I thought while staring blankly. Come to think of it, isn’t this the first time seeing it? A smiling Kwon Jukyung. Jukyung’s hand went down tracing my arm and overlapped our palms. Then soon his fingers permeated as if interlocking. As warm body temperature overlapped, I felt our pulses together. My heart murmured. Making eye contact and pressing our palms together, in that state Jukyung slowly moved his body again. My body melted tenderly.
***
“Mm… hk… ngh…”
It was a time when the dim dawn energy was brightening outside the window. I was in a state of being on all fours, prostrate, giving up my back. Every time Jukyung grabbed my pelvis and slammed his body against mine with thuds, my whole body shook. When I almost collapsed for a moment from losing strength, Jukyung pulled my waist up. Of course, even in the midst of that, the shaking of our bodies didn’t stop. Jukyung’s breath touching my nape was so hot it was burning.
Tender my ass!
I gritted my teeth while shaking mindlessly. My body was melting limply as if it would melt down right away, but my mind became clearer and clearer. That my mind was becoming clear didn’t mean I wasn’t sleepy or tired. It meant the hazy heat of heat and the somewhat numbed sensation from the heat suppressants were gradually disappearing. In other words, my body and mind were returning to their usual normal state. And in that state, Jukyung held onto me all night without getting tired.
That bastard’s face was a scam. With a face that looked like he’d do sex cleanly and with manners just once and end it, he was completely the type to see it through to the end. For a man, isn’t it normal to be most vigorous the first time and lose strength as it goes on? But this bastard somehow seemed to get more excited and immersed in the second time than the first, in the third time than the second. What kind of bastard is this!
There were memories of me coaxing him not to stop in the middle, so I couldn’t coldly reject him, and I kept groaning and shaking. Each sex wasn’t short either, so around the third time, even I, who was in heat, felt I’d had enough and said let’s stop, but Jukyung wouldn’t listen. Rather, he blamed me asking if I could just satisfy myself and end it. That line was perfectly the usual Kwon Jukyung. I thought it was uncharacteristically tender at first.
When I said I was sleepy, let’s sleep, he said he’d take care of it himself so I should just sleep. What do you mean take care of it, you crazy pervert. How can I fall asleep when something monstrous is inside my body shaking it! It’s not just inserting and shaking—my whole body was sucked and bitten all over, a complete mess. Even if we showered, to bite and chew a person’s body this much. Is that what someone with germaphobia does?
If my body had no reaction, I could use that excuse, but whether due to heat’s influence, even after three or four times, whenever stimulated, my junior stood up stiffly. It was also true that my mind went blank from how good it felt each time. It’s just that repeating that, I was exhausted to death.
“Ah!”
Again with a thud, the guy pushed with all his might and my body collapsed. Whatever, and with that momentum I stretched my arms out and sprawled spread-eagle on the bed. After hesitating for a moment, Jukyung finally separated from behind. I no longer regretted the departing body temperature. My body had been sticky for a while now, so being attached was more torture.
Stop already. I’ve eaten a lot! I’ve eaten so much my stomach feels like it’ll burst!
But Jukyung, who couldn’t have heard my soundless cry, stuck to my back again. Lips landed down on my back with pecks. The heaviness that had briefly exited filled my back again. I was crazy to respond to the words “last time.” Who would have known that one time would continue on and on without ending like this?
Jukyung’s hand dug into my chest stuck to the sheet. Long fingers pressed and rubbed my swollen nipples.
“Ugh…”
Both hurting and still with faintly rising pleasure, I didn’t know what to do and rubbed my forehead on the sheet. While sucking my ear, Jukyung started moving his hips again. Because I was lying flat pressed to the bed, the angle changed and the part of my inner walls being stimulated became different again. My withered junior also, regardless of its owner’s will, started slyly raising its head again as it was rubbed against the sheet.
“Ahh… mm…”
A nasal sound leaked from my mouth. My body also started shaking along with Jukyung’s movements. In the end, it flowed this way. It was a disgusting night, with my body that wouldn’t cool down as much as Kwon Jukyung’s persistent sexual desire.
CH 12
I woke at a time closer to noon… than morning. Through the not-so-thick curtains, bright sunlight flooded in like a flood. It didn’t take long to realize where I was and what had happened last night.
I fell into a difficult state while looking at Jukyung’s sleeping face before my eyes.
To think I slept with Kwon Jukyung. What an absurd incident this is.
It was even more absurd than my first heat. Back then, I could at least make the excuse that I’d lost my reason from a pheromone explosion and was just attracted to appealing pheromones. Yesterday, I’d taken suppressants and did it in a state of clearly recognizing that my partner was Kwon Jukyung. Moreover, what was I doing with a beta who wasn’t even an alpha? To think I was such a person weak to appearances—I felt self-loathing.
I let out a sigh while spacing out, then was startled by the sound myself and flinched. I quickly checked Jukyung’s face, but fortunately there was no sign of him waking. Though I knew his face and couldn’t run away like during my first heat, I still needed to buy some time since it was embarrassing. I wanted to decline facing him as soon as I woke up. I quietly tried to move my body to escape, but a problem arose.
