“Ha-Hahyun?”
“…”
“Hahyun, hyung still wants to drink more…”
“…”
Hahyun didn’t seem like he would stop whatever I said.
Damn, I can’t have marks left on my neck…
When I turned my head away in displeasure, Hahyun made a whimpering sound, but when I pushed him away, he glared at me, breathing heavily.
“Do you like alcohol more than me, hyung?”
“Who said that? It’s just that you get drunk too quickly.”
“Will you hate me if I’m drunk?”
“I won’t hate you.”
“Then why won’t you sleep with me?”
“…”
I sighed with a sour expression.
“Hahyun, I’m not saying I won’t sleep with you…”
“So we will sleep together? Thank you. Hyung, I really love you too much.”
Hahyun didn’t even listen to the end of what I was saying and started rubbing his head against my entire body like a puppy.
“We will sleep together, but can’t I drink just a few more glasses?”
At my words, Hahyun, who had been biting my neck, met my eyes and grinned.
“Sure! This is all… made for you to drink, hyung. No, wait! Hyung, I’m sorry. I should be letting you drink… but I’m only getting in the way… so… I guess that’s why you only do it with Hajin hyung and not with me. I understand. It’s because I’m not attractive enough…”
As he spoke, Hahyun’s expression became increasingly distorted. Personally, the drinking behavior I dislike the most is when someone repeats what they’ve said, and Hahyun was doing exactly that.
“You don’t have to feed me… mmph, mnh…”
While I was wondering what to do with him, I was suddenly kissed. It wasn’t a moist, sloppy feeling, but rather a ticklish sensation like being licked by a retriever. I stayed still because it was cute, but when Hahyun pulled away from my lips, he suddenly looked like he was about to cry.
“Why is Hajin hyung so cool? I wish he was a little less sexy. Then I could win…”
After finishing his words, Hahyun tried to put his hand inside my t-shirt.
“Let’s go to the room… mmph.”
My lips were blocked. A wave of heat rose up, and after trying to push him away a few times, I gave up, and only then did Hahyun release my lips.
“Hyung, run away with me.”
Right, let’s go. Whatever. What can you say to a drunk person?
“Where to?”
“To a place without Hajin hyung… No, to a place without anyone else. I’d like to go somewhere where no one in the world knows that Yoon Juwon is a beautiful and warm person. Hic…”
Hahyun started crying again.
* * *
Since Hahyun wouldn’t allow me to leave his side for even a moment, the journey from the sofa to the room was long and arduous.
Hahyun hugged my waist and stood up, then pushed me toward the stairs while still holding me. I tried not to be dragged along but couldn’t take my eyes off him.
The flushed face, rough breathing, and the way he unbuttoned one button with each step conveyed a sense of urgency.
When my shirt was removed and the hand that had been touching my waist moved up to my chest, a moan escaped.
“Hnngh… Hahyun? Let’s go upstairs, okay?”
“Haah, hyung… I like it so much.”
Hahyun seemed not to hear my words at all, just repeatedly saying how good it was while touching various parts of my body. His strength had doubled from normal, and the way he was pushing me relentlessly made it impossible for me to do anything. It seemed like things were about to happen on the stairs. So I firmly grabbed Hahyun’s wrist as he tried to forcibly remove my pants, and met his eyes.
“If you keep doing this on the stairs, I won’t do anything for you in the bedroom either.”
“Eek.”
His eyes, glazed from the alcohol, filled with shock, and suddenly he lifted me up.
“Let’s go to the room quickly.”
Hahyun’s touch was very urgent as he came to the room at lightning speed and threw me onto the bed. In the blink of an eye, everything we were wearing went down to the floor beside the bed.
My breathing became rapid, and when I took a rough breath, Hahyun looked at me and grinned.
“Your breathing sounds so sexy.”
“That’s nothing… ngh.”
Because Hahyun’s body temperature was so hot, I kept squirming. Then Hahyun pressed against me even more aggressively. He was like a large dog that would never let go once it bit.
“Relax. You know that if you really say no… I can’t do it. Hic.”
“…”
I gave up and relaxed my body. When I did, the tension naturally left Hahyun’s body as well. He shared his breath with me with his lips against mine, and in between stroking my back with his large hands, Hahyun constantly looked for my reactions.
Even while drunk, he seemed to be restraining himself, not wanting to be disliked by me. It’s a normal thing, but why did I find that behavior so endearing? It’s not like I was drunk after just two glasses.
“I’ll do just a little more.”
I pretended not to know and closed my eyes.
Hahyun pressed his body against mine strongly enough to make a sound as our bodies collided. Everything in front of me became darkly blurred, and my breath was completely blocked.
