To be honest, Seo Eunho didn’t really know what indigestion was. It was because he’d never had indigestion before. When his upper stomach felt heavy and it felt like something was sitting on it, he did think it was a bit strange. But he never dreamed those were symptoms that came from indigestion.
“Haah… Can’t you go?”
“If someone’s going to go, it should be you.”
“…You’re right.”
Seo Eunho squirmed his body. It was an attempt of sorts to get up. But with the cold sweat continuously seeping out and the pain, Seo Eunho quickly curled up his body. The IV attached to his arm dangled every time he moved. There were many things he was doing for the first time in his life today. Getting an IV was also a first.
“Really…”
The muttered words were full of absurdity. Tae Shinwoo didn’t say anything, but he would feel the same. Having come to the hotel with a clear purpose, then unexpectedly eating and getting acute indigestion—there was nothing to say but that it was absurd.
He’d felt his body wasn’t quite right even before finishing his meal. Seo Eunho had thought it was no big deal. Pain big and small was a familiar thing. Even though it was a bit strange that his stomach, which had never hurt before, was hurting, he figured it would pass. The faint pain became unbearable the moment he stood up from his chair. Seo Eunho collapsed right there clutching his stomach.
*’Seo Eunho!’*
Tae Shinwoo’s voice calling him, who’d been acting indifferent the whole time, was thickly tinged with fluster.
For a moment his vision blurred, then focus returned repeatedly. In the meantime, someone came into and left the hotel room, and before he knew it, an IV needle had entered his arm.
After that incredible situation passed like a storm, only now did Seo Eunho come to his senses a bit. The IV’s effect was better than expected.
Anyway, for Seo Eunho, who’d come to have sex but ended up receiving nursing care, feeling embarrassed and uncomfortable was natural. Seo Eunho thought it would be nice if Tae Shinwoo would leave for a bit.
But as he said, if someone was going to go, he himself should be the one to go. This was strictly Tae Shinwoo’s space. Even if it was a place he’d always woken up alone and left from.
“…Want me to at least do it with my mouth?”
Seo Eunho, who’d been pondering for a moment, asked. He’d gotten a bit better, but having sex seemed burdensome. He himself didn’t know how much time would need to pass before he got better. He couldn’t make Tae Shinwoo wait until then either.
“You want to do it that badly?”
Tae Shinwoo’s question came back immediately. Was he asking if he wanted to have sex? Seo Eunho hesitated for a moment. He neither particularly wanted to nor didn’t want to. It’s just that Tae Shinwoo had made time and he felt like he’d ruined it.
“I should do at least as much as the money I received.”
Seo Eunho’s thinking was similar then and now. Even if he had other desires, at least to Tae Shinwoo it seemed like he should appear that way.
“…Unless you want to have a cock in your mouth until tomorrow morning, shut up.”
Just as he was thinking that it was really shameless to accept such a disadvantageous proposal in the first place and then want to get past it like this, Tae Shinwoo gave an irritated reply.
The sun was still up, but until tomorrow morning was a bit too much, wasn’t it? If that happened, Tae Shinwoo’s cock would probably get chafed too.
Knowing it was just a threatening remark, Seo Eunho imagined the situation if he really did as he said. It didn’t seem like it would be good for either himself or Tae Shinwoo.
Seo Eunho shut his mouth as told. Actually, his stomach was queasy so he hadn’t had confidence in taking it orally from the start anyway. He’d just made a proposal he thought he could at least endure because his conscience was pricking him. Because it seemed like he shouldn’t just stay quiet. He also felt like he should at least pretend to dislike this relationship, so Tae Shinwoo wouldn’t catch on to his heart that was excited like a crazy bastard.
“…”
Showing no sign of leaving, Tae Shinwoo sat silently in the chair positioned close to the bed. In the silence, his eyelids slowly grew heavy.
Wow, if I even fall asleep here, wouldn’t that really be a shameless situation?
He did have that thought, but Seo Eunho absolutely couldn’t overcome his eyelids closing helplessly.
His body still hurt, and the bed he was lying on was soft. For Seo Eunho, who didn’t even lay out the single old blanket he had because it was hot, the comfortable bed seemed to whisper for him to fall asleep right away.
So this was why every time it became the next day when Tae Shinwoo was gone, he couldn’t quite get up and became half-asleep. It was a fairly plausible excuse.
His eyes soon closed tightly. He’ll leave in a bit. The hotel fee is fucking expensive. Though he himself wasn’t paying and it would be pocket change to Tae Shinwoo, strange thoughts came.
