After only a moment of staring into each other’s eyes and blinking, Junseo, who finally understood the situation, let out a sigh.
“…I was wrong to tease you. I didn’t know you’d be this surprised, hyung.”
“Teasing?”
What teasing? Unable to understand, Dohyuk asked back, and Junseo only pressed his lips to Dohyuk’s collarbone.
“It seemed like you were thinking about sex in only one way, hyung.”
Every time Junseo spoke, it tickled against his skin. Dohyuk shrank back at the sensation and spoke in a puzzled voice.
“Only one way? Is there more besides that…”
Then Dohyuk, who belatedly realized the meaning of Junseo’s words, asked back with a thoroughly flustered expression.
“Are you perhaps…”
Even before he finished speaking, when their pitch-black eyes met, everything became clear. It truly was a method he had never once considered until now. And for good reason—Dohyuk couldn’t believe it at all.
“But why would you… want to do that… with me?”
Why go out of your way with a tall Esper who had nothing pretty about him?
It was a thought he couldn’t understand, separate from Junseo loving him, so he had no choice but to ask reluctantly. Junseo, who had been listening to the question with his cheek leaning against Dohyuk’s chest like a lazy cat, only raised his eyes slightly.
“…Of course I want to do ‘that’ with you, hyung.”
Whether by accident or not, Junseo’s hand ambiguously brushed Dohyuk’s side.
***
His vision swam with shame. Dohyuk hugged the pillow even harder and then buried his face in it.
“No matter how I think about it, this, this doesn’t seem right… Junseo.”
His voice muffled in the pillow was terribly garbled, sounding messy even to his own ears.
“Does it hurt?”
But somehow understanding, Junseo asked back.
Dohyuk couldn’t answer. The sensation of his inner walls blatantly spreading apart gave him chills. Thinking that Junseo was staring intently at the area that had obviously turned bright red from being endlessly rubbed and stirred made him want to die.
“It’s not so much that it hurts, just, I just wish you’d put it in already…”
“You’re still too tight, hyung.”
He couldn’t believe that Junseo was groping his insides with those hands that had only been straight and pretty. Thanks to being thoroughly worked over, the hole had become incomparably more slick than before and felt like it was opening on its own now, but Junseo kept refusing, saying it wasn’t time yet.
“Hk, heu, please, just… now…”
Finally, Dohyuk pleaded with his waist trembling.
Honestly, he wished Junseo would just shove it in. Even if he got hurt, he’d heal quickly, and Dohyuk wasn’t the type to be afraid of pain. He’d endured the pain of being stabbed with a knife and having his organs melt away, so doing this for nearly an hour just to receive a man’s cock without pain was more arduous.
“I can’t. I don’t want to hurt you either, hyung.”
But Junseo was still firm.
When Junseo first indicated he wanted to do it, Dohyuk, who had been flustered wondering ‘why me?’, soon nodded his head complacently. Since the relationship between men would burden the receiving party anyway, if Junseo was okay with it, this side seemed better too.
“I don’t think it’ll hurt now…”
…meaning he hadn’t imagined it would be this maddeningly embarrassing.
Only when Junseo spread his legs wide did Dohyuk finally realize that ‘this kind of sex’ wouldn’t be as easy as he’d thought. It was awkward having to spread his legs wide enough that his thighs ached. The sensation of the gel they’d used to heighten arousal by spreading it on each other’s genitals now dripping down the crack of his ass was equally strange.
Moreover, this position too—Junseo kept staring intently at Dohyuk’s expression, so unable to bear it any longer, Dohyuk had half-begged to get on his stomach. Since he couldn’t see Junseo’s face, which he usually wanted to look at all the time, the feeling of wanting to bury his head and die improved a little. With the mindset of self-harm, Dohyuk rubbed his face firmly into the pillow and groaned again.
“Men can feel it from behind too, so I need to find that spot well so it won’t hurt.”
“No, that kind of thing… probably doesn’t exist for me… so just give up…”
But Junseo still didn’t give up and pushed another finger into Dohyuk’s hole. With his knuckles pressed deep enough to rub against the entrance, every time he stirred inside, squelching sounds rang chaotically through the quiet room. Dohyuk pointlessly tossed and turned and scratched at the sheets, trying hard to hide the sloshing water sounds.
“Yours seems to be deep inside, hyung. I think I can’t find it because I’m still clumsy.”
Men feeling it from behind. It seemed like Junseo had watched porn somewhere and developed the wrong sexual ideas. Wasn’t penetrative sex an act aimed at mental satisfaction? The inserting party might feel good since their erogenous zone is stimulated, but the receiving party would only feel burdened. The reason Dohyuk had avoided penetrative sex with Junseo also stemmed from such thoughts, so honestly, he didn’t understand Junseo’s current behavior of constantly digging into Dohyuk.