“Hahyun? Slowly. I’m not going anywhere.”
“…Be quiet. Even for me, this is the first time I’m asking and doing it slowly.”
He seemed just as out of his mind as I was.
“Hyung, haah…”
Hahyun lowered his head and blew into my ear. The sound, like something scratching the inside of my throat, made my entire ear feel like it was melting. I shrank my shoulders as goosebumps rose, and Hahyun licked his lips at length and placed his hand on my chest.
He caressed my chest as if pressing it and kissed me incessantly. Eyelids, cheeks, lips, bridge of the nose, earlobes—he meticulously kissed each spot and licked the rim of my ear. My body trembled at the languid and ticklish sensation.
“The feeling is… completely different. It’s like you’re a different person.”
His movements were clumsy and rough, like a teenager having his first kiss, and as I curled up, unable to bear it anymore, he hugged me tightly. Just the rubbing of our bare chests made my body tingle.
“Ha… I’m really going crazy.”
It’s not you who’s going crazy, it’s me.
I’m not sure if I said this out loud or swallowed it. My mind was in complete disarray, and I gradually lost my reason. All that remained was sensation alone.
Hahyun lowered his face little by little. He slid his lips down to kiss my neck and collarbone. He continued kissing my chest to keep me from regaining my senses and stimulated sensitive areas.
“Ah!”
When his hand touched below, my legs instinctively closed.
“Hyung.”
He whispered softly while not stopping his gentle and soft touch.
“Can I kiss here?”
His hand traced over a sensitive area. Surprised, I opened my eyes wide and met his gaze. Out of embarrassment, I stroked him by wrapping my arm around his neck.
“Just kiss my lips.”
“Just once.”
“Do it next time.”
At my placating words, Hahyun pushed out his lips in disappointment, then positioned himself in my center. As soon as Hahyun lightly touched the sensitive part, a different kind of moan than before burst out.
“Ah…!”
Tears welled up at his persistent touch.
“Too, too much… Just, just do it.”
“When you wouldn’t even let me kiss, why can’t I do this either? Just a little.”
The feeling of moving gradually inward made my body twist. I felt the tension below relaxing. When my body started trembling from pleasure, Hahyun brought my wrist to his lower abdomen.
When I flinched in surprise, Hahyun whispered urgently, taking in a sharp breath as if he couldn’t bear it.
“I’m always in this state. Do you know how painful that is?”
The presence touching my hand was so large that I averted my gaze, hiding my desire to stop even now. I tried to remove my hand as well, but it was firmly held, so I couldn’t pull away as I wanted.
“Don’t avoid it. We’ll be doing this for the rest of our lives…”
“That, that is… hngh.”
The moan that burst from my mouth was swallowed by his lips. He pressed himself against me and slowly entered.
“…Ah! Too, too much…”
“I’ll go slowly, so relax.”
He held my hips and moved generally slowly at first, then gradually increased his pace. When our moans, indistinguishable from whose was whose, mingled, Hahyun became even more excited.
“Hyung, ngh, Yoon Juwon…”
My awareness of what I was doing now became increasingly blurred. When I opened my eyes after momentarily losing consciousness and feeling a salty taste in my mouth, Hahyun was shedding tears drop by drop.
“Haah… Sl-slowly.”
“I’m not stopping because you didn’t say to stop. It feels too good.”
Crying when he liked it, crying when he didn’t like it, crying when he was happy… Driving me crazy while crying, so I couldn’t even tell him to stop.
“Hngh…”
“Hyung, but we haven’t even started yet.”
My eyes widened. It was already hard to endure, and if we did more, I might really die. I pinched his forearm painfully and shook my head repeatedly.
Hahyun pushed me down by my shoulders and thrust more tightly.
“…Aah!”
A moan that sounded like my last breath burst out. Then a fierce sensation came like a storm.
I opened my mouth without being able to make a sound at the flash before my eyes. A long silence continued endlessly. I thought I might never be able to move again.
“Haaah…”
When I was able to let out a moan, my body began to loosen bit by bit. As I organized my breathing while trembling, Hahyun pressed his lips to my neck and breathed.
“Nngh… urgh.”
“I’m sorry. I couldn’t stop.”
Hahyun started moving his body again. Even though I bit my lips and pushed against the sheets to endure, sounds of suffering leaked out involuntarily.
“Wa-wait… Hahyun? Let’s rest…”
“…It feels too good.”
Hahyun pressed his body close as he kissed my cheek. I released the breath I had been holding all at once. When I opened my mouth, moans came out instead of words.
No matter how I tried to stop—hitting his back, grabbing his forearm—it only stimulated him more.
