At Sunjeong’s words, Taeon closed his mouth.
Fuck, Kim Yuhyeon. Resenting Yuhyeon for disclosing his shame, Taeon chewed curses.
Taeon knew well that both Yuhyeon and Sunjeong were telling the truth.
When having sex, Taeon often called Sunjeong’s name when he came. Even though he was clearly focused on the partner before his eyes during the act, when he reached climax, he would end up calling Sunjeong’s name.
How can I explain this feeling? While doing nothing, yet pressing down his mouth with his own hand to suppress the moans about to burst out, Taeon thought. Taeon’s mind, which had tried to ponder briefly, quickly became hazy. Though Taeon was someone who thought it wise to see, hear, and judge everything directly with his own eyes and ears, it wasn’t so when it came to Sunjeong.
Pondering and judging his own feelings about Sunjeong was rather a loss. It was much better for himself to despise it as nothing, like now.
It was also convenient to push away Sunjeong, who only mechanically repeated the words that he liked him no matter how much Taeon refused.
“Hold me.”
Sunjeong, who had entered a heat cycle by his own will at some point, said to Taeon as if whining.
Though he had boldly entered the room and practically thrown Taeon onto the bed, now he had his usual docile face.
“My body is so itchy…… Yoon Taeon, this feeling is so strange……”
Manifestors who fell into rut or heat cycles were bound to become impersonal.
The beastly moment faced without money to obtain drugs, the body’s instinctive movements entering that moment.
It was a completely different world from that of non-manifestors who naturally desired the act of touching someone they loved, or manifestors who took medication. It was simply the world of those who had to unconditionally resolve sexual desire like an excretory urge rising at that moment.
Therefore, whether looking at Yuhyeon’s moaning expression or any Omegas’ moaning expressions, Taeon had never been aroused by the person before his eyes itself until now.
He simply became a beast like them and pounced.
The problem was that even though Taeon had entered rut now, he was maintaining his composure.
First, he couldn’t take his eyes off Sunjeong’s face, excited with arousal. His vision naturally blurred so he couldn’t open his eyes properly, and his mouth kept falling open. His cheeks with a faint blush rising were peach-colored.
Though he was now clueless, making Taeon pheromone shower and even entering heat cycle himself, causing a scene, if Taeon, already familiar with all acts to the point of being too familiar, pounced on him, he wouldn’t be able to handle it. For Taeon, it might be enough to just relieve his sexual desire, but first of all, Sunjeong’s body, probably without any proper experience even once, wouldn’t be able to endure it.
When Taeon raised his body to observe Sunjeong’s condition, Sunjeong’s white arm fiercely grabbed Taeon’s firm arm.
“Yoon Taeon.”
“What.”
“We’re going to kiss now, right? Since it’s the first step……”
Taeon let out a hollow laugh with “ha, ha.” It was absurd.
There was no way something like kissing would exist in sex done by manifestors who didn’t even love each other just to relieve their bodies.
Though he had kissed a few times when doing it with Yuhyeon because Yuhyeon kept begging continuously, it wasn’t something he felt inclined to do since saliva mixing disgustingly only felt strange.
To Taeon, who said nothing, Sunjeong said in a firm tone as if confirming something.
“The kiss we’re doing now, haa, isn’t our first kiss, so don’t misunderstand.”
“What kind of nonsense is that.”
“When we have our first date, I’ll…… kiss you. That’s our first kiss. What we’re doing now is our first sex.”
Sunjeong seemed to have some kind of strict standard. Taeon let out a hollow laugh. Well, there was no way Sunjeong would know that after mixing bodies, things like kisses became unimportant.
Taeon gradually pulled his body back without Sunjeong noticing. Since it was his first heat cycle after that incident anyway, Sunjeong wouldn’t be able to move his body at all, but still, he became cautious for no reason. Since he couldn’t have imagined Sunjeong would be like this, there was nothing wrong with being careful.
“Yoon Taeon, what are you doing?”
The small pocket inside Sunjeong’s small crossbody bag.
Taeon knew that suppressants were kept in this place. And the fact that he took them exactly twice a day.
Since he was dominant, skipping just twice would have caused that chaos. Taeon took out two pills from the medicine bottle. After hesitating briefly, he took out two for himself as well. Since the rut came because of Sunjeong, it was fine for Sunjeong to take a loss of about two pills.
