“Order!”
I shouted at Deus, who was resting his chin on my shoulder while staring intently at my reaction. Perhaps because I shouted using abdominal breathing, even the great Deus flinched for just a brief moment. I continued speaking as calmly as possible.
“Deus, there’s supposed to be an order to everything. Seeds must be planted for flowers to bloom, and bees must fly over and land for pollen to scatter. This kind of act is no different.”
“……”
“Here, you shouldn’t do this kind of thing unless it’s with someone you love. You can’t just do whatever you want.”
From what I’d observed so far, to Deus, other people were nothing more and nothing less than toys to keep him from getting bored. It was because he didn’t know how to empathize.
Whether someone was in pain, struggling, or suffering, Deus couldn’t empathize at all, which made him most dangerous. So right now, I had to teach a beast why it shouldn’t bite people.
‘I can’t show fear. The moment I show fear, I’ll be looked down on. Beastmen are half-beast in the end. They’re uncannily good at recognizing who’s prey.’
Sweat ran down the nape of my neck from tension. The killing intent I felt from behind was familiar. It was the killing intent I’d felt from the black tiger I’d encountered in the basement. Just as I was barely pulling myself together, an unexpectedly amused voice pierced my ears.
“You know, my sense of smell is incredibly good.”
“……”
“Did you know that fear has a scent too?”
The hand that had slipped inside my clothes scratched the tip of my nipple. At the unfamiliar sensation, I let out a “ngh” sound and straightened my back, and Deus pressed his lips to the nape of my neck as if he’d been waiting for it.
“I don’t know why, but I’ve loved that scent since I was born. Fear is special, isn’t it? It’s chaotic, irrational, and selfish in some ways. But……”
Goosebumps rose at the sound of him burying his face in my neck and taking a deep breath.
Deus spread his large hand and pressed his palm to the center of my chest. I could feel my heart, racing fast from being consumed by fear, being transmitted through Deus’s palm. Deus, who gripped my chest tightly as if clutching my heart, whispered in a voice that seemed to feel ecstasy.
“Right now, you smell incredibly arousing.”
At the same time as I felt intense pain from the nape of my neck, something like an unidentifiable droplet fell onto the sofa with a plop. The moment I realized it was a drop of blood, an intense fear I’d never felt before swept over me.
Although I’d been confined, kidnapped, and almost assaulted before, this was the first time I’d been directly attacked, so my body froze even more.
Deus, who briefly kissed the cheek of me who was trembling without even being able to scream, grabbed my waistband and pulled it down. A voice that didn’t feel even a shred of guilt pierced my ears.
“Sorry I can’t behave properly.”
“Are you really sorry?”
“No, actually I’m not sorry at all, which makes me more sorry.”
Deus gently stroked the nape of my neck where he had bitten. Thinking about it, he seemed to have bitten roughly the same area that Kiss had bitten.
It’s not like he’s hitting the same spot twice, so why are these half-brothers taking turns being desperate to devour me? Just as I was about to get angry, my gaze met Deus’s hands as he turned my body around with a swish. Unlike me who was agitated, Deus continued speaking with an extremely calm expression.
“You said you needed my help, right? Good, I have a condition too.”
Deus’s face, devoid of playfulness or laughter, wasn’t just handsome but gave off a somewhat chilling feeling. The sentence Kiss had used to describe Deus in the original work came to mind again.
[Deus doesn’t want anything. He doesn’t hate anything. He can’t feel human emotions about anything. He doesn’t belong to any group, nor is he bound by any ideology.]
Kiss had definitely said that. The reason you can’t make a deal with Deus is because Deus doesn’t desire anything. All Deus desires is chaos.
If Deus had continued to remain in the Void as in the original work, that might have been true. But the current Deus was clearly different from the original. There was clearly something he wanted. I felt his thumb gently rubbing the nape of my neck that he had bitten.
“I don’t care at all whether you love Kiss, or want to fuck him.”
“……”
“But don’t reject me. No matter what happens.”
The problem was that it was me.
The fact that Deus had come to the negotiating table meant that I also couldn’t afford to act naive anymore. My most ultimate goal right now was survival. It was like sticking my head into a monster’s maw, but I didn’t have many options at the moment.
