“I’ve been troublesome…”
“Not at all. Rather, I properly confirmed Muyoung-ssi. You need to gain some weight. You’re thin.”
The touch plainly grabbing his shoulders and waist line wasn’t awkward. Though he wasn’t that thin… Whether the thought he was having inside flowed from Muyoung’s mouth like an excuse, Dowon’s gaze stuck hotly. Seeing that Dowon’s words about having to diligently feed him directly sounded quite affectionate in comparison, he felt the realization that they’d really become a relationship that mixed bodies.
When Dowon, who had become excited again after fiddling with bare skin for a while, thrust his genitals between Muyoung’s legs, he hesitated for a moment but didn’t refuse. The man who had been pretending to think about it saying his body wouldn’t endure reached a compromise with rubbing the hardened pillar between his thighs.
However, whether Muyoung’s body was at its limit, when even that couldn’t squeeze tightly and collapsed, he finally propped up his lower abdomen with a pillow and penetrated between his buttocks with his glans. The hole that had been tormented all night didn’t refuse to moistly bite the genitals. By then, Muyoung was also swept up in the atmosphere. At Dowon’s body temperature felt from behind and the pressure filling below tightly, watery semen overflowed from his genitals.
They both ejaculated once each. Dowon carried the completely exhausted Muyoung and entered the bathtub to wash him. Then he discovered bruises left on Muyoung’s thighs and pelvis area. While soothing the continuously apologizing Dowon saying it was okay, Muyoung was a bit surprised. He couldn’t tell whether the gripping force had been very strong or his body had become that pathetic.
Dowon, who said he absolutely wouldn’t touch him at least in the bathroom, fortunately kept his word, and they both came out wearing robes and slowly enjoyed lunch. Throughout comfortably finishing preparations and returning home, the relationship between Dowon and Muyoung was peaceful and pleasant.
It felt like the one-night relationship had instantly narrowed the distance between the two. It was strange that he himself was accepting this situation as if it were nothing. It seemed like until a few days ago he’d only been scheming how to pass through ten times smoothly, but it was fascinating that he’d become accustomed to this relationship in just one day.
After all, Dowon was more capable and impressive than he’d thought. At the same time, he felt unfamiliar with himself who seemed to have acted spoiled to his heart’s content without thinking about later.
Ten meetings. Although on the surface it was a contract, he hadn’t expected it to develop in this way in one moment at all. But he didn’t want to needlessly regret what he’d already committed. They’d already made a contract and mixed bodies. A vague sense of responsibility arose to finish it as a relationship where he could give back as much as Dowon had shown. For Muyoung, it was a sensation toward another person felt after a long time.
If they spent time together without any indication, then after filling ten times they grew apart, and he left for a place Dowon couldn’t even find, if it were a distant country he wouldn’t chase or search, so there he could calmly wait for his end.
Muyoung felt that with everything he imagined, he was ultimately borrowing in advance like private loans, favors he couldn’t repay. It really felt like he was just starting the bad things of not knowing where he’d fall.
#05
Cut (1)
“I’m on standby right now.”
─ It’s midday but you’re in a cool place?
“Yes, I’m resting in the car and the air conditioning works well.”
Night shooting was scheduled, so he came out in the late afternoon and was on standby, but as the forecast said tropical nights were raging, it was getting more humid and hot day by day. Muyoung tucked his phone between his shoulder and cheek while folding the script he’d been reading. The heat was particularly severe today, so even with the air conditioning on, it didn’t cool easily, but it wasn’t to the point where he couldn’t endure. More than that, he’d decided to become a bit confident about Dowon’s everyday concerns.
Dowon often made short contact like this, taking time between work. He also sent texts more often than himself. Having someone who cared for him quite a bit was making Muyoung experience a new daily life. He didn’t dislike the contact initiated first by someone busier than himself, and thanks to the contact going back and forth frequently, Dowon had also become a bit more comfortable.
He’d met Dowon two more times since that day. The appointments were set by mutual agreement several days before meeting. Dowon mostly allowed plenty of time around weekends. Muyoung also didn’t want to make Kim Section Manager and Dowon face each other, and was being careful because he couldn’t guarantee whether his body could overcome it if the schedule was too tight.
Perhaps because they both met with relaxed schedules like that, every time they met it led to bed. Though there wasn’t sexual nuance in the conversations exchanged between them, the atmosphere usually flowed that way. Of course, if he’d disliked it or it was unpleasant, he would have refused, but Muyoung’s honest feeling was that he didn’t want to do so.
Dowon was skilled and maintained a kind attitude, and though he showed emotions to Muyoung, he didn’t make the meetings feel heavy. Perhaps that’s why he fell for temptations more easily. Because they were invitations that weren’t burdensome.
─ Someone who’s sensitive to heat is having a hard time.
