# Chapter 30
“Why would you say such a thing?”
“It’s something I can say as your pair. I should have warned you last time too.”
Somehow today I thought he wasn’t going to say anything unpleasant, but he immediately revved up his engine. I didn’t know how he found out that when I was a C-class guide, my nickname was “universal spare key.”
It felt unpleasant to think I’d been investigated. And he used that phrase with negative connotations. There’s a limit to how much I could tolerate, even considering freedom of speech and his SS-class esper’s insolence.
“You seem to think being a pair is something special, but it doesn’t have enough binding power for Esper Kim Haewon to treat me so carelessly. How I use my guiding energy is entirely my judgment. Am I Kim Haewon Esper’s possession or something?”
“So you’re saying you’ll continue to do as you please in the future? Being dragged to gates when you don’t even have the power to protect yourself?”
“Why did I go to that gate in the first place? It was because I heard Kim Haewon Esper would be there.”
“So you’re saying you did the right thing?”
“What did I do wrong?”
The conversation was like clashing blades. Since both were unwilling to back down, sharper words kept flying out. I really couldn’t understand. I didn’t even know at which point he got angry. It was almost laughable how he acted as if guides were some personal medicine bottles he carried in his pocket.
Of course, I’d never had a pair either, but I couldn’t understand why Kim Haewon, also new to having a pair, thought of me as a possession. I had no desire to monopolize him. What did it matter who he got guiding from? Despite my incredulous expression, Kim Haewon continued his nonsense.
“If I hear that you guided another esper in the future, I won’t let it slide.”
“What will you do if you don’t let it slide? Are you going to follow me around tracking who I guide?”
“Try it if you’re curious.”
“Who do you think would be scared?”
“You…!”
Kim Haewon glared at me as if he couldn’t believe what he was hearing. I didn’t want to back down either, so I glared right back. But honestly, I was scared. I was just talking big.
Just days ago, I had witnessed Kim Haewon grabbing and tearing apart a Hell Mouth’s jaws right in front of me. He hadn’t gotten even a scratch in that battle. I was worried that if I kept acting like this in front of such a being, I might get hit and break some bones, but Kim Haewon didn’t raise his hand carelessly.
“Let’s stop talking.”
“Go ahead.”
“Can’t you do something about that beak-like mouth of yours?”
“What beak?”
“Forget it.”
Kim Haewon snatched the report from my hands.
“I haven’t finished reading it yet…”
Even I had enough shame not to finish that sentence. Kim Haewon glared at me and then left the hospital room. Only after the door slammed shut did I regret not reading faster.
“Why is he so sensitive about me guiding others? Does he have OCD? No, what does that have to do with OCD?”
What a jerk anyway. I clicked my tongue and picked up my phone. At first, I was very angry, but now I just thought, whatever. As soon as I turned on the phone screen, I checked if a new chapter of the novel had been updated. The first thing that appeared was a notice from the author.
Hello~~ ㅎㅎ
This is HatefulCat >_<
There have been story changes to the previously published parts ㅜㅜ
I’ve tried to make the story more interesting!
Please read it once more
Before reading the newly uploaded part~!
Content revision? I quickly skimmed through the parts that had already been published. There were almost no changes up until the four-directional gate incident. The problem was the chapter about the western gate incident. From the part I had read in the novel and had been waiting for, to the scene where Nam Ihyeon brought out the D-class esper, to the scene where I met the A-class guide Han Miyeon—everything had changed without exception.
As if my actions had somehow changed the course of this novel.
“Did I really change it? Does that mean I can change the ending too?”
The hope circuit started running. My heart had been heavy whenever I thought about the inevitable death ending, but now that I thought I could survive, my heart suddenly started pounding. The fact that my fate wasn’t determined by this novel’s lead was exciting me. I scrolled down to the comments section.
[Reader1] Yes yes welcome to the tsundere bottom ship
[Reader2] Ihyeon-ah, can I go all in on your stock?
⤷ Buying Nam Ihyeon stock 2222
[Reader3] Two tops? Even better. Author-nim, please add the multiple tops/one bottom keyword
[Reader4] So when will there be a kiss? Hurry up and kiss already. At this rate, they’ll only fall in love by the time it endsㅠㅠ
The comments were full of BL novel enthusiasts. I needed to read the newly uploaded novel next, but my head hurt so much that I couldn’t possibly read the text.
