From the time I couldn’t get in touch with Hajin until now, I had promised myself that if he suddenly appeared without warning, I would never welcome him. I had resolved to sternly warn him not to do this again and threatened that if it happened once more, I wouldn’t stay silent. That’s how painful the time waiting for him had been. Yet somehow, I found myself walking toward him on my own.
“I missed you.”
His words whispered into my ear while embracing me were sweet. I should push him away… No, even if I didn’t push him away, I should at least ask where he had been all this time, why he hadn’t contacted me once, but Hajin held me so tightly that I couldn’t speak.
“I know you have a lot to say, but I’m about to die here…”
While I was mesmerized by his blue eyes that seemed even more brilliant today, he tilted his head and kissed my lips.
“Ah…”
I exhaled a hot breath and closed my eyes.
Hajin’s lips adjusted their angle and gently touched mine. The sensation of them rubbing against mine made saliva pool in my mouth.
Though I thought I should push him away, my lips were burning, and I couldn’t help but remain still. He didn’t suddenly force his way in, and with the gentle kiss of lips pressed against lips for a long time, my body gradually began to heat up.
“Haah…”
With a sigh, Hajin’s lips parted from mine. Those lips then fell on various parts of my face.
It was a respectful and affectionate kiss. When I lifted my head to look at his face, I swallowed the saliva that had filled my mouth.
“I thought I would die from missing you.”
As soon as Hajin finished speaking, he crashed his lips onto mine again. With his arms firmly wrapped around my waist, he parted his lips and entered. He began to get rougher.
“Uh… mmph.”
When I opened my mouth to breathe, crushed moans escaped. I couldn’t think straight, but Hajin didn’t give me even a moment’s respite. When I turned my head to avoid him, he grabbed my head and mixed our tongues again. In the end, I had no choice but to be dragged along wherever he led me.
With our lips still attached, Hajin hurriedly took off his jacket and loosened his tie. When I came to my senses, I was holding his shoulders with my lips pressed against his. The buttons of his shirt were already undone.
Seated on the sofa, he patted his thigh and whispered.
“Come here.”
His voice sounded like it was scratching the inside of his throat, and I unconsciously almost approached him before stopping in place.
The marks Hahyun had left all over my body hadn’t faded yet. If I went to him now and Hajin discovered those traces, it was crystal clear how much trouble I’d be in.
Seeing me standing still, not coming when called, Hajin blinked.
“Why are you standing there in a daze? Come here.”
He reached out his hand. I stepped backward, widening the distance between us.
He looks like he’s about to pounce on me right now, what should I do? I can’t accept him, but I don’t have a good reason to refuse either…
I glared at him with displeasure.
“Hajin-ssi, don’t you have anything to say? After making me worry, you’re just going to slip past this like a snake over a wall?”
He looked at me with bloodshot eyes and sighed as if tired.
His eyes were red, as if he hadn’t slept for who knows how long.
“Can we talk after I get just a bit of sleep? I’m too exhausted…”
“…”
“I’ll just hold you while we sleep. I won’t do anything strange. Do you still not want to?”
He certainly looked worn out. I could just tell him to sleep alone since he was tired, but having been anxious waiting for Hajin all this time, I actually wanted to be with him too.
“Then let’s go to the bedroom to sleep. Not here in the living room.”
Hajin approached me so quickly that I doubted whether he was really a tired person and took my hand. Following his lead, I still warned him firmly.
“I’m not over being angry yet. You have to tell me everything after you wake up.”
“I have a lot to tell you too. Let’s just sleep a little first.”
* * *
I should have trusted my instincts. Am I a person with absolutely no learning ability? Or was I deceived by Seo Hajin’s perfect acting? Hajin, who had seemed tired enough to collapse at any moment, showed a completely different side of himself on the bed.
Hajin finished a quick shower and entered the room wearing only a robe. I was lying on the bed and instinctively curled up tightly, but until then, he acted as if he had no ulterior motives, taking off his robe and lying down on the bed. Hajin pulled me into his arms and whispered affectionately.
“Now I can finally sleep comfortably.”
My cheek touched his firm chest. My heart began to race madly at his hot body temperature and the sound of his breath pouring down on the crown of my head. Thinking that at this rate, I might pounce on him before he did on me, I squeezed my eyes shut and prayed for sleep to come quickly.
