“Um… in that sense, give me just 5 minutes to rest. After that, let the patients in.”
“Yes, I understand.”
At Hyunjin’s deliberately playful words, the nurse quickly closed the door and left. The smile quickly vanished from Hyunjin’s face, left alone in the examination room. He abruptly stood up and paced anxiously in front of the desk.
Strangely, lately his mind kept trying to escape from his control.
It was a very, very bad signal for Hyunjin. Chewing his lips hard, Hyunjin tried to look at himself coldly.
This fucking… so, I wouldn’t be, but… absolutely not. But if I were a patient. What would be the cause that stimulates me and makes my stable life collapse?
Even the assumption was ridiculous, but he had to coldly assess it once to prepare for any possible future. When he sharply examined what always destroyed his self-control, two things came to mind.
First, that dominant alpha man.
Strangely, every time he counseled with that man, he felt like shit. Of course, it wasn’t a day or two thing that listening to patients’ endless, boring, long-winded, nonsensical talk made him feel bad, but strangely, counseling with that man made Hyunjin’s mood especially worse every time.
‘And, fuck, that establishment whore bastard.’
Holding Jeong’s body was quite effective in relieving stress. After thoroughly violating him who couldn’t properly resist even once, his whole body felt refreshed and his head was clear. Before he knew it, seeking him out was becoming established as a stable hobby.
After paying an appropriate amount of money, holding, crushing, and violating a body that perfectly fit his taste had undeniably become a great pleasure for Hyunjin.
So he’d just tried to enjoy it with a light heart as usual. He was quite popular, so if you didn’t make a reservation call, it was quite difficult to schedule. From there he thought it was cocky, but well, don’t you call ahead when you go to a good restaurant too? He was willing to make that much effort.
However, the turning point when the meeting with Jeong that had been purely enjoyable upset Hyunjin’s mood was, yes, definitely… it started from there.
The fact that recently that whore’s condition had rapidly worsened.
What the fuck had happened? Had his sugar daddy died, or had the kid he was raising died? The Jeong he’d met recently had completely lost it.
He who’d had broken eyes from the start now seemed to have completely let himself go. He just looked up at Hyunjin quietly with corpse-like eyes. No, those eyes weren’t even containing Hyunjin in the first place. Even though they were clearly directed at Hyunjin, the pupils were empty as if looking at empty air. It was an unpleasantly eerie state.
No matter how much he insulted, threatened, and crushed him, it was useless. He really acted like someone who’d become deaf, and behaved like someone with no ego. No matter what humiliating acts he was made to do, he just slowly followed Hyunjin’s words with an expressionless face.
The reason Hyunjin had frequently sought out Jeong at first was, of course, because of his appearance that was perfectly to his taste, but also because he liked his doll-like obedient attitude. He thought it was a very ideal attitude for a lowly omega whore who would do anything when told.
But strangely, that attitude gradually started to grate on him.
Rather than sucking dick with an indifferent face, he wanted to see a face struggling to take his thing. When making strange and vulgar demands, rather than obeying with a corpse-like face, he wanted to see a flustered expression and a face distorted with humiliation.
He clearly remembered his appearance full of vitality when he slapped his own cheek last time. His face all twisted with anger, shedding tears in shame, biting his lips in humiliation.
Yes, this is why they say humans are beautiful when alive.
After sincerely realizing that, he was dumbfounded at first. But once he acknowledged it, his mind felt lighter instead. So what? It’s just entertainment anyway, it’s not that special that he came to prefer living eyes over corpse-like eyes.
But recently Jeong’s condition had worsened again like before. No, it was much more serious than before. If he’d visited as Hyunjin’s patient, he would have to recommend immediate hospitalization.
But he’s not my patient. He’s just an existence that receives men’s lust, nothing more, nothing less. Therefore, he had not a single obligation to care. But separate from that, he really didn’t like his broken state. It felt like a toy he’d just started to find fun had broken with a crumbling sound.
That fact alone was shitty enough, but there was something else that decisively upset Hyunjin’s mood.
‘Ah, Dr. Kim. Jeong? What should I do, he has a reservation today.’
The manager’s voice refusing his reservation was annoying, but he let it slide once. However, when he heard the refusal a second and third time, Hyunjin’s patience reached its limit.
‘Sir, I’m sorry but Jeong… every day like this is a bit difficult. His reservations are fully booked.’
Hearing the manager’s voice refusing his reservation in a business-like voice, yet with a slightly annoyed tone, Hyunjin’s patience snapped with a crack. He didn’t even have the awareness that he himself had been seeking out Jeong the day before yesterday, yesterday, and every day lately.
Hyunjin clenched his trembling hands tightly and forced out a calm voice.
‘Then what about the weekend?’