I could just do it anyway. Seo Eunho smirked. What if I ended up retching though? He knew it was a nonsensical thought, but a sense of debt kept poking at Seo Eunho.
No, it’s not a sense of debt. Perhaps his body hurt and even his mind became weak, the feelings he’d pressed down hard sneakily raised their head. Ah, I don’t know. I just want to be close to him a little.
That could happen. Seo Eunho defended himself.
Because he still hadn’t escaped from his feelings of the past. Was it natural to still want to look good and want to be close even a little?
What persistent feelings. When would these feelings disappear? Seo Eunho had the thought again that he’d surely had hundreds of times before too.
***
Seo Eunho slept straight through for a full four hours. It had been a long time since he’d slept this deeply without a single dream. When Seo Eunho opened his eyes, he naturally thought Tae Shinwoo wouldn’t be there.
So he dawdled even more. He wanted to lie down and rest a bit longer if possible. Just like he had at Tae Shinwoo’s house where he’d briefly stayed when he wanted to avoid his father.
But contrary to his thoughts, Tae Shinwoo was still in the hotel room. Since it was the first time Tae Shinwoo was there even after waking from sleep, Seo Eunho sat up with a start, quite flustered. The nonsensical thought came first—was he seeing things or dreaming?
On the other hand, Tae Shinwoo seemed unconcerned whether Seo Eunho was surprised or not. The way he raised his eyebrows seemed to ask what was there to be surprised about. Well. He himself had been occupying space in Tae Shinwoo’s space, so it was funny to be surprised that Tae Shinwoo hadn’t disappeared.
“…”
But wasn’t this a situation where he had to be flustered?
There wasn’t particularly anyone to ask, but it seemed like anyone he asked would answer that it was equally strange.
After the indigestion went down and it became easy to move his body, was there a need for Tae Shinwoo to insist on taking him home when he said he’d go home?
No, if you nitpick, it’s strange all day. Feed him, make him get an IV, let him sleep at the hotel, and then even take him home.
He should have just treated him roughly as usual. Being suddenly kind made all sorts of thoughts come. The seed of suspicion took deep root. There must be something he wants. There’s definitely an intention.
Seo Eunho didn’t let down his guard in the quiet car, pretending to focus on the scenery passing by outside. But as if mocking his head full of thoughts, the car was already getting close to his house.
“…I think you can stop around here.”
Seo Eunho’s house was on a road cars couldn’t go up, so he had to walk from halfway. So at the words he brought up when they arrived at the neighborhood entrance, Tae Shinwoo silently nodded.
Seo Eunho, who’d been staring at his expressionless face with no way of knowing what he was thinking, let out a short sigh.
What could it be? No matter how much he thought, no answer came.
Should he just take it as simple goodwill and gratefully accept it with thanks? But they weren’t in a relationship to exchange goodwill with each other, were they?
If he’d just told him to leave the moment he realized his body hurt, he probably wouldn’t be thinking this much. Whether he did that or not, if he’d held him down and had sex, or if not that, it would have been fine even if he’d gotten annoyed.
They met to have sex and he even fed him, but if the other person got indigestion, wouldn’t it be reasonable to be angry? Especially if it was someone he didn’t particularly like.
Seo Eunho was Tae Shinwoo’s plaything. Then was this situation now also amusement to Tae Shinwoo? What? Watching himself not knowing what to do with his goodwill?
“…”
At the thought that suddenly came, Seo Eunho’s expression faintly frowned. He was just having the thought that it could be so.
Tae Shinwoo knew the best way to torment people. Giving then taking away. Making someone thoroughly mistaken then pretending not and pulling back.
Seo Eunho knew that better than anyone.
If Tae Shinwoo had similar thoughts this time too. If he was deliberately treating him appropriately well while playing with him on the palm of his hand like this, planning to throw him away when the time came.
Seo Eunho clicked his tongue. He felt pathetic that his heart was still shaken by such a twisted bastard.
But anyway, what should he do? It was true he still liked Tae Shinwoo, but that didn’t mean he wanted to be played by him.
While having brief thoughts, Tae Shinwoo’s car stopped. It was a three-way intersection with just a single supermarket at the edge of the neighborhood cars could enter.
Seo Eunho just wiggled his fingers. Should he say thanks for driving him and then go home? Or should he interfere with Tae Shinwoo’s game? As soon as the conflict arose, an answer came.
Seo Eunho didn’t want to be played by Tae Shinwoo twice. Seo Eunho suddenly leaned his upper body toward Tae Shinwoo. The sound of the seatbelt unfastening clicked.
