“Ah! Aht…! Ah, hk, haa, mmh! Ngh, mmh!”
I had no way to handle it when he thrust in long and deep, then short and very hard. I ejaculated again while rubbing my front against the sheets. Even while ejaculating, the deep place was being stabbed and I couldn’t come to my senses.
“Ngh, Yuhyeon-ah… ha…. Yuhyeon-ah, Ji Yuhyeon….”
Lying face down, I couldn’t see Cha Jeonghan’s face and only his voice clung hotly to my ear. When I could see his face freely, I was too embarrassed to look, but now that it was hard to see, I wanted to see his face. I was pushed forward and barely managed to lift my head. When I turned my head slightly toward my shoulder, Cha Jeonghan’s hand that had been near my face came over, lifted my face a bit more and kissed me. Only our tongue tips barely rubbed, but it felt so good that I stuck my tongue out more to reach him better.
“Ah…!”
The moment I sucked the tip of his tongue with a wet sound, Cha Jeonghan ejaculated. At the heat spreading to the deep place, strength naturally entered my body. As Cha Jeonghan lifted his body, the damp heat that had been covering my body dispersed.
“Haah……”
When his large, hot hands tightly gripped my waist from behind and lifted, my hips naturally rose. I was a bit worried I might look strange being like this, but when his thing that hadn’t softened at all inside thrust in again very fast and hard, such weak thoughts shattered and disappeared far too easily.
Words didn’t continue. The sound of bodies rubbing together filled the room, and only hot sounds impossible to tell whose breathing it was filled the surroundings. When he thrust in, I pulled my body back, and when he pulled out, I moved my body forward. It wasn’t an action I thought about doing. I acted like someone who had never done something called thinking, heading only toward pleasure. The heated sensations quickly and easily covered the emotions I had built up, to a futile degree.
“Jeonghan… hah, Jeonghan-ah… ah, too much… mmh, haah…!”
Too fast, and also too strong. The strength in the hands gripping my waist was too intense, making pleasure mix with pain and flow wildly everywhere. I barely held up just my rear and gripped the sheets as I shook. I rubbed my cheek against the sheets wet with tears then ejaculated again, and pleasure pooled and I ejaculated again. When even my fingertips had no strength left, my body turned over again.
“Haah…… haa, ha….”
“Ha…. So this is what it means when your eyes roll back……”
Cha Jeonghan, who spoke like talking to himself, spread my legs again and positioned himself. Cha Jeonghan, who entered more easily than the first few times, stimulated the deep place in one go. The same spot had been pressed the whole time, so now just Cha Jeonghan’s member entering and touching made my waist flinch. Cha Jeonghan tightly gripped my waist with both hands and strongly pressed down on the same spot again.
“Ah… hah, Jeonghan-ah, I… I, can’t anymore… ah, it’s weird… wa-wait….”
The sensation that suddenly rushed in wasn’t the feeling of ejaculation I’d experienced several times. A pleasure similar to when I’d made that mistake before circled my lower abdomen then spread through my body. I used all my strength to grab and shake Cha Jeonghan’s wrists that were gripping my waist. But Cha Jeonghan didn’t waver at all.
“What’s, ah… how is it weird?”
“Don’t, don’t know… haah…! Mmh, ah, there… there, now….”
“Here? So here feels good.”
Where felt good and where didn’t—such things actually had no meaning. Cha Jeonghan’s member filling me inside stimulated all of me no matter how it thrust in.
“Don’t, there… ah, Jeonghan-ah… ah, Cha Jeonghan… ah, I said don’t….”
“My name… ha, call it more, Yuhyeon-ah.”
It wasn’t that I was saying it felt good there so please do more, and calling his name right now wasn’t what was important either. If he moved just a little more, I felt like I’d make a mistake similar to last time. I grabbed Cha Jeonghan’s wrists and begged.
“Jeonghan-ah, hnngh… ah, please… ah, now, more… can’t anymore….”
“More, call me more. When you… call my name… ah, so much… ha…. I can’t hold back.”
More strength went into the hands gripping my waist. It was such strong force that his fingers might dig into my body at this rate. Making his words about not being able to hold back meaningless, Cha Jeonghan moved his hips as fast as he could with all his strength. When the inside was stabbed several times with impossible force, my vision turned white. Holding his wrists, I faced pleasure that exploded simultaneously in every place I could feel sensation. At the same time the inside became hot again, something burst out from my body.
My waist that he gripped tightly twisted wildly. I begged Cha Jeonghan to please let go. Strength slowly drained from his hands that had been gripping my waist tight enough to dig into my skin. Where his hands fell away, pleasure remaining like an afterglow clung thickly and tangled with the pleasure that had been pooling the whole time.
