Wrapped in a large hand and trapped in a dark space, Abrisius soon felt a strange power entering him, transmitted through his mind.
‘Pain? Sadness? Anger? What is this?’
Unfamiliar sensations and memories he’d never felt before in his life, bustling emotions complicated his mind as something began to surface.
I am… I, I am…
The sensations he was seeing and feeling for the first time burst forth like a broken dam, striking Abrisius’s brain.
“I am…”
Abrisius.
The very precious and valuable name that Seianes had given him.
A voice that had whispered that he was more lovable than anyone, a being worthy of being loved, echoed in his ears.
At the same time, a cold voice overlapped.
<A murderer.>
A sound he’d never heard before squeezed past Seianes’s voice and entered his ears.
A murderer born after killing his mother.
Abrisius. A child loved by the God of Earth.
A time slightly older than now, and the era when he was not Abrisius, unfolded before his eyes.
“Do Haeyeon.”
A child who only received hatred from his father.
Deeply hidden truths and memories flashed by like a panorama.
The moment he was born in exchange for his mother’s death.
Starting with the pitiful childhood of being beaten every day by his alcohol-soaked father, memories of his previous life—where he couldn’t even live a proper life and tragically ended his existence—were rapidly replayed in chronological order.
And from within that miserable life, one novel he’d read came to mind.
At first, he thought it was just an ordinary fantasy novel, but it turned out to be BL.
Though he couldn’t properly remember the novel’s title, it was a typical power fantasy with the demigod Cairens, born between god and human, defeating villains—a work that added the Heracles epic to it.
And befitting a BL, the protagonist falls in love with a male god of earth. However, there was an obstacle to their love.
Yes, Abrisius.
The despicable villain who developed inappropriate feelings for Seianes, who raised him, and tried to rape him.
Later, after being futilely defeated in a duel with Cairens, he became a handful of ash and fell into the abyss.
“Ugh… uuugh…!”
The memories of the past that had been asleep tore through his mind.
Though a splitting headache arose, the psychological shock was greater.
The innocent inner child who knew nothing was regaining memories of the past and recalling adult reasoning.
“Crazy…”
Along with memories of his previous life coming from his fading consciousness, his current life flashed by like a panorama.
His very first birth on this land, the beginning of his memories—his first meeting with Seianes. He could clearly see his face looking at the abandoned child with pitying eyes.
Tracing through the following memories, Abrisius could see Seianes caring for him again.
Seianes’s appearance when first raising him was utterly clumsy. Every day was a series of mistakes, and he often made Abrisius cry.
[Seianes…]
Even so, Abrisius always sought out Seianes.
[Yes, my baby, come here.]
Though it must have been bothersome, Seianes never pushed Abrisius away.
Though clumsy and inexperienced, the affection they had for each other was genuine, so that time accumulated and bound them together under the name of family.
Calling each other’s names, they were happy as if they possessed the whole world.
[I love you.]
With eyes full of affection, Seianes kissed Abrisius’s forehead.
The face of the child who received love was also filled with a happy smile.
Yes, perhaps they had been captivated at first sight.
Both Seianes and Abrisius. They had already fallen in love from their first meeting.
Memories of the past passed through Abrisius’s mind one by one like a panorama. Like a time traveler, the emotions he felt at those moments came vividly back to life.
Blankly entrusting his body to that flow, Abrisius thought:
‘Those really were happy moments.’
The happiness of living under the love of a beloved was indescribable.
It was the first affection he’d ever felt, the first love.
Having even recalled memories of his previous life, his love felt even more real. The fact that he was loved this much was a tremendous blessing.
However, that afterglow lasted only briefly. The scene before his eyes rippled and the scene changed.
* * *
Before he knew it, he’d left the bright and warm place, and a dark night sky filled with darkness filled his vision. Before he could properly grasp where this was, a sharp voice pierced into his ear canal.
<Why, why did you do this?>
A familiar but cold voice. Blinking his eyes several times, Abrisius looked at the familiar being before him.
“Sei?”
With a face full of anger he’d never seen before, he was glaring at the black silhouette before him.
“Seianes… What’s wrong?”
Abrisius, startled by his anger he was seeing for the first time, approached, but Seianes cleanly ignored him and stood up.
The cloth that had been covering him slid smoothly down his body. The bruises remaining on his ivory-white body were revealed.
“Good heavens…”
Along with traces of being defiled by someone, Seianes’s battered body looked vulnerable.
“What on earth is wrong?”