‘Ah, I’m sorry but… as I told you last time, Jeong doesn’t work on weekends.’
‘…Haha.’
He let out a hollow laugh in disbelief.
‘A wh…, a hostess working at an establishment rests on weekends, Yeodanhwa has quite good benefits.’
He’d never spoken sarcastically to the manager like this before. A brief silence flowed through the receiver, and the manager answered in a somewhat business-like voice.
‘There are circumstances, so he only comes out on weekdays. Anyway, it seems difficult this week, would you like a different person?’
Fuck, I don’t need anyone else! At that moment he almost shouted and threw his phone.
He wanted to snatch him away right in front of the manager who only kept saying it fucking couldn’t be done. He wanted to steal his body from him who looked at him with corpse-like eyes, and crush him in his most private and cozy personal space. Without any restrictions. Fuck, so that no one could dare say this or that, say it can’t be done. When I want it, what the fuck are you people to dare say it can’t be done?
‘…Wait.’
At that moment, Hyunjin’s eyes widened.
I, want it? That establishment whore?
A small laugh that leaked out—puhup—tickled below his lower abdomen like a single bubble bursting. Then bubbles burst ceaselessly. Puhuhuhuh, huhuhuh, the laughter boiled and bubbled in his stomach. The laughter that shook his whole body finely eventually burst out of his throat explosively.
“Uhuhuh… huhu, ah, hahaha. Kekeke…”
If nurses and patients weren’t sitting outside stupidly waiting for appointments, he’d want to hold his stomach and laugh out loud. But since he couldn’t, Hyunjin laughed while holding his breath. This place had no screen to perfectly hide him from the world. Hell, there wasn’t even a fucking darkly tinted window.
I, want that whore?
The more he thought about it, the more absurd the fact was. Originally this would be the timing to feel pathetic about himself. He should criticize his current appearance and desires, asking if he was becoming just like his father who was addicted to philandering and never once cared about family.
But the direction of his thoughts, turned lightly like twisting the wheel in front of a signpost, guided Hyunjin to a completely different point than before. Willingly getting off at that point, Hyunjin looked ahead with a somewhat more pleasant mind.
Right, so what if I want it? When I’m going to enjoy and savor that bastard with my own abilities.
The monotonous and flawlessly managed daily life had been maintained stably for quite a long time. He didn’t want that peace to be broken. He wanted to enjoy this prosperous and unchanging life for as long as possible. And Hyunjin currently had enough ability to do so. It was glory achieved solely by his own hands, and Hyunjin was very pleased with the current daily life that repeated to the point of being boring.
He was just adding one small bit of fun to it.
Nothing will change in my daily life that is solid and firm like a fortress. Not in the future either.
Once he acknowledged it, his mind felt lighter instead. Moreover, it became clearer what actions he should take going forward. It felt like he’d finally escaped from the emotional shackles that had been fucking binding him. Why shouldn’t I? Assemblyman Kim, my father, lives well doing just that.
Until now he’d lived most despising those who swagger with the umbilical cord they were born holding. He had no desire to become an idiot who had nothing to boast about except his father’s abilities, not his own. That’s why he’d never revealed his friendship with President Jeong of Yeodan to the manager of Yeodanhwa that he frequently visited. But now that he was in a somewhat pleasant mood, there was no reason not to do that either.
He’d never once sincerely thought of him as his father, but anyway, a father was a father. Legally and by blood. When you’re already holding a card you can use, not using it is foolish.
Until now he just hadn’t used that card because there was no need to use it. But now, in the coming turn, the benefit of playing that card was very clearly revealed. All he had to do was throw that card into the game.
Hyunjin picked up his phone and put it to his ear. The manager’s fucking voice saying Jeong couldn’t be done in a business-like tone kept spinning in his ears. Waiting for the dial tone while freely mocking the owner of that voice.
‘Let’s see if you can still spout that kind of shit to me in a few days.’
That whore will be in my house, my room, my bed in a few days. Weekends are difficult? Not a chance. That whore won’t be able to go anywhere all weekend and will only be rolling around under me.
No, does he only have to be kept until the weekend? When I like him that much. Then wouldn’t it be fine to just have him regardless of weekend or weekday? Until now I’ve grown up studying and working desperately according to my abilities. Then couldn’t I have that one bastard? When I’ve discovered something I want for the first time, do I really have to share it with this guy and that guy whose faces I don’t even know?
A faint smile appeared on his face. In the small mirror placed on the desk, he could see a doctor smiling with madness. The doctor with a neat and kind face was full of ecstasy at the thought of soon restraining, kneading, and remodeling someone for himself alone. Even while trembling with joy, Hyunjin’s voice giving greetings to the person connected with a click was calm.
“Father, have you been well?”