I pulled Cha Jeonghan close with my trembling body. Cha Jeonghan, who hadn’t wavered or been pushed back at all earlier, obediently lowered his body and pulled my trembling body into an embrace. I buried my face on his shoulder and cried out loud. The pleasure that was too hard for me to handle was so scary that I grabbed onto him and grabbed onto him again.
“Ha…. It’s okay. Don’t cry, okay?”
Cha Jeonghan soothed and soothed me like that. Since I had always been the one soothing Cha Jeonghan until now, receiving his voice and touch like this felt very awkward, but right now Cha Jeonghan was the only place I could lean on, so I couldn’t move for a long while.
When I’d caught my breath to some degree and calmed down, I noticed that the light that had been coming in through the blinds had completely disappeared. It was definitely a time that could be called afternoon, but I couldn’t believe it had become this dark.
“……”
When I loosened the arms I’d been holding him with, Cha Jeonghan slowly separated his body. In the place that had been filled with ragged breathing, a somewhat awkward stillness now circled. After coming to my senses, everything we’d done came to mind and I only hesitated about what to say.
“Are you okay now?”
“…Yeah.”
At the face looking down at me while still not getting off from on top of me, the words that had formed disappeared, and the thoughts that had formed disappeared again. Cha Jeonghan looked at me the whole time with a smile on his face, gently touching my hair and stroking my cheeks. At the gentle gaze and touch continuing in the silence, the original thoughts I’d barely managed to raise kept swaying weakly.
“…Um.”
“Yeah.”
“Below……”
“Below? Ah…. Should I pull out?”
I could barely breathe at the feeling of still being firmly connected with him. It was because I could feel Cha Jeonghan was inside my body with even the slightest movement. I thought he’d just pull out right away, but Cha Jeonghan asking me specifically was annoying, yet I had no choice but to give up at his pounding face that made it impossible to get angry.
As if it had been a joke, Cha Jeonghan laughed quietly and pulled out from below. The moment his member pulled out from inside that had only been full the whole time, I felt a momentary sense of emptiness. Surprised that I was having such thoughts, I subtly pulled up the disheveled blanket edge. Cha Jeonghan got off my body, lay on his side, and looked at me.
“Look at me.”
“…I’m going to sleep.”
“Look at me and sleep.”
“……”
“Or should I get on top again?”
I calmed him down as he tried to get up again and turned my body toward where Cha Jeonghan was. He lay down to look at me again and grinned like a boy. It was fascinating that his face still held traces of his seventeen-year-old self.
“I was going to take you for a drive and feed you delicious things.”
“…Liar.”
“It’s true. I was going to just kiss you and go out. But when we touched, it felt too good.”
“……”
At the hand stroking my hair so very gently, my voice kept trembling. I liked that Cha Jeonghan didn’t know how to speak indirectly and always revealed his feelings so blatantly like this in such a refreshing way, but lately I thought my lifespan might shorten at this rate. Was it okay for my heart to drop with a thump several times like this? Was it okay to have sex like this? And… was it okay to like him this much?
“These days, every time I touch you, I think, ah, I can really live…. Nothing else matters. I really can’t do it without you. I think that every time I see you.”
“……”
Cha Jeonghan, who smiled at me just staring unable to quickly find words to answer, came close and kissed deeply on my cheek. And he pulled me into a very gentle embrace. It felt exactly like… the illusion that Cha Jeonghan and I had become lovers.
“You’re going to sleep here and go, right?”
“…I have to open the shop tomorrow too, so I’ll go at night.”
“You can just go early in the morning.”
“…Still.”
“Everything is here except you. Your clothes you left behind, your room, your toothbrush, your slippers….”
“……”
“We just need you. We can go back to how it was before, us. We’re just not friends anymore.”
Cha Jeonghan hugged me tighter so I couldn’t escape. Knowing Cha Jeonghan wasn’t someone who would be pushed away by pushing, and my mind being hazy too, I just closed my eyes.
“Let’s shower together in the morning, eat breakfast together, and I’ll take you. So today, don’t go anywhere and stay with me.”
“……”
“Stay with me, Yuhyeon-ah.”
There had been a time when I was curious about what kind of romance Cha Jeonghan would have. Since there was no possibility the partner would be me anyway, I’d stopped thinking after being curious, but from Cha Jeonghan’s warm voice reaching me before sleep, the hand stroking me, and the arm that locked me so I couldn’t move, I thought that perhaps he would have a romance where he was anxious because he wanted to possess.
But even now, having sex with him and falling asleep in his arms, I still didn’t think I would be his romantic partner. Cha Jeonghan, who was excessively warm, placed excessive meaning on touching me, and was excessively considerate of me… felt unfamiliar.
<To be continued in Volume 3>
