
Having nothing else to say, I shouted loudly, and he kept laughing.
“You won’t have a choice.”
“Why is that?”
“Because I’m going to be really good to you. So you’ll have no choice but to be good to me too. Even if it’s just out of guilt.”
What a method.
It was incredible.
He was saying he’d make me treat him well by moving me emotionally.
I couldn’t help but smile warmly.
Han Sijin leaned against me without saying anything else.
“Hyung…”
He suddenly kissed me.
“I like you so much, Hyung. You’re so pretty.”
“Say I’m handsome, you jerk!!”
“Hehehe! Okay. You’re handsome. You’re the best, Hyung.”
Speaking playfully, he kissed my wrist.
I was completely out of my mind.
No.
I’m going crazy.
* * *
After a passionate time, Han Sijin held me.
I could have pushed his hands away and moved to the side, but I didn’t.
It’s just…
Han Sijin’s rough and rude words excited me too, and I was out of my mind as well.
“Kang Seomin. You’ll only kiss me from now on, right?”
“Don’t speak informally to me, Han Sijin.”
“I don’t want to.”
“…!!”
I was going to tell him not to be cheeky, but somehow, I didn’t entirely dislike Han Sijin speaking informally, so I let it be.
“Kang Seomin. Are you mine?”
“Being cheeky again.”
“You are mine.”
“…”
Yes. It wouldn’t hurt to give in once.
I gazed at him ecstatically, and later, even that became tiring, and I dozed off.
“Hyung. Do you want to sleep more? But shouldn’t you contact your company? Contact your company and then sleep well.”
It was Han Sijin’s voice.
Despicable bastard.
The guy who tried to kill me overnight is talking like that?
As if he cares about me?
But I couldn’t ignore what he said.
“What time is it?”
After saying that, I jumped up in shock.
“Aaaaargh!”
A chilling pain shot through me as if someone had split my body with an axe.
‘But wait…’
This is crazy.
My voice was seriously messed up.
“Hey! What’s wrong with my throat?”
Even as I said that, my voice was coming out severely broken.
The pain was bad enough, but I had to go to work.
“Sijiiiin.”
I called his name to check the state of my voice, and Han Sijin’s eyes widened when he heard me.
“Oh my… it’s bad?”
“…”
How can I go to work like this?
I clutched my throat in disbelief.
“Let’s say you sang too enthusiastically at a karaoke place.”
“If you answer that way when no one asked, it would be even more suspicious.”
“Is that so?”
While talking and looking at me, Han Sijin suddenly shut his mouth.
Why?
What now?
Feeling something strange, I looked at Han Sijin and asked, but he didn’t answer.
Does he think I won’t know if he doesn’t tell me?
I quickly went to the mirror and was horrified.
There was a bruise on my neck.
“What the hell is this?!”
Even my shout was coming out in this bizarre, broken way…
I bowed my head deeply and then raised it again, feeling strange.
“Don’t come near me. You!”
“Well, if you don’t want me to, I won’t. Though I was going to…”
Thinking that I didn’t know what would happen if I continued talking with this guy, I went outside and gradually recalled where I was.
The dorm.
Damn…
Me, who had been with Han Sijin, who had woken up with him, but hadn’t even thought about where I was.
Wow…
I ran into Seo Irun who was elegantly brewing coffee in the living room.
He looked surprised but immediately turned his head away.
And when he heard a door about to open from another direction, he shouted:
“Cha Yeonwoo! Don’t come out. Everyone stay where you are.”
Then he nodded at me.
Fortunately, thanks to him managing the traffic, I quickly went to the bathroom.
While I was washing up, Han Sijin scurried over, placed new clothes on the shelf, and grinned weakly.
“Don’t laugh, you bastard.”
“Hmm? Are you sick of me now?”
“What are you saying! Don’t come near me from now on. Don’t contact me until I contact you first!”
“I don’t want to. Do you still think I’m your boyfriend? That I’ll worry and get scared when you talk to me like that?”