“What is this now…”
I looked down at my arm that wouldn’t move in an awkward half-raised state. My arm was trapped under Kwon Jukyung’s neck. From one perspective, you could call it an arm pillow. If there was any fortune, it was that my arm was under his neck rather than his head, and his head was supported by the pillow, so the weight wasn’t concentrated.
No matter how I thought about it, it didn’t seem like I would have stuck my arm in this strange position—it seemed like Kwon Jukyung had pulled it under him when he lay down. Why on earth is he doing this? It looked as if my arm was being held hostage.
Since I was awake and couldn’t stay like this, and my body was starting to cramp, I began carefully pulling my arm out while watching Jukyung’s face. When his eyebrows twitched showing signs of waking, I stopped for a moment, then when it quieted down, I stealthily moved again. In the midst of that, there came a moment when Jukyung moved his body largely and my arm suddenly lightened. Now’s the time—I quickly pulled it out.
Tsk.
The moment I thought I’d skillfully escaped, my arm was caught.
“Where are you going?”
Jukyung frowned, his eyebrows wriggling. He didn’t seem fully awake yet as his eyes were still closed.
“……”
I swallowed. What should I say when he opens his eyes? Just smile and say good morning? No, since when did I give greetings like that? Did you sleep well, darling? Ugh. Just because we slept together once doesn’t suddenly make us lovers.
While I wavered unable to make up my mind, Jukyung finally opened his eyes with difficulty, frowning this way and that. Meeting his narrowly opened eyes, time stopped. No, saying time stopped was honestly an exaggeration—in fact, I froze stiffly for a while and just stared with an empty head. Though it was probably only a few seconds, it felt so long you could say it was several minutes. Though I was just standing still, even though it wasn’t the season to sweat, I felt like cold sweat was forming down my spine.
“Do you remember what we did yesterday?”
Kwon Jukyung, in a rough voice laden with sleep, gave a strange greeting that was neither “did you sleep well” nor “good morning.” Would I not remember after causing all that fuss? Honestly, I wanted to pretend to be drunk, pretend I blacked out, pretend I didn’t remember, but I’d drunk too little alcohol last night for that. And Jukyung already knew from our month-long cohabitation that my alcohol tolerance was stronger than that.
And most of all, it wasn’t a situation where lies would work. I could nakedly feel my face, ears, and neck heating up. After watching me unable to speak, just turning my face bright red, Jukyung finally smirked.
“You remember. Should I consider this fortunate?”
Only then did Jukyung disheveledly get up while giving a casual greeting.
“Did you sleep well? Are you feeling okay?”
Jukyung stretched out his arm and roughly stroked my messily disheveled hair. I couldn’t get used to the strangely tender tone and expression. What’s with this guy? Why is he being unsettling like this? I felt like I could hear my own eyeballs rolling around, but Jukyung’s attitude showed he didn’t care at all about my flustered reaction.
“Let’s wash up and leave. I did extend the time a bit, but you’re not planning to stay here another day, right? If you want to stay, I’d rather go somewhere else.”
The heat energy had already completely disappeared. Even if my partner wasn’t an alpha, it was natural since we’d caused such chaos all night, exhausting ourselves to the point of draining our energy. Since heat was over, there was no reason to wander outside the house. Most of all, leaving the house to sleep at a hotel with Kwon Jukyung again—no matter how I thought about it, wasn’t that strange?
“You shower first. I showered before sleeping at dawn…”
Jukyung yielded the shower room. How unusual. He’s normally a guy who washes whenever he has a chance, morning or evening. I looked at Jukyung suspiciously while stealthily getting off the bed, then gulped. My body didn’t feel like my own body. Muscles I didn’t normally use screamed from being overworked. My back and thighs ached, pulled, and creaked. Not to mention the unfamiliar dull pain in back. A heavily numbing pain dominated my lower body.
Well, this pain wasn’t a first. Wasn’t it like this the day after my first heat too? At first I was too shocked to properly feel it, but after boarding the plane to Europe and coming to my senses, I was absolutely dying. I unknowingly groaned in my sleep, so the flight attendant was startled and woke me up.
Damn. What a fucking memory. To think I’d fly to the other side of the globe and feel that day’s pain again. I’d thought if I ever had sex with someone again, my partner would just be an ordinary beta woman. Even if I fully manifested as an omega, I had no desire to get involved with an alpha. If possible, I’d hoped to just live like before, like a beta.
“What’s wrong? Are you uncomfortable? Should I help you to the bathroom?”
While I was briefly curled up from the sudden muscle pain, Jukyung spoke from behind. I quickly straightened my body as if nothing was wrong. I firmly blocked my throat from screaming. Just because we had rough sex, not being able to control my body—what kind of humiliating talk is that? Especially in front of that Kwon Jukyung. Without even looking, I waved my hand dismissively, found the neatly folded robe on the chair right next to me, put it on, and entered the bathroom.
The bathroom had no separate shower booth—just a showerhead attached above the bathtub, with the wall next to the bathtub made of glass so the room was clearly visible. I remembered Jukyung lowering the blinds while showering last evening, but looking now, they were raised again. He said he showered again after I fell asleep—did he raise them then? But why? I couldn’t understand at all, but that wasn’t what was important right now.