Anyway, the reason Deus liked me was obvious. It would be similar to the principle of a newly hatched bird recognizing the first being it meets as its mother. So I just needed to play along until Deus’s interest faded and use Deus.
“Have you ever kissed?”
I asked the question in a deflated voice. Deus, who hesitated for a moment, tilted his head crookedly.
“I hate kissing. I don’t even know what the purpose is.”
It was a strangely barbed comment. I looked up at the ceiling with an expression of being bored to death.
“I told you, there’s an order to everything.”
“……”
“Normal lovers kiss even when they don’t feel pleasure. Why do you think they do such a thing?”
I maintained as friendly an attitude as possible, feeling like I was explaining to an elementary school student why water boils at 100 degrees. Deus, who had been staring down at me, answered as if it were obvious.
“To bite each other’s tongues and establish dominance in the relationship.”
“……”
This bastard, is he confusing enemies with lovers?
I gestured for Deus, who had no clue at all, to lower himself a bit. Then I cupped the cheeks of Deus, who obediently lowered himself, and briefly kissed him before pulling away. I continued speaking to the hesitating Deus.
“Because society agreed to it that way. When expressing affection to someone you love, you kiss them, like this. If you skip that agreement and act however you please, no one will like it.”
“……”
“Do you understand what I mean?”
After finishing speaking, I lightly tapped Deus’s cheek with the back of my hand. Deus, who had been silent as if thinking about something, kissed me. At the subtly different atmosphere from when he had just pushed ahead before, I involuntarily sucked in a breath.
The tongue that naturally slipped between my lips tickled the roof of my mouth. Even while kissing stickily, the sensual touch massaging the nape of my neck made me unconsciously let out a moan.
“Ungh……”
When I tried to turn my head from lack of breath, strength filled the hand that had been massaging my neck. Unlike my body which had a high base temperature, Deus’s hand was cold, making me feel even more chilled.
When I arched my back at the feeling of my lower belly tightening, a savage gleam crossed Deus’s eyes which had been unfocused and empty all along.
“Agreement is certainly important. But you know.”
The thumb that had been gently caressing the bitten nape of my neck soon pressed hard near my windpipe. At the sudden feeling of my breath being cut off, my mouth opened involuntarily.
Deus, who laughed as if delighted, pressed his forehead against mine with insane eyes. My eyes widened at the massive member rubbing against my thigh.
“There are beings in the world who don’t need things like agreement.”
I dug my nails into the back of Deus’s hand that was choking my neck hard. Blood rushed to my face and strength left my body. The force choking my neck as if it would break my neck bone at any moment didn’t have any tenderness left in it.
Just as strength left my body and I was about to completely lose consciousness, Deus released my neck and hooked his arm under my knees as I was busy coughing.
“That’s your husband, Ash.”
My body slid down with a whoosh. Pleasant laughter accumulated near my ear as I exhaled roughly.
* * *
Perhaps because my neck had been choked, drowsiness suddenly rushed over me. It felt like my body, sensing a survival crisis, was forcibly flipping the switch off. Toward me in that state, Deus commanded in a sunken voice.
“Open your eyes. If you don’t open them, I’ll throw you as pig feed.”
I opened my eyes with difficulty as they kept trying to close. I saw his muscular body covered in deep scars and below that, his member hanging down to his thighs. The wild, unkempt pubic hair that looked like it hadn’t been groomed at all was a bonus.
The moment I saw that thing, which was closer to a horse’s member than a human’s, my hair stood on end. It wasn’t just any horse, but I couldn’t understand why Deus had something that would be attached to a breeding stallion.
After rubbing the tip of his member over my tightly closed hole for only a moment, I desperately pushed away with my palm the lower belly of Deus, who was trying to shove his member in without any foreplay.
“It’ll tear, it’ll tear……!”
“I’m putting it in so it’ll tear.”
To put it a bit crudely, that place was a cramped space that hadn’t even had a thumb enter it before. It would be fair to say it was the second narrowest space in my body after my nostrils.
I felt like crying at Deus’s mercilessness in trying to just shove that horse-cock-sized thing into such a place.
Deus, who held both my wrists that were pushing away his lower belly with one hand, forcibly pushed in the tip of his cock. With a thud, my tongue curled inward and my pupils half-rolled back.
