At the talk about coming right away, Jiseo put down his phone and opened the refrigerator. Since it was early, he obviously wouldn’t have eaten breakfast, so he made a meal for two without hesitation and put it on the table.
He probably won’t be able to eat right away. Anticipating that Yeongwon would lead him to talk first as soon as he arrived, he prepared a meal centered on yogurt and salad that tasted good even when cold.
Not long after Jiseo, who had finished preparing, wandered near the entrance, he heard the sound of the door lock opening.
“Hyung, hyung!”
Behind the door that swung open, Yeongwon appeared looking more urgent than usual. Without even breathing, he caught Jiseo’s wrist, thicker than his own hand, and led him to the sofa.
“What did you want to talk about?”
As expected, Yeongwon didn’t even glance at the table and started the conversation first after placing Jiseo between his legs.
Although food was laid out on the table, Yeongwon seemed to have no small interest in that direction at all.
Jiseo quietly examined Yeongwon’s face. His fair face was still white and without a single blemish.
There was a reason he took in his face first. It was to check if he hadn’t slept well or if there were any problems because of their not-really-a-cold-war cold war.
There didn’t seem to be any particular problems. He was just neat, so Jiseo, relieved inside, slowly opened his mouth.
“Exactly when, not as a joke but sincerely, did you start thinking you should marry hyung when you grew up?”
“Of course from the day we promised. If that wasn’t sincere, did you think I was teasing you or playing with you?”
“Do you properly remember the day you promised with hyung? It was when you were going to kindergarten.”
“Regardless of whether I remember or not, we already promised.”
His tone and voice were soft, but his attitude was still firm.
“Hyung.”
“Yeah?”
“I’ll ask again. Do you just want to keep me as a younger brother you know?”
“You shouldn’t jump to conclusions about feelings, so it’s not that. If you seduce me……”
“……”
“I can’t guarantee I won’t fall.”
“……”
“But the fact that I’m having this conversation at all is enough to make me feel guilty because you’re so young, so it can’t happen right now.”
No matter what imagination he had with him or what kind of relationship they remained, Yeongwon was just a young man who had just turned twenty.
It was fine if he kept liking him. Even if he made efforts to win his heart or openly expressed his feelings of affection as he said, if it couldn’t be helped, it couldn’t be helped.
If he was in his right mind, if he had any sense, for the next few years he wouldn’t feel similar emotions. That was the biggest problem.
“Just wait. I’ll find a way. You really…… You keep pushing me away for really ridiculous reasons, so I’ll find a way.”
“……”
“I can’t let you go like this. You were mine originally.”
“……”
“I thought I was lucky to confess when you weren’t interested in marriage or anything.”
Seeing him turn red all the way to his throat in an instant, Jiseo felt he should soothe him once.
Knowing that this too was audacity he could push through because he was young, Jiseo nodded and answered.
“If we find a compromise, I’ll accommodate you as much as possible. Anyway, from your perspective, it’s the same as if hyung broke the promise.”
“……”
“Or how about raising the standard of being grown up just a little?”
“Me? Or you, hyung?”
“You, of course.”
“If it’s such a ridiculous reason, forget it.”
“……”
“I absolutely insist on marriage before dating. No matter how much I like you, hyung, if we don’t get married, I won’t date. Because I…… I want to become a couple with you, hyung. I want to make you mine as soon as possible, even one day earlier. You were decided to become mine a long time ago.”
“We really can’t compromise?”
At Jiseo’s whisper that had become even softer, Yeongwon pouted his lips as if he’d been waiting. This isn’t a promise…… After muttering like a soliloquy in his mind, he also verbally expressed his inability to accept.
“Because we absolutely can’t narrow it down. I’ll find a clean solution. Give me time.”
“Okay.”
Probably no matter what method he found, nothing would change, but Jiseo nodded as before.
If he blocked even that, he would completely tip over to the side of being a shameless bad guy who only shook the heart of a younger brother ten years his junior.
Although he couldn’t predict what would happen, honestly the range of what he could guess wasn’t that wide. The most likely choice was the conclusion that he would tell their families everything about them.
He would use his last weapon to get them to take his side, but everyone knew it was impossible anyway.
Whatever was said, those words would inevitably contain feelings of caring for Yeongwon. They would respect all their choices, but would prioritize his persuasion over Yeongwon’s.
Because they love Yeongwon, they’ll want him to have more experiences. And…… I’m sorry to Yeongwon, but I’m not ignoring his feelings for me, but they’ll inevitably feel that he’s rushing in like fire because he’s young.
‘He’s been like that since he was little. Yeongwon really likes Jiseo hyung. His dream has gotten bigger in the meantime.’ They’ll show only the cute reaction just like him, and that was the truth.
No matter how many times he chewed it over and thought about it, he absolutely couldn’t see Yeongwon as a romantic partner right now. For now, he was just like a real younger brother.
But for some reason, he couldn’t come to the firm conclusion that he would never fall in love with Yeongwon. So in the end, the only reason he could give was the unchangeable fact that Yeongwon was too young.
“Grow up more and come. Hyung will really accept you then.”
“Sorry to say, but I want to meet you when you haven’t aged any more from here. Are you telling me to miss all your pretty period?”
The fortunate thing was that even though he’d been rejected, Yeongwon seemed more angry than sad. Even so, he couldn’t know what feelings he was feeling inside, so he couldn’t help but worry.
On one hand, there was inevitable self-blame wondering if he’d been too harsh, but on the other hand, he felt like Yeongwon would soon realize he himself was too precious if he just pushed a little more.
So Jiseo organized his position a bit more cleanly.
“Whatever you do, you only look cute, so it won’t work. To get past that, you have to age.”
It was a statement that fanned the flames to someone who couldn’t accept anything, but it was connected to his argument. Because he’s young he’s cute, and because he’s cute he can’t help but feel he’s young.
“I’ll hear criticism about dating a child when I’m around forty.”
“Is that what you’d say to someone who wanted you all along but missed all their prettier days because you told them to spread their wings and pursue their dreams? I’m boiling inside because I missed all of your twenties, you know?”
“……”
“Jeez, you were so cute back then…… Fine. Just wait for my call.”
He knew he shouldn’t, but Yeongwon actually felt he’d been patient for a long time just because he couldn’t treat Jiseo in his prime twenties as his lover.
This was an unavoidable part since it was his fault for being born late. That’s right, why did mom and dad have me so late!
Anyway, he himself hadn’t crossed the line. Everything aside, just becoming an adult meant there was no reason left why he couldn’t fulfill his long-standing promise with his crush.
So he would definitely obtain it.
The Sorrow of Twenty
I think Joo Yeongwon is gonna blow up soon
ㅇㅇ My gut feeling says so
Comments
What blew up?
Nothing blew up, but my gut says so
Just a feeling without any basis?
It’s not 100% just a hunch, Joo Yeongwon’s been going around saying he’s grown enough to get married now these days? He says that when he happens to meet fans
Huh for real? What does he mean by that
What marriage for a baby who just barely took off the minor sticker
Whoa is he getting romance roles right after becoming an adult? How am I supposed to watch kiss scenes, I feel guilty
I think he’s dropping hints too but when did our baby grow up…… I’m so looking forward to his next work ah but the image doesn’t quite fit yet, he’s so innocent, our baby
First of all, no matter where you put this kid, nothing comes out, but I hope they pair him with someone super handsome
Doesn’t matter if it’s a guy or girl, our baby is super pretty, a beauty whether male or female
↳Ah but it’s about his next work right
↳What else would there be to talk about in this direction, it’s just random love talk lol
