Even his small tongue stiffened rigidly. Jun-wan, completely unaware of what phase Yu-shin was currently facing, only sucked on his tongue to his heart’s content. He seemed like someone whose sole purpose was only kissing.
Yu-shin, who had been faintly trembling, soon went limp. In the place the climax had swept through, only a sense of exhaustion remained.
With all the strength drained from his body, Yu-shin became soft like freshly steamed rice cake. Jun-wan remained obsessed with his lips for another 10 minutes or so after that before slowly falling into a satisfied sleep.
In the spacious living room, panting breaths and breaths drowsy with sleep mixed evenly. Only after confirming Jun-wan had fallen asleep did Yu-shin push aside the man lying on top of him and sluggishly straighten his back.
“…What do I do?”
His underwear was completely soaked. The thin pajama pants were wet only around the groin as if he’d had an accident. Yu-shin couldn’t bring himself to check inside his underwear and only pressed his bright red flushed face. He couldn’t make proper judgments in front of the shocking situation.
His heart felt like it would burst and the future looked bleak. The one fortunate thing was that Jun-wan had fallen into a deep sleep. Yu-shin covered his face and slightly spread his fingers.
Park Jun-wan, the source of all this, was sleeping as if dead. Though his hair was disheveled and his shirt wrinkled terribly, looking at only his pale face, he seemed like someone nothing had happened to.
“……”
So what he said about not being attracted to men must be true. Confirming with his own eyes an appearance quite different from his own made his heart even more disturbed. Yu-shin pressed on the floor and staggered to his feet.
Worried it might flow down below his pants, he walked holding his wet crotch together. With no strength in his knees, he nearly collapsed several times while climbing the stairs. Really, he felt like crying.
After showering and changing clothes, Park Jun-wan was still lying unchanged in that same state as before. Yu-shin crouched beside him and examined the deeply sleeping man’s face.
The one who couldn’t raise his face from shame was not Park Jun-wan but himself. He didn’t know with what face he should face this man.
His gaze only wandered over Jun-wan’s face. His eyes especially went to the smooth lips. Those lips just did to me… Remembering the obscene acts he’d done with him, Yu-shin vigorously rubbed his heated cheeks.
He was too embarrassed to stay at home. If he stayed here, his heart might burst before the day was over.
Yu-shin gathered memo paper and a pen and left a brief note. That he’d be at the main house. To contact him when he woke up.
He carefully tucked the note under the remote and brought a blanket from the sofa to cover Jun-wan’s legs. Though there was carpet laid down, he felt a bit sorry leaving him on the hard floor.
He properly gathered his cardigan, wallet, and phone. Yu-shin turned off all the living room lights and went outside. 5 AM—the faint streetlight glow under the dark blue sky made Yu-shin’s heart even more unsettled.
***
Jun-wan opened his eyes after quite a while. As soon as he woke, a terrible hangover followed. Barely sitting up, he held his head and quietly frowned. It felt like someone was hammering his head.
His back of the head actually hurt. Feeling around, Jun-wan’s hair had become a disaster. It felt strangely empty somewhere too.
Having slept on the bare floor, every corner of his body was stiff. Even so, he seemed to have had enough presence of mind left to cover himself with a blanket. Jun-wan lightly swept back his disheveled hair and slowly raised his legs.
While drinking water, he tried to recall last night’s events. He couldn’t even remember what time he’d come home.
His heart sank at the blank in his memory. Jun-wan immediately climbed the stairs to the second floor.
“Kim Yu-shin.”
The bedroom was completely empty. The pillow and bedding were neatly arranged, showing no signs of having been slept in.
Jun-wan looked through the bathroom, dressing room, and even the studio. Yu-shin was nowhere in the house.
He belatedly discovered a note. The small paper had Yu-shin’s whereabouts written on it. Jun-wan wiped his sweaty forehead. At least I didn’t do anything harmful. Only then could he let out a sigh of relief.
Curses came for his drunken self. He’d tried not to become unseemly, but he seemed to have overestimated his control ability.
Still, since there was no harm done, it was fine. Jun-wan sharpened his alertness and headed to the bathroom. He should shower first and clear his foggy head.
***
At that time, Yu-shin was staying up all night at the main house.
His heart was fluttering too much to sleep. Even taking medicine, the uncomfortable pounding wouldn’t subside.
When they saw their son who’d arrived unannounced at dawn, his parents were naturally surprised. He made an excuse that his condition wasn’t good so he came to rest, but his parents’ worry was beyond words.
Asking if he had a fever, the entire house was turned upside down from that early morning. The commotion after so long made Yu-shin sick of it. Of course, his face had been excessively red then.
After that, he holed up in his room and hadn’t come out. Buried in a pile of blankets, he was busy ruminating over yesterday’s events.
