It was nothing short of torture. Because I had to struggle desperately not to lose myself staring at that fine face. That was also the reason I was in the habit of avoiding hyung-nim’s eyes.
“…Alright.”
That was the answer that came back after a long staring contest. It was a nuance that suggested he’d let it pass for now, but anyway, it seemed he was going to believe me.
“Haa, what am I even doing right now.”
Hyung-nim kept pressing his temples hard as if he truly had a headache. After that, it seemed like he sighed at least three more times.
The reason I had cowardly dragged my friend into this earlier was none other than that usually when I was scolded by hyung-nim, it was mostly situations where Jeongyeon and I had done wrong together. But now it was completely different.
Jeongyeon, who always got scolded more than me, wasn’t by my side, and the mistake I made today was purely mine alone. That was also why I liked the current situation.
“At least I don’t have to worry about Yoo Jeongyeon since they live on their own, but why don’t you understand that your situation is completely different? No matter how much you’ve become an adult, at least as long as you’re living in your parents’ house, you can’t be without any constraints.”
“……”
I glanced up to look at hyung-nim.
This is a secret, but actually, Jeongyeon living on their own was all because of hyung-nim too. Their school, which took an hour and thirty minutes by public transportation, was definitely close enough to commute from home.
Nevertheless, the kid who hastily applied for the dormitory had always dreamed of independence since middle school.
All because of their scary hyung-nim who was eleven years older.
When I was very young, I couldn’t understand why Jeongyeon said, “I don’t want to live with my hyung, so take me to your house,” but as I grew up, I understood the reason. In reality, hyung-nim didn’t easily let things slide when we did something wrong.
“I’ll say it again, I told you just this morning not to get cocky just because you’re an adult. If you were going to be late, you should have at least contacted your parents in advance. How worried do you think they were waiting without knowing what was going on?”
Jeongwoo hyung-nim had quite a cold side and was an adult who scolded us harshly when we did wrong, but even so, I only liked hyung-nim.
“An adult is scolding you and you’re, hmph, thinking about something else.”
“……”
“I don’t even know if you’re listening to me. So scatterbrained.”
I know that both sets of parents couldn’t bring themselves to scold their late-born children harshly, so they pushed that role onto hyung-nim.
That’s why I liked hyung-nim even more for willingly taking on the bad role until now.
“Anyway, you worried your mother, father, and even me all evening today. If you keep this up, you won’t even be able to make excuses when you get nagged from now on. Freedom comes with responsibility. Right now, I’m staying up at this hour to teach you that.”
The words that he worried were also sweet. The fear had long since disappeared. Whether it was the alcohol or what, one side of my stomach gradually felt strange.
My head was hot too, and actually, I had been seeing two of hyung-nim’s face since earlier.
Taking advantage of the alcohol’s strength for once, I looked a little deeper into hyung-nim’s eyes.
When I slowly blinked, I heard a chuckle.
“I don’t know what I’m doing dealing with a drunk kid.”
“……”
“Looking at your eyes, you might wake up tomorrow and say you don’t remember anything.”
Was it just my imagination, or did hyung-nim’s voice seem much softer than before?
“I need to remember though…”
I muttered blankly without realizing it.
If I woke up tomorrow morning and this memory was gone, I would be truly, truly sad. Hyung-nim looked at my eyes for a moment, then let out a sigh.
“Go inside and wash up first. Don’t go home reeking of alcohol—wash here first, and then go home.”
Nodding my head, I was led by hyung-nim’s hand toward the bathroom attached to his room. However, with my other hand, I was secretly pressing down hard on my waistband without hyung-nim knowing.
There were so many things I couldn’t let hyung-nim discover.
***
At some point, especially recently, there were many moments that made me feel I was truly a full-grown adult. When I entered the bathroom, the space between my legs was swollen to the point where it couldn’t get any bigger.
It was extremely fortunate that hyung-nim sent me to the bathroom in time. Otherwise, I might have been branded as a pervert who gets aroused while being scolded by hyung-nim. Or he might be disappointed beyond recovery, saying he didn’t know I had grown into such a lustful omega.
