Chapter 49
Long fingers ran through my hair, firmly supporting the back of my head. Because of Hajin’s gaze scanning every part of my face as if about to shower me with kisses, I couldn’t even look him straight in the eyes.
“W-wait a moment. I haven’t agreed yet… ah!”
Hajin pulled my neck and captured my lips. With heated breath, his scent rushed into my mouth, and I swallowed a deep moan.
“Haa…”
Our overlapping lips were hot. He entered between our repeatedly colliding lips as if he would devour me completely, thoroughly exploring my mouth.
He naturally pushed me down onto the bed and took my hands, placing them on his waist. His lower body pressed tightly against mine. A moan escaped me at the firm sensation against my stomach.
“Mmh.”
Just as I started feeling light-headed from the excitement of our bodies pressed together without a gap, Hajin detached his lips and looked down at me.
“J-just a moment.”
I unconsciously pushed him away from the kiss that was incomparably more aggressive than before. As I struggled, he embraced me even tighter and whispered roughly.
“You’re the one who made the promise.”
His breathing was ragged.
“Why are you rejecting me?”
“…”
“Even before you lost your memory, you only rejected me with words. Your body will remember, so just enjoy it.”
He really seemed to intend to go all the way. Absurdly, instead of the resistance I should be feeling, Hahyun’s face came to mind first. If he knew I’d been intimate with Hajin before him, Hahyun wouldn’t stay calm.
“I-I’ll do it. But I have one condition.”
He hesitated and released his grip on the back of my head.
“A condition?”
Feeling intense pressure just from his gaze, I barely managed to state my condition.
“Please keep it a secret from Hahyun that you slept with me.”
He frowned, apparently angered by something, and glared at me, grinding his teeth.
“Even at a moment like this, you mention that kid’s name first.”
He spoke as if spitting out the words and captured my lips again. As if to show me resistance was futile, he sucked on my lips. Our connected lips rubbed roughly together, and when they briefly parted, I pushed him away with all my might.
“That’s not it. It’s not because I’m worried about him!”
Hajin stopped his actions and looked at me with a frown. His expression seemed to ask, ‘What excuse are you trying to use to escape now?’
“Think about it. What would happen if Hahyun found out we went all the way? I’d have to go all the way with him that same day. Is that what you want?”
After thinking carefully, Hajin nodded as if understanding.
“You’re smart, Yoon Juwon. That was a good attempt. Now open your mouth.”
He stole my lips again. I gave up resistance and relaxed my body. Immediately, there was a response from below.
What is this? I wanted to ignore it, but it was uncomfortably difficult to keep my legs together, and my stomach was tingling, making it impossible to pretend not to notice.
Without realizing it, I clung to his lips and swallowed my breath.
“Haa, aah…”
“Yes, it should be about time for it to burst.”
Hajin said with a smile in his voice. What on earth was about to burst? Could it be that he did something to my body without my knowledge?
“W-what do you mean?”
Hajin pulled my waist with strong force. Our bodies, pressed together without any gap, began to heat up intensely. I barely held onto my sanity, feeling like I would melt in the heat, and asked again.
“H-Hajin-ssi… mmh.”
“What words are needed?”
When he lifted my arms up, making me unable to move, I finally managed to speak.
“What did you mean by ‘burst’? Did you do something to me?”
Hajin, who had been pressing me down, stopped his actions and looked at me.
“What would I have done?”
“You did something. Otherwise, why would I…”
Needing an excuse to explain my body’s strange reaction, I asked again desperately.
“I won’t be mad, so please just tell me honestly.”
“I didn’t do anything?”
Hajin spoke without changing his expression, but I knew his words were a lie. If he truly hadn’t done anything to my body, there was no way I would react like this to just a kiss.
“Don’t lie. You just said it was about to burst…”
“That? Haha.”
Hajin laughed emptily and looked at me with contemptuous eyes.
“Of course. You haven’t relieved yourself since losing your memory, right?”
How could I have done something like that when I was barely clinging to life? What a stupid question.
He continued speaking.
“You didn’t do it alone, and if you didn’t do it with Hahyun, of course it would build up and be ready to explode.”
“Ah.”
Like an idiot with my mouth open, I remembered that despite living with these perverts, I had momentarily forgotten that I too was a person with strong sexual desires.
