# Chapter 34
“I know. But what can I do if I don’t want to leave? This is my hotel…”
Jaehwi, who had been watching Raon take off his shoes, jacket, and even loosen his tie, finally realized that he needed to leave this place. This had always been Raon’s space, after all, and he was only able to stay temporarily thanks to Raon’s consideration.
After seeing Raon start to unbutton his shirt, Jaehwi turned away. He was the one who had ruined their relationship that had been going well. He shouldn’t have listened to Aiden’s offer to help; if he had stayed as the good child Aiden wanted him to be, hiding his detestable true feelings, he would have had more chances to hold Raon in his arms. While he hesitated, Raon grabbed his wrist.
Jaehwi, who had been about to leave, turned to look at Raon who was holding his wrist.
“Where are you going?”
“You heard what I just said.”
Jaehwi tried to shake off Raon’s hand but easily gave way when Raon pushed him toward the door. Raon’s eyes, which had come right up to his face, were slanted upward. Even when Raon, who made no effort to hide his displeased and dissatisfied expression, stood on his tiptoes to press his lips against Jaehwi’s, Jaehwi still couldn’t read his mind.
“I gave you a goodnight kiss, so you sleep here too. Don’t think about leaving.”
“Kang Raon!”
“How dare you call your hyung by his name! I’m 6 years older than you.”
“…Are you threatening me with age?”
“You’re just being sensitive because your levels are unstable. I’ll help you sleep, so go wash up and come back.”
“I don’t need it.”
“Fine, whatever. I’m going to wash up. I don’t have the energy to fight with you. If you’re not here when I come back from washing, I’ll never see you again.”
Jaehwi’s jawline hardened as he watched the back of the unkind Raon, who had said only what he wanted to say before entering the main bedroom. In this relationship, Raon was the absolute superior, both emotionally and as a Guide who could suppress Jaehwi’s wild senses.
Leaning against the door and grinding curses between his teeth, Jaehwi closed his eyes at the sound of water coming from the bathroom in the main room. If he looked that way and adjusted his senses just a little, it would be nothing to see Raon’s naked body.
“Fuck.”
Eventually cursing out loud, Jaehwi turned his body and headed to the bathroom in the guest room. Whether he understood Raon’s intentions or not, he was like a small ant in the palm of Raon’s hand. Whether Raon pressed him to death with his fingernail or flicked him away somewhere, it was all Raon’s will.
He couldn’t decide whether he should stay here as Raon wished or turn around and go outside. The sound of clothes being removed, small sighs, the sound of Raon’s bare feet walking on the tiles after taking off his slippers. The sound of water turning on, followed by the sound of his body getting wet, came one after another.
Strength returned to Jaehwi’s limp hand, and the veins on his arm and back of his hand became prominent.
Ding-.
A short alarm sound came from the phone in his pocket. After checking the short and concise message, Jaehwi entered the bathroom without hesitation.
Even while washing in cold water, Jaehwi kept his eyes closed. This made his hearing more sensitive. Filtering out numerous sounds, he focused on the sounds coming from the main room’s bathroom. The water sound stopped and started repeatedly. Washing his hair, washing his body… The water sound started and stopped again. The sound of wet feet walking around, and even the rustling sound of drying his body—all of these were stimulating elements for Jaehwi.
Jaehwi also began to wash slowly, following the sounds Raon made while washing. Only after hearing Raon’s low sigh through the noisy hairdryer was Jaehwi able to leave the shower stall.
“Drink this.”
Jaehwi, who had leisurely finished and gone out to the living room, couldn’t help but laugh helplessly when he saw the person offering him warm milk while wearing only a bath robe. As expected, only he was tense, trembling, and making a fuss. The person in question, Raon, didn’t seem to care at all.
“I added honey.”
Jaehwi had thought it was simply heated milk, but he hesitated when he noticed the different taste. At Raon’s follow-up words, he nodded and sat down in the chair.
“Dry your hair well. You’ll catch a cold.”
Jaehwi didn’t know when Raon had grabbed a towel, but he obediently accepted Raon’s touch as he stood behind him, drying his hair while he sat drinking milk. His once-sharpened senses gradually began to dull.
What he had tried so hard to be numb to in the past was now so easily resolved just by being near Raon, with his brief touches.
“Finished drinking?”