“Ngh… it’s fine, so, uk… later, let’s find it later… Now, stop and… put it in, please…”
When Dohyuk urged in a dampened voice, Junseo, finally unable to endure, let out a breath.
I’ll do better next time. As Junseo whispered in a sunken voice, he rubbed his cock against Dohyuk’s firmly tensed thighs. It was like blatant territorial marking that only a beast would do, and when his dick was rubbed even between the back of the knees that were half-bent from raising his ass, it was just bewildering that Yu Junseo was doing such a thing to him—unbelievable.
It was when Dohyuk glanced back at Junseo as if to confirm.
The fingers that had filled his hole slowly withdrew. The moment he buried his face in the pillow again in surprise, a cock incomparably thicker than the fingers that had been stirring inside entered slowly.
“…Heuk.”
“Does it… hurt a lot…?”
“No, …I’m, I’m fine…”
It hurt, but it was bearable. Dohyuk endured the pain by swallowing his moans, as he always had.
However, enduring the embarrassment was difficult. The sensation of forcibly spreading the inner walls and carving a path was bewilderingly disconcerting. He could feel in detail even the process of the inside slowly opening and clinging along the contours of Junseo’s cock. Dohyuk endured that strange sensation by chewing on his lips.
“Heu, ah, aah…”
Junseo, who had been watching Dohyuk’s lower back tremble entirely, pressed his upper body against him. Their sweat-soaked bodies were slippery.
“Haa… Can I see your face… while we do this…?”
“…No… you can’t…”
“I want to see it… Hyung, heu… do you not want to look at me…?”
Junseo coaxed, kissing Dohyuk’s exposed ear with smacking sounds. Endless cute skinship that was hard to think of as coming from someone who had inserted himself enough to spread the hole taut continued.
It was when Dohyuk, who couldn’t bear to face Junseo in this state in this situation, shifted his body slightly to turn his head the other way.
“Heu, aaht…!”
As the cock firmly filling his insides pressed at an angle and rubbed somewhere, his toes curled involuntarily as if reacting to pain. Just as the startled Dohyuk was about to pull away, Junseo stirred the same spot again.
“Heu, uk, this, wait…!”
At the sensation of his vision turning white and blurring, Dohyuk hurriedly lowered his raised lower body and tried to escape. Stretching both arms forward and mercilessly gripping the bedding, as Dohyuk moved, the cock that had slipped out plunged back in all the way to the end with a sliding motion.
His vision blurred, cleared, and blurred again. It was because of tears he hadn’t shed even when in pain. Moans leaked like saliva from his mouth that had opened on its own.
Soon the cock that had been arbitrarily pounding deep inside and making its own path slid out. As the winding inner walls were mercilessly scraped by the prominently bulging glans ridge, it felt like his insides were melting. As he moaned thinly at the sharp sensation, Junseo turned Dohyuk onto his back. Dohyuk, who was busy getting hit repeatedly by sensations he’d never experienced in his life, couldn’t stop Junseo.
“…Don’t, right now I… don’t look.”
Dohyuk whispered with difficulty, his face flushed red. When he covered with the back of his hand his face that was obviously a mess from tears and saliva, Junseo rubbed his lips against Dohyuk’s exposed palm.
“Hyuung… don’t cover it…”
When there was no response even after he lowered his lips to the tip of the chin with a smack and whispered, Junseo, who laughed softly, hooked Dohyuk’s legs over his arms. Just as the startled Dohyuk tried to raise his upper body at the position that lifted his ass and spread his legs blatantly, penetration began again.
“Hk!”
Though the position had merely changed and it was clearly the same cock he’d received just before, it felt like returning to the beginning. The stiff muscles spread apart and the inner walls were newly crushed.
“Don’t cover it… haa… look at me…”
As Junseo thrust in with each knock, knock, Dohyuk bit his lips while looking at his own knees that kept approaching and were now right in front of his nose. Since he’d never imagined there’d be a day he’d be in such a position, his shame reached its peak. Moreover, now every time he was penetrated, his vision kept flashing brightly. When the hard cock spread the inner walls and entered, brushing somewhere, his head tilted back on its own and fluids leaked steadily. It was like a terrible nightmare that he was showing such a pathetic state in front of Junseo.
“Ah, uk! Wait, …Jun, seo, I, right now…”
“Haa… Just now, did it hurt…?”
As Junseo leaned his face close trying to examine his expression, he put more strength into the hand covering his face. He’d rather it hurt. Then it wouldn’t be as troublesome as now.
“It’s fine so, ah, hurt me… It’s strange… just, I wish you’d hurt me…”
The moment he pleaded with such thoughts, Junseo thrust his cock in forcefully. Dohyuk could also feel the inner walls that had been stirred arbitrarily for a long time twitch and cling as if welcoming the entering cock. It felt like his body had changed strangely. Even without applying force, as the cock entered, it tightened and loosened on its own, spreading wetly and slickly in an unbelievable manner.