Although hyung-nim occasionally walks around half-naked at home, outside he’s someone who doesn’t even carelessly unbutton a single shirt button. I had never seen an alpha as ascetic and perfect as hyung-nim in my life.
So, if he found out I was this kind of pervert, he’d definitely be disappointed.
After taking off my clothes and sitting in the bathtub, I turned on the water. I don’t want to do this either, but I absolutely can’t go outside until I calm this down.
“Hngh…”
A moan escaped as soon as I grasped my already tightly swollen member. I bit my lip hard and started gently shaking the shaft.
I was even more aroused because it happened to be the bathtub attached to hyung-nim’s room. When I saw him earlier, hyung-nim was wearing comfortable cotton pants and a tee, so he had probably showered in this bathroom. Perhaps because of that, I could smell a pheromone scent that I usually couldn’t detect from hyung-nim.
“…Ahng.”
With continued stimulation, my feet kept curling and slipping on the floor repeatedly. I felt something gradually flowing from behind, so eventually I knelt down on the bottom of the bathtub.
Whether it was because of hyung-nim’s pheromones or not, my back entrance that I’d never used before kept twitching on its own.
I groaned while gripping my member, then eventually started moving my hand little by little.
Ever since I first masturbated while thinking of Jeongwoo hyung-nim, I really hated being scolded by hyung-nim while sitting side by side with Jeongyeon. Because it felt like I became a child.
The relationship between hyung-nim and me, which had been closer than real siblings, was no longer the same as before. Because I didn’t want that kind of relationship.
I didn’t want to be a child, but being scolded made me feel even more like a child, so I tried hard to appear mature. I deliberately acted dignified and respectfully called him ‘hyung-nim.’
As a result, contrary to my intentions, the side effect of growing distant occurred. Of course, around the time I hit puberty, hyung-nim also became busy starting work.
At some point, I thought hyung-nim wouldn’t dote on me like before now that I’d grown up, and that we weren’t even close enough for him to get angry and scold me when I did wrong.
But earlier wasn’t like that. At least I seemed to be someone he cared about enough to get angry and worry about something like today.
Of course, I still didn’t want to be a child. Even now, hiding in hyung-nim’s bathroom holding my breath while gripping my member, there was no way I could remain as a child who knows nothing.
“Haht…!”
A moan flowed out again through my parted lips. Glancing at the door, I moved my hand again.
When I carefully rubbed the entrance, slick touched wetly. Quite a lot of slick had already flowed out, but I was somehow scared to put a finger in. At the same time, I recalled hyung-nim’s member that I saw recently.
Throughout my life, I’d hardly ever properly seen other people’s members. Having only looked at my own my whole life, when I recalled hyung-nim’s, it was so different.
No matter how much I was an omega, I was also a man, but the thing between my legs didn’t have hair like hyung-nim’s and was much smaller in size.
Whether all alphas were like that or what, even though it was only half-erect, hyung-nim’s thing was exceptionally large. I learned for the first time that veins could bulge on the shaft even before being fully erect.
Though I had no sexual experience, I had plenty of curiosity itself, so I naturally knew how alphas and omegas had sex.
When even one finger is scary, if something like that entered, I might die. Though that probably won’t ever happen in my lifetime.
“Ah, hngh, hnngh…”
The gesture of rubbing the entrance against my widely spread hand while thinking of hyung-nim was utterly clumsy. The hand that wandered around not knowing what to do moved back to the front. When my wetly soaked hand touched the tip of my member, strength involuntarily entered my body.
“Ah, ngh!”
At that moment, spurts—semen shot into the air. Most of the semen fell onto the bottom of the bathtub where water had pooled. The whitish and watery semen, like milk mixed with water, quickly dissolved in the water and disappeared before my eyes.
I don’t know how much time has passed since I entered the bathroom. As the drunkenness faded, I gradually realized what a crazy thing I had done.
…Surely it wasn’t audible from outside, right?
