* * *
At 9 PM, Jeong Minha knocked on Seo Sihan’s door wearing pajamas.
“Hyung, hyung!”
At Jeong Minha’s call, Seo Sihan immediately opened the door.
“Minha-ya? Is something wrong?”
Jeong Minha looked at Seo Sihan’s bed. Seo Sihan was also wearing pajamas, but seeing the tablet and documents on the bed, it seemed he’d been working the whole time.
“……”
Seeing that Seo Sihan looked busy, Jeong Minha calmed himself down again. Right, hyung is busy so that must be why….
As Jeong Minha just stood there silently after calling for Seo Sihan, Seo Sihan bent down to meet Jeong Minha’s gaze.
“Huh…!”
At the face that came close, Jeong Minha inhaled sharply. Seo Sihan just looked at Jeong Minha silently like that and smiled.
‘…Ah, I can’t hold back!’
Facing that gently smiling pretty face, Jeong Minha ultimately couldn’t resist and grabbed Seo Sihan’s shoulders, briefly pressing his lips to his cheek before pulling away.
“……!”
At the sudden kiss attack, Seo Sihan looked at Jeong Minha with surprised eyes.
“Minha-ya, by any chance….”
“I didn’t drink.”
This time I’m sober! After being the first to initiate a cheek kiss, Jeong Minha turned his head away in embarrassment.
“Hyung…. We are dating, right?”
“Yeah….”
At Jeong Minha’s question, Seo Sihan answered with an overwhelmed expression and an eye smile. Seeing that face, it definitely didn’t seem like he was forced into dating.
“But why aren’t you doing anything?”
“…Huh?”
“S-skinship and stuff… I mean.”
“……”
“…Do you not want to do that kind of thing? What’s it called, platonic love? Something like that? If that’s what you want, hyung, I can also….”
As Jeong Minha turned his head awkwardly, Seo Sihan immediately gently held one of Jeong Minha’s cheeks and met his gaze.
“Can I?”
“Wh, wha? Huh? Wh-what?!”
When was he grumbling about why he wasn’t doing anything, but now that Seo Sihan was actually approaching, Jeong Minha became greatly flustered. Seo Sihan looked only at Jeong Minha’s lips with a face devoid of any smile. Following that gaze, Jeong Minha squeezed his eyes shut.
Soon warm lips touched his mouth.
Jeong Minha, whose thoughts stopped for a moment, immediately lost strength in his legs. However, as if having predicted it all, Seo Sihan’s hand supported and held up his waist.
Jeong Minha held his breath. Wh-when does this end?! With their lips continuously touching, Jeong Minha kept his eyes closed and held his breath.
But suddenly he felt something different. This isn’t just lips, this is……!
“U-uwaah!”
Jeong Minha immediately pushed Seo Sihan away. Normally Seo Sihan would have fallen over from the sudden force, but this time he endured. However, the flustered Jeong Minha’s arm strength was definitely strong, so he stepped back slightly while looking at Jeong Minha.
His face turned into a tomato, Jeong Minha asked with his voice even cracking.
“What did you just doooo…?!”
“…I was trying to kiss you.”
“What?!”
As Jeong Minha froze with a surprised face, Seo Sihan only let out an awkward laugh.
“See…. As I thought, it still seems difficult for Minha….”
“…Huh?”
Is he teasing me right now? I had a girlfriend too, you know? …Of course I never did this kind of thing!
His pride wounded, Jeong Minha approached Seo Sihan and grabbed his collar.
“Do it again!”
“Mmm….”
Two seconds after starting a real kiss after that, Jeong Minha pushed Seo Sihan away again and ran to his room.
* * *
“Me… because of me… I was the problem……”
Jeong Minha flopped onto the bed in shock. So all this time when he wondered why hyung didn’t approach first, it was all for my sake? He felt good about the newly discovered fact but also pissed off.
‘He’s done it all before, that’s what this is….’
Jeong Minha, who suddenly started feeling betrayed, picked up his phone.
‘I will definitely lead magnificently….’
He opened the search window to study, but a new problem arose.
‘…But how do guys do it with each other?’
In the end, Jeong Minha stayed up all night that day.
It was because he was even more shocked from trying to substitute himself and Seo Sihan into the shocking search results.
