He gave instructions while walking without hesitation.
“Send up the entire secretary office. And connect me with Baek Ilguk and Alejandro too. The plan is scrapped.”
“That means…”
“Someone’s set the table for me, so I don’t even need a plan.”
His navy blue eyes blazed with light.
“That bastard Gunho. Looks like I’ll be meeting him sooner than I thought?”
Baek Ildo couldn’t contain his amusement and let out a chuckle.
“I can clearly picture his disgusted face.”
* * *
I felt a chill.
“What is this…?”
Spring was already ending and summer was right around the corner.
The weather was warm, even somewhat muggy, yet for some reason I got goosebumps.
‘Is it because the bathroom air is cold?’
I rubbed my forearms and took off my shirt.
Just then, my phone screen that I’d placed nearby lit up and switched to the message screen.
[Lee Yeongwoo: Gunho-ya…!
I checked the hotel and time
(dog character emoticon giving a thumbs up)]
Above Lee Yeongwoo’s message was written the hotel and room number Cha Narin had shared.
Baekil Hotel. Room 2203.
For Cha Narin, she’d made a big decision and chosen a nice hotel, but of all things, it was that damned Baekil again.
‘Wasn’t that bastard Baek Jeongwoo living here?’
I wanted to cancel and move to another place, but Cha Narin continued to send endless calls and messages afterward to convey her apologies.
I felt bad ignoring the sincerity of her pleading, ‘I’ll pay for the hotel so please enjoy it to the fullest! That’s the only way I can feel at ease, please!’
Looking at the cute brown dog emoticon with perked ears naturally brought Lee Yeongwoo’s voice to mind.
‘Partner…?’
A while ago.
The trembling voice heard through the receiver soon changed brightly.
‘Th-that’s totally fine! Just trust me, Gunho-ya!’
Could helping a friend make him that happy?
Or was he pretending for my sake?
“Yeongwoo… Is it really okay?”
I felt sorry for asking Yeongwoo for help again, but Cha Narin was the only female omega acquaintance close to Haram.
I didn’t have many options left.
- Sleep with a male omega acquaintance of Haram’s.
- Anyway, find any other female omega, explain the whole situation well, get mutual consent, and sleep together.
Number 1 feels repulsive, and number 2 has no guarantee.
Realistically, I have no choice but to choose number 1 anyway.
In that case…
- Trust Lee Yeongwoo.
Wouldn’t an experienced dominant omega friend be better?
“…Is this right?”
Honestly, I don’t know.
But even if I don’t know, what can I do about it?
The scheduled date is approaching anyway, and if I can’t avoid it, I have no choice but to make the best decision.
I moved my fingers diligently and tapped on my phone.
[Me: It must have been awkward but thank you so much for readily accepting
It’s a bit embarrassing to say, but I’ve never… done it with a guy
Since you said you have a lot of experience, I’m relying on you, Yeongwoo-ya]
A ‘read’ mark appeared next to the message right away.
But no reply came.
“Did I unnecessarily burden him?”
In the end, I contacted Lee Yeongwoo, and Lee Yeongwoo readily accepted.
It was already done—worrying more would just be a waste of time.
“Let’s just hurry and wash up…”
After muttering to myself like a lament, I roughly threw my removed clothes into the basket.
My gaze naturally went to my reflection in the mirror.
Thanks to exercising regularly, my body was firm without excess fat.
Maybe because I’m an alpha, my muscles stayed maintained just by eating and breathing.
‘This is convenient. Being an alpha.’
Though the rut cycle is not convenient at all.
When I operated the faucet, water adjusted to a warm temperature poured out from the shower head.
Watching the strong stream of water, I went over next week’s schedule.
‘First… I got a copy of Haram’s part-time contract and sent it to a lawyer, so when I have time now I’ll prepare moderately for finals. Next week, I’ll stop by Baekil Enter to properly talk to that Department Manager Park bastard, then go to the hotel and meet Yeongwoo.’
It seemed like a lot to do, but organizing it like this, it also seemed like nothing much.
‘No. I won’t let my guard down this time.’
I absolutely won’t be optimistic like at the party. If I think lightly again after getting badly burned, that’s a goldfish brain.
While making that resolution, I swept back my wet hair.
‘But… what else should I prepare?’
A 1L high-capacity package of pheromone deodorizer?
But Baekil Enter is an ordinary corporation.
Unlike at the party, there won’t be any chance of being influenced by suggestive pheromones, right?
‘There are no signs of rut that Haram mentioned at all either.’
According to my doctor and Cha Narin, they only said there was a high probability rut would come, not that it would definitely come. Perhaps contrary to worry, unexpectedly rut might not come.
