Thud!
“Ah!”
Hongdan rammed straight into Seonha’s shoulder. Even after headbutting him like an angry rhinoceros, his anger didn’t subside, so he kept breathing heavily.
What the hell does he think I am, fuck.
“Forget it all, you bastard.”
Less than 30 seconds after sitting down with their butts touching, Hongdan stood up. While vowing in his heart that he would never commit such crazy acts again.
Only then did Seonha hurriedly hug Hongdan’s waist and sit him in his embrace. Then he rubbed his nose bridge against the nape exposed above the knit, personally showing what true aegyo was.
“I’m sorryyy— I was joking.”
Well, is he more natural than me?
Hongdan quickly acknowledged his own immaturity. When someone creaked their whole body while declaring they’d sit next to him, honestly it was reasonable to suspect there were other intentions.
……But still, when someone gathers their courage, shouldn’t you just accept it without complications?
Hongdan grumbled for no reason at the shame that came belatedly.
“Bullshit. I know your lying face. You were 100% serious.”
“You know my expressions, Hongdan?”
Seonha stopped headbutting and stuck his face right out. It seemed he wanted to make eye contact.
Hongdan turned his head away in the opposite direction. The distance was close enough that their lips would touch if he looked that way even a little, so it was a bit embarrassing. Even though they were in a relationship that had been pressed belly to belly all last night, the variable called rut that had led them to bed was already resolved.
“Yeah. For you, it’s only been a few months since losing your memories, but I’ve seen you for eleven years, so why wouldn’t I know?”
“……You probably don’t. You don’t know.”
If not for Seonha’s strange reply, he probably would have kept doing that until he let him go.
“What are you talking about?”
Hongdan had already forgotten the possibility of an unfortunate contact accident and turned his head toward where Seonha’s voice rang out. But he had already pulled his face back and was only burying his nose like before. In that state, he chuckled softly and muttered.
“Hongdan doesn’t know anything. That’s why you’re cute.”
The laughter that settled on his nape and the pleasantly languid voice were both too ticklish.
Hongdan flinched his shoulders. In the end, he didn’t get a proper answer from Seonha, but he didn’t have the presence of mind to ask again because of his naturally heightened senses.
“From now on too, like this……”
“Heu……”
“……Hm?”
Damn.
He tried desperately gritting his teeth, but in the end couldn’t hold back the moan.
He felt Seonha roll his forehead along his shoulder blade. Hongdan pondered which would be the less death-wish-inducing path: escaping Seonha’s embrace and running away right now, or knocking him down as if it were intentional all along.
At that moment, Seonha’s hand that had been wrapped around Hongdan’s waist moved stealthily.
“Hongdan, you……”
The farter gets angry, they say—Hongdan could have gotten by half-way if he’d just stayed still, but he went ahead and yelled.
“I’m not hard!”
“……I was going to ask if sitting like this was uncomfortable for you.”
Ah, as expected, it seems best to just jump off as quickly as possible.
“Uh, uh, Hongdan?”
Hongdan, having made up his mind, kicked off from his seat and stood up. Then he immediately reached toward the large window to dash outside. But no matter how high-class a private cafe, they must have feared winter heating costs, as the window was firmly locked.
“Fuuuck……”
In the meantime, Seonha was standing right behind Hongdan. He slowly bent his waist and whispered playfully into his reddened ear.
“This morning you were shocked just at the mention of the ‘s’ in sex.”
But Hongdan’s insides were as narrow as this space.
“And the way you kept asking about first experiences earlier…… do you want to do more with me by any chance?”
Therefore, the conclusion was obvious too.
Seonha should have protected his own thing instead of reaching toward Hongdan’s crotch.
SMACK—!
“Ack! Ah, wait a minute. Ah! Ah!”
***
“Hey, are you still not over being mad?”
“……”
Though already eight hours had passed since Hongdan stomped on Seonha’s masculinity, Seonha’s mouth was still firmly shut.
“Mm……”
This was troublesome.
Though he’d occasionally seen him angry because of himself, this was the first time in their eleven years together that he’d stuck out his lips for over half a day. Even so, Hongdan was certain that Seonha right now wasn’t angry but simply sulking at him.
There was a reason he had to think that.
“Then will you sleep in your room too?”
“……”
It was because of Yeon Seonha, who had once again clung to him like an old dead tree.
