“Perhaps we were fated to be connected like this, which is why you kept catching my eye.”
Before my eyes could redden at the Chairman’s words, Seonjae let out a cheer and just hugged me, so I avoided the melodrama.
They say my personality and behavior are very similar to Seonjae’s omega father, but well, I’ve never met him so I don’t know, but seeing the Chairman’s eyes redden whenever he sees Seonjae and me together, I guess we are similar?
Though I can’t give birth to three children like Seonjae’s omega father.
I’m “recessive.” No matter how dominant an alpha Seonjae was, my pregnancy chances weren’t very high. So normally, they say everyone feels like the sky is falling when they’re evaluated as a recessive omega at final trait confirmation, but my sky only fell for a “brief moment.”
The reason my sky stood upright again was solely because of Yoo Seonjae.
“Recessive? What’s that?”
“…Doesn’t that bother you?”
Not long after we started dating, I confessed to Seonjae that I was recessive. I thought he wouldn’t know since I didn’t show him my evaluation form, but Seonjae already knew I was recessive.
‘Is that also a dominant ability? Does he have like 4.5 vision? Does he have good dynamic visual acuity?’
I really thought I’d quickly covered it when he turned his head for a moment, but I guess he saw it. Well, if he put his mind to it, there’s nothing he couldn’t find out. Our living radius overlaps that much anyway.
“Should that be a problem?”
“Shouldn’t it?”
Seonjae looked at me as if puzzled. I looked at him puzzled too. No, I was actually more puzzled. The fact that I might not be able to have children—doesn’t that bother him? I thought.
‘Ah… Oh! Could it be he doesn’t plan to go all the way with me? Ah, right. We could date and then break up, so yeah, well… that’s possible. Even though he said let’s be together forever, that might not be in the form of marriage, so yeah, well, that could be… but, uh… why am I… crying?’
“What. Han Yeoul! Why are you crying? What’s wrong? Huh?”
“Huh? N-no. It’s noth—”
I couldn’t continue speaking and ended up crying loudly. At the time, I was so happy about dating that I hadn’t thought about what came after.
‘Right, maybe it’s natural. Our family isn’t poor, but so to speak, Seonjae’s family is a chaebol, so there might already be an omega decided for marriage… Ah, stupidly getting excited for nothing and bringing up pregnancy or not, talk that’s not even necessary right now. What is this?’
“Yeoul, Yeoul. Look at me, okay? Yeoul, why are you crying?”
“No, no… sob“
Trying to comfort me as I cried, Seonjae looked into my face, wiped my tears, and gently hugged me. His lightly released pheromones calmed me down, and only after soaking his shoulder completely did I stop crying.
After my breath, which had been jumping like hiccups, evened out again and my flushed face calmed down, only then did Seonjae carefully ask me again:
“Why did you cry?”
“…”
“Yeoul. I’m not trying to interrogate you. I’m worried.”
Worried…
I don’t like Seonjae worrying. But I was scared. If I spoke honestly and really, like I thought, Seonjae had a predetermined mate, and I was just an omega to date briefly in between, just for romance…
I… want to be with Seonjae until the end as ‘the only one for each other.’
“Yeoul doesn’t trust me.”
At Seonjae’s disappointed-sounding voice, I snapped to attention and looked at him, and he was the one who looked like he was about to cry.
“S-Seonjae. No, no. Why wouldn’t I trust you?”
“If that’s not it, you cried so sorrowfully but won’t even tell me why.”
“T-that’s—”
“That means I’m not trustworthy enough to our Yeoul.”
Ah… that’s not it.
I just didn’t want to be found out. In case Seonjae would be disappointed in me if I exposed my narrow-mindedness as is. No, before that, what if the “forever” Seonjae talks about is different from the “forever” I’m thinking of…
“That…”
“That?”
“M-marriage… if we get—”
“Marriage?”
Seonjae asked back with a surprised face, emphasizing the word “marriage.”