Startled, Abrisius grabbed him and asked, but it didn’t reach Seianes.
As if unaware of Abrisius’s existence, not even giving him a glance, Seianes shouted toward the black silhouette before him.
“…You. After I raised you like that.”
A mournful voice filled the space.
‘Raised?’
Surely Seianes had raised him, so who was he referring to? And then, the black silhouette that seemed to be the origin of the incident approached Seianes and revealed itself.
“Why are you making that face?”
Red eyes, black hair. His straight, thinly slanted eyes curved. Contrary to the tearful Seianes, he grabbed Seianes’s wrist with a vicious smile drawn on his lips.
“Come on, you were the one who seduced me with that body first.”
Pressing on the bruises on Seianes’s chest, he sneered.
“Uugh…”
At his appearance without a trace of remorse, Seianes’s face hardened further. The man who had grabbed and twisted Seianes’s wrist was looking at him as if he were laughable.
“Haaa… My love.”
As if caressing a beloved lover, the man who stroked down Seianes’s body with his remaining hand let out a satisfied moan.
“Heu… heuk, ugh.”
On the other hand, Seianes was crying out at the terrible act.
With a face that couldn’t believe that the man before him was doing such things, he made choking sounds while letting out rough breaths and sobs.
The slowly descending hand reached from his chest to his solar plexus, below his stomach.
Finally, when his hand reached the secret place between his legs, Seianes’s face turned pale.
“No, stop!”
Eventually, unable to watch anymore, Abrisius clung between them crying, but it was useless. In this fantasy-like place, the two people couldn’t perceive Abrisius’s existence, so his actions were meaningless.
“Why? When you loved it so much yesterday…”
“Ah, don’t… Don’t do it!”
Unaware that Abrisius was blocking him from the side, the man was busy coveting Seianes before him.
Seianes tried his utmost to escape from his grip, but couldn’t even properly resist. No, it was closer to not doing so.
“Please… don’t do this.”
If he properly used his power, the still-young god would surely be sent flying.
No matter how much he violated and defiled him, he was still his child.
Because he loved him so much and couldn’t bear to harm the child he loved, he could only endure it.
“Abrisius.”
One word uttered with his last resistance. At that one word, the body of the small child watching beside the two stiffened, and the man before him laughed aloud.
“Why are you calling out, Seianes. You enjoyed it too.”
At the following answer, chills ran down young Abrisius’s spine. The man cruelly whispered despair and sneered, not knowing Seianes’s feelings.
Abrisius.
The chest of young Abrisius, who was watching that sight, sank.
Only then did Abrisius realize where this place was, why the two people before him couldn’t perceive him.
“This is the original work… It’s the world inside the novel.”
The terrible scene of obsession and madness unfolding before his eyes. All of this was part of the original novel. Shocked, Abrisius sank to the ground.
Still unaware of his existence, the time of the two continued to flow. The sight of Abrisius smiling while kissing Seianes’s wrist was sinister enough to give even the watching young Abrisius goosebumps.
“I considered you like my own child.”
“Yes, you considered me like a child. But I didn’t.”
Seianes, who like an undying flower always maintained a beautiful appearance. Abrisius, who grew up watching such a person, cultivated a different emotion beyond pure affection.
“Everything I have right now is my love directed at you.”
Dirty, sinister obsession mixed with possessiveness… a twisted love.
His face, excited by twisted love, was difficult to express in words.
Plop.
A tear that fell from injured Seianes’s eyes rolled down his cheek. Excited by that pitiful sight, Abrisius coveted Seianes’s lips.
“Mmph!”
Abrisius smiled with satisfaction while mindlessly savoring the inside. The sight of him lightly biting the upper lip and mixing tongues through the gap when the mouth opened slightly was disgusting.
“Heuk…!”
Young Abrisius, who could only watch helplessly, cried out.
“Please! Please, don’t torment Seianes!”
Even crying and desperately pleading, it didn’t reach them.
“Sei, my love. I can’t understand why you’re making that expression.”
Abrisius, with a smile on his lips, stroked Seianes’s cheek.
Still in shock, Seianes accepted his touch without resistance.
“Ah, beloved Sei. My pitiful Sei.”
He felt flesh in his hand, felt his lips on his lips.
Entrusting his body to the satisfaction that fulfilled him to his core, Abrisius trembled. Unaware that another version of himself beside him was on the verge of fainting.
“Seianes, my love.”
His face, kissing the wet eyes, was filled with madness.