At the same time, I felt a bit guilty about not telling Hajin about what happened with Hahyun.
“Unless you’re impotent, why are you being so sensitive about something so natural?”
I understood, but still, I wasn’t happy with the current situation where my sexual desire for men was gradually becoming normal.
“That may be true. B-but, slowly… mmph.”
Hajin crashed his lips against mine again. His lips missed because I turned my head, but he forcibly grabbed my chin, turning it, and rubbed his lips all over my face.
Thinking that the nightmare of arousal earlier was because I had relaxed my tension, I tensed my legs firmly, but nothing changed.
Hajin connected our lips even more deeply. Even trying to recite the national anthem, multiplication tables, and the ten rules for screenplay writing, my excitement didn’t diminish—it only increased.
“Haa…”
His lips suddenly detached.
Before I could feel relief that I’d survived, he sat up and began removing his clothes one by one while keeping his eyes fixed on me.
As if there was no rush, he slowly threw off his clothes with a languid expression, but his eyes fixed on me dangerously sparkled. Each of his movements was strangely decadent.
“Why are you just watching? Aren’t you going to undress?”
I stared at him blankly, tense.
“Do you want me to undress you?”
“No!”
Better to take them off with my own hands than be undressed.
I slowly unbuttoned my shirt. My hands were trembling so much that it wasn’t easy to undo the buttons. When I looked up, Hajin was already standing naked, while I had barely removed just my shirt.
I tried not to look, but my eyes kept drifting to his splendid body, sculpted without an ounce of excess fat.
“W-wait…”
Before I could stop him, he put his hands on my waist. As my clothes were removed, I too became naked. He grinned while looking down. I covered my face with both hands, overcome with rising shame.
Hajin, who looked like he was about to do something immediately, was silent for a moment. Since I had covered my face, I could only hear his rough breathing.
My thoughts were in complete disarray, torn between wanting him to do something about the rising heat and wanting him to stop here.
If only I could stop him while I still had some reason left…
“Hoo…”
Hajin took a deep breath. I peeked at him through the gaps between my fingers. His Adam’s apple bobbed up and down each time he exhaled. Blood began to rush downward in rhythm with his heaving chest.
Hajin pressed his lips to my ear and said teasingly:
“See, I told you it was time for it to burst. Just enjoy it from now on.”
I wished Hajin’s words weren’t true, but my body was faithfully responding to him.
This was the first time in my life I had resented my own body so much. It seemed like it wasn’t long ago that I had gone almost all the way with Hahyun, even if we didn’t go completely… Was I always this sexually eager?
I couldn’t believe the sensation that became clearer with each of his movements, the pressure that seemed to weigh down my body, and the sharp pain from him sucking on my neck.
I wanted to end it quickly and find peace, but he savored every part of my body slowly.
“Haa, you’ll never know how it feels to have something delicious right in front of you but not being able to eat it…”
My sensitized skin was marked by his hands and lips. I felt like I would be devoured by his deeply sunken gaze each time our eyes met.
When I felt it was impossible to ignore the sensation of our bodies rubbing together any longer, Hajin took my hand. He bound me with his gaze and moved my hand to that place. I tightly closed my eyes at the feeling.
“Ah, mmh!”
Even though I wanted to pull away, I couldn’t move an inch because of the force pressing down on my thighs. At the moment of climax, he removed his hand and slowly lowered his head. I grabbed his shoulders in surprise. He looked up at me with relaxed eyes.
“I-I don’t want to.”
“You’re the one who told me to make a wish. You don’t have a choice, do you?”
Before I could answer, his lips traveled down my stomach and below. I kept shrinking back as I clearly felt his straight nose and lips rubbing against my thigh.
“…Ah!”
His hand passed where his lips had been. A moan burst out as I felt my body being ravaged.
“J-just do it. Please? Quickly.”
He bit my lips as if to soothe me. Then he very slowly entered me. At the moment just before joining, I grabbed his shoulders and cried out.
“Ah! W-wait… just a moment.”
Hajin put his hand on my forehead and said:
“Since you have no memory, it must feel like your first time?”
“…”
“If you’re scared, close your eyes. It’s okay, just breathe.”