“I’m not that weak…”
─ If you show proof I can believe that, I’ll try to believe it.
Once, there was a brief incident at a hotel they stopped by on the way back after spending a long time watching movies and having conversations at a drive-in theater. There was a problem with the room they got and the air conditioning didn’t work. Though they got a room change right away, even in that brief moment his body drooped and it took quite a while to come to his senses. It was natural for Dowon to worry about Muyoung making an excuse that wasn’t an excuse that he’d gotten slightly heat sick. The problem was that such things were happening quite frequently in Muyoung’s recent daily life.
“Hearing those words from CEO-nim makes me feel like I’ve become a subordinate employee.”
─ If you were really my employee, would it end with this?
“Yes, I was wrong.”
Though he was enduring while taking medication, there were days when his body suddenly didn’t listen to him. Muyoung knew the reason, but it was reasonable for Dowon, who knew nothing, to worry. Even at the hotel that day, it should have been normal to be fine with just being slightly hot, but Muyoung was also flustered by his body getting tired too quickly.
Now he was passing it off like a joke while having a brief quarrel with Dowon, but he had no intention of completely ignoring his physical condition. He planned to check again at the medical examination in a few days.
─ Don’t skip meals while lying.
“…I don’t. I eat well.”
─ Should I get confirmation…
“CEO-nim…”
A back-and-forth like scolding and coaxing a child continued. He has a small appetite, he seems thinner than before, he gets tired too early. Even though he protested that he was by no means someone who overworked his body and didn’t take care of it as Dowon said, when he started pointing things out one by one, he really looked like someone living carelessly as they pleased.
Such worries didn’t stop at worries but definitely returned as checking his complexion during meetings or caring questions during texts or calls. Receiving Dowon’s worries wasn’t as bothersome as at first, and lately his mood was pretty good too. To the extent that he thought, while living holding a very big bomb, couldn’t he close his eyes and receive at least this much small favor? He didn’t yet have the courage to ask to shoulder together even the reality he himself was ignoring, and didn’t have that much shamelessness either.
─ Good luck with filming, and I’ll contact you again soon.
“Yes, you work hard too, CEO-nim.”
He caught his breath for a moment while finishing the call. He hoped the bomb he himself was holding would endure a bit longer.
As soon as filming started, the surrounding noise decreased.
Even though it was outdoor filming, had everyone let their guard down because it wasn’t the city center? Noise kept getting mixed into the audio. It was because there were quite a few vacationers in this area.
Perhaps because it was the end of late summer, people coming into the quiet unknown place and peeking around the filming location area gradually increased. If this continued, the staff controlling the surroundings would definitely have a very hard time. Moreover, if filming kept being delayed like now, a sharp atmosphere with nerves on edge would spread throughout the entire filming site.
The two lead actors were in the midst of passionate acting in front of the camera. Muyoung had to enter the angle soon, so he was standing and waiting in an appropriate spot. He’d been with Section Manager Kim until just moments ago, but now Muyoung was alone. Section Manager Kim had left his spot saying it would be cooler to get away from among the staff as the filming site was packed with equipment and the time to enter filming was approaching.
“Cut! We’ll go right behind in a moment~!”
The filming of the scene that had taken quite a few takes ended. Several staff members left to escort the actors and supporting actors who had been waiting for the next turn. Seo Kyungju approached Muyoung between those checking equipment and flow.
“It’s really tough.”
“You worked hard.”
“What do you mean, you’ll be filming together next, Muyoung-ssi.”
Even after sending the coffee truck information by text as asked before, the two hadn’t had any particular point of contact. However, the difference was that when encountering Seo Kyungju at the filming site, unlike before, they at least exchanged greetings and had a few words of conversation.
Even so, Section Manager Kim kept his eyes peeled watching Seo Kyungju, but for Muyoung, he had no justification to refuse someone approaching first and no reason to be wary, so he was letting it be. To him so far, he was just an ordinary workplace colleague.
“Please take good care of the filming.”
So when he suddenly spoke like this, Muyoung would just appropriately continue with answers as a junior. There was no reason not to continue the conversation at all, and it was a greeting that would naturally happen when filming scenes where the lead and supporting actor appeared together.
“I should be asking you more. I was indebted to you last time too.”
“Not at all. I’m glad if it was helpful.”
“When did you debut, Muyoung-ssi?”
“Ah, I’ve been at it for about 7 years now.”
“Still, that’s quite a while…”
A reflector among the equipment passing by blocked his view. He closed his eyes briefly at the momentarily flashing beam of light then opened them, trying to erase the afterimage. It was something that happened occasionally.
Seo Kyungju was already an actor with over 20 years of experience. Though his age was mid-30s, he’d started as a child actor and had never stopped activities until now. He was a far senior to Muyoung both in years and experience, so it was just fascinating that they’d come to talk like this even while working on the same project.