Then wouldn’t the funny situation of just doing a hotel vacation with Lee Yeongwoo occur?
‘All that tension for nothing.’
…That’s when I was giggling with idle thoughts.
“Hm?”
Something, there was a change in the sensation of the water stream touching my skin.
Water droplets were splashing on a private area that was difficult for the water spraying from the shower head to reach.
There had been no warning signs.
“What.”
My jaw dropped in bewilderment.
“N-no way…”
…It was erect.
Again.
Down there.
“Why?”
I hadn’t had any lewd thoughts, nor given it any particular stimulation, so really, why?
My head was full of question marks, but the answer came quickly.
‘Are there any signs of rut?’
‘Like, you know, feeling itchy, and constantly wanting to… to do it! Stop making me say these things with my own mouth! It’s embarrassing!’
Only now did I notice the pheromones rising around me.
This is, that from back then…
Sexy pheromone.
I wasn’t overly exposed to pheromones and intoxicated, I’d been spending an ordinary day just moments ago.
Yet I was emitting this kind of pheromone by myself. Me.
Of course, I don’t know how to stop it.
“Ha…”
Since I opened my eyes in ‘Baek Gunho’s’ body around age 5, I’d seen my thing countless times.
But this was the first time seeing it ‘erect’ raw like this.
I was shocked watching the thing gradually increase in volume without me doing anything.
‘Why, why is it so big. This thing?’
When I had a pheromone outburst alone recently, I vaguely felt it was big through my pants…
But I didn’t know it would be this aggressive.
‘Is it crazy?’
Compared to when I was in my prime health in my previous life… no, it’s embarrassing to even compare.
If this size is already no joke, and if regular alphas are this much, then what the hell are dominant or hyperdominant bastards?
Do omegas who readily have sex with this size even exist?
‘…Can Yeongwoo, with that small body, handle it?’
It was the moment I was having vulgar imaginings I could never normally have.
“Ugh…!”
I immediately shut off the faucet.
I couldn’t stand it as an increasingly suggestive sensation spread from the center that had been continuously hit by the water stream.
…The urge to directly touch it, that is.
“Fuck…”
The lump of flesh twitching by itself was disgusting.
Looking at the particularly wet and glistening tip, it was precome, not tap water.
Even without touching it, it was clearly aroused as if it would ejaculate soon.
As I kept staring down, impure thoughts poured down like a collapsed dam.
…It’s itchy.
It’s stiff.
It hurts.
I want to touch it.
I want to get it off.
Grab anyone.
Thrust, shake, bite…
I want to cum.
“Kugh!”
Thwack!
I slammed my head hard against the tile wall.
“Get, a grip…!”
I never thought I’d be consumed by such beastly thoughts.
I tried to separate reason from the body that twitched of its own accord.
But it wasn’t easy.
‘So that’s why you had no sense of crisis. Haah, you haven’t experienced rut before so that’s why…’
Is this that… the ‘feeling of crazily wanting to do it’ that Haram mentioned?
Quickly a feeling of heat rose and my body grew hot, and my genitals turned red as if about to explode.
Blood rushed there and I could feel the pulse beating along the veins.
“Haa…”
Clearly, just a finger’s touch would feel insanely good.
Memories from my previous life of solving it with my hands passed by on their own.
I wanted to rub it frantically there, somehow.
But… I have to endure.
I can’t vulgarly surrender my body to instinct like this…!
‘Wait, why do I have to endure?’
My head cleared as if cold water had been poured over me.
I recalled the last time, when I first got an erection in this body.
Back then, I couldn’t move well due to pheromone outburst, and it was in front of Baek Seolheon so I couldn’t think of it.
After that, when I was with Lee Yeongwoo in LK Hotel’s suite room, given the situation I suppressed and endured it as much as possible.
And that… in the dream when I was forcibly soaked in pheromones by an unknown alpha, I couldn’t do it because my limbs were bound.
But now is different.
The place is my house, my room’s bathroom.
Without my roommate younger brother, only me alone.
‘He’s been coming back after 10, 11 o’clock these days…’
The only psychological hurdle holding me back is the awkwardness from not masturbating for nearly 20 years including my previous life,
And the repulsion and disgust toward the alpha body, pheromones, and rut cycle—that’s all.
Is denying the identity of being an alpha at this point really right?
Rather, isn’t enduring like this being more swayed by this crazy world?
“……”
After arbitrarily finishing rationalization with absurd logic, I slowly raised my right hand.
A place I consciously never touched except when relieving myself.
Toward that place, drip, drip, the fingertips with water droplets flowing down…
“Ugh!”
Touched it.