Taeon, who ate two pills first to subdue Sunjeong, paused. Since Taeon also occasionally ate these white pills when really necessary, he knew well that they were ordinary pills with no taste at all. But what lingered on the tip of Taeon’s tongue now was a sweet and sour taste.
Just like the taste of children’s vitamin candy.
“Fuck…… Go Sunjeong!”
At the thought that he’d been fooled by Sunjeong, Taeon approached the bedside.
As expected, Sunjeong was looking at Taeon and smiling faintly. Taeon, I know you better. Unable to say these words, feeling the excitement rushing to extremes, Sunjeong barely added one more sentence.
“That bag…… you bought it for me on the school trip, haa, and I keep using it but you don’t know. The design is super tacky.”
I bought him a bag?
Taeon was puzzled by something he couldn’t even remember now, but the thought was brief.
It was because Sunjeong, who raised his body from the bed, came deeply into Taeon’s embrace.
Taeon now acknowledged the fact that he was really at his limit and closed his eyes.
And Taeon, who never wanted to like him even if he died, even less wanted to have sex with him, who just wanted him to be happy with good people in a better place, buried his nose in Sunjeong’s nape and inhaled the dominant Omega’s pheromones more deeply.
***
After continuously licking Sunjeong’s nape with his tongue for a while, Taeon finally muttered as if surrendering.
“Haa, fuck, it’s so fucking sweet……”
Taeon finally pulled his face away from Sunjeong’s nape, which had been stuck there continuously, and regained his reason. If he stayed a little longer, he might have even sunk his teeth in. An impulse he’d never felt even once when having sex with any Omegas rose violently within Taeon. It was the desire for imprinting.
But imprinting was absolutely what he must not do to Sunjeong of all people. Taeon had no intention whatsoever of holding Sunjeong’s ankle.
Instead, sex at least…… would be okay. Now there’s really no helping it.
Looking at Sunjeong, who was already almost rolling his eyes back and trembling just from Taeon stimulating his neck with his tongue, Taeon gulped.
He really didn’t want to do this kind of thing with Sunjeong. Because once he did it, once he knew, it would clearly be irreversible. Because it seemed like he wouldn’t be able to forget.
Looking at Sunjeong, who was clinging to him as if he’d forgotten his earlier momentum, with his eyes tightly closed, Taeon said in a quiet voice.
“Go Sunjeong, open your eyes.”
“……”
“I said open your eyes.”
Sunjeong, who hadn’t listened for a while, finally opened his eyes at Taeon’s urging.
So that’s why he was keeping his eyes closed. Taeon gulped. Frightened eyes, long eyelashes trembling slightly.
He didn’t want to show Taeon his frightened appearance.
Finding that appearance cute, Taeon muttered as if to himself.
“For a bottom.”
At these words, Sunjeong’s brow instantly furrowed.
“Wh-what do you mean bottom!”
“A bottom is a bottom, what else.”
Saying this, Taeon grabbed Sunjeong’s cock in his hand all at once. The cock, which would clearly be pretty, was a slightly different size from Taeon’s. When his cock was grabbed in Taeon’s hand, Sunjeong didn’t know what to do. His breathing became even rougher at the touch tickling his urethral opening.
“It’s much better than a slut.”
“What?”
Even while being captivated by the heat of sexual sensation he was encountering for the first time in his life, Sunjeong said what he needed to say properly.
“A bottom is…… much better than a slut! You slut!”
“Who’s the one who likes sluts.”
Taeon wasn’t the type to have much interest in other people’s lives. A life stuck in this neighborhood living like this—if he started envying someone’s lives, there would be no end to it. It was only a path that ate away at himself.
But sometimes he had envied the life of the guy who would be with Sunjeong.
Even that was only for very fleeting moments.
Because thinking about such things for long was just heartbreaking. Rather than thinking such thoughts, getting some more sleep and working hard was more important to Taeon’s life. Even knowing what was important, he couldn’t prevent the thoughts that came unexpectedly.
“Hey, Yoon Taeon.”
“What.”
Taeon found it strange to have a conversation like this before having sex. Usually, he was only busy desperately performing what needed to be done destructively like a beast. But Taeon knew he couldn’t be like that with Sunjeong. Having a conversation was more natural, and above all, only by continuously diverting attention like this could Sunjeong avoid getting hurt by the Alpha who had entered rut.
“Since I’m going to fuck a slut like you…… from now on, haa, be good to me……”
Oh? He’s saying he’ll fuck me?
