It was some dawn during his trainee days.
Do Yeonjae, who had become a first-year middle schooler, was rubbing his sleepy eyes as he headed to the dorm bathroom.
The midnight hallway was dark without a single light. But light was leaking out from between the slightly open bathroom door. Did someone forget to turn off the light? Just as he approached with curiosity, he faintly heard a strange sound.
‘Ha….’
‘Hngh… ah.’
What’s that sound?
Do Yeonjae blinked innocently and peered between the door, only to be startled.
Two trainee hyungs he knew well were standing close together, touching each other’s things. The hyung called an ace among the trainees… the hyung who cheerfully laughed every day asking Do Yeonjae if he had a good day at school and patted his head—that hyung’s hand was rapidly shaking two erect genitals.
‘Sehyun-ah… haah.’
‘Ngh, ah…!’
‘Hng, if you want to… go ahead.’
And the one trembling finely while covering his mouth with his hand… was a hyung who was a former child actor famous for being pretty.
The scene that followed, with thin moans and white fluid dripping down—that lighting, temperature, and humidity still remained preciously in a corner of Do Yeonjae’s mind. This is why you shouldn’t show harmful and stimulating content to minors.
At that time, Do Yeonjae stepped backward and thought this.
…So does that mean the hyungs are gay?
Gay. Homosexual. They were just people with different sexual orientations, but to a pubescent middle schooler, it didn’t feel that way. Do Yeonjae, who had been tight-lipped even when young, didn’t tell anyone about that fact, but he couldn’t help his heart pounding as if he’d learned the secret of the century…
However, not long after, there weren’t many occasions to face those hyungs. It was because the two debuted together in the same group, and middle schooler Do Yeonjae got nervous on his own every time he saw those hyungs on TV. He’d be startled every time they intimately put their arms around each other’s shoulders in videos.
Hyungs, really, what would they do if they got caught doing this?
After his head grew somewhat bigger, he realized it had all been pointless worrying.
Those hyungs probably just lightly relieved themselves between friends after sexual desire built up during their closed-off trainee life. His rough guess became even more certain after one of them officially acknowledged having a girlfriend.
It had ended as a small personal incident from his childhood, but now a similar situation had occurred… Moreover, he was the party involved this time.
Life really is unpredictable.
Hmm. Do Yeonjae lay sprawled on the floor, lost in thought. Everything was fine, but the problem was the location was somewhat inappropriate. Kang Ihyun’s playful face suddenly entered his field of vision that had been showing only the ceiling.
“Maknae, are you really tired?”
Huk—Yeonjae gasped and straightened his back.
“Is break time over?”
“Oh my, didn’t you notice? What were you thinking about so deeply?”
Checking the time, not only was it over but 5 more minutes had passed. He even just now realized that the dancer hyungs and members had been watching him while holding back laughter.
“Hyung, leave Yeonjae alone. He’s like that because of his hangover.”
Baek Sian threw out a joke from over there while giggling. Kang Ihyun placed his hands on his waist and deliberately used a stern voice.
“Right, I heard you drank at a friend’s house and stayed out overnight. You drank a lot the night before group practice?”
He did stay out overnight… Since he fell asleep right after that happened yesterday. He couldn’t resist the languid feeling, so… He thought he might have faintly heard Kwon Isoo’s extremely dumbfounded voice.
Although he’d told the hyungs he was going out to drink, he hadn’t anticipated staying overnight, so he had nothing to say even if he got scolded by his leader hyung. Do Yeonjae humbly answered while preparing to be scolded.
“Two glasses.”
“…Two glasses?”
“Yes.”
“Well, I can’t even scold you for this… How does your alcohol tolerance seem to have decreased? Here, take my hand.”
Kang Ihyun held out his hand with a deflated expression. Yeonjae, who stood up with his hyung’s help, awkwardly scratched the back of his neck.
When Do Yeonjae opened his eyes in the morning, before he could even be surprised at his alcohol garbage capacity, he realized he was on Kwon Isoo’s bed.
‘……’
When he came out in surprise, Kwon Isoo was sleeping uncomfortably curled up on the sofa. Looking at Kwon Isoo wearing a complete navy silk pajama set, he made a groaning sound, wandered around the living room for a bit, left just a simple note, and left the house. Because awards ceremony stage practice was scheduled in the morning.