How should I treat him?
Will we continue kissing and rubbing bodies like this from now on? Since we’re married… is it natural?
Last night’s stimulation was deeply carved into his entire body and absolutely wouldn’t be forgotten. Like someone who had just awakened to sexuality, Yu-shin thought about and thought again about yesterday’s events.
His toes hidden under the blanket curled automatically. Just thinking about it made his whole body tingle.
Maybe I actually like men. Yu-shin carefully pondered his sexual orientation. Honestly, he thought it felt good. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have accepted it for hours on end, and wouldn’t have even ejaculated.
“……”
What about Park Jun-wan? How does he kiss so well? Is it innate?
He said he had no experience, but having kissed, he at least knew he was skilled. That Yu-shin melted helplessly was because of his amazing pace control.
What if he comes at me with his lips again? I should pretend not to know and accept it, right? Ah… I should have tried it beforehand. I alone seem too inexperienced.
Yu-shin buried his reddened face in the pillow. It was when he was stomping his feet alone. His phone somewhere on the bed rang.
Yu-shin, who had lazily stretched out his arm, sat bolt upright as soon as he saw the name on the screen. Park Jun-wan—the moment he saw those three characters, his heart began to beat fiercely.
“Calm down. Whew… let’s calm down. I’ll collapse at this rate.”
Yu-shin clutched his chest and swallowed his uneven breathing. While calming his trembling heart, he first thought about what to say in his head.
I should ask if he has a hangover. I need to act as normal as possible. What was the point of running all the way here? It’s not even meeting face to face, just a phone call. I’m an adult, I can certainly do this.
Meanwhile, the call ended. After a brief pause, the phone started ringing again.
This time he answered right away without missing it. Yu-shin covered his mouth with his fist and cleared his throat loudly. Despite his efforts, a metallic sound came from his throat.
“Yes, ahem!”
—Were you sleeping?
“No… what time is it?”
Glancing at the clock, it was 9 AM. For the usual Yu-shin, it would be a time he’d be sleeping heavily. Embarrassed, he rubbed his nose for no reason, then brought out what he’d thought of earlier.
“Yesterday… you drank a lot, right? Is your stomach okay?”
—It’s tough.
Jun-wan’s voice was also cracked like drought-stricken land. Did he eat hangover food? It’s hard to prepare food after drinking. Should I go back now? If I package some seolleongtang on the way, it would be perfect.
While he was thinking this and that alone, Jun-wan spoke from beyond the phone.
—You’re at the main house now, right?
“Yes. I came at dawn.”
—You did well. It was a sudden request so you must have been flustered in the middle of the night… thank you for complying.
“…What?”
The conversation felt strangely off-kilter. Yu-shin bent his waist hunched over while holding the phone. A sudden request—don’t tell me, what he said before coming home?
“…Explain in detail.”
—I drank more than expected yesterday so my condition wasn’t good. I didn’t want to meet Kim Yu-shin in a drunk state. That’s why I told you to go to the main house.
“……”
—I was inwardly worried since I couldn’t explain in detail, but I’m relieved nothing happened anyway.
His head instantly cooled. Yu-shin’s large eyes blazed with fury.
Park Jun-wan, how dare you forget about yesterday?
As he bit his lips hard at the slowly rising anger, a sharp pain spread. And he says nothing happened? His swollen lips were clear evidence.
—Are you listening?
When he didn’t respond, Jun-wan asked first.
Yu-shin grabbed a fistful of his bangs and took a deep breath. His breath, mixed with rage, trembled. He barely squeezed out his usual voice.
“Park Jun-wan… do you black out when you get drunk? Is that your drinking habit?”
—Are you still curious about my drinking habits? Kim Yu-shin, you have quite a persistent side.
Wow… does he want to die? Really.
Instead of apologizing flat on his face, where does he get off lecturing me? Yu-shin firmly suppressed the urge to scream. His heart, which had been pounding just moments ago, was now filled with rage and about to burst.
Yu-shin’s anger flowed calmly like lake water beneath ice—cold and dark. The fact that he had been anxious all by himself over yesterday’s kiss while Park Jun-wan didn’t even remember was utterly humiliating.
“Are we done talking?”
—…Are you in a bad mood?
Of all things, he has quick perception. Yu-shin gripped the phone with enough force to crush it.
“I’m sleepy, I want to sleep more. I’ll be here for a few more days, so just know that.”
Yu-shin hung up without even listening to the answer. He turned off the phone completely and threw it anywhere.
He laid down flat and stared at the ceiling.
“Pfft! Ha, haha! Hahaha!”
So this is what happens when a person gets too angry—they laugh. Yu-shin kept bursting into bitter laughter like someone who’d lost their mind.