‘As I thought, was I right? Does he really not plan to marry me? Ah, what do I do? I shouldn’t have said anything. At this rate, dating will only become uncomfortable—’
“Holy shit! I was scared thinking I was the only one thinking about that!”
‘Huh?’
Seonjae, who had been looking at me like he was about to cry just moments ago, was smiling like he owned the world. I was the one flustered by the quick change of attitude, to the point of wondering what on earth just happened.
“We’ve only been dating for how long and you’re talking about marriage, if I say that won’t Yeoul feel burdened and run away, no, leaving all that aside, we’re still high school students so what if Yeoul thinks it’s ridiculous? What if your feelings change while we’re dating and you go to an alpha cooler than me? Ah, of course there’s no alpha cooler than me but anyway! You don’t know how complicated my head is every single day thinking about you, do you?”
…
‘What is all this? So, in his head, we’re already married? …He’s worse than me?’
“But suddenly while talking about traits you cried, so I was so surprised.”
A shadow fell over Seonjae’s smiling face again.
“So, Han Yeoul. Tell me. Why did you cry?”
“…I’m recessive.”
“Yeah.”
“I probably won’t get pregnant easily.”
Thinking about it now, talking about pregnancy at that age was a bit funny, but anyway, since he was someone who’d already married me in his head, I thought pregnancy was a reasonably realistic topic to discuss. So I had to address it. No matter how much I liked him, a family isn’t maintained by just that alone.
“So what about it?”
But the answer that came back was no different from before. I wondered if Yoo Seonjae even thought before answering.
‘When I ask this seriously, shouldn’t he at least pretend to think before answering? “So what about it.” It’s an important issue.’
“Hey, Yoo Seonjae. I might not be able to have a baby.”
“So what. What’s the problem with that? Is there a problem between you and me? Is it that important?”
Looking at his sparkling eyes directed at me, I pondered for a long while what I should answer.
“So, even if you and I become family, it might be just the two of us.”
“Isn’t that good?”
“What?”
Seonjae ran his hand through his hair once, then dropped his gaze to the side and let out a “hmm-” sigh. Even that looked like a painting, and I almost kissed his profile.
Get a grip, Han Yeoul. This is a serious situation. I steeled my heart, repeating it to myself several times.
“Yeoul. Actually, I don’t like children.”
“Huh?”
‘Was that… so? Did Seonjae not like kids? Well, I’ve never seen him with children until now.’
“Children would just be tiring to have around. I heard giving birth is hard. I don’t like you being in pain either. Isn’t this actually good? I only need you. You only need me, right?”
‘That’s… true, but is it really okay?’
“That’s not something you can say so simply…”
“I’m not saying it simply though?”
“Huh?”
“I’ve been thinking about it for quite a long time, Yeoul.”
Seonjae’s expression became serious again.
“I really wish there was nothing between you and me. I wish you had nothing to hide from me, and of course I won’t hide anything either. I wish we could just be like one body, just the two of us alone, like we’ve been until now.”
“Seonjae.”
“You know what, Yeoul?”
He grinned and tousled my hair.
“You’re number one in the world. You’re my top priority. I like you the most in the world, you’re the most fun. You’re the prettiest and you’re the most precious. So I hate anything that hurts you, whatever it may be. Even if it came from inside me.”
I had nothing to say. He was sincere, and back then, I simply took his words as ‘ah, he loves me that much.’
And so we dated with “marriage” as the premise from high school.
Even in university, we stuck together to the point where everyone knew we were dating. Yet because I was recessive, even my pheromone scent was weak, so sometimes other omegas would cling to Seonjae.
To be honest, I was a bit upset each time, but the clinging omegas were publicly humiliated by Seonjae every single time. Actually, if Seonjae had been an alpha from just any household, they would have just been pathetic omegas trying to do something about an alpha with a lover, but the problem was that Seonjae was a chaebol.
Fed up with omegas approaching him with strong pheromones, Seonjae hated that kind of approach to the point of trembling.