“I’m okay now.”
“…”
“I said I’m okay.”
As if trying to read the intention of the other person who’d suddenly gotten close, Tae Shinwoo stared intently at Seo Eunho’s face.
“Time is precious.”
“So?”
“The car is big, there’s still time, I’ve gotten better. We can do it once, can’t we?”
“…”
“If you don’t like doing it in the car, there are lots of motels nearby.”
Well, they weren’t motels Tae Shinwoo would enter, and it would be more fitting to describe them as inns, but it didn’t matter either way. Seo Eunho didn’t avoid the eyes of Tae Shinwoo staring intently at him. He wanted to act as upright as possible. He didn’t want to be played.
The feelings he still had might have flowed out and been visible to Tae Shinwoo’s eyes. But even so, he wouldn’t act like a fool like before.
“Are you in heat?”
Knowing his thoughts couldn’t be conveyed as they were, Seo Eunho just smiled. It was quite a cutting remark, but thinking about it carefully, it seemed like that might be true.
Every day he’d spent with Tae Shinwoo was vivid each time. The sensations that had ravaged his whole body absolutely wouldn’t disappear. I am a bit in heat. It was a sensation he could have lived his whole life without knowing.
“If you want to do it that badly, do it.”
The eyes that had been moving like a snake to read his thoughts soon calmed. With an undisturbed face, Tae Shinwoo pushed back the seat he was sitting in. Thanks to that, the driver’s seat space, which was already wide, became even wider.
“Come here.”
Though even so, it looked burdensome for Tae Shinwoo and himself to sit together.
Having provoked first, Seo Eunho hesitated for a moment. Tae Shinwoo leaned back lazily against the seat and jerked his chin. His gaze asked what he was doing not coming quickly. Since he himself had brought it up first, unable to back out now, Seo Eunho moved his body haltingly.
“Sit facing forward holding the steering wheel.”
As soon as Seo Eunho’s leg came over, Tae Shinwoo continued with another order. Seo Eunho grabbed the steering wheel and brought both legs over to the driver’s seat. That was fine, but when he lowered his butt, it was unmistakably sitting on Tae Shinwoo’s lap. Did he really have to come over to the driver’s seat like this? It was a very belated thought. Seo Eunho let out a short sigh and slowly lowered his butt. Tae Shinwoo’s touch lightly landed on it then fell away. What he touched next were Tae Shinwoo’s firm thighs. Seo Eunho gripped the innocent steering wheel tightly.
“Ah.”
At that moment, Tae Shinwoo undid and pulled down Seo Eunho’s belt buckle. Though he himself had pounced first saying let’s do it, flustered, Seo Eunho brought his legs together and tensed, then slowly relaxed at Tae Shinwoo pressing down on his lower abdomen area as if reprimanding him. Seo Eunho’s pants and underwear were being pushed down together simultaneously.
“You seem unable to see because you’re in heat.”
His bottoms and underwear caught on his knees then fell to the floor. Half-naked Seo Eunho’s legs were spread wide on both sides by Tae Shinwoo’s knees. As soon as that happened, Tae Shinwoo gripped Seo Eunho’s jaw tightly and pushed his back forward. Seo Eunho, who almost honked the horn with his upper body, barely held on gripping the steering wheel and turned his head as Tae Shinwoo moved. Soon Seo Eunho’s eyelids opened wide. His whole body began to stiffen rigidly.
“Your father is over there.”
“Wai—wait a minute…!”
It was a situation he hadn’t expected. At this late hour, people didn’t often walk around this street. The supermarket didn’t stay open long either. So he never imagined the supermarket would still be open, or that his father would even be sitting on the wooden bench in front of it.
“Ah! Wai—, ah, wait!”
“He seems to be having fun.”
Seo Eunho belatedly started struggling. But his underwear had already fallen to the floor long ago. Seo Eunho urgently grabbed the wrist of Tae Shinwoo gripping his jaw. But the strong force only became stronger, and no matter how much he tried to remove the hand, it wouldn’t come off. Seo Eunho’s body trembled. The temperature that had been just right in the air conditioning felt chillingly cold in this moment.
“Not even knowing his son is selling his ass because of his debt.”
“Ah!”
“Playing around just fine.”
Tae Shinwoo giggled. His hair stood on end. The hand that left his jaw pushed out Seo Eunho’s upper body then pulled his lower body. Seo Eunho bit down hard on his lips. His father was still drinking not far away.