“Huh!”
Han Sijin boldly showered next to me.
“Wow… now that I’m not your manager anymore, you completely ignore what I say.”
“Hyung. Will you be with us when we film commercials? I’d like you to be there.”
“I think I’ve seen enough of you now. Get out of here.”
But Han Sijin didn’t seem hurt by such words anymore.
Maybe because he knew I wasn’t being sincere.
“How are you going to contact your company? Do it by phone. By phone. When you call, they’ll be surprised and tell you to rest today without doing anything. Ah! If you rest all day, do I have to entertain you again?”
I couldn’t understand when Han Sijin had become such a sly fox.
I sighed and was about to leave when I froze in place.
“Uuuugh!!!”
When I stood still without moving, Han Sijin thought I was joking and giggled, asking:
“What are you doing, Hyung?”
As he tried to pull me, I shook my head frantically, and his expression also changed ominously.
“What’s… wrong, Hyung?”
“It just hurt so much.”
“Where?”
“Well…”
‘What if he asks why this place hurts? What can I say? I can’t even go to the hospital with something like this!’
While I was thinking without being able to speak, Han Sijin seemed to realize what had happened, and his face gradually turned white.
“Hyung. Does it hurt a lot?”
“How could it not hurt, you bastard?”
“Wow. So rough!!”
“Ha, I’m going crazy! This is so embarrassing. What do I do now! People know my face too. What do I do? What do I do now!”
“I’ll… I’ll put some medicine on for you, Hyung. It’ll get better with time. Okay?”
“No thanks. Don’t come near me. Don’t take even one more step toward me!”
I was about to leave when I remembered why I had stopped in place.
My mind cleared like a lightning strike, and tremendous pain rushed in.
“But you have to get out first.”
“Get out and do what! You say you’ll apply medicine but you’re just trying to mess around again.”
“What are you saying? I’m not crazy.”
“Seems like you were.”
“Then… then I was a bit out of my mind. But not anymore. Now I’ll really take good care of you.”
“No, forget it. How can I trust you?”
“Should I call Chan then?”
“Chan?”
Chan.
Chan would be fine.
If it’s Jeong Chan, the pure angel who remained my light until the end in this den of demons.
“Yes. Call Chan for me.”
Then Han Sijin ran outside.
“Chan. Jeong Chan! Come out quickly. Sijin hyung can’t walk because of me. Please help bring him out.”
“…!!!”
W-what did that crazy bastard just say?
Forgetting the pain, I ran out with eyes that looked like they would pop out.
“Hyung, you’re walking just fine, what nonsense are you talking about? Do you want to brag? Han Sijin? When will you ever grow up?”
Jeong Chan, who was making fried eggs, looked at me once and then nagged Han Sijin.
What’s this?
Why isn’t he saying anything about the first part?
It wasn’t just Jeong Chan.
All the other members had come out of their rooms, but they didn’t seem to find what Han Sijin had said strange at all.
What’s going on?
Was there something I didn’t know?
“Why… are you all acting like this?”
Seo Irun looked at me, chuckled, and shook his head.
“I was worried because Hyung seemed too innocent and insensitive to his own feelings, but it looks like things have finally worked out this way. Congratulations, Hyung. Please treat Han Sijin well from now on, don’t make him suffer.”
For Seo Irun to say such things.
I was so embarrassed I couldn’t even lift my head and kept trying to change the subject.
Then Cha Yeonwoo added:
“Hyung. I really don’t understand and don’t like that you like Han Sijin, but what can I do? If that’s how you feel.”
How? Where?
What did I do?
I really couldn’t understand it.
If I had ever looked at him differently, then I could think, ‘Oh, so that’s why,’ but as far as I knew, there wasn’t anything like that, so I had no idea why they were acting this way.
Lee Dagyeong even let out a deep sigh.
“Seomin hyung was my first love. I was pure-hearted.”
At those words, Jeong Chan laughed and patted Dagyeong’s back.
“Wake up from your dream, you idiot.”