“Ruthless people. How can they say such things about real people?”
It made me feel like I needed to close my collar. I slipped my body completely under the blanket and shook my head. It felt like an inexplicable chill was rushing in.
No. Even if there really was a kiss scene in the novel, I would be fine because I could change the content of the novel. Besides, Kim Haewon and Nam Ihyeon weren’t even interested in me! I took several deep breaths and clicked on the newly uploaded chapter.
Chapter 11 began with the part where Kim Haewon and I had been arguing, and everything I had done up until just now was written down. Kim Haewon’s inner thoughts were also expressed.
Haewon couldn’t forget Garam’s expression as he held Miyeon and shouted. He was shocked that someone had almost died, and angry that it was because of guiding kidnapping. It was a situation that could easily happen as a guide. But why did it bother him so much? Could there be some relationship between her and him? Haewon kept being bothered by Miyeon and Garam.
As soon as I read that part, I was so furious I couldn’t contain myself. This was an insult and misinterpretation of real people. I wanted to leave a comment telling them not to write like this, but I was already a blacklisted hater.
“Could there be some relationship between her and him? He kept being bothered by Miyeon and Garam? Like Kim Haewon would ever think such crazy things!”
Extreme anger seemed to heat up my head. I closed my eyes and counted from 1 to 100. Otherwise, I felt like I couldn’t control my anger that was flapping around like a live fish. After counting to 100, I opened my eyes again and read the next paragraph.
Haewon thought he was becoming strange. He was angry at every object of Garam’s attention. When Nam Ihyeon’s story came up, he couldn’t bear it. Would he have embraced him as he had done for himself? Would he have held his hand and spoken kindly with a coy demeanor?
Thinking about the two of them entering the gate in Nam Ihyeon’s arms while he wasn’t around made him unable to contain his anger. Although he knew Garam would be hurt if he spoke like this, his angry lips wouldn’t stop.
Even though I was clearly reading new content, the comment about “kiss” floated around in my head. I shook my head and scrolled down.
Haewon thought all this was because Garam had broken the “rules.” There were rules that pair guides and espers had to follow. Be faithful to each other. Don’t do anything morally problematic. Of course, that didn’t mean they were lovers. But there shouldn’t be any situations where they made each other blush.
‘I’m angry now because he’s immoral.’
Haewon decided to think that way. He thought all problems would disappear if he just corrected this part.
“What the hell is wrong with this guy?”
The Haewon in the novel was a lunatic, just like in reality. But there was a difference. This guy had BL genre characteristics abundantly integrated, whereas the real Kim Haewon was just a dog trying to control his guide as if it was his possession.
So this description was the author’s exaggeration to maintain the genre’s identity. That’s what I decided to think.
Actually, now wasn’t the time to worry about such things. Because the situation was complicated.
I wasn’t drunk on heroic spirit like the Garam in the novel. Instead, I knew how to be faithful to reality. I had saved two people who should have died originally. That was a fact that wouldn’t change whether I was possessed by the novel or not. The fact that both of them could live out their given time from now on.
I didn’t have great sense of justice, nor cheerful and vibrant brightness. I was just a guide worn down by society. But there was no other choice. Because I held the key to a future that no one else could read.
There was no one to explain who had handed it to me, or why I had been placed in this absurd situation. I wanted to grab the author, HatefulCat, by the collar and shake them, but it was more likely that they didn’t exist in this world.
So all I could do was do my best in the situations to come.
I scrolled down through the remaining half. I needed to know what situations would arise in the future.
“What is this? Such a sudden development?”
I couldn’t help but frown at the content that followed. One week later, on the day I am discharged, my hospital room gets ambushed. And I get hit head-on by that attack.
My brow furrowed involuntarily. The idea that I could avoid an ambush was nonsense. The injury I sustained wasn’t just an ordinary fracture or bruise. The person who attacked me used hypnosis-type abilities.
I get hypnotized. And it’s hypnosis that makes me harm myself. Hypnosis. It was a forbidden ability that should have disappeared decades ago. It would have been nice if the plot had stopped there, but the author, like someone who didn’t know about brakes, went further.
The real big problem with this chapter was in the next part. The fact that the enemy who was going to attack me was already someone I knew. And it was someone I had met very recently.
“Damn it!”
I cursed and threw my phone. The esper who was trying to kill me was none other than the D-class esper Jeong Sanghyeop, whom Nam Ihyeon had saved.