Jeong Minha seriously pondered for several days.
Would he really go all the way with Seo Sihan? If so, what would the positions be? …Having thought this far, Jeong Minha kicked at the blankets in embarrassment for no reason.
‘Crazy! What kind of ridiculous imagination am I having with hyung again…! …Oh right, I’m dating hyung now? Whoa…. Then is it okay to imagine it?’
Jeong Minha recalled the related reviews he’d seen.
‘That… the person receiving is supposed to hurt a lot….’
Honestly, if they did it, he naturally wanted to be the one putting it in. Of course, he thought that was natural since he was born a man. He’d never even imagined someone putting it in him. He didn’t really want to know what that felt like either.
Jeong Minha tried to recall the people he saw in the videos. Does that really feel good? Aren’t they just acting even though it hurts?
“……”
Jeong Minha didn’t want to hurt Seo Sihan. He didn’t want to make him suffer either. He didn’t want to make things hard for someone who already seemed to have weaker stamina than him and only worked all day.
And he liked Seo Sihan that much. He wanted to make hyung feel good.
‘Whatever, I’ll just do it for him.’
Cool-headed Jeong Minha resolved his worries nonchalantly.
* * *
Several days later, having finished his preparations, Jeong Minha knocked on Seo Sihan’s door with a determined expression.
Similarly at 9 PM, in his pajamas.
“Hyung!”
“Yeah?”
Seo Sihan, who had gotten used to Jeong Minha’s random door knocking, slowly opened the door.
Jeong Minha looked at Seo Sihan’s bed. Like last time, documents were laid out again. Seeing that, he hesitated for a moment before asking.
“Hyung, are you busy?”
“It’s fine. Why?”
“It’ll take a while. Is the time really okay?”
“Mm…. I could do it tomorrow too….”
“Then I’m coming in.”
“Huh…?”
Jeong Minha walked step by step to Seo Sihan’s bed, then carefully moved the documents on the bed to the desk. And he lay down on the empty bed in their place.
Seeing Jeong Minha sprawled out spread-eagle, Seo Sihan was flustered.
“Um… why…? Do you want to sleep together?”
“That’s good too, but….”
It was good that he’d come this far after making up his mind, but his mouth wouldn’t open to actually say he wanted to get physical with hyung.
But because Seo Sihan just kept standing there blankly, he eventually got up again. Then he pulled Seo Sihan’s arm, dragged him over, and laid him down on the bed.
“…Minha-ya?”
He leaned over the lying Seo Sihan and met his gaze.
Soon he pressed his own mouth to Seo Sihan’s.
“……!”
Unlike Seo Sihan who expressed himself honestly with words rather than actions, for Jeong Minha who found words more embarrassing, it was easier to do it with actions instead.
As Jeong Minha just lifted his head silently like that while trying his best not to avoid his gaze and looked at him, Seo Sihan immediately understood the meaning. Still, he asked again to confirm.
“Minha, by any chance……”
“I didn’t drink! I’m sober!”
At the irritated voice, Seo Sihan burst out laughing. At the same time, seeing Jeong Minha’s face looking down at him from above, his heart started beating fast.
Seo Sihan held back as much as possible and asked again.
“Can I kiss you today?”
“…I came here to do more than that.”
“…Really?”
“Ye…es?!”
While Jeong Minha was answering, Seo Sihan grabbed Jeong Minha’s shoulders, pulled him down, and kissed him again.
He immediately pushed his tongue in too, and surprised, Jeong Minha put strength in his arms and tried to get up again. However, because Seo Sihan was stroking and pulling him by his back and nape, he couldn’t get up.
“U, ugh…, ha, ngh…!”
Because of the tongue gradually entering deeper, eventually even the strength in the arms he was supporting himself with gave out. As soon as he collapsed onto Seo Sihan like that, Seo Sihan grabbed Jeong Minha’s body and twisted him around the other way to lay him down.
In a single moment, he found himself laid down on the bed with Seo Sihan looking down at him from above, and Jeong Minha blinked his surprised eyes and couldn’t close his mouth.
“…Minha, you stay lying down. I’ll do everything.”
Th-this isn’t how it’s supposed to be?!