Rather, he burrowed deeper into his embrace in case he’d get kicked out if his mood twisted. Hongdan felt like he was lying down with a 200kg weight hanging from his side.
How should I soothe him this time…… Whether the relationship with Seonha was in a good state or bad state, there was no time for his sighs to dry.
No, Hongdan felt wronged too, deep down.
Wasn’t it the guy who attempted harassment in a public place in the first place? The soccer kick he delivered was at a level that could sufficiently be understood as self-defense.
……Probably.
Hongdan stared down at the dense crown of the head wedged under his armpit. His excessive temperament was saying to shave off that proud thicket, but just this once he decided to side with reason.
Hongdan wriggled his body and turned to lie on his side. Then he gently stroked Seonha’s hair.
“I’m sorry. I did that because I was embarrassed about misunderstanding on my own.”
Seonha, who seemed like he’d only be sniffing body odor the whole time, finally glanced up.
Hongdan gave a smile as warm as his touch, as if he’d been waiting. Probably that stubborn guy would recognize his expression even in this pitch-black darkness.
“I won’t kick you out, so can’t you come up a little? It’s uncomfortable because you’re hanging on too much.”
Seonha didn’t avoid his face like before, but didn’t open his stubbornly closed mouth either. He was still only blinking his eyes. It seemed he definitely had clear expectations.
Hongdan finally spread both arms.
“I…… would also like someone to hug me.”
“Okay.”
Seonha, who had been lying below with his long legs sticking out pointedly, came up to Hongdan’s eye level in one breath.
“Kek!”
It was a rough embrace that momentarily took his breath away. But the pressure didn’t last that long. After staying like that for about 5 minutes, having apparently judged that he’d imprinted enough of his warmth, he loosened just enough that breathing wasn’t difficult. Then, as if holding a truly precious treasure, he gently stroked Hongdan’s lower back.
‘You only get hugged at times like this.’
‘Nnng, anyway it’s nice. Touch me more.’
‘……Really, you.’
It was a touch that made him recall old nights.
‘I keep telling you to dress warmly. Your body is cold.’
‘Shut up.’
‘I should change to a thicker blanket at least. Just stay like this today.’
‘Will you touch me all night?’
‘Of course. A husband has to protect his wifey’s health.’
It was also the only embrace he’d ever had.
Was that why?
“……I’m sleepy.”
Hongdan quickly became drowsy.
But not wanting to fall asleep like this, he struggled to push up his closing eyelids.
In its own way, today was an important day. The upheaval in his relationship with Seonha had been just last night’s event. Even so, he was busy bickering as usual but regretted that they hadn’t had the conversation they really needed to have. Even just 10 minutes would be good—Hongdan wanted to talk about each other.
Not just the common model answers. Honestly, which parts of me do you like? When did you become certain of those feelings? Conversely, do you know the depth of my feelings for you? These were also things he hadn’t been able to ask on that day four years ago, on his twenty-fourth birthday.
Of course, he was also curious about the current Seonha.
‘When the promised 3 months pass, you……’
Perhaps this was the question he most wanted to hear the answer to.
‘What do you want to do with me?’
“Nnm……”
Against his will, his body kept going limp. As if Seonha also planned to put him to sleep obediently just for today, a soft sensation briefly brushed past his forehead.
“Sleep. You have to go to work tomorrow too.”
“That’s why we won’t have leisure like today……”
With regret, Hongdan rubbed his bangs on Seonha’s shoulder just as he had done. It was a childish whining he wouldn’t do in his right mind. But Seonha would comfort him without any reproach. He now had that certainty.
“Instead, you can talk lots about what you want to say all weekend.”
As expected.
An unavoidable smile gradually seeped out. Only then did Hongdan declare surrender to his eyelids. He moved his fingers bit by bit to hug the firm waist in front of him in return, and caught his slow breath.
Seonha also seemed to have released his pheromones to match. Thanks to that, his mood became hazy as if lying on clouds. White paint was quickly layered over the various worries that had filled his head. But even amidst that, there was one word that wasn’t easily covered.
It was something he’d never once said out loud.
I like you.
“Hm? What did you say?”
I like you. I like Yeon Seonha.
“……”
I like you, Seonha.
“……I love you too, Choi Hongdan.”