But as soon as I closed my eyes, Hajin’s heartbeat became even more vivid, causing my excitement to grow rather than subside. I pretended to shift my position to try to remove my ear from his chest.
“Uncomfortable? Or are you excited?”
I was about to pretend to be asleep but raised my head. He smiled and lightly squeezed my buttocks before letting go. Because of that, the uncomfortably risen part of me touched him. At this point, I couldn’t deny being excited.
“…I am excited, but this is just a natural reaction. I’m still not over being angry, so don’t touch me.”
He let out a laugh as if he found it absurd.
“If I knew I’d be treated this coldly, I wouldn’t have worked so hard I almost died.”
At his childish words, I hit his back hard. When my palm met his bare skin, not covered by anything, a loud slapping sound echoed.
“Huh? Weren’t you supposed to stop using violence after losing your memory?”
“What kind of adolescent boy’s talk is that? That’s ridiculous.”
I don’t know why, but he seemed to be getting more childish and slick as time went on, when he wasn’t like that at first.
“I just came back from being investigated by the prosecution, so give me a kiss as a welcome. You can be angry afterward, right?”
“I already did.”
He smiled and brushed my lips with his fingertips. The hand that had been lightly tracing my lips parted the gap and entered my mouth. When I opened my mouth slightly, his finger that entered rubbed my tongue. When I closed my eyes, his finger withdrew, and his lips touched mine. His moist lips embraced mine meticulously, as if counting every wrinkle.
“Mmmn…”
I tensed my body trying not to make any moaning sounds, but I couldn’t stop the moans from escaping. He alternated between sucking my entire lips as if to devour them and releasing them slightly. Feeling tantalized, I desperately clung to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. Disliking the moment when our lips separated, I bit his lips lightly. A sweet taste spread throughout my mouth.
Even though I had just warned him not to do anything… now I was the one being more desperate… I suddenly felt like laughing.
He pressed against sensitive spots as if to stimulate them and kissed various parts of my face. At the sudden stimulation, I frowned and let out a moan.
“Haah…”
“This much is fine, right?”
“…Mmmn.”
Hajin, mistaking my moan for an answer, smiled with satisfaction and climbed on top of me. My loose t-shirt was pulled over my head, and my pants and underwear came down simultaneously.
I closed my eyes in anticipation of what would happen next, but felt no stimulation on my body. When I opened my eyes, Hajin was looking down at my body with an exasperated expression.
“…?”
His gaze, which had been scanning from my neck to my stomach, was now sharply gleaming.
Ah, the marks…
Belatedly realizing the mess my body was in, I covered my chest with both arms. Hajin unwrapped my arms and laughed dejectedly.
“There’s not a single place that’s okay.”
“It’s not like you didn’t know this would happen. Who told you to stay out all night?”
I knew how selfish and absurd my words must sound to Hajin. But I wasn’t doing this because I wanted to. I wanted to quickly come to a conclusion and either date just one of them or break up with both. The current situation felt like holding a time bomb that could explode at any moment.
But choosing one of them or breaking up with both wasn’t an easy thing for me. Not because I was afraid of the harm the rejected person might inflict on me, but because my heart didn’t want either of them to get hurt.
“Who should be angry right now? Why do you look more hurt than I do?”
Hajin pinched my nose hard and let go.
“Did you think I’d come here now and confront you about your relationship with Hahyun? I won’t do that, so don’t make that expression.”
At these unexpected words, I stared at him with wide eyes.
“But you were jealous. You even did childish things…”
“That was an expression of affection. How can you not recognize that?”
“That’s quite a fierce way to express affection.”
Though I was being sarcastic, I was grateful that Hajin wasn’t getting severely angry. Considering how he had unhesitatingly done crazy things when he first saw me, this was tremendous progress.
What was I to Hajin and Hahyun that they would go this far?
No. The person the brothers obsessively fixated on, cared for, and sacrificed for to an irrational degree wasn’t me, but Yoon Juwon.
Whenever I felt ticklish from the brothers’ overflowing love, a sense of loss simultaneously washed over me.
Would I ever be able to confess to the brothers? That I’m not actually Yoon Juwon, but someone completely different… I was afraid they would be disappointed when they found out. If I just kept my mouth shut, no one would ever know, though.