At the question that came as soon as he put down his cup, Jaehwi nodded in response. Then Raon’s hand gently took his. Whether his hand was big or Raon’s was small—Jaehwi looked at Raon’s hand that was wrapped around his thumb, and led by Raon’s strength, he stood up and found himself entering the main bedroom.
“Hyung.”
Stopping at the bedroom entrance, Jaehwi finally opened his firmly closed mouth. A line that shouldn’t be crossed. Raon had clearly told him not to cross the line. But if he went further here, it seemed like he wouldn’t just be crossing the line, but erasing it entirely.
“I said I’ll help you sleep.”
The gentle words and warm expression were stronger violence to the current Jaehwi than anything else.
“I can’t be a good child anymore. I’ve already received a goodnight kiss…”
Unable to pour out intense words to him, Jaehwi combined words he had carefully chosen for a long time.
“Then, I’ll be the bad adult.”
The words Raon said as he turned around from showing his back didn’t reach Jaehwi at once. Raon burrowed into Jaehwi’s arms as he stood there with his strength drained. Jaehwi stood still like a wooden statue even when Raon’s arms wrapped around his waist, even when Raon put his ear against Jaehwi’s left chest.
“I want to Guide you, but strangely, I can’t feel your energy, so I don’t know what to do. It’s because I didn’t learn properly. I’ve never done it with anyone but you. It worked until a few days ago, but I don’t know what the problem is…”
Raon’s hands cupped Jaehwi’s face, and just like before, Raon’s lips descended on Jaehwi’s. It wasn’t a wet and rough kiss, but soft, plump lips gently touching, and as they moved slightly, the two lips squished together more softly.
Raon, who had taken Jaehwi’s slightly parted lower lip between his upper and lower lips and gently sucked it in and released it, backed away slightly.
“Even if I can’t Guide you, I can do other things. I even prepared while washing…”
Unlike his calm voice, Raon’s heart was beating faster, and the tips of his ears and cheeks were turning red. Above all, because they were hugging tightly, Jaehwi, who couldn’t miss their mutual heat, raised his hand to cover his own eyes.
As Raon’s fingertips entered under the t-shirt Jaehwi was wearing and stroked his back, Jaehwi couldn’t hide the small sound resonating in his throat.
“Heup.”
As he lowered his hand that had been covering his eyes, Jaehwi’s lips found Raon’s. It wasn’t a ticklish and warm kiss, but a bold one with a clear purpose. Jaehwi’s tongue invaded Raon’s mouth without hesitation and found the flesh hiding inside.
Their saliva mixed wetly, and their breaths intertwined. Jaehwi’s hand, which was roughly exploring Raon’s entire mouth, untied the loose bath robe string and immediately grabbed his body.
“Hwi-ya…”
As Raon murmured, barely keeping up with Jaehwi’s messy kissing, his two legs were lifted into the air. Although both his height and weight were said to be average, to Jaehwi, who had an overwhelming physique and strength, Raon was infinitely light.
Suddenly suspended in the air, Raon urgently wrapped his legs around Jaehwi’s waist. Raon, whose eyes met Jaehwi’s as he lifted Raon’s buttocks without shaking to match their eye level, turned his head to look at the bed.
“Put me down.”
Raon’s voice trembled slightly, afraid of falling, as he had never clung to someone like this before, and Jaehwi was exceptionally tall.
“Do you think I’d drop you?”
Smiling with the corner of his mouth slightly raised, Jaehwi kissed Raon’s nose, cheeks, lips, and chin without discrimination. In the end, Raon, who had put his arms around Jaehwi’s neck, had to accept his kisses while completely entrusting his body to him.
Even during the walk from the bedroom entrance to the bed, their kissing didn’t end, and rather, small moans filled the room as Jaehwi kneaded Raon’s skin that had come into his hands.
The sound of a rapidly beating heart rang in his head, and the heat brought by hot, large hands made it impossible to come to his senses. Jaehwi’s lips landed all over Raon’s body. Jaehwi’s lips, which had been showering Raon’s face and neck with small kisses, soon went down.
“Haa. Min Jaehwi…”
Jaehwi’s gaze, which had been leaving marks here and there on Raon’s body with black hair tickling his chest, turned to Raon.
“Yes?”
As Raon stretched out his arm while looking into Jaehwi’s eyes facing him, Jaehwi shook his head and grinned. Then he released Raon’s body and opened Raon’s bath robe, which had already lost its function and couldn’t be properly closed.