…Actually, he needed a little time to think about what happened yesterday.
About the situation where he jerked off with a friend while drunk.
Even when he retraced why the situation flowed that way, he couldn’t figure out the cause at all. While having such a serious conversation saying he liked his songs… Kwon Isoo suddenly pulled his wrist and told him to say it again. While staying still and meeting gazes in that state…
They ended up even touching their members.
What’s with this sudden development? Could he have lost his memory in between because he was drunk? No matter how many times he thought about it, he couldn’t understand how this situation came about because he got enchanted by the slight—but fatal to him—alcohol and Kwon Isoo’s face.
He’d felt this from before, but it seemed he was quite weak to Kwon Isoo’s face…
Right, that aside for himself, Kwon Isoo.
What the hell was he thinking?
‘Don’t make a fuss. Between guys, getting off once together…’
Seeing as he said that, probably… it became a stimulating situation by chance and a physical reaction just occurred. Even if it’s someone he dislikes, in fact, an erection itself doesn’t matter who the partner is.
Last time too he said weird things like let’s jerk each other off or whatever… Above all, seeing as he has quite a few people he contacts, it seemed Kwon Isoo had this kind of experience more than once or twice.
Right, Kwon Isoo also said not to make a fuss… Like those hyungs he saw in middle school, he should just move on without giving it much meaning.
Because touching each other a bit between guys is no big deal.
And anyway, well… If it felt good, that’s enough.
Though it was a bit embarrassing when the memory came back after accidentally looking down while washing at the dorm. Do Yeonjae thought while grabbing his somehow burning neck.
Come to think of it, why did he bite here? Was he too excited?
Looking in the mirror, there was no mark left, but the damp feeling of being licked was still vivid.
Do Yeonjae frowned with an unpleasant feeling and scrubbed around that area hard with a shower ball.
‘Kgh, ah. Fuck… Do Yeon, jae.’
…And he washed his ears clean too.
Since this was Do Yeonjae’s first such experience, even though he’d decided not to give it meaning, he couldn’t help thoughts suddenly barging in.
Still, to think he was lying down during break time not even knowing it had ended in front of Ihyun hyung who was juggling drama filming and awards ceremony preparation… Do Yeonjae reflected.
I need to get it together.
At the awards ceremony in June, they would arrange the title song into a band live version to create an intense performance. So the number of dancers mobilized was also large.
The performance director plans the stage concept, designs the choreography composition and movement flow, and creates the stage together with the members. They also collaborate closely with members participating in choreography production.
“When we move to the extension from the main stage, we decided to add Minsung hyung’s verse with the arrangement. At that time, I think Yeonjae and I need to support Minsung hyung from behind with choreography.”
At Baek Sian’s words, Kang Ihyun nodded. Originally the group’s leader was Ihyun, but when it came to practice, the atmosphere became one where Baek Sian led.
“After I rescue Yoon from the main stage, it cuts right away, right?”
“Yep. So it’s awkward movement-wise for all five to move at once. While Minsung hyung is energetically rapping, the hyungs can come out through the opposite passage.”
RAYEON had a worldview where five boys meet to end the darkness in a sunless dystopia. However, in that world, there was also a ruling class that wanted the disaster to continue. This awards ceremony decided to deal with the confrontation with them.
Those targeting Hayun, who plays the key role in the worldview, and the members trying to save him… Among them, Ihyun was scheduled to take on an important role. Ihyun raised the corners of his mouth widely as if he quite liked that.
“So if I’m not there, Yoon can never get out?”
“Well… I guess so?”
“So I’m not going to rescue you?”
When Hayun sharply opened his eyes, Ihyun laughed loudly.
“As if. Would I leave you behind? Just trust this hyung.”
When he lightly showed off and rubbed shoulders, Hayun avoided his body with distaste. Yeonjae’s eyes narrowed as he quietly watched the two.
Yoon hyung, you don’t need to deliberately pretend to avoid like that…
Come to think of it, when are those two hyungs planning to reveal it? He’s no longer a kid whose heart pounds at the thought of people around him being gay.
